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Before you follow~

I am mostly using this blog as a journal. If you find that it resonates, that's great and I am more than happy to welcome you here! But it is first and foremost here to document my recovery journey and I'm not about to change it or water it down.

That said:

-posts that mention alcohol will be tagged as #alc

-posts that mention marijuana will be tagged as #weed

-posts that mention cocaine will be tagged as #coke

-posts that mention any other narcotics will be tagged as #narx

-this user stands with Palestine, Sudan, Congo, and all indigenous peoples.

I will likely update this as I go along.

Recovery is a grueling and lonely road and I welcome those who are exploring sobriety to join me! This blog is also entirely LGBTQ+ inclusive and terfs/transphobes will be blocked.

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i finally found this shit i never want to lose it again

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house treats a dog trainer who says she has a 100% success rate for helping angry dogs and make them quiet and nice. house argues about how it cant be exactly 100% and wont stop being annoying about it. He brings in a literally feral rabid dog and she like makes it calm and lie down . House is disturbed by this because he wanted to be right that she sucks at stuff. (B-plot: house and the team sees if house can be trained with a dog clicker.) they break into her house and they find loads of dog pheromones and learn she has been wearing it like a perfume to calm down dogs. she thinks this is fine and theres no link but they think she is having a freaky reaction to it. but they take the pheromones away and she starts dying harder. house is really mad and has dinner with wilson, where he is complaining about how this lady is a charlatan but he doesnt understand what’s going on while eating out of a bowl of kibble like nothings wrong with it. wilson is watching him intently, as is the rests of the team who is watching from afar. house says his food is really yummy and insists wilson tries some and wilson is like “NO I CANT.” and house is like no you have to. you have to eat it. and wilson is like HOUSE STOP WE’VE BEEN CLICKERING YOU TO MAKE YOU EAT DOG FOOD. and house MAKES him eat a spoonful and hes like “… cocoa puffs..?” and house smirtks smartly as he demonstrates that he knew about their silly trick. “i know you guys are watching…. come out.”(the team is slowly emerging) “don’t worry . i dont bite anymore —“ he pauses and does a house stare and walks away to the sick lady’s room. cameron pours wilson a little milk for his cereal.“20%.” he walks into the room smartly. the patient is miffed and is about to say she doesn’t want to argue about percentages literally on her death bed. but house is like “no. 20% actually refers to the number of dog bites that get infected. You got bit by a dog and never got treated for it and ingredients in the dog pheromone solution were slowing it down. (?? im not a scientist) “ and he says something stupid like “sometimes a dog’s bark really is worse than its bite” and walks out. music starts playing. chase expresses he is mad about what cameron pouring milk for wilson means for them because cameron used to pour milk for her dead husband and he thinks she isnt over him. house walks out and reaches into his pocket and sneakily eats a hand ful of kibble

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They are clinging so desperately to their disproven atrocity propaganda.

Keep shaming and exposing these genocidal lairs.

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Noticed something a little funky in the world around you and want to figure out what's up? Especially if there might be something you ought to be doing about it? Not sure what information sources to trust these days? If you're in the US, federal agencies like NOAA, USGS, EPA and more collect massive amounts of scientific data every day, much of which is publicly available online - if you know where to look.

A PDF version with clickable links is available for free on my itchio page (quakeandquiver); I'll add a direct link in a reblog.

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Love that they put “a sense of impending doom” as one of the symptoms of a heart attack, like girl, that’s just how it is to be alive these days, you’re gonna have to be more specific

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Today, I would like to commemorate an event which has laid a very profound impact on the internet.

Ten years ago on this day (06/08/09), a forum website called SomethingAwful held a photoshop contest titled “create paranormal images”.  The contest would require participants to edit ordinary photographs into creepy-looking images, and then try to pass them off as authentic photos on other paranormal forums.

Two days later, on June 10th, a user by the name Victor Surge would find this thread, and become inspired.  He submitted the two pictures above, featuring a tall, faceless monster which would stalk children, who would then disappear.  He called his monster “the Slender Man”. After this initial post, Surge and others would expand on the character and the story, creating one of the internet’s most famous monsters.  The Slender Man proved to be popular enough to spread to other websites, with 4chan, Deviantart, and TV Tropes all having their own Slender-Mania. On June 20th of that same year, another user on the SomethingAwful forums found the Slender Man, and also wanted to contribute.  Noticing nobody had made any videos yet of the monster, he sat down with some of his friends and planned out a video webseries involving a former college film student discovering and unravelling the mysteries surrounding Slender Man; this would become Marble Hornets, one of the first horror-themed ARG’s of the internet.

That all happened ten years ago.  Ten years of haunting the darkest corners of the internet, and Slender Man has built up a surprisingly dense resume, for a fictional monster.  Several popular webseries, a couple hit games, at least two movies, even inspiring other characters in seperate series like the Silence in Dr Who and the Enderman in Minecraft.  And all this within a ten-year period.

I think this just attests to how much humans can be inspired by an idea.  From a small handful of edited photographs, we collectively constructed a new monster which lurks in our nightmares, and now it almost seems as natural as the horror mythos he was based on.  For better or worse, the Slender Man seems to be here to stay. Happy Birthday, Slendy!  Here’s to hoping you continue to be both terrifying and terrific!

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I was on a plane this weekend, and I was chatting with the woman sitting next to me about an upcoming writer’s strike. “Do you really think you’re mistreated?” she asked me.

That’s not the issue at stake here. Let me tell you a little something about “minirooms.”

Minirooms are a way of television writing that is becoming more common. Basically, the studio will hire a small group of writers, 3-6 or so, and employ them for just a few weeks. In those few weeks (six weeks seem to be common), they have to hurriedly figure out as much about the show as they can – characters, plots, outlines for episodes. Then at the end of the six weeks, all the writers are fired except for the showrunner, who has to write the entire series themselves based on the outlines.

This is not a widespread practice, but it has become more common over the past couple of years. Studios like it because instead of paying for a full room for the full length of the show, they just pay a handful of writers for a fraction of the show. It’s not a huge problem now, but the WGA only gets the chance to make rules every three years – if we let this go for another three years and it becomes the norm? That would be DEVASTATING for the tv writing profession.

Do I feel like I’m mistreated? No. I LOVE my job! But in a world of minirooms, there is no place for someone like me – a mid-level writer who makes a decent living working on someone else’s show (I’d like to be a showrunner someday, but for now I feel like I still have a lot to learn, and my husband and I are trying to start a family so I like not being support rather than the leader for now). In a miniroom, there are only two levels – the handful of glorified idea people who are already scrambling to find their next show because you can’t make a decent living off of one six-week job (and since there are fewer people per room, there are fewer jobs overall, even at the six-week amount), and the overworked, stressed as fuck showrunner who is going to have to write the entire thing themselves. Besides being bad for me making a living, I also just think it’s plain bad for television as an art form – what I like about TV is how adaptable it is, how a whole group of people come together to tell a story better than what any of them could do on their own. Plus the showrunner can’t do their best work under all of that pressure, episode after episode, back to back. Minirooms just…fucking suck.

The WGA is proposing two things to fix this – a rule that writers have to be employed for the entire show, and a rule tying the number of writers in the room to the number of episodes you have per season. I don’t think it’s unreasonable. It’s the way shows have run since the advent of television. It’s only in the last couple of years that this has become a new thing. It’s exploitative. It squeezes out everyone except showrunners and people who have the financial means to work only a few months a year. It makes television worse. And that is the issue in this strike that means everything to me, and that is why I voted yes on the strike authorization vote.

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my problem with bi positivity for bi women is that it is misplaced. people assume that biphobes hate bi women for talking about men because biphobes actually hate men, and so the bulk of "bi positivity" posts will be about how loving men is beautiful and holy and etc. which is fine on its own, but not adequate as a response to biphobia directed at bi women.

biphobes hate that women express our attraction to men, talk about men, and love men, not because biphobes hate men (at least not systemically; i'm sure on an individual level yes, sure, there are biphobes that hate men, but misandry is still not real and men do not face systemtic oppression as a result). at its core, it's because biphobes feel entitled to bi women's attention, time, and actions. biphobes who target and harass bi women for talking about men, fucking men, and loving men, do so because they think less of bi women for doing so. they think we are vapid, vain, promiscuous, adulterous, and callous. they think we must not really be attracted to women and that we must be performing our attraction to women for attention, or for the "male gaze", or whatever else the latest biphobic stereotype is. fundamentally it is about denying us our agency as consenting adults who make our own decisions and have our own interests. it's an intersection of biphobia and misogyny.

this is why bi woman positivity posts that center men are so frustrating to me as a bi woman, because they do not adequately tackle the root of the biphobia directed at us. when bi women are in relationships with men, it is BI WOMEN that disproportionately face the biphobia associated with us dating men, NOT the men in relationships with us.*

* i am speaking specifically about bi women dating men here because i am a bi woman drawing from my own experiences. bi men please feel free to share about your experiences with any biphobia you've faced being a bi man in a relationship with a woman in lgbt / queer spaces (if you feel comfortable sharing)

i think this is because (as usual) the ones who post the most bi women's issues are other bi women, so when we post about loving men dating men fucking men etc, it is in defiance of people who shame us for doing so. but to people who don't regularly engage with or pay attention to the other things we say, it appears as though the most revolutionary form of activism you can engage in to support bi women is....making and reblogging positivity posts about men. that's where the disconnect is, and that's what i wanted to address in this post.

i hope this makes sense but me know if you need any clarification on any points here.

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White people need to stop using black people as their fucking shields. I am so fucking tired if pussy little white bitches trying to use their black friends and OURS WORDS as a power play.

Rest in power is to mourn our loved ones who were Unjustly taken from us in the context of black hate. We Made That.

If you have used it accidentally to refer to a nonblack person I understand, but when a black person says you can't say that to refer nonblack people because it decontextualizes it and you throw a fucking fit? that's when we have a fuckin' problem my guy.

"well my black friend-" I DON'T CARE. hell, even if I was your black friend, it doesn't MEAN anything because that is a singular person of MILLIONS. it's 2022 and you're still using your black friend a fucking card, a tool, as a GOTCHA... how embarrassing.

Grow up, do better

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I really like how many of the world’s most iconic structures and places are just right next to some of the most mundane stuff imaginable, for example

Stonehenge

Is right next to a busy road

The Pyramids of Giza

Are at the outskirts of Cairo

Niagara Falls

Are part of the town of the same name

And Agrippa’s Pantheon

Is crammed inside downtown Rome

It just so interesting to notice.

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i hate how my mood completely depends on other peoples tiny actions i hate it i hate it i hate it so mu ch

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a world where people acknowledge that 99% of drug/alcohol addiction is caused by untreated mental illness and/or shitty life situations rather than peer pressure and a spooky drug dealer 

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please don’t let me lose you

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I hate BPD, it always wants to go to the Final Straw™ to see how much someone cares about you

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Bpd is so strange. If your FP starts talking about how much they love a video game/t.v show/even food, you feel jealous.

I’m literally feeling jealous because my FP said they love Pringles.