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Tumblr... ate my last post without actually posting it but. Due to a bunch of shit tumblr is kind of triggering to me atm, and i dont use that word lightly. Idk if or when that'll change, so i probably wont be on much, if at all. Feel free to follow my twitter

(https://twitter.com/Nuggl3?s=09)

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Not tonight. Im home and in bed, just gonna pass out

I think im probably going to kill myself tonight. Idk. I forgot my keys. I guess im not really planning on going home again.

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I think im probably going to kill myself tonight. Idk. I forgot my keys. I guess im not really planning on going home again.

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Hhhhdhvjfkkshsgdhsa

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I was never good at missing someone, im sorry.

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friend who has read receipts on: *reads my message at 8:00 and still hasnt replied at 8:02*

me: i get it. nothing ive ever said has or ever will matter to you. i understand now how foolish i was to think our chats were pertinent, important, significant to you. i hope you have a nice rest of your life because i am finished with these mind games.

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I just want something to die for.

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Please don't doubt that i miss you.

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we as a society really ought to bring back advice animals, that really was the Peak of memes

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man like. being lgbt kind of ruins time with relatives in a very specific way that cishets will never truly experience. like family time can be rough tm but theres a special brand of discomfort that lgbt people face and it’s kinda wild

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The dumbest thing I ever believed as a kid was deciding to stick with the whole “being a boy” thing because I was way more likely to get a girlfriend that way. I consider this the worst because:

1. Horrible priorities really.

2. I am 9000% more attractive now.

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a body count not as in homicide nor as in sexuality but as in the trail of people from my childhood and adolescence i should’ve been a better friend to and taken better care of but i was too busy being caught up in my own heartache to recognize their own and therefore our relationship tapered off in an extremely unsatisfying way that continuously manifests itself as a thrumming sense of grief in my chest. anyway which restaurant chains have the best free pre-meal bread?

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Things I Need:

1. An orgasm 2. Attention 3. $50,000

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i just scooted my chair and felt the vibrations in my asshole does this mean im gay

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I laughed at this for a solid 5 minutes

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How to tell if you are emotionally abusive

I feel we talk about signs of abuse from the victims standpoint but not from the abusers standpoint. In order to stop emotional abuse and recognize when we engage in unhealthy behaviors I made this list.

Do you react to important people in your life by ignoring them completely and not acknowledging their presence? Especially if they do something you don’t like?

Do you feel that your partner/friends/family members are the cause of your bad moods or frustration?

Does your partner/etc “do things the wrong way”?

Do criticize your partner/etc for being unreliable or a bad person?

Do you feel you have to constantly overlook your partners flaws in order to be around them?

Are you frequently accused of being “moody” or “hard to please”?

Do your partners complain that “nothing they do is good enough?

Do your partners appear to avoid you when you are angry or upset rather then comfort you?

Do you negatively comment on their intelligence or appearence? Either in private or in front of others.

Do you blame them when someone goes wrong?

Do you ever use phrases like “I could just hit you right now” or “I”m so mad I could punch something”?

Do you ever punch walls/throw things in front of your partner/etc?

Do you leave during fights and not inform of where you are going and when you will be back?

Do you behave the same alone with your partner that you do if you were in front of your friends or in public?

Have you frequently accused your partner of being too sensitive?

How often is your partner praised and complimented by yourself?

Do you think your partner spends too much time with friends and family?

Do you feel your partners friends and family are trying to drive you apart?

Do you actively comfort your partner when they are upset or angry even if you don’t really understand why they feel the way they do?

If your partner brings up a behavior that bothers them do you respond by discussing how to change it or do you respond defensively?

Do you have difficulty apologizing?

All of these things are abuse tactics. Obviously even the healthiest of us will do these sometimes but if any one becomes a regular habit that’s when the problem starts.