randomfanpaging

[randomfanpaging]

REVISED

This is my first fic since 2019.

Word count: 1548

_______________

Today was the summer equinox, and us werewolves liked to celebrate it.

Mine and some other packs from the neighborhood usually open fair, so we can mingle with others from our species.

Everyone loved the equinox. Less rules. More fun.

But I didn't. There would be too many werewolves at the fair so usually I would just walk  through the forest either in lycan or human form. Trying to avoid all the contact and just wonder alone with my thoughts.

But something was different this year. As I walked alongside the river I hear a noise. Wood crunching under someone's feet.

I turned my head around. In every direction trying to find out the source of that sound, but I saw nothing. A couple of steps ahead I looked around again.

Entering the river was this naked man. Most of his body was already cover in water. He looked in my direction and I hid behind one of the biggest trees near me, and he didn't seem to have noticed me.

I glimpsed at him, uncovering my head just a little to see if I could recognize him. I didn't. Moments ago I had been able to see he had deep blue eyes, almost as clear as the water, and his back were all sweaty like he had just been working out.

He tools a dip in the river and used the chance to walk out of there before he saw me.

I went straight home. I didn't know who he was or what he was, but I wasn't sticking there to find out either.

I got home like ten minutes later, and I threw myself on my couch.

I stayed without moving until it was five. Then I braided my hair and I put on a simple white dress with a denim jacket on top and a pair grounded black boots. It was a simple look and still an acceptable one in case I was dragged to the pack's fair.

The fair was right outside my house and I walked around the fair for a few minutes as I searched for anything that would catch my interest. As I wondered I saw the blue eyed man from earlier.

He was talking with Miriam, my best friend. They seemed to be having a deep conversation and laughing. A lot.

He looked in my direction, and I hid myself behind some jackets and purses. I was still afraid he had seen me earlier and I didn't want to look like the stalker type.

I bought a ring and when the fair started to get a bit crowded I left the heart of the villaged and walked alongside the river for a mile or two until I reached it's waterfalls.

The waterfall had a path that would lead to a hidden cave and only someone who was either hiding or running would find it.

I got seated on the left side of that little entrance on the edge of the rock and grabbing it. I stayed there for a while distracted looking at the nothingness in front of me. Lost in my thoughts.

Until someone touched my shoulder.

I took the hand of my shoulder as quickly as possible, and I pinned him down against the stone wall one the right side of the entrance while grabbing his neck with my right hand and his hand with my other hand.

I also showed my yellow beta lycan eyes so he would know I wasn't a person he could mess with.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you" He said and I noticed he was was the blue eyed man from before.

He raised his free hand as some kind of surrendering sign.

He was clearly bigger, stronger and faster than me and if he wanted he could've atacked me and really damaged me. But he didn't. He just stayed immobile untill I released his neck and hand.

"Sorry I...I didn't expect to see anyone here" I explained as I seated myself on the same exact spot I was before.

He sat himself on the same place I had pinned him down, just bending his legs until his but reaches the stone floor.

"So..." I started talking in an attempt to break an awkward silence but I wasn't sure  what to ask him "Did you came here for the fair?" I asked the first thing that came to my mind, but I was sure he's answer was a yes since I didn't recognize his face or smell.

"Yep" He answered and turned his face towards me. He looked like he was unsure if he should tell whatever he wanted to tell me next "I'm supposed to organize the summer solstice so I came here looking for... inspiration. I want to know what other lycans expect" He finally answered after a few seconds.

I standed still looking at his eyes for a while until he turned his face in my direction so I looked away.

"Which pack are you from?" He asked as he started looking at me. I could only see him through the corner of my eyes.

"This one. I'm a native" I answered vaguely.

Usually at this point guys would start asking me sex related questions, or making fun of me. Always one of those options.

"Shouldn't you be enjoying your fair then?" He asked flexing his right leg and putting his right hand over the flexed leg.

"Can't" I answered and I noticed the look in his eyes over me "Social anxiety" I  began explained "I know it's stupid I live in a pack and yet I have social anxiety" I kept explained, and then I glimpsed at him.

He had a strange look in his eyes. One I didn't recognize.

"It's okay, you can laugh at me as much as you want" I said as by now every guy I had ever talked to would start laughing at me and mocking me.

"I wasn't going to laugh at you" He said "I was just wondering" he was saying slowly and I felt like I was in a suspense movie "Why were you at the fair just ten minutes ago then?" He finally asked and his question confirmed he had seen me there minutes before.

But that was not the question I was expecting, so I found myself speechless. I searched all over my mind for an explanation.

"It's still early so most girl are still putting their make up on, and the guys are waiting for the girls so the fair was almost empty" I answered. That's a thing I've done since I was a child and only now I've taken some time to wonder why I did it.

"Your friend gave me a similiar answer" He said out of the blue, he was still looking in my direction. I was unsure if I had something on my face or if he wasn't looking at me at all.

"You asked Miriam about me?" I questioned finally allowing myself to look at him. He had caught me off guard, I didn't expect him to ask him Miriam about me, no guy had ever done that.

Most guys taught I was simply crazy because of my social anxiety, and usually talked trash about me for not liking to go to parties.

"I didn't mean to sound rude. I saw you earlier at the river side and I wanted to know more about you" He explained in the kindest voice his body seemed to be able to produce.  "I'm James by the way. James Barnes" he said streching his hands to me but I didn't hold it. He didn't seem bothered at all. He seemed comprehensive.

"I'm Skylar. No last name to inherit just Skylar" I said. I just waved at me, and he waved back at me.

We sat there for a while in silence. Just looking at eachother. I had no idea what to say to him. At one point it seemed like he was about say something but he stayed silent.

"Do you wanna go for a run?" I asked as I got up. I went deeper into the cave.

The cave had two ways, and I chose to go left.

I entered the left way and got undressed and shifted into my lycan form.

A long time ago the shifting hurt like a mother, but now, with the frequency I was turning it became quick and unpainfull.

I came out of the left way with my white fur on, white a small black circle behind my right ear.

He went silently into the right way and I guess he did the same I did.

He came out with a deep black fur on. I noticed right away that he had a mettalic prostetics instead of his left paw.

It was odd actually, but at the same time it was cool, cause that prostetics made him different from all the other lycans.

We left the cave and just starte running, with no fears, no problems, no worries, no social anxiety. Just a sensation of endless freedom as we ran out of the cave.

It was nice running alongside another lycan. Neither running from him. Or him running from me. Just running side by side.

We ran together as we had known eachother. In direction to the sunset's mixed purply and reddish sky.

[randomfanpaging]

I got to the point where I know that nothing lasts forever, not even memories, they'll eventually fade away when you less expect.

[randomfanpaging]

I think adults forget that kids can be hurting too, it's not because I'm young that I can't be hurting, and sometimes I'm hurting even more because I feel alone, don't know who to ask help for, and no one is there to guide me.

[randomfanpaging]

‘Cause it’s okay not to be okay/ It’s okay if you feel the pain/ Don’t gotta wipe your tears away/ Tomorrow’s another day

[randomfanpaging]

Remember only God can judge us, forget the haters cause somebody loves ya

[randomfanpaging]

But we work so well and we don't even know why

[randomfanpaging]

Does anyone want to talk about how gorgeous this human being is?