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[reiish-writings]

But is it too bad to say I want to feel the passion of a love burning with hundreds of suns if but for a moment? If just to say I felt it in my fingers. Burned my tongue in the taste, singed my own feathers and fell like Icarus.

For a breath.

For an instant.

For a second.

Just meet oblivion, to see if he is as sweet as the artists say.

To look into someone’s eyes with hope and terror and a hundred questions and one answer.

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Like my pencil,

I touch the paper of life.

Leaving bits of myself in the places I’ve been,

Preparing for the places I’ll go.

Hoping that with each stroke,

My remnants add beauty, to an otherwise empty landscape.

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Like my pencil,

I touch the paper of life.

Leaving bits of myself in the places I’ve been,

Preparing for the places I’ll go.

Hoping that with each stroke,

My remnants add beauty to an otherwise empty landscape.

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I hope you fall in love.

I hope it’s one that you believe was sent from above.

I hope it’s good, it’s patient, not boastful or rude.

I hope it’s something that encourages you to improve.

I hope he’s your safe place.

Your comfort, your rest.

When the seas of life become wild and turbulent and put you to the test.

I hope he listens to your woes,

Your tails of tragedy.

I hope he doesn’t add to them, but instead gives you strategy.

I hope you feel comforted when he’s near, and confident when he’s far.

I hope you smile when you tell your friends just how close you are.

I hope there’s laughter to share,

Hopes and dreams too.

I hope it’s everything and then some, just for the two of you.

I hope you stay steady I hope you stay true.

I hope you love what you have,

and give it the effort it deserves from you.

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Relatable Thought Blips

* “Cant say I’m afraid of the ocean. I’ve been drowning in my own head for years.”

* “I’d break my own heart a thousand times over to spare you the misery of the burden you bear.”

* “I’m ready now.” ~ she was not ready.

* “I won’t lie. I’m not really sorry it happened. I think you earned it.”

* “The reality is I’m one crucified man away from being a menace to society.”

* “Some part of her was still caught between those books she read. Lost in an adventure that was never really her own.”

* “The greatest fortress ever built was made from paper and imagination.”

* “I’m afraid my soft and docile nature is reserved for those who do not desire to take advantage of me. You however are stuck with this version.”

Short Story Prompts

* It’s easier dealing with people you’ve decided is your enemy. That grey area however, makes things difficult.”

* “She dropped her eyes to her laptop once more. ‘It’s not worth it,’ she decided, but her cheeks flushed red, and she couldn’t form a thought in her head as her hearted tapped on her ribcage.”

* “He turned a coin over his fingers, ‘do you think anyone escapes this life without chapters they wish to burn? Without a sentence they will never read aloud?’

* “The puff of smoke floated away and she looked at the ruined neighborhood beneath her. She took another drag and wet streaks turned to droplets at her feet.”

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April

And these moments with you made me happy to be alive.

No, my joy does not come from you, but you certainly helped me thrive.

My insecurities started to fade,

They’re still there a little, but you love me anyways.

It’s through your kindness I see my error.

Not through fear of punishment or any other thing I should be wary of.

You don’t lash out, berate or belittle,

Even when I know I’m being fickle.

You wait patiently and let me grow on my own,

Faithfully watering and tending to my needs,

It’s to you I owe my growth, and these new leaves.

Things I learned in April!

* your job is to do your best.

* Start asking yourself about your own motives.

* It’s never okay to do something for the sake of hurting someone else. This doesn’t speak about the ghastly things they did to you, this speaks of your character and ability to manage stress.

* Think before you speak. Why are you saying things? Is this to help?

* Listen more. Read the room. I promise you will know more by paying attention to body language than you will ever know from hearing someone talk.

* Lean in your friends when you’re in need. Have people you can trust. And do not isolate.

*Its okay if you don’t have the answers right now.

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And then you were gone.

Somehow, you left me feeling raw and used.

You were content, and quick to abuse.

My gentle hands, and heart that listened.

Yet you could somehow look away when it was my own eyes that glistened.

My council, my kindness, my open doors.

You ransacked my house and what’s more

you’ll stroll back to me when you’ve had enough.

Comfortably so, ike there won’t be any rebuff.

And you’re right.

I won’t utter a sound.

Not until you ask for insight.

I will give and give and give,

And bleed myself dry,

If it means for a second you will get reprieve from the monsters nearby.

Hear me well and hear me clear,

I will cry myself to sleep,

Despise you until the guilt appears.

And despite it all, back to me you creep.

I will give you want to expect, but keep you at arms length.

Then I’ll return to the one greater than I,

And there I draw my strength,

and there I will take my heartache,

And slowly, He will help me reincarnate.

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I hope you fall in love.

I hope it isn’t fickle, or a firework, or something flickering.

I hope you fall in love and it’s something long lasting, something invigorating.

I hope in the highs you fly,

And in the lows you grow.

In the moments in between you’re consistent, and let the little things go.

I hope your heart beats faster when she calls you,

I hope you smile when she laughs too.

That she speaks the language of your spirit,

And she’s quiet enough to hear it.

I hope she’s steady when the ground quakes beneath your feet.

That she’s a safe place when you feel weak.

I hope you’re wise enough receive it.

I hope you’re wise enough to keep it.

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February-March.

They say April showers bring May flowers,

But no one talks about a February of hurricanes bringing Marches of the insane.

And so a child no more,

in the odd little gap of ‘before,’

I find myself juggling one too many things between the life I live, and one I wait for.

Transition period they say.

Soon, you’ll call these the good old days.

But this meager reality of in between is hardly suited for me.

I must say it’s grand and good to love during plenty,

but in this season, where hurting comes relentlessly,

love does its greatest work to be seen.

When it’s in this meager, and barren ‘in between’.

Things I’ve learned from February to March

-Get up early and go to the gym. (Not for everyone but for me it helps)

-You can have fun, but don’t take it too far and know how to recognize ‘fun’ versus ‘poorly coping’.

-Establish mechanisms for bringing you dopamine that are good for you. Eating ice cream won’t solve all your problems. (Most of them but not all)

-Learn to communicate emotions, and learn to communicate them to the people who love you.

-Feelings are not facts, however it’s important to tell people where you’re hurting so they can understand you and walk with you.

-Be humble. Meekness doesn’t mean weak. It can mean patience and long enduring. You can be patient without being a pushover, similarly you can be patient without being judgmental. Balance is key.

-Remember that time never stops moving, while this moment may feel forever, it’s not. Keep pushing keep waking up, keep doing your best and eventually this season will change and good things will come.

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Science facts thoughts that could double as ideas

-UV light breaks down DNA, put in sunscreen, that’s how you get cancer.

- radiation is the extreme immittance of atoms at such a fast rate they act like invisible bullets, shooting through you.

- Everything has a boiling point.

- Molecules of water at 0 degrees Celsius alternates between solid and liquid states, aka slushy mode.

- Lightning has nothing to do with rain, it’s the charge of the molecules in the air.

- People are incredible electrical conductors. Don’t get struck by lightning, it will travel all the way through you.

- The universe is said to be made of 80% dark matter. What’s dark matter? We don’t know. But we know it’s there because of the gravitation force it has on everything else.

- Cigarettes and cigarette smoke exposes you to radioactive material (even second hand smoke).

- Birds have a unique respiration system so even during an exhale, they are getting oxygenated to their heart.

- Birds have to eat constantly, flying takes a lot of energy. (Keep that in mind for your dragons bc they’ll need even MORE food and they probably hibernate.)

- Finally, the mitochondria is not the powerhouse of the cell. It uses oxidative phosphorylation to produce ATP.

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Explaining Pirate Chess badly to the tune of ‘I love you you love me.’

🎶I hate you, you hate me

This cult is killing people so we need to agree

With a half baked plan

And the smell of blood and fear

You better not die cuz I need you here. 🎶

Never fear! This song mostly describes the conflict, but I thought it was funny.

Also includes:

* Found family

* Enemies to less enemies (I think.)

* A culturally isolated male MC with shaky morals

* A biracial anti-hero female MC who needs a nap

* Some biblical monsters

* Overcoming traumatic experiences and survival patterns

* Conflict and resolution

* Banter, so much banter. (What is found family without banter?)

* There is violence, and alcohol abuse. You have been warned.

Does NOT include:

* Sexual content/smut (note; some sexual harassment/abuse is hinted at but never described in detail)

* Swearing

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January

Oh January has come

And January has gone.

Twenty I’ve seen thus far

By it’s cold nights I’ve been marred.

Though despite its fangs so cold

I grow and age more bold

With lessons learned

With hard scars earned.

So I’m going to do a monthly post where I reflect and share some random things I learned that month!

Your inner thoughts are important. Take time to refer to yourself affectionately. (When I mess up something I call myself ‘Rei bae’ and talk myself through fixing the issue. Yes it’s goofy and I laugh at myself but it helps.)

Applying to college is honestly insane. (If anyone needs help or ideas for preparing to apply and such please reach out. I’d love to help you)

Take time to enjoy your hobbies. I’m going to play the bass and savor it. Draw my pictures in one color. Copy the photo when I don’t feel like drawing.

Get up early, and stay up late. One can be fun one can be functional.

Never forget to be thankful. I don’t care if you don’t feel thankful, be glad for something. (Reminder; you don’t have to be thankful for awful things happening to you, but you can focus on other things and focus on the skills that you will develop to overcome the problem. We do not accept toxic positivity.)

God knows that you feel off in the wilderness. Keep waiting he will tell you his plan when the time is right. (It’s okay to be angry too, promise he can handle all your emotions, so be angry.)

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And it’s funny,

I was stuffed inside.

Told me I should get comfy

Gave me ‘rules of success’ of which to abide.

I will do no such thing.

I’ll stretch and push back

Not in malice nor in hate,

But to answer that unyielding ring

I cannot sit still.

I cannot watch idly.

I cannot stuff these questions down,

When I’d rather they run wildly.

Instead I’ll laugh.

I’ll bide my time.

Be polite and civil,

For waiting in itself is not a crime.

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Things I learned through high school that nobody talks about

Buy clothes that fit you. Clothes that you are comfortable wearing all the time. There’s no use squeezing into a pair of jeans to impress someone you’ve never met and probably don’t really like.

Ask why more often. Lots of people don’t have answers and a lot of the things you do don’t have reasonable answers.

Accountability goes beyond turning in your homework assignments on time. It’s being somebody your friends can rely on, it’s being somebody your parents can trust, it’s being someone that future generations are going to look up to for your character, not your achievements.

Most of your growth comes through struggling. Learn to embrace hardships and understand those are lessons.

No answer, is an answer.

Listening is more important than being heard.

Don’t take things so personally. A lot of times any issues are manifestation of some thing underneath the surface.

Make friends who love God like you. When you are fed up with life, laughing with them will be like refreshing rain.

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How odd I have to compete to prove,

That I am someone to choose.

How many times will I rip myself apart,

To fit into this little project box you think is art?

I feel no need to make myself seem worthy.

I know what I’ve seen, I’ve earned scars on this journey.

I am no better than they,

But I am nothing to scoff at anyway.

I’ve scrapped the old parts of me,

Reshaped, reformed, and worked to be free.

Yet here you come, with your standards held high

Asking me to come down from my peace, to come back and comply.

For now I will resign, bite my tongue and smile

For the game I am playing is one for a while.

Do not be surprised, when it’s all said and done,

To find me embracing every piece I left behind,

You may not recognize what I’ve become.

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So she held out her hand.

She lifted her peers.

Yet when we fell to her knees

There was no one to hear.

She offered a kind word, an easy laugh,

And always a smile.

When they asked her how she did it,

She simply said it was all worth while.

She gave and she gave,

And they took and they took.

She had never been more alone,

Alas, you wouldn’t know with a look.

“I’ve nothing left” she said one day,

out of kind words to offer.

“Then let me offer you aid,” said he

“I can refill your coffer.”

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No.

I don’t think I deserve to be happy.

Does anyone deserve it really?

For every right, I’ve done two wrongs.

Hurt and healed, loved and loathed.

And yet,

I have the opportunity.

It can be cultivated, and grown.

Planted in my heart,

A crop to be shared.

No, I do not think I deserve to be happy.

And yet, I am happy.

So I will water, prune, and care for this happiness.

So it’s branches touch every piece of life.