post-breakup

[post-breakup]

This is how I hope I make you feel, and I hope you are lonely. (J.C)

"Can't believe I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life. Even after all I put you through, you still stuck around and stayed by my side. What really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you're a good girl and I had no right. I really wanna make things right cause without you in my life girl I'm so lonely..."

[post-breakup]

"Standing in the front yard telling me how I'm such a fool. Telling me how ill never find a man like you. Boy you got me twisted. You must not heard bout me (you must not heard bout me) I'm a have another you in a minute, matter of fact he'll be here in a minute. You must not heard bout me (you must not heard bout me) I can have another you by tommorow. So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable"

(J.C)

[post-breakup]

"Were good, so good, but not together. Made you smile for a while, but not enough to last forever. Nothings wrong, but it ain't right. We'll never know the reason why Were good,so good, but not together" (P.D.)

[post-breakup]

I don't know if I'm maturing or if ive just finally found 'the one' but I'm finally getting rid of all the love notes and memorabilia from my exes (from 2012-2022).

I will never forget what each of them taught me in my time with them. But it's time to let go and move on. My past self will thank me. ♥️

[post-breakup]

From the stash

A love letter M.L. gave me on valentines day 2012 and a birthday card.

I doubt you'll be able to read the first one but 🤷‍♀️

(We had an inside joke that I had a 45c monthly subscription, and I never took the coins off till this day)

[post-breakup]

-M.L.

[post-breakup]

-M.L.

[post-breakup]

"10 your selfish

9 your jaded

8 the dumbest guy I dated

7 talk a big game till your naked

Only 6 seconds and I had to fake it

5 your toxic

4 can't trust you

3 you still got mommy issues

2 years of the bullshit that you put me through

1 I hate the fact that you made me love you"

(J.C.)

[post-breakup]

"Even if the stars and moon collide, I never want you back into my life. You can take your words and all your lies; I really don't care"

(J.C.)

[post-breakup]

"He was so cool and cruel at the same time. He could do no wrong in my eyes.

Cause I was the groupie and he was the star.I knew all his stories, I knew them by heart. And I was the fangirl at the front of the show, pointing the spotlight that he didn't know." (M.L.)

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“ And this'll be the first time that in a week That I'll talk to you and I can't speak It's been three whole days since I've had sleep 'Cause I dream of his lips on your cheek And I got the point that I should leave you alone But we both know that I'm not that strong ” 

-J.C. & P.D.

[post-breakup]

Reading about attachment for children and just further realizing how much I still have insecure-ambivalent attachment as I developed low confidence in my mothers ability to be sensitive, nurturing and consistent. This is the same reason I have trust/ abandonment issues as I was never shown consistent love and attachment as a child. That is why I need a lover who is consistent...someone who I can rely on and trust, so I am better able to form a secure attachment style.

But being consistent for you (J.C.) was too much to ask. I felt I could never rely on you to show up let alone be there for me when I needed it.

[post-breakup]

reposting because it is so true. 

I was hoping that one day you’d step up to the plate... one day you’d put some effort where it’s worth it..in your life and in your career. But it wasn’t until you stopped putting an effort into me, into US, that I realized how hopeless this all was. After swearing I would never let me efforts be taken for granted again, here I was, hopeless and naive thinking things were going to change. I knew they weren’t...and it is not my duty to force change and growth upon you. 

You lost me because you showed me that spending time with me was no longer a desire, but an obligation when you did not put in the effort to see me. You couldn’t even make the commitment to at least communicate with me and it felt as if all my efforts to help and support you were for nothing. It made me feel that my presence in your life was not important and was not going to impact growth within you. I have spent far too long seeing the best in people and in turn giving them all of my unconditional love, support and devotion to them in hopes that they can grow with me. But after two three year relationships, I need to learn my lesson. One solid but frustrating year with you was no longer worth the time, hassle and heartbreak. -J.C. 

This hit me hard.(Source: unknown)

[post-breakup]

“I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet Lead her up the stairwell This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town I was a dreamer before you went and let me down Now it's too late for you and your white horse To come around”

-M.L./ J.C.

[post-breakup]

This whole album reminds me of my first heartbreak -M.L.

"Tried so hard to be everything that you liked Just for you to say you're not the compliment type"

"Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me I knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leave

You found someone more exciting The next second, you were gone And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you"

"Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing? But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself"