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ikea nights

Last night, we spent the whole time browsing the IKEA website after watching countless vlogs about the things we’d like to buy there.

Our house is already complete, but we still want to change some things. Alex has this dream living and dining room that we couldn’t fulfill last year because of tight budgets—we had to settle for a cheaper sala set and dining table. Now that we can finally buy the things we love, we’ve decided to get them somewhere we’re sure.

I held the phone while she imagined everything, and I was happy to fuel her cute dreams until she slowly fell asleep. :"'')))

i guess love is in every simple and small things.

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I had my Chandler moment, and sometimes I still do.

The thing is, they were the power couple. The solid partnership I used to look up to. I thought they were stable, mature, sure of each other. But no, inside that loud, public relationship was a silent scream of unresolved arguments. Petty fights piled up into mountains, enough to crush everything they had.

You left her. You left her, and you dove into a brand-new relationship without hesitation. She was at rock bottom, spiraling into reckless choices, drowning herself in coffee and nicotine. You erased her from your story, making it seem like she had never even existed.

You were so sure about your new relationship until you saw her rise again. Suddenly, you were following her friends, reconnecting with her loved ones, and for what?

As Chandler said:

"I mean, this isn’t fair. You had your chance with her! You had your chance and you blew it! And this is my chance, and I am not going to blow it, because we are meant for each other!"

I’m sorry you haven’t figured out your relationships yet, but please, don’t show up again. You had your chance with her. Six long years of chances. You gave her up. You let her go.

She’s fine now. She’s better than fine. I take care of her more than you ever did. I love her in all her pettiness. I love her so much that I never push her beyond her limits. I cook for her. I ask her what she wants instead of forcing her to like what I like. She doesn’t smoke anymore, not because I told her to stop, but because she wants to be healthy enough to care for the people she loves.

We have a beautiful relationship. God, I live for her laughter. I know she can be hard to tame sometimes, but I know exactly how to. She’s a little high-maintenance, but I love maintaining her. I don’t ask her to need me. I simply do the things she hasn’t even asked for, just to make her life easier.

I work hard so she can live the best life we can possibly have together. I’ve proposed. We’re already making plans. I listen, really listen, so I’ll know what she wants.

So please, once again, you had your chance with her. You blew it. This is my chance now, and I’m going to make it count.

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another write-up from your girlie, i just had the need to write down this one or else i might be silent about this for the rest of my life! 😆

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🥺🥺🥺

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parang ayoko na. nakakapagod.

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im so happy with the medium platform hehehe para siyang website para sa mga maraming words. also! i started following filipino writers there as well. yay!

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Hello tumblr, my first love, I wrote another smol musings again. Thanks Carrie talaga for inspiring me to get my ass up and write again. :)

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medium alert ⚠️

Dahil mahal ko ang tumblr kahit pa lilipat na ko sa medium, nais kong ibahagi rito ang aking unang write-up na walang kwenta ata hahaha. Anyway, magsusulat na ko uli (yay!) pero lilipat ako sa mas maaliwalas na platform. Masyado na kasing masulasok rito at madilim at puno ng usok-- parang Maynila. EME.

Iyan pala yung link, kung gusto nyo lang basahin o sundan lol:

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random poko and racia sleep shots nyahahah apakacuteee

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I’ve realized that I really struggle when arguments lead to silence. Ignoring each other in the heat of the moment only makes things harder for me. I get that sometimes emotions run high, and space can help us cool down, but being shut out during an argument leaves me feeling alone, misunderstood, and unheard.

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i wrote a poetry book before for someone, i unpublished it because we separate ways. now, i just republish the last part. that time kasi pinublish ko saglit pero in-unpublish ko rin agad with the fear na baka mamisinterpret or something nyahahaha. ngayon kasi, wala naman na kong recurring feelings related to the poem. just wanted to leave a closure for my readers. you may also read it here! the poetry book was supposed to be a recurring story, like a timeline, with different topics to tell. so for this last piece, it's a good bye, a farewell, a last page, a closing chapter. so happy to re-read artworks and realizing that i'm no longer there! that the one who write that before is not the same one who reads it now.

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What do you do when you don't feel loved by them?

Do you leave? Do you slowly crawl your way out of their lives? Do you talk to them? Do you doubt yourself? Do you push them afar? Or do you pull them back to you?

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my life lately:

was able to jog with babi, almost 3km lang but its fine, paunti-unting progress i guess

chick and fries for lunch!!! so yummy

racia and her paawa face para makakuha ng food 🥹

may foster cat kami sa terrace, lagi lang siya nandyan for sleep and eat then wander again sa neighbourhood, lagi siyang sinisilip ni racia (see picture no. 2)

lagi naglalambing si cheeto every morning, pumupunta siya sa kwarto to cuddle with us (umaalis kasi siya sa kwarto pag asleep na kami para maglaro and all sa sala lol so kulit talaga ng mga orange cats

life’s been good lately! also, sana sana more productive sa work bukas until the end of the week kasi last week na agad ng january 😭😭

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isa talaga sa mga na-realize ki nung nakabukod na ko, nakakamiss maging anak lang sa bahay. nakakamiss yung di ko salo lahat ng gawain kasi may mamala at mami, nakakamiss yung tatawagin na lang kapag kakain na tas may mga mini pasalubong pag-uwi ni dadi hahahahahah