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i made...!! a digital garden blog thing!! itll have more personal entries and just posts on topics im Thinking about!! cuz sometimes my posts on here are a mess,,

https://angelai.smol.pub/

i am sharing this here ok? not on twitter... not yet? im a little too shy... tbh i wish i could change that username but its whatevers.

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✮⋆˙ 03/15/25

innocent life: a futuristic harvest moon

a unique, "futuristic" harvest moon title where you play as a robot boy, tasked with saving his home island from the volcanic wrath of the fire spirit. not for all; but for me, a nostalgic revisit. (💭7/10)

some spoilers. sorry, i ramble here again @_@ ...

when i was younger, maybe around 10 or so years ago, i used to play this game a LOT on the ps2. i didn't have much friends at the time. at most i only regularly talked with my plushies (my friends!) and was content with that sort of "interaction". i was young and didn't know what was going on on the screen, but whenever i played this game, i kept feeling this weird sense of emptiness. something i couldn't quite describe at the time... since then, this game has always been at the back of my mind for many years now. following me up until two weeks ago, where i finally decided to get some closure and find out why it left such a hole in me...

this is harvest moon innocent life. or that's what i call it—the title is actually "innocent life: a futuristic harvest moon"... but that's too long!! if you're familiar with stardew valley, then maybe you've heard of it's inspiration, story of seasons... well, back in MY day it was called harvest moon!! something about the original developers deciding to localize their own games as "story of seasons", while the publisher (still owning the rights to the "harvest moon" title) went on to release more harvest moons that were a shell of their former self... or so they say.

it's a loooong story, so let me link a reddit post that might make things clearer—it certainly did for me!

anyway, i grew up with the original harvest moon games. played back to nature (got the bad ending for being so clueless too, yeesh), friends of mineral town. i played a bit of a wonderful life and save the homeland, but only because my neighbors would lend us the game for a short time. now that i think about it, i kinda miss the latter. i'll put a pin on that and get back to it, so i don't get so distracted... there was also harvest moon ds... and harvest moon ds cute, my personal childhood favorite entries in the series!

you could say i've played a lot of harvest moon :3 i've even played stardew!! i'd like to think i've barely scratched the surface of the harvest moon iceberg, though. there's a ton of other titles i wanna take a looj at sometime!! but they all follow a similar formula: you farm, make friends... maybe even get married, if you wanna! and you're usually placed in this rural, towny kinda setting.

from the title, though. innocent life takes a whole different approach to this formula. some may compare this to rune factory, but i haven't played it myself... but one thing is that the exploration takes a huge chunk of the gameplay. in the game, you try and save your home island from the fire spirit's wrath, who threatens to unleash a volcano if the land isn't saved!! why? see, there was this war between the volcano and the easter people... and their hate destroyed so much of nature and it's balance between the spirits, so the spirits made the land barren for a long time that it led to the death of its original inhabitants. while the island has found a way to thrive eventually, the volcano spirit threatens it yet again with extinction! by blowing it up! volcanoes! it's a bit dark.

the only way to save it is through love... a huge love for nature, that is, and that becomes our protagonist's goal as they restore life to the barren ruins that serve as their "farm". you don't get an upgradeable house like in the usual titles, by the way. you get a sweet buggy, though. i don't think any of the other harvest moon titles lets you drive around.

really, the differences between this and the other harvest moon games is a lot. the marketing of this title being futuristic really live up to the name—the menu ui looks sleek and techy. you have strange contraptions like tube elevators, basket rails, a literal farm robot to help you out. you can automate things, but i never really bothered to. if anyone wanted a new kind of harvest moon experience, i'd direct them to this game...

but.

a big majority of harvest moon's player base find appeal in the marriage aspect of the games: unfortunately, they will not find that here. for starters, your player character is a young robot boy. it's off the table!! strangely though, there's no friendship system here either! no birthdays, a bit barren in special events and interactions between villagers... and the fact that you start out as someone who ISN'T human, it gives off this odd sense of loneliness while you explore the world and save all these people you don't get much of a chance to know about. at the very beginning, some even comment that they don't even believe you could do anything to begin with. no one believes in nature, and they've come to embrace technology, so they underestimate you and raise their brows at you for trying. i can finally put words into this feeling i've felt between me and the other harvest moon titles... apart from the weekly visits to your maker (and father, technically), there isn't much reason to connect yourself to anyone in town. plus, they say the same things with little variation anyway. there truly isn't any reason to, and so the "social" aspect of this game really falls flat. sometimes houses have so many pretty and detailed rooms, but they're almost always empty. i spent 90% of the game alone.

i guess it compensates itself with its exploration. truly, the environments in this game are stunning!! i remember that the style of this game really stuck in my head, and i still remember how unique the ruins design and everything was 10 something years later!

that said, since we're on the topic of adventure: the game's pacing is a bit slow. you start your first week confined to the ruins until you make your first shipment. then the rest of the spring season is a bit of a drag until summer, where a lot more (very pretty and visually interesting) paths are opened up to you. naturally, this is great! wow!! the issue is that: without a guide, it's a bit difficult to know which direction you should be heading unless you use a guide. the guide i used for the game is actually really detailed and helpful—making walkthroughs for such a niche game deserves some recognition too... but at the same time, i guess i wish i didn't rely so much on it? this one was on me. the game gives you plenty of time to quell the fire spirit's anger, but there's just some things it DOESN'T tell you.

no one in the game mentions spirit water or how important the monsoon watering can is ffs, and you NEED it so you could plant anything in the winter or you're softlocked for the season. no one also tells you that when the hermit says "i'll wait for you at the mermaid tower oo hurry we must be quick" you won't even be able to access it until WINTER (and i finished this plotline around SUMMER)... so the usage of a guide leaves me at a bit of a conflict. a yes, a no, and a maybe all at the same time. it didn't take away from the enjoyment, but yeah. i guess i was just so scared of running out of time. it moves too fast in the game, so i'd make a point to finish major story beats within a day. spring was slow, summer was VERY busy and stressful, while autumn and winter were a slog until the last week or so... i guess those weeks of free time were meant for the player to explore themselves, but whatever.

funnily enough summer was so stressful because i had unknowingly planted lots of tomatoes. tomatoes grow in many bunches, so i had to harvest so many of them and pull them out of my bag one by one (it was later that i realized i could just dump everything in the shipping bin with the triangle button), and pray that i still have time to do the story exploration. my days would usually end super late. i never want to see a tomato in that game ever again.

around the middle of winter, the game starts to pick up again with new things... glad that it did because my days were just wake up -> water crops -> tend to animals -> prepare shipments -> zzz. a repetitive cycle, since there was no point in talking to anyone. compared to a title like ds cute, there are only a total of 3 festivals in this game, and there is not much to do in them than just "ship This crop and talk to everyone and go home". when the christmas party came along, i got so excited because that meant more exploration!! oh, dad is also dying. but more exploration after two whole seasons, finally!! and again, the environments for the forest, the mermaid tower, and the volcano area were lovely. the latter two being my favorite :) ..

it's in this later bit of winter on your first year that you wrap up the story. a bit time sensitive since you can ONLY finish the game in winter, but you actually have 2 years to complete it before you trigger the bad end of this game ;) ... not wanting to relive my back to nature days, i did my last few quests. offered the nature sprites the forest crest and watch them turn into the nature spirit (a big sentient tree!), offered the water spirit up the mermaid tower her crest, stole the fire crest from the volcano, then dumped it in the ice grail to calm the fire spirit down.

... the whole scene with the fire and water spirit at the end was a bit underwhelming, but i don't wanna be too mean and unreasonably ask for something flashy. it was 2006. let's be generous. at the very least, i appreciated the journey there! minus autumn and the first half of winter. pah.

but there's still something charming about this game. about how you, little robot boy only born yesterday, still strive to bring life back to a hopeless patch of land. all to save people who, again, you barely know. you don't know much about humanity, but you've been told by your father to embrace and love it with all your heart. you don't have to eat food, but you're allowed to learn how to cook and enjoy your own meals. later on, you go on to help make cakes for a christmas party... everyone loves it! and then you go onto saving the whole world again immediately after. your father says something around the summer, that he feels guilty for having to rely on you to save the island. you're only a boy, but you work so hard. and over time, you see more of your "human" stats rise up... there's even a stat for love that maxes out by the time you reach the last few days, and something i like when you're returning the stolen water crest was that the hermit who helps you says that "it was humans who stole the crest, it's only right that a human should be the one to return it." signifying that being human is love. and that love is human. being human is helping others, and learning to share sorrow and joy. sorrow is particularly highlighted in grief, something that the protagonist eventually experiences. ironically, after the world is saved.

stories where something isn't human but tries to be are so dear to my heart. machines who try to be human are right up my alley. and coupled with a warm sort of nostalgia, i'd still say that experiencing this game again was a lovely time. last week i was feeling especially down, and this helped calm me. that feeling i had as a kid while playing this game was definitely a sense of loneliness—story-wise, i didn't have much to lean on but my own when saving the island. i wasn't even able to complete it, leaving that feeling unresolved. now though, i'm glad to say that thinking of this game will leave me with fonder memories now :) i feel like i've given closure to that part of me who wondered so much about the mystery of this game for years.

it's a very nice feeling.

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✮⋆˙ february i FORGOT, 2025

cookie run kingdom (like 2.5/5 of the beast stories)

dear diary somewhere in the middle of February (i fucning forgot) my partner streamed lots of cookie run kingdom to me and i liked the beast stories a lot. and shadow milk. and candy apple is me. they havent finished showing me the burning spice chapter though and i hope they Do. its crazy how far cookie run has come. i remember being there at the og LINE play cookie run, then ovenbreak. you kinda have to respect them for still being able to release interesting designs and stories. cotton candy cookie please come to crk im begging.

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✮⋆˙ 02/26/2025

this is how you lose the time war (amal el-mothar; max gladstone)

two enemy time travelers from different factions fighting in a grand tech-vs-botany time war. letters back and forth. there's sabotage. oh, and they're gay! good for them. (💭7/10)

(SPOILERS AHEAD!)

this one goes out to bigolas dickolas on twitter dot com. we may be strangers yet your name lingers in my head every now and then. this one sure is a book! and it's a book that i liked enough to give a nice little score.

i once saw my friend attempt to read the book and put it down, because it was "too confusing" and very hard to read. and i think that's a genuinely fair criticism of the book. despite reading the purple-y prose-y grief is the thing with feathers before this, this is how you lose the time war turns it up by a good bit. at least with the funny crow book, you get breather moments from all the prose when the perspective jumps.

still, though. i wanted to continue reading the book regardless. for one, i like the back and forth banter between red and blue (our two spy protagonists)! it's fun! it kept me invested enough and looking forward to the next time blue (or red) would foil the other's plans. how the next letter would be there waiting at the scene of the crime (they do this very creatively). it can be a challenge to follow whatever is going sometimes - but i guess i felt like being challenged, reading wise...? try reading something.. above my skill level for a change?? not a native english speaker btw. gotta get that out there.

but man. i do understand why people put down the book. it took me a whole month to get through it just because my head needed a break from all of it... i did it though! i was invested enough to keep reading—however i was not attached... if that makes sense? nothing made me feel emotionally invested in the duo, but i still WANTED to see what happens to them. i liked the adventures and the missions they were dropped in! another criticism of the book (it has lots of haters as there are lovers) is that you're kind of just dropped in the middle of it... and like, i guess there's a point to be made about how the time war just is. that it has been an eternal, endless, unwinnable war between two sides making and unmaking history that every move they make feels both significant and futile. like if electricity hadn't been made in the time period it was discovered, someone else in the far future would have just eventually come up with it, you know? it makes sense that it isn't meant to be comprehended, as it's just a greater force beyond understanding... this is both okay and also not okay, because again... if it's all futile and pointless, then why bother feeling attached...?

(spoiler! the tiny text paragraphs are spoilers! i will establish that going forward! you have been warned!) the war does come to some sort of meaning by the end. a meaning created by our two agents—to fight for a future that they can call their own. a future where they can live happy, comfortable lives together. and i think that's beautiful, and that sense of purpose is something that i really really love.

speaking of love! i sure have something to say about the romance of this book! loved the letters! some really romantic lines ever in this one, beautifully written.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I'll write it in waves. In skies. In my heart. You'll never see, but you will know. I'll be all the poets, I'll kill them all and take each one's place in turn, and every time love's written in all the strands it will be to you.

like come on, that is GOOD. the use of letters as a way to move the plot forward is fitting too, for a book on time travel-y stuff. they even mention how letters are a form of time travel - and there is something really magical about that that i liked a lot.

... but. the moment their "relationship" became a "Relationship" felt flat to me. their dynamic, it's fine to me. feeling alien from your home and meeting someone who understands you and seeks to understand you in a way that no one has ever bothered to is lovely. they have chemistry for sure, but the way they fall in love in itself is... it felt too easy!! too fast!! and they were just cool with proclaiming it love from the moment stuff has conveniently unraveled before them!!

i'd appreciate way more inner conflict with their feelings, knowing they're from enemy teams. a little more guilt. a little more exploration within themselves and how they feel about being flawed from love. all the exploration we see them do is through these letters, and nothing from them coming into terms with their inner thoughts. we see more of that alone thinking in the end, which is nice. but iunno, it was just too easy.

and part of me squints my eyes for the possible idea that people LOVE this book because of the famous enemies to lovers trope. but it takes more than tropes to impress me man!! a bit more build up is all i ask!! it's like they were rushing to make these two lovers!! rushed. that's the proper word. i don't like it when people say that the relationship is forced - i didn't think it was.

in the end, it really isn't bad. there is just That moment (SMALL TEXT SPOILERS) where blue saves red in her childhood and suddenly red is head over heels for blue and that just threw me off a bit. too fast. too easy. but otherwise, it's still a good read. the ending kept me reading and reading, buuuut i don't think it's for everyone.

(spoiler) the concept of the seeker and time looping the way it does in the book is neat and i like how they executed it!! i had all sorts of theories brewing in my head but the payoff was still worth it even if my first guess caught it right hehe. someone said this is like a retelling of romeo and juliet and i thought so too, given that it was referenced in blue's chapter just before she ate The Berries. a nice piece of foreshadowing.

it is a fascinating book. and in fact it makes me itch for books with strange writing styles - i say this endearingly. like, writing styles that are just unique and prosey and stylish!! of course, that style also has to have substance... and this book had a decent amount to satisfy me, but not to a point where it captivated me. not much else to say! maybe i'll revisit this book now that i have all the pieces together :0 who knows! i might appreciate it more!

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my goodness hes lobotomized.

1998 Pikachu & Meowth water bottles, something i owned as a kid!

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✮⋆˙ 02/18/2025

eat ya veggies (bbno$)

i like these tracks: resume || yoga || i remember (💭6/10)

bibinos.

contemplated between a 5 or a 6, but this is not bad. a little generic and boring at times, but still pretty fun. to prove a point, i'm pretty sure i've heard yoga's generic instrumentals at some point, but it's still pretty neat. nothing too offensive at the ears. this is stuff to pop in the background when i don't wanna listen to anything too complicated.

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✮⋆˙ 02/18/2025

alien stage (vivinos, qmeng)

they squid game-ified my american idol! (💭9/10⟳ technically not even "complete" but i wanted to log it either way...)

today i relistened to the entirety of alien stage rounds. i am slowly developing brain rot, and i only have wiege to blame.

i saw really nice commentary on twitter that said even though none of the characters in alnst were taught love, they go through lengths to show it in their own way. therefore, love is something no one can take away from humanity. love is what makes us human. or something like that.

i thought it was nice :)

i haven't looked into the additional content outside of the rounds... ... ... i really would like to, at some point. maybe then i'd have more to say on it. a better analysis of Every Single Character perhaps. but i am, unfortunately, not smart enough...

replaying this gives me lots of enjoyment! when i started watching alien stage i was mostly indifferent (apart from Every Luka Moment Ever), but i've grown fonder of some songs after today. i thought my clematis was my leaaaast favorite (understatement because all songs are actually good) but just hearing it made me disgustingly emotional. and i really like ivan's power ballad-y voice. and other stuff too! sorry i am too sleepy and am fresh out of a work day to elaborate...

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✮⋆˙ 02/12/2025

the french operation (girls be)

i like these tracks: フレンチ大作戦のオープニング・テーマ || 絶対、ダメッ! || who are you? || セシルの約束 || 真夜中においでよ (💭7/10)

fun find from youtube recommendations. i really love how the opening track sounds like, but the rest of the tracks don't really sound like it... sad. not that i mind. this is still very enjoyable. very cute!

apparently this is huge on tiktok, but i don't use tiktok soooo... shrug emoji!!

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suddenly fascinated by the idea of zines

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So like an hour ago I just lear🪨︵︵ned that— what the fuck was that. Someone just skipped a rock across my post did you see that

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sits on my own blog like it’s the edge of a lake wistfully

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im talking absolutely DUMPED and then REPLACED

blue lock has yaoi….? Call me a soccer fan the way im. Going to watch blue lock! !

blue lock has these two yaoi guys who break up like 5 times in the show.

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blue lock has yaoi….? Call me a soccer fan the way im. Going to watch blue lock! !

blue lock has these two yaoi guys who break up like 5 times in the show.

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blue lock objectively is insane and probably bad. but the thing about blue lock is that once you watch it youre like holy shit this is peak. its a disease.

other powerpoints ive made

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✮⋆˙ 02/05/2025

blue lock (season 2)

dis soccer shit get serious. IM OUT. (💭9/10)

(spoilers? not sure if i WILL say spoilers but im already tagging, just in case i blab too much......)

i could ramble here all i want but NOTHING could ever match up with the excitement and giddy screaming i was doing the moment me and my partner finished this second season. i love them so very much and they have the honor of seeing my strange reactions LIVE (mostly consisting of very excited gurgling). everything i'm typing here, they already witnessed me talk about in geguinely i human speeds until i had to catch my breath. it's fun. i like dedicating small portions of these blog posts to them sometimes when we watch stuff. they make me so incredibly happy and i dont think i've gushed my heart out like that to anyone but them. ANYWAY!

but ohughhgh.. oh my godddd... i love blue lock SO much dude. where do i even begin. i love how each episode just ramps up in intensity!! from the first episode we've already been introduced to super high stakes and you'd THINK it couldn't get any crazier but no each match something crazy happens and you can't help but go AAAAAAHHHH while watching. it's so FUN!! and it gives me loooots n lots n lots of good chemical in the brainnnn.

spoiler paragraph. i told my partner that it SO makes sense for the entirety of blue lock to be broadcasted to big people because the stakes WERE set up like a reality show and everything had that sort of vibe..? jokingly called it squid game but it Does have a bunch of elites watching people take a huge risk to grab their dreams or give it up and walk away... if they soccer bad they die never play nationals ever.

soooo intense... i love that despite the huge cast of blue lock, the characters it focuses on don't feel like "they're just there to make isagi look good". i feel like a lot of big cast shows fall into this trap of neglecting those at the side, but nooo.. some of these side characters are genuinely so enjoyable and i cheer for them whenever they're on. i really REALLY like the chemistry between them too - especially since i initially felt like isagi would just be the type to lose himself to ego and forget everything else around him... if that makes sense?? my partner mentioned the difference between isagi and rin's ego and i realized then that RIN was what i was thinking isagi would end up like. i like that. i like that a lotttt...

oh funny thing i just remembered. when kaiser had his small cameo at the end of season 2, my partner told me to guess their name (they're also named kaiser). but i was stupid and sleepy and high off of the dopamine this anime gives me so i instinctively gasped "ITS BLUE LOCK" and we both laughed. to be fair it was cuz their hair was blue. be nice to me.

lovelyyy lovely lovely characters. spoilerrr oh but having bachira have his last awakening moment in season 1 and his awakening moment in season 2 in the u20 fight and NOT score a goal is so foul. LET HIM WAKE UP AND SHOOT THE BALL!!! GIVE HIM HIS MOMENT THAT IS MY BABY!!! oh well. at least he had fun... i felt the same with barou in the first half of the season cuz he was in the opening and we STILL haven't seen him play for shit until they brought him out and it was like GODDDDD I WAS SO EXCITED MAN I LOVE BAROU SO MUCH HES THE KING. and reo.. oh sweet chameleon man... i'm so happy that he's slowly coming into nagi's view again. their "breakup" during season one hurts me. OH AND KUNIGAMI AGHHHH KUNIGAMI GOD THE SEASON FELT SO SAD WITHOUT THE ORIGINAL TEAM Z 4 DUDE. BUT WHEN I SAW HIM I WAS SCREAMING AND GURGLING AND AGHHHH HE'S BACKKKKK. fuck!! the cast is amazing it's one of the reasons why i am soo invested. OH SHIDOUUUU SHIDOU SHIDOU SHIDOU!! ...what is wrong with him. what the absolute fuck is wrong with him. i love him so much but like in a way a scientist likes his Specimen and wishes to dissect them and prod them with sharp instruments. i am captivated by his cat eyes too and his "devil wing" visuals. freak.

i love everything about this series so far and as much as i WANT to pick up the manga i wanna build hype for whatever comes next. there's probably a lot of stuff i haven't mentioned here.. i LOVE the "final matchup" animation. i LOVEEEEE the music. i LOVE the visual effects they would do sometimes like i know people like to joke "wtf it's just soccer" but they don't understand. they just Don't understand. "losing is like dying" as someone from Blue Lock would say... but in all seriousness, the passion in these characters is absolutely contagious and that's part of why i find myself cheering and yelling and crying loudly (when things do not go as planned). i don't think there is ever a dull moment. it feels like..... well, it feels like you are actually watching your favorite sports team but it's WAY cooler in blue lock okay. trust me on this.

i am going to feel sad and empty for a good while now that i have to wait for what's next. i am trying to fill that void by looking at merch... perhaps i will buy a few pin badges... ohohoho... my itabag is arriving soon and blue lock is like a very loud fixation right now. i can't wait for it to come back i KNOW it's gonna be sooo crazy.. aghhhhh.. blue lockkkkkk....... a blog post doesn't do what i feel justice because i was genuinely SO happy and giddy last night. i'm so happy my partner wanted to share this with me..<3

✮⋆˙ 02/02/2025

blue lock (season 1)

it's like soccer but squid game. sorta. actually it's more than that now that i made it past 2 episodes. (💭9/10)

i'll collect my thoughts more once i finish the second season with my partner (🩷🩷🩷🩷) but i don't think i'd get THIS invested over sports anime because i used to think sports anime.... was dumb.......... this is because of my natural aversion to sports and physical movement, so nothing personal against those extremely yaoiful sports anime.

i bought a bachira chibigurumi a day after starting this show so you know i am very invested. i like him. strange weird little guys with a fear of loneliness and being seen as an outcast really resonate with me. and (spoilers?) seeing him come and embrace himself and not to let Fear and Perfectionism (this is what i like to interpret that Thing as) (actually i could be very wrong but i havent had the time to sit down with this and think about it hard yet) hold him back is such a lovely moment for me. no he's not the main character but he is my little baby boy.

my partner's favorite doesn't show until the very last episode of the season and funny thing was i was asking them when he'd show up and the reveal was like being punched in the gut LOL. but we started season 2 today too and not gonna lie their favorite is pretty cool. bit of a freak. but i like him because he is pink and has cat eyes. shidooouuuuu...

aaah watching each episode of this anime is sooo intense!! although it ALWAYS cuts the episode on a veeeery crucial moment which is both cruel and funny and every time it did i'd punch the wall. metaphorically. and then i would wail. literally. my partner thinks this is funny. i can't help it thoughghfgrhrhgh it's just VERY very very very veeeery intense and it really hooks you in episode after episode!! what the hell!!

anyway yeah :3 like i said we also started season 2 today!! and i'm super duper excited cuz the stakes keep going higher each time. i love the show's characters too!! i am obviously biased for my son BUT having a large cast means having a good handful of interesting ones!! there are some that make me Furious but i do enjoy them as characters regardless.. having a large cast also means not being able to put the spotlight on others, but i appreciate the ones we do get to learn about regardless :) !!

isagi is a suuuuper cool protag too. mr blue lock himself (why his character color is Green i dont fucking know). i thought he would have gone down a dark path where he would think of nothing but himself but his character somehow balances off striving to make himself better as an "egoist" among the rest and working with others toward a clear goal. and it does so without being too corny LOL but it's neat i think!! he is a good sport. i like him!!

very fun watch!! i think we got through this in like. 3 days of watching together hehehe. (i love my partner so much)

editing this post to say that the second op of the first season ROCKS like it is genuinely visually stunning and no joke it is one of the openings of all time. it's so pretty i was squeeing and kicking my legs and giggling and gushing and giddying about it sooo much when i first saw it ITS SOOOO COOL AGHHHHH I LOVEEEE ITTTT i am still thinking of it right now

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✮⋆˙ 02/05/2025

brat (charli xcx)

i like these tracks: girl, so confusing (💭5/10)

i'll usually log music "first listens" on here unless i feel the need to talk about it. i am already breaking this rule because this isn't a first listen BUT i haven't logged this on rateyourmusic yet, sooo.

anyway! this album isssss. not for me! when i first listened to it i'm not gonna lie i absolutely- no, maybe hate isn't the right word?? something repelled me, but i don't wanna say i HATED it. it's more appropriate to say that this style of music isn't for me, and i think it's because i realized this is literally loud party music. and i dislike loud parties!!

but i promise i reaaaaally wanted to like this album. i really do!! i was doing some exploration with recent pop releases by women and at least found some enjoyment with olivia rodrigo and chappell roan's stuff. but i really couldn't get into this one until like, what?? 3 plays later?? even then, i came to the conclusion that a lot of these tracks have SUPER catchy hooks but either the rest of the song or one part of it throws me off...

oh well, i guess it's just more of a personal thing with me. maybe one day(?) i'll understand the appeal... unless i'm like. one million years late to the party.

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i see salorade gavv posts on here but i must Resist reading them for now because i havent caught up.... soon....