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YOU SHOULD HEAR THE SMURF ONE AHAHAH

I got trapped by the evil man I can't remember the name of

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And then, I was cooked alive. That's when the dreamed ended. 🤷‍♀️ short, very undermining.

I excepted more from that dream, it was one of my tame ones.

AND I ALSO HAD ONE ABOUT BEING IN TROLLS..

But instead the trolls were eating the orge guys and I was the princess of trolls but the dream left on a cliffhanger and MAN I WAS ANGRY I was wishing that dream had a part two SINCE IT WAS JUICY.

Anyways im yapping.....

AND ALSO CORONA ? WHAT IS THIS COVID 19!?

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Save me, mints. Save me...

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Just like the swans, I can't live without my love.

I always wanted to die with them and our graves to be next to each other's.

I don't want just thirty or forty years with you,

I want forever with you.

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I HAD A DREAM ABOUT MINTS BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!!

It was so weird I can't remember half of it.

Something about me working in a mint factory with all my mutuals (or the ones my subconscious wanted) and then we all turned into mints and got eaten?

And then roblox obbied our way out of the digestive system. 😭💀

IT WAS SO WEIRD...

Save me, mints. Save me...

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So YOUU are the REASON everyone is getting deactivated !??!?!

..... devious tomfoolery... im keeping my eye on you...

(/silly I am joking for real on my mom do not come for me in the comments chat do NOT clip this!!!)

Obsession isn't always cute.

Obsession is blocking everyone that isn't them.

Obsession is blowing up at everyone over little things because you miss them.

Obsession is insulting and threatening people who interact with them, even if it's platonic / friendly.

Obsession is spam reporting blogs they follow and interact with constantly.

Obsession is losing sleep just to talk to them.

Obsession is losing yourself because you love them. But, it's worth it because you would rather be this way than be without them.

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This is TOO REALLL!!

I have too many playlists...

My therapist told me to make one for my emotions when I was feeling them, so I could identify how it felt easier through words... AND NOW I AM HERE! doing exactly what my therapist told me to do... but in a way that would be seen as unhealthy to her.

slides in with absolute nonchalance /silly !!!!!

what helps increase your motivation to write ?!?!?!?

- ✉️ (a platonic anon, muahahahah…)

Hallo.

I like this question! I think something that helps me is music. If I'm listening to a song I like or one that gives off a yandere vibe, it helps my brain get moving and write.

Sometimes I go on Pinterest and look there for quotes, poem ideas and stuff like that.

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I JUST CHECKED!! Thank you for the @ besite! 💗

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

tag game 🤭

rules: color the sentence that's true about you

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

this is a whole lot of yellow lmfao

no pressure tags: @marthawrites @schniiipsel @aemonddtargaryen @aemondsbabe @adragonprinceswhore @arcielee @black-dread @lovelykhaleesiii @aemondsbabygirl @valeskafics @connorsui

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it also means a lot to me that it meant a lot to you !! the way i had described your blog, i mean. i took it at face value but tried to think about how it was meant to come across as well. i think small, unexpected compliments are more meaningful than the ones you work for. also another thing i thought, about the gradient text you use. it sorta feels like when you start off a sentence strong and then you give up half way, you and your voice fades off. at the same time though, it makes me pay more attention to read the words properly as it gets darker. AND, thank you for the tag of the anon!! it makes it easier to track if im too busy to check regularly.

i agree with the power dynamic thing that you mentioned, there has to be an even balance and a bit of control in each person for it to feel like you’re perfectly brought together. it allows so much more space for expressing yourself, in safety and control with how one side rises and the other falls back. in my opinion, when you experience so much instability in life, it becomes a challenge to strive in genuine, “normal” stability. a little bit of questioning, a little bit of uncertainty, it’s almost like a handhold.

another agreement!!! the more corrupted you are unintentionally, the more that it’s shown, the way it slowly increases to a peak and still leaves room for more. acceptance and relation is the sweetest affection. i think that when someone is quieter, it makes it feel more special to sift through them and draw conclusions in the silence that’s given. it’s such an intimate form of communication, to know and be known without the expectation of it being worded. just because, well, they feel you as deeply as you feel them.

pssssstpssst not as important but im also like CONSTANTLYYY in a state of boredom it’s almost laughable… which would be good if it actually made me laugh instead of leaving me to suffer and waiting for something to fall into my lap. like what do you mean i cant just pick up a hobby within a day and cure my boredom.

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I feel like compliments should never be worked for, so I agree. I may be misreading that, but I am assuming you mean compliments that you quite literally work to get. And about the gradient text thing, I like to think of it for more as a aestheticism for the blog, since I like to make things look pretty. But I do see where you are coming from!

And yes, I am glad you agree! Just having a safe space with your partner in general is a good thing! And I do dislike imbalanced power dynamics, since I feel like even if the party is agreeing, it can cause problems. (I don't mean this in the sexual terms / way).

And not having any stability will make you rely on the instability to stay stable, so you can feel comfortable with how it usually is. At least, it's common with toxic / abusive relationships. The victim will most likely always choose the unstable person instead of a stable person. And this doesn't have to be with relationships, it could be with anything. That's why we tend to stick to the things we enjoy already, instead of wanting to try new things. Our brains like patterns and what we know will keep us with a sense of familiarity.

So maybe that is why you can't pick up a new hobby. Or you have ADHD like me, and if you aren't instantly good at it, you give up. What do you mean I have to PRACTICE!? (Took your joke shamelessly. Not gonna apologize /silly).

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I was saved from death. cheers!!!!! I feel like I need to interact with your blog more often. ( ´ཀ` )

What did we do. 💔 I don't want to feel your wrath.

Explodes everynyan on yanblr, expect you and @nxtar , @shcyn , and @purelambb oh and and @nattyspoetry ..

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im wide awake like Taylor swift said.

Yay. Time to grind on this app. I cooked up some delicious meals.

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fuck that bitch.

I mean that in the LEAST respectful way possible 🤷‍♀️

You can't go telling someone that they are "edgy" for feeling things when the real edginess is the edge of my sword being pointed at your throat /silly

but in all seriousness, that person is stupid.

Bring back basic empathy.

"So edgy" God forbid someone vents in their safe space.

These will be the same people who speak about mental health and then go directly to a mentally ill persons safe space and harass them. No, I am not edgy for having a breakdown and talking about it on a side-blog.

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IM BORED I NEED ENTERTAINMENT!!!!!!

I feel like I have nothing to do after finishing everything i had to do.. ( ´ཀ` )

Some1 murder me pls I think that would be more entertaining than just sitting in my room trying to find something to do. I REFUSE to doom scroll (unless it is on Pinterest).

I am feeling like I want to rip my brains out through my nose type of bored.

That was graphic.

Intrusive thoughts do that to you. But I seriously AM SO BORED!!

And I am on an online platform complaining about it as if anyone does care about my silly boredom problems.

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Slight rant? Mentions of politics in some way, but not directed towards anyone here! Just how I feel about this in general. Had it in my notes for a while so I decided to just put it on here. I am not going to put tags on it except for my signature ones heh.. it's just a hot take

I’m so goddamn tired of how society treats nudity like it’s inherently sexual. Do you realize how stunted that is? How absolutely backward it is to look at a bare human body and immediately reduce it to sex, to shame, to something forbidden or obscene? Nudity is not consent. Nudity is not porn. Nudity is just the human form—and if you can’t handle that without your mind immediately spiraling into filth, then maybe the problem isn’t nudity. Maybe it’s you.

It’s frustrating. It’s exhausting. Every inch of skin is policed. A topless woman sunbathing is “asking for attention.” A person existing in their own skin becomes a target for objectification and disgust. Bodies are censored, hidden, distorted by years of moral panic and patriarchal control—and we’ve been conditioned to believe that modesty is virtue and exposure is sin. It’s poison. It teaches people—especially women and marginalized bodies—that they exist for consumption the moment they’re visible.

Nudity is art. It’s freedom. It’s vulnerability. It’s softness and rawness and power. It’s the body before shame got stitched into the seams of our clothes. There is nothing dirty about the human form. There is nothing inherently perverse about a naked body. But we’ve made it that way—through decades of repression and media that equates “naked” with “available.”

I’m sick of it. I’m sick of people acting like bare skin is an invitation, or a threat, or something scandalous. I’m sick of people equating liberation with indecency, like being comfortable in your own body is some kind of transgression. Nudity is not the problem. Sexualization is. Projection is. The inability to look at a body and see a person instead of a fantasy.

So stop blaming nudity. Stop blaming people for not hiding. Blame the gaze that turns skin into sin.

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i was the lamb once. soft and still. trusting hands that led me to the altar with gentle smiles and blood beneath their nails. i mistook the gleam in their eyes for kindness, not hunger. i thought love was something you could be devoured by and still survive.

but lambs don’t get second chances. only ghosts.

and so i learned. i let the wool rot off my back.

i grew teeth where there was once silence. i carved out my own ribs and fashioned them into blades.

now i am the wolf. not born—made.

i don’t wait to be loved. i take it.

and if they run? i’ll chase. if they scream? i’ll hush them.

i’ll bury my devotion in their lungs until they forget how to breathe without me.

because lambs die for love.

but wolves?

wolves kill for it.

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AGH I NEED TO GET TO THE ASK BUT I FEEL LIKE MY SOCIAL BATTERY IS ONE OF A SEA SLUG.

sighs and walks into volcano.

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your blog is wonderfully soft, it reminds me of when your a bit too sleep deprived and everything feels warm and fuzzy. blindingly so, but i think the more cloying you are, the more addictive.

azalea, hibiscus, edelweiss for the floral asks? ive always wanted to keep flowers but i am NOTTT a green thumb whatsoever..

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that’s honestly such a kind thing to say, thank you. that was kind of the exact feeling i was going for — something a little warped and sleepy-sweet, like you’re caught between comfort and collapse. it means a lot that it came across that way to you. really.

And honestly same… plants do not trust me 😭 i love the idea of keeping flowers, but they always end up looking a little too crispy. i think some of us are just meant to admire them from afar (or keep fake ones that won't die on us).

Anyways...

edelweiss: would you want your darling to be dependent on you, or would you rather be dependent on them? would you rather control, be controlled, or a mix of both?

I’m a pretty dependent person at my core. Once I feel safe with someone — which takes a lot due to my past trauma — I cling hard. I get emotionally attached and that dependency forms as a way of trying to hold onto the safety I rarely feel. So honestly? Mutual dependency is ideal for me. If they’re dependent on me, and I’m dependent on them, that bond becomes harder to break. It means they need me as much as I need them — and that gives me peace, in a very obsessive, selfish way. It’s like insurance against abandonment.

As for control... I have ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder), and I don’t respond well to being told what to do. It triggers something deep in me — I resist even if I want to do the thing. Authority figures, power imbalances, commands — it all sets off this inner war. So being fully controlled? Not possible, unless the control is masked as suggestion or soft dominance I can consent to in the moment. I could compromise if I truly trusted them, but I’d need them to understand that my resistance isn’t always intentional. Ideally, we’d both have some control — more like a volatile, passionate power dynamic that shifts based on the day.

hibiscus: would you ever seriously hurt your darling, causing permanent marks and damage to their psyche?

That’s... complicated. The short answer is yes, it’s possible — not out of intent, but out of instability. I have NPD, and I can admit that parts of me match the stereotypes. I can be manipulative, especially when I’m desperate. I love bomb. I give them everything, all my affection, all my obsession, until it suffocates. And then I split. I withdraw, I ghost, I spiral, I destroy everything. Then I crawl back. I beg. I reattach. The cycle is brutal — on me and them.

I get intrusive thoughts. Harmful ones. I get overwhelmed. I lash out. I say things I regret. And yes, I’ve caused harm before. Not always in physical ways, but in psychological ways that scar. It’s not that I want to destroy them. It’s just... I get stuck in spirals of survival, fear, obsession, panic. I want their love more than anything, but sometimes I end up being the thing that hurts them most. I think a lot of us here relate to that. We’re all a little broken, some more jagged than others.

azalea: what are some traits you look for in a darling? what makes you drawn to someone?

Above anything: understanding. I mean true, deep, non-performative understanding. Not the type where they tolerate me, but the kind where they see me — all the ugly, obsessive, volatile parts — and still choose to stay. Still choose to obsess back. Still choose to want me in all the wrong ways.

I don’t just crave mutual obsession. That can go wrong in so many ways — like when one of us obsesses harder and the imbalance starts warping everything. For example, if they start pulling back while I’m still in deep, I spiral. If I get distant but they get clingier, I feel suffocated. So the obsession has to be equal. Equal need. Equal yearning. Equal devotion. Equal sickness. That balance — even in chaos — is my version of stability.

Traits I’m drawn to? Soft but intense. People who are gentle but have something feral just beneath the surface. Quiet types who feel too much. Someone I can consume and be consumed by. People with abandonment issues, yes — but who fight to keep people rather than push them away. I want loyalty, but the unhinged kind. The "I’d ruin myself just to keep you" kind. And I’d do the same for them.

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the perpetual longing for you is numbing me to my very core

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See guys we are meant to b !!!!! (delusional)