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Life, in many ways, has taken on a cinematic quality. The pain and suffering that you went through, you've shown courage; Emotional, yet the rock; Tired, but keeps going; Worried, but full of Hope; Impatient, yet patient; Overwhelmed, but never quits; Amazing, even though doubted; Lastly, wonderful, even in the chaos; ..You are for ever etched on our hearts Mamang, maraming salamat sa masikhay at walang kapantay na pagmamahal. We love and miss you so very, very much, Mamang.

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Down in the dumps

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Always thought I'd see you again

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In the middle of this chaos, I close my eyes and bring my heart to a place where I am happy (I tried)

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μου λείπεις

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I hurt myself today to see if I still feel

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Thought of you

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4am

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Give yourself credit for the days you’ve made it when you thought you couldn’t.

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The one that got away

You were my first, and it breaks my heart to know that you are not my last.

Looking back, 2 years ago, without asking, we just assumed that we already committed with each other. 
It reminds me that the first time I met you, I knew that we could turn into something amazing. But today is a day that reminds me that no matter how things ended, at one point things were good.

This is for you, so that you know how much I cherished you and how important you were - and are - in my life. Even though I do not see you and only merely know about your survival through Facebook, I just like to occasionally check in, to see that you are happy. And yeah, you look happy. Our whole relationship was surreal, come to think of it; it was strong and powerful, but then, it was gone. Sometimes, I even wonder if it ever even happened because it ended so abruptly and without closure. I guess this is why you are my greatest love. The wound is still fresh, and all I feel for you is just pure love. Sometimes, I think about what would have happened if we hadn’t gotten in that fight? If you had decided to stay? Oh! How I’ve missed you, now! I still remember about the plans we had for our future and all the times we stayed up late talking about everything. Planning to move into you, getting a job with you, to live together. Those days, waiting in your room, watching, eating, while you’re at work. Dropping me foods in lunch time, ‘coz you’re always in a rush. I missed weekends with you, traveling on a Friday night, waiting in Terminal for like another hour coz of the heavy traffic. But yeah, waiting pays off, because I was able to see you. Saturday night–our drinking sesh– while watching movies, talk about everything. I miss waking up next to you, your hugs, kisses, everything, all those cuddling moments. Sometimes, I wish that things hadn’t ended. That I hadn’t said things I did, that I didn’t do things that would make you feel bad, that we would have fought a little harder to make it work. Those final month, Im completely lost, and I’m sorry, I’m really sorry. I know you wanted that great relationship. I still get very upset for that night and I wanted to unreservedly apologize to you. Yeah, but sometimes you just need to learn that things ended for the better, maybe.

Now that a bit of time has passed, I’ve finally pulled myself back and have done a lot of reflection of everything that happened for the past five months. As with many things in my life, I guess I sometimes walk around with the frayed strings of what we broke off — words I didn’t say, ways in which I hurt you, things that I’ve changed that I wish you could see. In spite of everything, I still thank you for being everything I needed at that point in my life. I wish you all the happiness, there will always be a special place for you in my heart. As painful as it was, it helped me to grow in so many unimaginable ways. It gave me so much light and perspective. Thank you…