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This is exactly what I'm feeling right now

Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits

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july playlist <3

july playlist <3 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/58Z4oWOKuwP5dEXf6SibZt

upbeat pop songs you can't go wrong with

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It’s rumored that emergency rooms and psychiatric wards are more active at the full moon. It’s rumored that crime spikes. It’s rumored that people get a little crazed and don’t know what to do with their bodies. You’ve heard these rumors. From bartenders and nurses and nursery school teachers. Maybe you’ve felt it your very self. I saw a neighbor on the street and asked how she was doing. “It’s the full moon, you know,” she said, “so I feel completely demented.” It made news that a town in England put more cops on patrol on full moons. Sylvia Plath knew: the moon “drags the sea after it like a dark crime.”

The “Moon in Full” series continues at the Paris Review with the Thunder Moon in July.

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mutuals gather for a group hug

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subtle intimacy is so soft!! knowing someone’s routine and slowly becoming a part of it. memorising favourite teas and soups and drink orders. good morning and good night texts and messy paragraphs of love written half asleep. nicknames only you know. just small things that say “look how dear you are to me.”

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see, if you are like some of those people (no hate to them) who want YOU to tell THEM they are pretty asf after they slander themselves by calling themselves ugly?? like BESTIE no hate, but you just tired me off. my mood is gone. I dont have the energy to hype you up now that you have ruined it urself.

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I'll compliment the fuck out of you if u tell me you are feeling GORGEOUS BEAUTIFUL PRETTY- I'll be your best hype girl and that comes from the deepest layer of my heart muscles because i feel extremely proud of you for saying that out loudd!!. Many people dont have the guts to compliment themselves and thats just sad.

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someone i knew died.

my grandma frm the dad's side of family. the one with wrinkled skin and fragile bones, the one who desperately wanted to see me as someone poeple respected.(well that was before her brain started forgetting the poeple around her) the last time i visited her she didn't even remembered my father properly, but she instantly remembered me. i was so surprised back then. i never had much of an interaction with my dad's family, it was always like that from when i was a kid. i was never around her much, hugging her like a far away relative when i visits her once or twice in an year. the last time i saw her was in 2020. its almost 2 years since i moved from my home to another country. i know her body pains were getting severe, brain can't process things and her eyesight going terribly bad..

im trying so hard not to blame myself for not visiting her often or calling her often, im just trying to remember her more. how she hugged me and gived me that one last kiss and i how she waved us all good bye. everybody somehow knew that her time was getting shorter and shorter and that she will die soon. death scares me. it took a great toll on me when my mom's dad died. i was crying, screaming, not eating for days, was depressed and did poorly in school for the rest of that year.. i was so unimaginably sad. And i think i feel very guilty that im not feeling like that for her. A part of me always knew that the last time i visted her was infact the last time I'll ever see her alive. i wish atleast the afterlife treated her good. i hope she went to a place where you can no longer feel pain. i know she liked me. i liked her too. july 1 of 2021. may you rest in peace dear valyamachi.

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Christmas Glooms~~/

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we were in love, but we did it wrong and here we are, in love but in despair, with hope and also fear, a whole wide world here, but we belong nowhere and belongs to each other all at once.

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Ok so the coolest weird thing happened..

Im not a tea person, I dont drink tea*( -:ignorant foolish child) and hav only made tea for like wat,

1 time in my entire existence. (Shiiii) and oml. I made tea at the randomest hour (like bitch its 4 AM SUNDAY MORNING),I was calling my bestfrn to talk shits (we love that) and I randomly wanted to **taste tea** ??!! i dunno why, then he said the ways I could make a foarte nice tea and I made it the way he said and voila!! I'm drinking tea and boi--i liked it no wait- I LOVE TEA. and note that I did all this while having a bad period. (WHICH FOR ME IS a Great thing okii, shut up ) Ok so now I knw one thing for sure,

I LOVE TEA JUST AS MUCH AS HOW I LOVE MY COFFEE AND THIS whole thingy is having a bi energy AND IM also BI AF. wow THE bitch is exploring things abt herself and she is loving it. Sometimes I'm just making myself go like **bitchhh waaaaat** yeah so this happnd.

(THNKYOU I'll go now. To All the people reading this, wow u guys really do read shits that I write ?? I'm so proud of u wow and I love you.)

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A letter for me, by the inner me

I know you are becoming tired of the monotonous lifeless life that you are living right now, every emotional attacks you face from time to time, every lashes of anxieties of the various troubles you got to face is painful and also depressing. Ik you may think that life will alwys be like this but malu, both and you and me have that undying hope inside us that one day, things will be fine and we will be happy and that is true. As time passes by, please don't forget that you've got plenty of hope inside of you and as time passes by please don't forget about it. You've Still Got Hope my girl, u just got to remember when you get another lash of a painful panic attack, be calm and feel it rise and fall down by itself, remember it wont be the same always although then your mind will tells you otherwise, tell yourself you will fight this, for me and for you, for us..its painful to write it out for you dear, but pain isn't alwys constant. Please be patient with us, we will be fine. We will be. My girl, you are loved by me, No one knws you like me, no one can love you like me, so do not ever think that no one will love you anymore..

It is you

It is me

It is us

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A letter for me, by the inner me

I know you are becoming tired of the monotonous lifeless life that you are living right now, every emotional attacks you face from time to time, every lashes of anxieties of the various troubles you got to face is painful and also depressing. Ik you may think that life will alwys be like this but malu, both and you and me have that undying hope inside us that one day, things will be fine and we will be happy and that is true. As time passes by, please don't forget that you've got plenty of hope inside of you and as time passes by please don't forget about it. You've Still Got Hope my girl, u just got to remember when you get another lash of a painful panic attack, be calm and feel it rise and fall down by itself, remember it wont be the same always although then your mind will tells you otherwise, tell yourself you will fight this, for me and for you, for us..its painful to write it out for you dear, but pain isn't alwys constant. Please be patient with us, we will be fine. We will be. My girl, you are loved by me, No one knws you like me, no one can love you like me, so do not ever think that no one will love you anymore..

It is you

It is me

It is us

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she wont dare to date the guy who shuts the words of her youthful insanity for when the silence of the last ray of moon shall shine down on her, making the her heart face and messy hair to glow like the shinest silvery water, with the softest shiver shooking her, she knew, the moon was what she loved.. her lover, the purest love, those among the godesses.