rkhyeri

[rkhyeri]

*time to say goodbye!

          after giving it a lot of thought over the last few months, i’ve decided to drop my two beloved muses, rkhyeri and rkirene, this upcoming wednesday. i have many great memories with them and i cherish all the friends i’ve made over these past 3, nearly 4 years i’ve been roleplaying at rookies. but there always comes a point when you know it’s time to move on and this is it for me. personal issues, namely personal happiness, is why i’ve made this decision and i’m grateful to all of you who helped me succeed with my muses all this time. so thank you!

         for those who only care about debuts: rest assured, most of that will stay the same. even though i won’t roleplay at rookies anymore, mod carly has allowed me to stay on as a mod to continue to care for rkwednesdays and the debuting groups. so you’re not rid of me yet :’) rkeclipse, however, will have a member change due to hyeri’s withdrawal from the group. the details of that will be released in the coming days, so you may view it as an example of what can happen in the future if this type of thing occurs again.

         thanks for the memories!!! it’s been a blast. ♡♡ & if you need to reach me, you can via twitter (@ahseulhae) or through the main, as usual!

[rkhyeri]

baby ill be yours

[rkhyeri]

이혜리 @leeslayri     •     30s

two movies in a row where the girl doesn’t end up with the guy i like ;n; heroine why ;nnn;

↶     ⇄     ♥

[rkhyeri]

rkxkjd:

“i mean yeah, she’s not like a lot of women you’d meet here.” he nodded again. “i noticed that people in the company are vastly different from each other, and that kind of diversity can bring out different sides of us that we weren’t aware of before. one trainee can be a role model to another, someone who’s shy might stick to someone else who is, but they might also gain confidence in another trait and so on.” now he felt like he was rambling. was he making any sense? “i’m sure that you have your own quirks too. although you want to be her in the sense that, she looks like she has everything balanced in her life?”

          having been mentally prepared for a simple “i get it,” hyeri is taken aback to receive so much more than that. it’s a given she doesn’t know much about jongdae, but still she’s surprised by the surplus of information that flows effortlessly out of his mouth. her eyes widen and she absorbs, with interest, the observations he spouts off knowledgeably. logically, what he says makes sense-- in the psychology of diversity, stronger traits would balance weaker ones out in a friendship eventually. “how fascinating,” she breathes in awe. did he study these kinds of things? most people didn’t care to observe it. “you’re right about that.”

         “quirks, huh.” the very word amuses her and hyeri giggles. “yeah, i got plenty of those. up to and including having impromptu therapy sessions with smart guys.” his piercing question has her shoulders lifting in a nonchalant shrug. “isn’t that natural? when your world’s in chaos, you gravitate towards people who have it all together?” she knew enough about tiffany’s personal griefs to respect that her friend wasn’t always perfect, but it was damn near close. “i’ve got plenty of good quirks, but now you’ve got me thinking about why i’m pulled to other people in this world. maybe they’ve got something i’m lacking?” hyeri brings her knees up to her chest and balances the heels of her feet on the edge of the seat. “i wonder what you have, kim jongdae.”

♥ distract me

[rkhyeri]

* let the beat carry.

         ♥ @rktaeyeon 

         in her left hand, she’s thrilled.           in her right hand, she’s overwhelmed.

         it’s a hard balance to maintain, especially when a right dominance tends to win over the left. hyeri heaves a sigh as she places her phone on her bed and hops up onto the mattress. she makes sure to switch it to speakerphone and proceeds to takes out her nail polish-- an aquamarine shade chosen this time. “unnie, how are you doing these days?” she asks taeyeon over the line. despite always seeing each other at the company, the opportunity to have a real conversation ( private and heartfelt ) remained elusive. so frustratingly so, that it reached a point of where a 10pm chat over the phone had to do. hyeri bites her lip and swipes the color over her toenail with care. “i feel like everything’s happening so fast... it’s kinda confusing.” the announcement for their debut had dropped so unexpectedly that hyeri’s head was still reeling from it even three weeks later. “i don’t know if i can do this.”

[rkhyeri]

* in case you didn’t know.

         ♥ @rktiffxny          

         how much longer would the girls get to indulge in personal time together? hyeri hadn’t thought enough about this critical question prior to the announcement and she regrets the ignorance now. undoubtedly, once eclipse was pushed into the group preparation, her time with friends would shorten to nonexistent. she’d heard the stories of her seniors aplenty-- trainee friends whose close relationships deteriorated by the pressure of work, of being around each other all the time-- and it terrifies her. she’d grown so close to tiffany these last few years that the imagined future of them not talking to each other, of being tired of one another... well, it felt more heartbreaking than a breakup would ever be.

         “don’t break up with me,” hyeri asserts moodily. sprawled out on her apartment’s living room floor, she flips ( a little too angrily ) through a vanity magazine’s pages. the advertisements for new makeup palettes and fashion clothing blur in front of her eyes as hyeri continues, annoyed. “as soon as we debut, it’s gonna suck, you know? everyone’s gonna try and see who we best get along with and who we don’t. they’re gonna make ships out of us and force us to play along to that fake bulls--” the dancer swallows hard and pouts up at tiffany, her expression not disguising any bit of her bratty mood. “i hate it.” 

[rkhyeri]

* kind regards.

          HE’D been thinking for weeks if this was something okay for him to do. it was usually the other way around anyway. he didn’t have to worry about such things and he’d never had just one person to tend to on the day of. as a temporary roommate, he tells himself he should do more. he tells himself that’s the only reason he feels that way. freshly cut flowers are left on the kitchen counter, trimmed and already placed in a vase as they’re kept front and center. 

          WHAT he worries about most are the chocolates he’s left in a small bag atop her pillow. hurriedly made the night before when he got home from a job he’d picked up last minute. food delivery all the way across town and then back in time to drop off laundry for someone in gangnam. he’d barely made it back in time but the more he waited, the more he wasn’t sure she was coming home and morning comes first. 

          SLEEPILY, he makes his way to the fridge to tuck away her water bottle with the lunch he’d packed for her. strawberries cut into hearts the best he could manage (read as: they look sloppy) and a sandwich with a heart cut-out in the center for the filling. he’d gone for simple, easy, something he could make and not have the outcome look ugly. he wasn’t the most presentable chef but he could manage. “there,” he tells himself before dragging himself off to bed, because he reminds himself one of his tasks is to make sure hyeri knows she’s not alone, something that if her roommate hadn’t told him, he’d still want to do it anyway. 

          truth be told, she’s still not used to it. call it nostalgia for not being able to hear yura’s obnoxious giggling in the morning ( secretly, hyeri had loved the sound ) or a stubbornness towards change; joohyuk’s presence in her life still felt strange even after a routine had taken hold. a ‘gift’ he’d been called by yura while she was gone and joohyuk had proven himself as such. hyeri’s lunches were prepared before she left for training, yura’s dog walked so she didn’t have to get up even earlier. joohyuk managed all of that so easily because it was his job. 

         a job to be an angel apparently.

         still, hyeri doesn’t know how to feel. with debut nearing, every little change in her life feels like it has to micromanaged to a tee. she doesn’t want to fuck up anything, not her chances and certainly not her personal life. so when hyeri stares at the chocolates on her pillow, she does so for a long time. disconcerted. she sneaks glances at them as she gets dressed. and again, as she brushes her teeth from the doorway of her small bathroom. what did it mean? the nagging doubt is overwhelming and something, hyeri finally decides, she does not want to deal with today. 

         she leaves the chocolates where they are and ambles out to the kitchen. there’s only a little time before she has to leave but it’s enough time for hyeri to grab one of yura’s brightly-colored, heart-shaped sticky notes and scrawl her reply on it. she places the note beside the flowers ( another surprise -- one that earns a quiet snort from her ) and grabs the lunch and water bottle with her before she leaves.

joohyuk-- you know today is for girls to spoil boys, right? is this you admitting who wears the pants here ㅋㅋㅋ i’ll be staying late at the company tonight so don’t wait up! spend time with a lucky girl instead xxx ty for the gifts ♥ they’re very nice. -- hye

[rkhyeri]

rkjennie:

the panic is about to come back.

“i— it’s fine! i don’t even really have any more flyers to hand out. i gave all of them to you” jennie knows that it’s no use, that hyeri already decided that this is going to happen but that doesn’t mean she can’t try. jennie doesn’t give up easily. “i, uh, don’t want to be a bother, though. are you sure about it?” she’s overwhelmed as they start walking, the least person she wants to go somewhere with, right next to her. her steps are slow, almost hesitating. “don’t you have practice classes at this time?”

          jennie’s protest falls on deaf ears; or so the saying would go if hyeri wasn’t actually paying attention to every word spilled from the other’s lips. jennie’s pretty, too pretty, and hyeri becomes as fixated on her as the dancer would be about anything new and attractive ( like ice cream or bubble tea. ) "yep, you were very generous!” she teases, laughing. “i think other people outside might find them more useful though.”

          the younger girl’s hesitation doesn’t go unnoticed but hyeri gently excuses jennie’s reticence as the normal nervousness one feels when confronted by an ( aggressive ) sunbae. as they’d never met before, it wouldn’t be like she’d offended jennie at some point, right? hyeri couldn’t recall a previous meeting between them; she’d definitely remember crossing paths with jennie if that’d been the case. “nope. finished early today,” she answers cheerfully. “isn’t that good luck?” 

         maybe a change in conversation could help. hyeri didn’t want jennie to feel nervous for too long. she didn’t bite that hard. “what do you think of the company so far?” the dancer ventures curiously. “i mean you definitely have the looks for this place, for sure! you’re super hot.”  

— awkward first meeting ( #1 );

[rkhyeri]

♡ updates & tracker!

                yours truly has had a field day juggling between mod duties, catching a cold (i’m getting better, ty for the well wishes!!) and debut concepts BUT i’m finally off hiatus for my girls & ready to get back to rookies business!! now that hyeri is debuting with eclipse, i must do the ugly thing of dropping threads so she can have a clean slate to work with as well as her mun feeling less overwhelmed :<

               onto the things!

♥ writing for !!

@rkhyungsik - nanny diaries

@rkxkjd - distract me

@rktaeyeon - merry bells (almost finished!)

@rkyeri - rianna

@rktiffxny - i hope you dance

@rkjennie - awkward first meeting

@rksungho - visual trauma

@taeminrk - the start of smth new

@rkkris - cupcakes and cheer 

starters for rkeclipse girls!

♥ dropping !!

@rkzyx - like we used to (let’s plot something new!)

@rkzyx - let me be your company

@seulgirk - a new flame

@rktaeyeon - rockabye

@rkyeri - say my name

@rktiffxny - not for long

@rktiffxny - tickled pink feeling blue

[rkhyeri]

[rkhyeri]

There’s a Japanese phrase that I like: koi no yokan. It doesn’t mean love at first sight. It’s closer to love at second sight. It’s the feeling when you meet someone that you’re going to fall in love with them. Maybe you don’t love them right away, but it’s inevitable that you will.

Nicola Yoon, The Sun is Also a Star (via 69shadesofgray)

[rkhyeri]

hyeri for high cut vol.149 💘

[rkhyeri]

rktiffxny:

“busy keeping your bed warm for you, right?” she snickers, quite proud of herself for that particular purchase. as embarrassing a charge it is to see on her debut card  —  mystic messenger boyfriend pillow, naughty han jumin  —  it was worth it for the reactions it elicits from the younger at a mere mention. “isn’t it amazing?” she loved that she was able to see it years ago, though she would be more than happy to see it again. “mm, most people prefer the musical to the book. isn’t that true for pretty much every disney movie that was adapted from a book or fairy tale?” as intriguing as the grimm brothers’ version of those said fairy tales are, they’re certainly not commercial enough to be a children’s film. “even the live adaptations these days. did you see beauty and the beast? i love emma watson, i really do, but i’m still a little sad about belle’s gown,” she sighs, but despair is but a fleeting emotion, especially around hyeri and she grins as the younger practically beams. “that’s okay! i’m not great honestly. you probably know a bit more than i do, but i just want to dance together. that’s the main idea, okay. you and me, that’s what matters,” especially after the last few months. fingers laced with hyeri’s, she smiles, eyes curling into crescents as she says with the utmost affection. “i knew i could count on you.” 

          hyeri decides to let the pillow thing go -- even admitting to the unfortunate truth ( that tiffany is spot on ) would be too much for her fragile pride to allow. it wasn’t as if hyeri loved the pillow so much that she couldn’t part with it, it was just... really snuggly. yeah, that’d work. “not that i don’t love reading, but even i gotta admit it’s so much more immersive to see things with your own eyes and absorb the music and characters with your own ears, too!” that, combined with the real-life excitement of seeing musical actors in the flesh and onstage performing was an experience not easily replicated by mere words on a page. “couldn’t agree more with you there, unnie,” she adds at the mention of belle’s unfortunate gold dress. “i get what they were going for-- i mean, practical,” hyeri spits out the adjective with no hiding of her disgust, “but a ball gown is supposed to be uncomfortable on purpose! like, yeah, she’s supposed to run after her father in it later but you don’t see cinderella having issues with her big blue gown! poor cinderella had to flee the palace in that massive dress and glass shoes. emma’s belle was just being spoiled.” she delivers the last with a playful grin.

          “mhm, you can always count on me! i mean, unless i find out you asked someone else first and me second.” she plays with tiffany’s fingers idly and levels a pretend-scolding gaze towards the older. “which is not what happened... right?”

❝ i hope you dance  — ♡

[rkhyeri]

rkkris:

kris’s eyes crinkle in amusement. he was a good cook, since he lived alone and refused to be dependent on his mother and father. “i’d love to cook something for everyone at kt one day.,..maybe in the new year, i’ll throw a dinner party or something.” he says, laughing. talking with hyeri is easy and enjoyable and it’s easy to tease her as well. he reaches for another cupcake, and unwrapping it partially, he savors the taste. as she answers as to why she wasn’t baking, he nods in all seriousness. “oh no….i hope you didn’t get into a lot of trouble..” he says. as she keeps explaining, kris chuckles. “isn’t that typical? eveyrone’s stepped out and burnt food by accident.” he says. He bites into his cupcake with  a grin. “Well, at least you know your limits. Some people don’t even know that.” he adds. “These kids are pretty talented though.”

          “a dinner party...” she repeats thoughtfully. it’s not an idea that’s ever occurred to hyeri before ( likely because she’d never be at the center of cooking anything for it ) but once it’s expressed by kris, hyeri begins to see a full realm of possibilities. “you know what, you’re right! it’d be nice to have the other trainees over for something casual like that! a barbecue get-together or a dinner where we all hang out and eat and talk.” mostly eat. when her own cupcake is gone, hyeri gives the empty wrapper a wistful glance of longing before she slowly crumples and tosses the paper away in the nearby bin. “it wasn’t that bad... well, aside from my roommate moving out right afterwards. i had to pay double rent for awhile which sucked a lot-- and also the money for the new wallpaper and a new stove.” she wrinkles her nose at the regretful memory. but kris’s next words are spoken with a contagious optimism and hyeri finds herself smiling again unconsciously. “i think so, too. so... what you said about helping me out with cooking...” she ventures hesitantly, “...would you really mind giving me lessons?”

* cupcakes & cheer!

[rkhyeri]

rksungho:

“thanks,” he fumbles with the bottle when she returns, his voice still low and mumbley but minding his manners nonetheless. he turns away a bit when he removes the lenses, dripping the fluid over them to clean whatever was irritating his eyes off and poking them back in. some people don’t like to see people touch their eyes. he’s trying to be courteous.

he hands the bottle back, a little awkward now that their forced conversation is without topic any longer. “uh,” sungho breaks the silence before it can get awkward. “i owe you one.”

          “not a problem.” she waits patiently for the male to apply the solution, looking away when it’s appropriate to give him privacy to do so, and then holding her hand out afterwards to retrieve the bottle when he’s finished. awkward though their circumstances might be, it’s hardly the first time hyeri’s found herself in a situation like this. “sure, can i get your name and contact info for cashing in?” her tone is playful as she teases him, an impish smile following up. “i’m kidding-- just a name will do for now, actually. i don’t think we’ve met.”

          hyeri pulls out a notebook from her duffel and rips out a scrap of paper from one of its pages. she quickly scrawls an apology to joonyoung on its surface and tucks it, and the bottle, into her pocket for later delivery. “i’m hyeri, one of the dancers here. and by dancer i mean ‘prisoner’ because what else is this place but that.” there’s a wealth of saltiness in her tone as she thinks of the holiday performance lineup and how, yet again, she’s being buried away as someone so damn unimportant in the grand scheme of things. “... sorry, that wasn’t nice of me.” she tries to smile as brightly as before but it’s noticeably more forced this time. there’s too much going on and too much she’s unhappy about for hyeri to keep up the polite pretense for long; on the other hand, she knows it’s not this guy’s job to be her sympathizer. “anyways, i’m glad you’re alright now.”   

visual trauma.

[rkhyeri]

rkjennie:

but it all melts away with only a few words, jennie finding herself growing flustered at the playful tone in the girls voice, because of that dizzying smile. and the look she’s giving her is making her cheeks grow a little hotter. hyeri is her name, huh? she never wanted a name to that beautiful face. “i’m sorry, sunbaenim,” she blurts, clasping her hands together in front of her body on purpose so she doesn’t have to touch her. the way she dips her body is polite but distant. “i’m… i’m jennie. i’m new so meeting my seniors gets me kinda nervous.”

          the reaction she receives is startling-- one, because hyeri still doesn’t think of herself as a ‘sunbaenim’ even after all these years; and two, because she’s never been so subtly rejected before. her hand hovers in the air for the several moments it takes for hyeri to register her own surprise before it’s slowly lowered back down to her lap. “is... that so?” the dancer finds herself a bit flustered, momentarily not knowing how to proceed with this. what jennie had done wasn’t wrong; in fact, it was probably the more polite way to behave between two strangers. hyeri swallows and chooses her next words carefully.

          “y’know what the best icebreaker for that is, jennie?” the english pronunciation rolls off her tongue with ease. never one to be down for long, hyeri simply switches tactics. there’s something about this girl that fascinates her, even if the explanation is as simple as jennie is the candle flame and hyeri, a curious moth, wants to venture closer. “spending time together.” a mischievous smile appears and, before the other girl has any idea of protesting, hyeri rises up from her seat. “i have plenty of time and i can see what you’ll be doing for awhile--” she looks directly at the mass of flyers that have yet to given out. “--so i’ll go with you.” hyeri turns to grab her duffel bag and slings the strap comfortably across her shoulders. once done, she gestures for jennie to get moving. “i’m also worried some of the sunbaes will hit on you,” she admits sotto voice and wrinkles her nose in distaste. “girls have to look out for each other, right? and just so you know--” she fires a knowing smile in jennie’s direction. “-- you shouldn’t say no to your sunbaenim.” 

— awkward first meeting ( #1 );

[rkhyeri]

This is an apology letter to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go.

Buddy Wakefield (via thelovejournals)