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We accept the love we think we deserve

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So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.

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Made corn dogs in the air fryer. They turn out so yummy and crispy. I’m watching The Nightmare Before Christmas since today is Tim Burton. Happy Bdsy Tim Burton

These are some of his on Hulu. They need more. I’m sad you can’t stream Sweeny Todd anywheree

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ha I enjoy this one

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Scriptures on anxiety

Bear with me. I’m a bit of a skeptical about religion. I’m more of I will believe it when I see it kind of girl. But something I’ve struggled with Alcoholics Anonymous is the need to connect to a Higher power. I am spiritual. I have firmly believed I’ve felt spirits around me. But lately my relationship with God has felt quite distant. I’m reaching out, praying, meditating through prayer while I walk outside. I’ve made a blessing journal. I’ve also been struggling with getting help for ptsd and my mental health. I am bipolar. I’ve been in psychosis before. So I’ve been reading through scriptures to help with my mental health. If this offends anyone please don’t take it personally. Just part of my mental health journey.

mention of religion and prayer

Proverbs 25:28 A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.

Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise.

New Testament

Matthew 5:13 You are the salt of the earth, but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trampled under people’s feet.

Matthew 6:13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Matthew 11:28–29 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Matthew 26:41 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.

John 8:31-32 So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed him, ‘If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.’

John 8:34 Jesus answered them, ‘Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who practices sin is a slave to sin.’

John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

Romans 6:5-6 For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we shall certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his. We know that our old self was crucified with him in order that the body of sin might be brought to nothing, so that we would no longer be enslaved to sin.

Romans 13:14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.

1 Corinthians 6:12 ‘All things are lawful for me,’ but not all things are helpful. ‘All things are lawful for me,’ but I will not be dominated by anything.

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Do be discouraged. He is with you always

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Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 

-Philippians 4:6-6

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My anxiety got bad today. To keep at it at bay I decided to binge watch a movie I haven’t seen before since I saw there’s a new Fantastic Four movie coming out so me being me I had to check out the 2005/2007 films. Tomorrow I will see how the cartoon version is.

I like it. Glad it’s on Disney+ Helping me pass time. I also struggle with insomnia. I like finding new things to watch.

Having fun. Seroquel gives me loopy dreams. Fingers crossed that tonight I’m a Superhero like The Flash or Supergirl 😂

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say it louder for the people in the back

My biggest regrets in life are being too damn nice, apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong, and making unworthy people a priority

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Star Wars movie binge today

I slept good last night just from my Ativan working. I didn’t need to take Seroquel and I fell asleep pretty quick and woke up refreshed. Watching the Star Wars movies with my boyfriend. He’s seen them the whole way through I have. I’m a nerd at heart so figured why not. Keeping the calm at bay

Star Wars: The Phantom Menace (Episode 1)

Two Jedi escape a hostile blockade to find Two Jedi escape a hostile blockade to find allies and come across a young boy who may bring balance to the Force, but the long-dormant Sith resurface to claim their former glory. and come across a young boy who may bring balance to the Force, but the long-dormant Sith resurface to claim their former glory.

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Watching Star Wars with my boyfriend for the first time seeing it through. Feeling nerdy. But that’s okay I am a nerd.

Star Wars: The Phantom Menace (Episode 1)

Nerdy things

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So happy it’s a Saturday and my boyfriend is working the Star Wars movies in order since I haven’t seen it all the way through. Movie day

“I sense so much fear in you.” Really stands out to me.

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Season 1, Ep 4: The Gathering

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“Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our life.”

— Akshay Dubey

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Just had a tooth extraction today. My mouth and gums are swollen. But hey I struggle with a panic disorder and they loaded me up with Xanax but it’s helping me calm down pain wise until get more meds tomorrow. Thankful

Keeping the anxiety at bay watching Rick and Morty. I’ve been watching it from the beginning. Keeping the anxiety at bay since my mouth really hurt. Gonna be resting with an ice pack.

Little Rick is cute lol

Rick and Morty Season 2, Ep 7

Big Trouble in Little Sanchez

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Finishing American Horror Story: Asylum

I’m on Season 2, Ep 13