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I'm trying to get back into the groove of things. I am currently diving headfirst into one of my oldest hyper fixations. I finished this a few days ago after taking too long to work on it, but well....

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A Wip of a big ass oil painting I impulsively started a month ago but haven’t had time to work on 😔

(I hope i finish it…)

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I don’t know about anyone else, but I, as a trans woman, do not know what it is to be a man. I know what it’s like to be surrounded by men, to be picked apart by them, to have masculinity enforced on me and to have my femininity degraded. I know what it’s like to be targeted for punishment, physically and sexually, for my femininity, for a girlhood the boys and men could see in me, to be queerbashed, to have my head slammed into hard surfaces, to have my genitals fondled, to be injured in all kinds of small and repetitive ways with things like pens, compasses, and so on.

I know what it’s like to be assumed to be a man, and to be abused because I am not. I know what it’s like to be separated from my female friends as a young child because my status as a ‘boy’ meant that I needed to be placed with the other boys, the ones who degraded me and hurt me. I know what it’s like to be beaten and burned. I know what it’s like to have teachers make an example of me because I cannot conform. I know what it’s like to be made afraid of being around other people, because people means abuse.

But I don’t know what it is to be a man. Even after everything they tried, I wasn’t one.

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dont know who needs to hear this, but as someone who used to find expressing any form of genuine affection difficult and cringe, professing love in every other interaction is much better. tell someone you love that you love them. tell someone you like them. tell someone you enjoy spending time with them, tell someone you enjoy their presence, that you like their company. being sad or mad about the state of the world shouldnt stop you from finding beauty in the mundane, from falling in love with the smaller things in life. the time we have is short, spread some love, make someone smile, itll make you happy. do what makes you happy.

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i am so back (in pain)

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Hey this is why you stop fucking buying her shit btw

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By Tiina Menzel

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Ok this wikipedia article is pissing me off so much 

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what i actually said: i forgot

what my parents heard: i hate you and i am determined to fail at life, go to prison, and bring dishonor to this family. i care about nothing except my computer and tv shows and you can just go burn in hell for all i care. also i'm pregnant.