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telling me "nothing tastes better than skinny feels" in middle school was the worst decision anyone has ever made

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Dracula

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Wednesday, June 12, 2024 -

I disappeared for a long time because of life and severe depression, but I'm hoping things get better because today, I see my doctor in order to start a weight loss program involving either phentermine or wegovy. I'm so fucking thrilled beyond belief.

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I feel so much prettier when I’m hungry and empty

Nothing feels grosser or uglier than being stuffed with food

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✨ feet together, thighs apart

the collar bones are where we start

count the ribs & feel the hips

that’s what makes us skinny, bitch ✨

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meme from old acc: kyliescals

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I want someone to notice, but on the other hand, i don’t.

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💀 THE FACTS 💀

🖤🩷 Demigirl - She/Her/They 🩷🖤

ADHD/Autistic/BPD/C-PTSD/CSA Survivor/Eating Disorder

☠️☠️ In my 30's. Minors DNI ☠️☠️

🩷 5'3" 🩷

☠️ HW: 290 ☠️

🩷 LW: 115 🩷

☠️ SW (Jan 2024): 188 ☠️

🖤 CW: 179 🖤

🩷 Met Goals: 185 - 180 🩷

☠️ Goals: 175 - 170 - 165 - 160 - 155 - 150 - 145 - 140 - 135 - 130 - 125 - 120 - 115 ☠️

🩷 Ideal GW: 100 🩷

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Since I've started working more regularly as an In-Home Health Aide, I'm finally losing weight that I'd gained from binging. I was up to almost 192 on Feb 5th, and as of this morning, I'm down to 182.8. I work from 11 AM to 2:30 PM so I'm able to cut myself down to 2 meals a day. Plus, I burn a ton of calories. Once my 9 year old is back to school full days, I'll be working 8:15 to 2:30, which will be amazing.

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I just fake it and accept that I'm a perpetual teenager trapped in an adult body. I pay my bills, avoid the "normies", and try to live the life I should have had growing up while making sure my bills are paid.

Does anyone have advice about how to become a functioning independent adult?

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i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

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My fav thinspo is me at my lw

Missing 96lbs rn 🥲 im getting back down tho 🙏

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I'd rather feel skinny and miserable than fat and miserable