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God, please let him be the one. Please.

For if he is not for me, release him from my life.

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Tumbling back into rolling depths unknown.

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Someone’s forever isn’t always. But always isn’t forever.

Love dies and grows. Let it be a rose in every season.

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Ill never love again. Till i love you.

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Ill kiss you when the calendar hits september 31st.

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his touch unfelt

i crave more than just a sight to see

but that there be a light in me

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I try not to think of you much…

It makes me sad to bear the consequences

Of air that isn’t there

Reaching for its last semblance of a breath…

So. I try not to think of you much.

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precipitate(d)

he reminded her of the rain...

the gentle pitter patter, gliding off of leaves into the dirt, nourishing the earth

gently wiping windows down to the sill, pooling into puddles that dwindle away in the morning sun

the petrichor creating foggy view, from the curtains undone

he reminded her of stormy nights 

with thunder and lightning that made the ground rumble and shake

bringing light to dark hours, before the world was awake

the falling droplets tapped at the window, placing her adrift

and in the early dawn, when the rain had gone 

she pondered and reminisced the time with him that she had missed.

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I guess ill write, even if no one reads. 

that’s what the authors that have become something post mortem, isnt it? 

is that a sign..?

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i fucking hate you for hurting me. for breaking me. because now i’m scared to be me. to love again. to even hold someone in my arms to just be there with someone. everything reminds me of the stupid shit you did. everything tells me that they’ll do it to me too. even if they won’t. i see you deep inside them. you weren’t supposed to be there. why did i put you there. why did you put me here....

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ive been doing a lot of thinking.

when i saw your lips pressed against another

i pursed my lips against another cigarette

its what you hated, wasnt it?

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You were a desperate fist at my door.

Only a wolf howling at the moon.

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So we are just back to what it was again.

It’s starting all over.

And sometimes you need to say what you should’ve said. Even if it’s not to them.

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when I see you, I get verklempt.

when you speak, you're facetious but perfect.

though there is a myriad of foolishness, you are actually quite incisive.

you can be callous but more benevolent

you are uncanny but quaint

your voice harmonizes but contradicts 

you leave uneasy, but you appease.

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mom.

i didnt get out of bed this morning because i went to bed in the morning. i got out of bed at 1-3 pm because i was in so much pain physically and mentally.

mom. want to know the real reason why i didnt get out of bed? something you didnt ask me? my eyes were so puffy from crying last night. i felt one of the worst feelings i have had to feel and i dont even know why.

mom. u didnt care to wonder why i was crying but it broke me when you said that i might be crying on the outside but youre crying on the inside because of the way i treat you.

but mom. you didnt pay attention to how u treat me. mom you didnt even ask me if i was okay. i hate this.

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i have an ear to ear smile when i talk with you. in fact, my face blushes all too much. rosacea? pft nope, just thinking ab you... youve become really dear to my heart in such a short time and it scares me in a way... i hope this isnt like everything else. bc i love u like truly love u. and if i fall in love with you, ill be so broken, i already am. 

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Remember how you texted me good morning with a smile? How youd rush to, instead of waiting till you were up..

And how youd try to text me every moment you could.

Remember the sound of your voice on video? And remember the goodnight you always left ending our hellos?

Remember the stars of those summer nights that turned into autumn til the season turned winter and again it turned into a somber sound.

Do you remember the days and nights we used to fall for each other head to toe? Or did you never really care fo