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My younger sister everyone

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I turned in a bit ass assignment I didn’t want to do and canvas never gave me the god damn confetti.

I’m gonna drop out and then jump<33

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RISE AND SHINE SAMMY

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AHHHHHH I LOVE HERRR

I haven't drawn anything in a god damn while, so I just forced myself to put out an oc idea that has been bouncing around in my brain for a while. Of course, I haven't drawn a while, so im rusty. Sorry bout that, but oh well! Here she is👍

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IT FINALLY ARRIVED HEHEHE

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I love you guys

Stay alive

Dms are open

Stay alive

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Making a new ORV playlist bc why tf not

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Kim dokja I love you but Istg your so stupid sometimes

“He hates me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk accepts him as a companion.

“He doesn’t care” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk waits 72 hours on the bridge.

“This is poisoned” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk offers him a meal.

“I’m stealing his story” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk decides kdj is his◼️◼️.

“He’ll get his revenge” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk keeps him safe.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk reaches out his hand.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk prevents his self-sacrificial plans.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk cradles him in an embrace.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk fights to save him.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk pierces his heart with a sword.

“I am alone” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk chases after him for 74000 years.

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THEYRE DE-GAYING ORV

Not fair

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YJH 0th turn: I'm not interested in men. I have a wife. Weve been together for decades. We take care of orphans. All of my companions are alive. We got the endings we wanted and I managed to live a happy and fulfilling life.

YJK 0th turn: But I will jump into the Torment Nexus for an unimaginable amount of time just to get a chance to see you again one more time.

KDJ: what.

YJH 0th turn: what.

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I suppose one of the reasons why I am so utterly obsessed with Kim Dokja is because he is the type of man you only see in a lifetime. He's like a rare gem of a star, glinting for one moment and turning to dust in the other. He's a person who lives in-between sentences, who haunts the narrative and never actually appears in the story, only the ghost of him held together by his companion's memories. He is barely found at the beginning, and at the end he ceases to exist as "himself", only appearing briefly for one regression turn. It's horrible to learn to know him as the character "Kim Dokja", only for it to fade into some sort of legend, someone unreachable, a story told and retold ad infinitum, until it becomes a memory that scratches at your brain, that drives you mad with grief. Kim Dokja, your salvation is cruel indeed. The price to pay is simply too high.

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I put my entire being into that background

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My nightwing obsession is so bad that a friend sent me a link to a nightwing cat collar

I don’t have a cat

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When KDJ finally lost the King of No Killing Attribute

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ORV gives you a main character who is so detached and suicidal and never gets better

But more importantly it gives you all the people who would tear apart reality itself for one more chance to be with him

As someone who has struggled with depersonalisation and derealization and suicidal ideation for pretty much my entire life this book, even when deeply painful, is the most uplifting and convincing DO NOT KILL YOURSELF treatise I have ever read

Because it's easy to convince yourself that no one will miss you

That no one actually cares about you, because how could they? You're a monster

That you only have worth in what you can give

But then you see Kim Dokja who believes about himself all the worst things you have thought about yourself and who has arguably done worst things then you could ever do...and you see how he doesn't see the love and care and devotion that is right in front of his face

You are begging him to stop and see it

To recognise that he doesn't have to do everything alone

That he is loved so so deeply

And maybe, just maybe you can get yourself to open your eyes. Or just believe that maybe you're just as blind as Kim Dokja.

I know some people will see this book as despairing or that the message is that you can never actually cross that divide. But for me it's a push to say you can cross it.

That there are people in this world waiting for you to extend your hand and they will hold you close and never let you go

It's hope in the despair

At least for me

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Almost as good as choking him and throwing him off a cliff into the mouth of a monster

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There are three ways to survive in a ruined world. I have forgotten some of them now. However, one thing is certain: