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i think one of the must mind numbingly exhausting things about restrictive eating disorders has to be the waiting. Waiting till you get to weigh yourself, waiting for your fast to finish, waiting till you get to eat, waiting for your friends to leave so you can log your calories, waiting for your workout to be over, waiting for you to lose the weight. It's like you're stuck in this never ending state of waiting, the days, sometimes the hours or even minutes just drag on and it's awful but almost worse it's so boring and you can distract yourself, you can be busy every second of every day but it's impossible to distract yourself from the fact that it's all just a way to pass time to get some destination that's impossible to reach.

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when you know that one person isnt naturally skinny like everyone assumes but they restrict/starve themselves and you just cant prove it

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It surprises me that when people talk about BMIs (especially lower ones) they don't mention how much height effects it, because two people who are BMI 17 for example can look different if one is 5'1 and one is 5'8

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Tracking calories biweekly instead of by day is so much easier ( what I mean is you set a limit for the week not for the day) 3000 calories overall in a week instead of 450 cal per day. ( Example you can eat 1000 calories 3 days of the week and just fast inbetween them )

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Ram a gun in my throat please

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Ate half a chocolate cake.. Going to purge this so fucking hard

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Maybe I'm the only one but couplespo is so much more motivating than th1nsp0 on its own

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shedblr,,, stop.

we’ve lost many comrades in this mass su!c!de

Please dm me or someone close to you before doing anything dumb

we’ve gotta atleast outlive the president, please yall🙏

(Tagging this one so it gets attention, please rb if you see this)

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The next b!nge is gonna be on a bottle of p!lls i swear 😂✌️

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When I binge it's been less than 2000 cal the past 2 month when it used to be 3000-4000 before that. what happened to my endless stomach!

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55 kgs again gonna start binging till I'm 65 kg then the cycle repeats

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I am infact still obsessed with Tatiana from Supersized vs Superskinny s2 ep10. I yearn to be told I have the diet of a 4 year old

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Some of yall need to be normal about men with EDs actually. Yes, even cis men, yes, even gym bros.

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MY FATASS SELF STILL HAS DREAMS ABOUT EATING FOOD WHY ARE MY DREAMS TEMPTING ME, DOES MY BRAIN HATE ME KILL ME PLEASE , IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF

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I’m sick of people trying to make their bullshit restrictive diets/ed behaviors in general mainstream. keep that shit relegated to various forums and ed tumblr/twt where it belongs

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i need to change my aesthetic. i need a new wardrobe. i need to lose 40lbs. i need to be someone people crave to be around.

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I had a @na friend once she was super religious and her BMI was like 16-17, and when I asked her how she never binges she just told me that eating/binging is gluttony and that anyone who does it is an uncontrolled pig. I still envy her mindset though we stopped being friends long ago