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Bullying

Hi, it's minx again,

This post is a little bit different from the others becuase its from my phone so sorry for spelling mistakes and such but this need to be said because it happened to me again and i need to get my thoughts on it out so school part 3 will happen later. First let me say this im not complaining but i will use my story as an example.

Let me start with this im not the most normal kid in the world. I like dnd and im larger not even to mention my freinds or sexual orientation. I am thankful for the good things for my freinds and siblings. For the family i made that dont share my blood but are siblings none the less. I have depression not diagnosed but thats for reasons i wont go into on this post.

Ive gotten picked on for years due to my looks my weight or even my sttuter that ive worked hard on getting rid of and its gotten better. But my depression headed young i did things to hurt myself and even tried to kill myself because of the bullying i received. Even to this day im not a month without hurting myself but i have 3 month clean from suicide attempts which is a start. The bullying left me in a bad place and still dose. The "joke" started in middle school. This was the place my depression definitely headed angrly it was constant. The joke was someone would be like my freind likes you or /and they wanna meet you behind the school to ask you out. I was ugly then still am but i belived them and i went. On four separate times i went and was stood up and made fun of. It hurt and lead to my biggest attempt in 8th grade as i continued. I slit noot deep enough to kill but enough to scar horribly and i was found out. My counslar called me up i was taken to a therapist once and then never again. There my therapist said she could immediately tell i had an anxiety disorder but i was never brought back. I was picked on worse after words. It never let up d still dosent. Its why i never try and get a real life relationship from thoses in my school. Because of that fear and did the bullies ever get in trouble no. They didnt. What if i had turned to a gun to solve my problems. No not to kill myself but to get even. Bullying is how school shooters and suicide attempts happen so stop it if your q bully because it fucking hurts. And if your being bullied remember death isnt worth it neither is shooting up a school. Ignore it and dont give them a reaction and no your beautiful and amazing no matter what they say and my door is always open to talk

Xoxo

Minx

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school (part 2)

Hi, its minx again,

so this one might be shorter or longer depends on how deep I go into this one well 2 topics. I have already touched on this briefly in the last post but bullying is a real problem, especially in my school. It leads to bigger problems to depression, anxiety things of that nature. How does one touch on this properly so ill give each their own post later but the long-short is when you get bullied it sucks. The schools don't care until it makes them look bad. They don't stop it they don't care to its to much work for them. But when it gets bad enough your mental state gets rough they don't teach you how to handle it or your emotions for that matter when did they stop teaching children it's not about winning but having fun and learning along the way. Yes, winning is nice but so is friendship as cheesy as it sounds. if you make friends the bullies leave you alone because suddenly you can connect to be a part of a group. Humans by nature are social so why the hell do schools actively hinder that nature. when we talk we work better. now before I move on that's not always the case for everyone and at some point, it does become a hindrance. That said I heard a teacher say today lets call her Mrs.R you’ll hear a lot about her eventually she's my favorite teacher that I don't even have. I talk to her a lot. but she said something that sparked this conversation. “This is stuff they should have learned to do in elementary school but never did” this was regarding not talking and getting work done. Now she's a teacher for the slow classes those who struggle or don't bother to work. This sparked a discussion in which I debated her and she did relate to me being right. We shouldn't have learned to be quiet and keep our head down in elementary school we should have been taught to deal with our feelings and peers but we weren't had we would have been kinder to one another

XOXO

MInx

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Todays mood tbh

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School (part 1)

Hi, its minx again,

Im gonna talk about school. I had this conversation with someone earlier. Heres the bottom line I don't like school. no no not like the classes but how they teach us. I’m a weird one I like learning always have but I've seen all sides of the system. from the 1st to 5th grade. I couldn't read im dyslexic. I don't always see words just the letters. Im gonna break this into parts because I have a lot to say. I guess I should start with what we learn in elementary school. You are taught don't talk to strangers at home, in school don't talk to each other. All that leaves is yourself and trust me that makes you seem crazy. Your taught to raise your hand. To listen to instructions, don't be different, follow the status quo, don’t learn just remember. I hate that. You’re taught to regurgitate what you're told how will that help you in life. How is knowing what the temp range for water is as a liquid gonna help you do taxes? Then there's don't be different. fuck I hate that. I’m heavier set to put it lightly 253 at 16 and im 5′7 5′8 so im bigger. It started as a health issue. thyroids I belive. I was in 3rd grade all I ate was green beans my body became desperate and held it. I grew rapidly around I went from 85 soaking wet to 130 dry. It was rough I started getting picked on by the kids, not the normal taunting, but worse if anything went missing food wise I was blamed no one ever believed me. That caused me to get a habit I started lying and manipulating but even then the kids would pick on me because I was something new weird and different. I broke the status quo and still do but it caused problems my mental health suffered because of it. I guess this is all for my first part of this 

XOXO

Minx

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Hi

Hi, you can call me minx.  im 16 and I've never had a voice. Im the weird kid in the back who talks to avoid everything. No one listens and im glad. I was really tired of the way the system ignore our comments and or voices, and how we grow learning that. So im speaking out this is my blog my new lifeline to help to grow to figure out my life and put my views down and hopefully help someone else. Please ask questions ill give you my take

XOXO 

Minx