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I'm up listening to music- trying to figure out what I want to do. I don't want to put too much stress on myself- I found somewhere renting at a reasonable price, within my budget at least and found out that they're hiring for house keeping!

Literally couldn't be happier. You need your GED or diploma to work there though, so that's something I can continue to work towards while I'm in the program.

I really want to get in there because it looks so beautiful. I just got a whole vibe from there that I'm literally inlove with.

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Jesse's my rock, my happiness, my strength and my best friend. He's my lover, my other half and my better half. I love him with all of my heart and never want to let him go. I can't stand going by minute by minute not being by his side, but one day I'll get to wake up next to him and everything will be okay.

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Eventually I want to get to the point where my thoughts and emotions just flow and I can trust them and put them on paper and on here and not have to worry about not having as filter.

I like the idea of being an open book and letting the world into my mind under my own circumstances.

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Micromanagement

Okay, so I need to get my head together.

I'm working on getting my GED and then becoming a peer supporter and helping other recovering addicts to the best of my ability. I'm going to try and get a job working either in Columbus or out here in Lancaster.

After I get my GED I need to work towards getting my license and getting insurance and then a car.

I'm not the best driver, I'm not the worst either though. I just get scared. I don't have too much experience but I'm going to get better over time.

I also want to get into cosmetology school after awhile of working in the recovery field.

I'm in a program currently myself, trying to stay sober and get my life together and get my life where I need it to be to start trying for a baby and work toward getting married.

I'm currently in an amazing relationship, despite the odds of us being so far from eachother and so busy with our own lives. He's my first love and I'm absolutely and irrevocably inlove with him.

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Listening to music that reminds me of the old days, who I use to be and what I use to love. Everything comes back again and again; I spent so long looking for this feeling why in the hell would I run from it?