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Hello Yugioh fandom (I've been here for 20 years) I got inspired to draw my version of a future AU with a yami gets a body AU :]

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💙🌊🏖☀️🩵

Summertime ☀️

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Mermay 🧜‍♀️ Day 28: Gemini ♊️

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Happy PuzzleJune 2025 everyone!

Excited to share my first contribution to this event:

Moonlight Sonata

Summary: Being a gifted composer, Yugi's muse had fallen silent under the pressure of a looming deadline. His boyfriend Atem, a renowned pianist, whisks Yugi away for a romantic picnic under the stars, hoping that love will... strike the right chord.

Link to Fanfiction: here

Event description: Puzzle June 2025

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Private session

The Silent Musician:

The shy and mysterious harp player boy named Yugi gains the pharaohs unwavering attention. He is always by himself, playing his harp, his beautiful song wasted for no one to hear. Yugi on the other hand, not used to attention plays his heart out to his dear pharaoh, his feelings and emotions for the first time in his life heard by someone who truly listens. For Yugi was born mute, speaking solely through his music.

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So close yet so far

The Silent Musician:

The shy and mysterious harp player boy named Yugi gains the pharaohs unwavering attention. He is always by himself, playing his harp, his beautiful song wasted for no one to hear. Yugi on the other hand, not used to attention plays his heart out to his dear pharaoh, his feelings and emotions for the first time in his life heard by someone who truly listens. For Yugi was born mute, speaking solely through his music.

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Watching from afar

The Silent Musician:

The shy and mysterious harp player boy named Yugi gains the pharaohs unwavering attention. He is always by himself, playing his harp, his beautiful song wasted for no one to hear. Yugi on the other hand, not used to attention plays his heart out to his dear pharaoh, his feelings and emotions for the first time in his life heard by someone who truly listens. For Yugi was born mute, speaking solely through his music.

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I swear one of these days I will actually be able to write out and finish one of my dozens of half written puzzlefics, one day!

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"the sky is falling"

Rant under the line break

So I'm changing the way I draw.

Like. Completely.

Different colours. Different process.

Honestly I'm just tired of being the way I am. Nothing felt good enough. I kept trying to study to get features of a hundred different artists. "I want this nose" "I want this lighting" "I want this composition" and at the end none of those artists were me.

I usually refrain from calling myself that. An 'artist'. Cause I'm not, I'm just a little guy in their bedroom scribbling Yugi's and usually breaking down into tears during.

I never saw what I'm doing as art. And it made me cringe writing tags like 'artists on (social media name here)'. But I thrive on attention. I live by it. I do anything to get attention. And I relied so heavily on validation from peers that if I drew something and it never got seen by anyone it would cause me to feel need to harm myself, or need to break down in a what is arguably a childish fit.

Changing my art won't fix that. And until I'm ready to admit this problem to people irl and get genuine therapy or treatment, I won't get better. I know this. But part of this anger and resentment and reliance on validation stems from me fucking HATING drawing. I fucking hated it. Not so much sketching. I love being able to stick all the ideas in my brain onto a page. But the LINING. and COLOURING. Made me dread waking up to see my tablet. Made me literally tear my own hair out.

Trying to copy the process of people who told me it's what I have to do.

Changing my art won't fix me. And I can't guarantee I'm even gonna evolve, or change my art more than.. Well. Whatever the fuck this thing is. But I had fun drawing this one.

Lately I've been.. Steering clear of engaging with the ygo community? Not because I don't love ygo. I still do, more than ever, but because if I didn't and I kept seeing the attention others get, I think I would genuinely die off in a month the way my mental stability is going.

I don't really have fun anymore with anything. Most of my day is me sat in a chair watching the same 3 videos on loop, not doing anything. Silently mourning whatever life I had before life kicked my ass. But I want to love drawing again. And if it means changing my ways eventhough I am terrified that people who like what I draw before will hate it or hate me, then so be it.

I don't want the thing to kill me being my 'art'. That would be a stupid tombstone.

So.. Sorry. I guess.

And I know no one here gives a shit about this stuff. But it's my blog dammit, and I think my Instagram people are tired of hearing me promise to change a million times and never doing so.

So I'm not promising this time lolol

I probably won't change much at all but hey. The ambition is there ig.

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T4T PUZZLESHIPPING CUZ IT’S PRIDE BECAUSE I SAID SO 🗣️🗣️🗣️

Yugi is transfem and erm look at Atem’s scars hehe 👀

HAPPY PRIDE DUELISTS 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

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Atem is so soft for Yuugi

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Yu-Gi-Oh! The Dark Side of Dimensions Characters Concept Art by Animator Takahiro Kagami

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Today is his birthday ;)

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Happy Birthday Yugi!

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don't need a birthday wish, millennium puzzle already granted it

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hb to KoG ⋆˙⟡

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tiny birthday wish ☆