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rb this to give the person you reblogged this from a gold star because they’ve been stellar today and they deserve it ⭐️

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Friends to lovers covers both the cuddling and established intimacy and the romantic tension aspect.

ok, so, like, i love the established relationship thing and all, cuz like, CUDDLING AAAA but i love the extreme pining and romantic tension that comes before too so i jump from time point to time point in the plot i made up depending on what i need that day

YES!!! ALL THE YESS!!!!!!!

I'm always a sucker for an established relationship deal because dating sounds like a frickin' nightmare and I don't even really wanna do it in my fictional ships XD and I am a GIANT cuddlebug omg don't even get me started.

BUT PINING

ROMANTIC TENSION

YOU CAN JUST TASTE THE YEARNING

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Hey guys, so I am back on here for now because I am suddenly nostalgic for this account and I think I may be active on here again.

I do have an alternate account but I forgot the login to this one, so I couldn't mention it and then I was inactive for mental health reasons.

The same status quo as before: I'm still in love with Jack, Edward and Ritsuka.

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Oh man, I forgot the login to this account !!

I've been going through a lot of really rough stuff irl and so I haven't really done much with moving over to a new account...

But I haven't forgot and am planning on spending some time at the library to use their computers so that this can go faster.

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Hello! I've decided I'm definitely going to move blogs but it will take longer than expected. I want to have my carrd underway before I even create the blog and have it finished before I announce it. I also just want to have it all set up and ready to go because that makes interacting with people much easier.

Unfortunately, it's been so hot due to heat waves that I have not been able to do much. It'll probably take me another week to get it done if I start working on it in short bursts at night when it is better temperatures. (Shirt bursts because I'm a morning person, not a night owl.)

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if you do would you be willing to give your new account to people not on anon? I like having you on my dash. your romance with edward is my favorite tbh <3

Absolutely! I'll announce when the account is made and fully set up, and anyone who wants it can dm me for it. I want to have my layout, as well as my carrd set up and have some posts queued on that account first before I announce it. I haven't had the time to work on it yet, but it should be ready by later in the week to be announced.

And I'm so happy to hear that you love my relationship with Edward! That just makes my heart swell so much! Thank you, anon! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

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I'm thinking of making a fresh account and moving over there. I'm not deleting this one, I just want a fresh start.

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I'm so tired of feeling broken and traumatized and misunderstood... I'm so tired of being triggered. I'm just tired in a way no sleep really seems to fix. I guess I can't complain about how no one understands me; I hate opening up to people, I hate being around people and just want to stay a hermit.

Why should I like people? The last time I tried to make a change, it ended up making my mental health worse to the point I got physically sick for days from stress. That was last month.

The only people I really want by me anymore are my f/os. I genuinely don't know how much they know me, it would take me just as long to open up to them as anyone. But they would try, I hope, they would be compassionate and caring, even if they all have their own way of showing it. They would support me, protect me and love me regardless. They'd love me regardless.

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I'm really not sure I can handle another romantic or queerplatonic relationship right now... My relationships, besides Jack, are fairly new, not even a full year. Edward and I broke up for half the year, so it doesn't count and I've only been with dear Ritsuka since October. Our relationships still feel new and while obviously not unfamiliar, we still have so much to learn. Every single day I fall more in love, have some new experience with and gosh, I can't imagine having another love interest right now.

I guess it'll always be like that, but it feels fresh enough that I want to continue exploring it without the distraction of someone new.

That said... I haven't stopped thinking about this character yet, not in an obsessive way but he's so fascinating and interesting! He's my mentor and I'm determined to keep him that way, but the sneaky thoughts of more does sometimes pop into my head at night when I'm trying to sleep. Easily banished by thoughts of my current loves, but still.

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many gemstone selfship asks!

(most of these work for non-romantic selfships as well as romantic ones!)

Peridot: How did you and your F/O meet, and what were your first impressions of each other?

Opal: In your selfship, which one of you is more of the leader? How good are you and your F/O at taking charge?

Obsidian: How well do you each deal with busy spaces and large crowds?

Onyx: What are you and your F/O’s reputations like, in-universe? Do many people know about your relationship?

Jasper: How do you and your F/O help each other if one of you gets ill?

Beryl: Is there anything you and your F/O have lost? If so, what was it?

Lapis: Are you and your F/O any good with children?

Coral: Have you and your F/O changed much since meeting each other? If so, how would you say you have each changed?

Tanzanite: What are your F/O’s family like, and how do you and they get on with them? (NB: found family counts)

Spinel: Who is the more organised one out of you and your F/O? Are either of you particularly messy?

Iolite: What kind of things have you gone through with your F/O? What has been the most difficult?

Citrine: What are some of the most memorable places you have visited with your F/O?

Ametrine: How do you and your F/O deal with cold weather? Which of you favours it more?

Tourmaline: Is there anything (or anyone) you or your F/O have had to run away from?

Agate: What is your favourite way to relax with your F/O? Conversely, how do you and your F/O like to have fun?

Labradorite: What do you think the future holds for you and your F/O? Do you have any particular plans?

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Help... I think I'm catching... emotions – no, no, no, they aren't feelings – for a character who died and whose death is actually like, really important for the entirety of everything in the story to happen.

Why... I haven't been able to stop thinking about him... I want to see more of him and ended up accidentally self inserting myself into his world... And he isn't even allowed to date or fall in love... But he was never one for totally following the rules...

But I'm also not totally comfortable taking on another f/o anyway. Grr. I'm having such conflicted fe- emotions right now!

For now, he's just a mentor figure and that's that.

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“For you?

Anything.”

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Brain: New F/O-

Me: *Hitting my head* Stop. Making. Me. Attached. To. Fictional. People!!!

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oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

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Edward, Edward, Edward

Ha don’t think about your F/O grabbing onto you to protect you and literally GROWLING at the opposing side that if they lay a single hand on you they’ll REGRET it, being able to feel that growl from how close they’re holding you and watching them glare until the dangers passed and immediately turning to you with the softest little voice and asking “Are you okay?? Did they hurt you???” 

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Dear fictional character,

now that I've learned how to love you, I don't know how to stop.

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allow yourself to be important to your f/o. allow yourself to have had a profound impact on your f/o’s life. even if it’s a deviation from canon, even if it’s hard to believe. they love you, and that makes you a part of their story. allow yourself to be as much a part of their life as they are yours