phiaspandorabox

[phiaspandorabox]

niggas

If you're reading the title, yes I'm a black woman. I named it this because my boyfriend (yes we're back together) pissed me off. I was on his phone earlier and he asked what i was doing on his phone and i didn't say anything, so he decided he wasn't gonna say anything and it's been an hour already, so finally we talk about it and he said he feels like it's insecure for me to be going through his phone, but the gag is i wasn't even going through his phone. I was sending myself sweet nothings from his phone because he doesn't do those sweet gestures for me. I told him nothing.

update: he just saw the messages and he barely wanted to apologize.. i'm not gonna lie he kinda hurt my feelings because he called me insecure because he thought i was going through his phone, and yea he tried to say it gently, but you know when words hurt coming from someone that you love it just hurts you all around. at times i feel as though i take things too serious, but also i dont think i do. i just dont know how to effectively explain it to him in a way that he will get the full scope of how im feeling. I love him like crazy and this man is my (future) husband. we really just need to be more effectively communicative.

peace & love,

ppb

[phiaspandorabox]

welcome to my shitshow

sooooo i can't remember the last time i uploaded on here but i promise to make this my digital journal, maybe once a week, but granted i do suck at journaling. at times i feel like i wanna write a love story of my (ex/current) [it's complex] boyfriend and i's dealings for our kids to read when we pass on in this life.. but that's morbid. lemme get into the meat and potatoes of this tea honey!

so my complex boyfriend and i have been/were together for 1yr. +1/2, and just last wednesday he said he wanted to get his life together and suggested a break. howeva *in my pelletier voice* i don't do breaks or gray areas, it's either you figure it out while we together or you figure it out while you're single. he ended up pulling the plug on our relationship last wednesday and that shit hurt, but we agreed to be friends after that. we went over the dos and don'ts of our newfound friendship. we hadn't kissed all day that day, and we were making our last requests that night and he requested a cuddle and i requested a kiss... but that kiss lasted at least 10 minutes, like something you would see out of a rom-com. ya know the cheesy i missed you kiss is literally what we had in that moment. and we then had a momen-- well a few moments of passion and pleasure. when i tell yall that was the best and i do mean THE BEST we've ever fucked each other (other than the cabin chronicles, different story for a different day) and we have been fucking the shit outta each other i mean that and then some. but i love that man and i love the new flirty side of our relationship. this breakup was beneficial but not.. beneficial because we have new found flirtacious ways, how we carry ourselves are different, and we are focused more. not because it wasn't necessary lol. but that was my lil story or whateva.. i swear ill get better at journal entries but for now this is what we're gonna get.

peace & love,

ppb

[phiaspandorabox]

welcome to the spam of my life :)

hey tumblr, i only created this page to live out my middle school dreams (circa 2011-2014???) i know it's not poppin anymore, but if anyone stumbles on these posts sit back and enjoy because more than likely ima be spillin my life tea. call it my life's spam that i couldn't care less for.

[phiaspandorabox]

mentally i'm here <3