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[piggy-beckkk]

Control yourself.

You are the only one in control, not your family, not your friends, only you. You’re the only one who is in charge.

When you overeat like a pig, you’re the one who is deciding to do that. You’re the one who is picking up the fork and gorging yourself like an animal, and then you complain about how fat you are.

It’s completely your fault that you’re fat and you’re the only one who can fix that.

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Love how empty I'm feeling rn.

I'll eventually be pretty, just can make it.

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I'm finally back!!!!

The past months I've just kept eating, eating......

Rn I'm still around 50 kg, i haven't gained weight but didn't lose any either.

I feel quite ashamed of myself, thinking how motivated I was just a few months ago....lately I've been looking at myself and I've noticed how my thighs are getting bigger, my belly coming back and especially how bloated my face is.

Today I wore glasses to school, I usually wear contacts, I casually looked and my reflection on my screen and I really scared myself. My face is already round so it gets nothing to look like a fucking chubby balloon if I start to gain weight.

The only positive thing now is that I have a boyfriend (yes, that's unbelievable even for me) and school hasn't been too much stressful.

My gw id 46kg and I hope to reach at least 48 by the end of December/mid January. That'll be really hard due to all the food that I'll have to eat during the holidays.

Tumblr will help me to have sick thoughts again, they're the only thing that keeps me motivated.

I really hope to start being consistent and concentrated about my weight loss.

I have to control myself, everything that I do or eat, that's the only way that I have to reach my goals.

I want a flat stomach and a thight gap. Should I write a letter to Santa?

By Beck,

hope you don't behave like a funking pig again.

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this.

My thigh gap seems to become more apparent with every single day that passes.

Stay consistent, eventually you'll get there~

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dio

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Basically

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i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

i’m gonna be skinny for my birthday

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why the main thing about weddings is food?????? why do I have to eat SO MUCH?!?!?

PLS Just let me be miserable without any food.

the only way would be throwing up everything, but I'm too scared for that. rip.

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This is vile and works.

(I bet this is what got my blog taken but I don’t care it WORKS)

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the truth is skinny people have it better

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If you go back to eating normal, you’ll have a normal body again

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˖⁺‧₊˚ sacrifice is giving up something good for something better, break free from the cycle ˚₊‧⁺˖

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hey google, how do I get a thigh gap right now? no glue, no borax

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I actually hate my body like. I know I’m not ‘fat’ so people telling me that isn’t helpful but. I’m not skinny either. I still have fat on my body and my thighs touch and my arms jiggle and I can see some of my bones at the right angle and lighting but they don’t stick out enough and my stomach doesn’t cave inward and I can see my collar bones but necklaces don’t float over them yet and my cheekbones and jaw bone is visible but my cheeks are still doughy and my chins still double and I can see my knuckles but I can’t see the bones on my hand unless I move my fingers and even though I’ve gone down a band size my cup size is still the same and yeah I can see my ribs on my chest under the mirror light if I hold my arms up but I need them visible all the time and I can wrap my hand right around my wrist but I can’t see my wrist bone yet.

I’ve made enough progress to be a healthy weight now but I’m so far from perfection it hurts.

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why are you giving up when the only thing you’ve ever wanted is to be skinny