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>This update is quite long, it will take a while - sit tight besties!

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>Hey friends, I've been trying to write the next post but I'm super exhausted lately, I'll probably have a better time with it tomorrow.

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When the food has all been consumed Roman takes the initiative and cleans up the table much to Janus' surprise.

He's not going to complain about it though.

Unless it's done wrong, you wouldn't put it past Janus to shoot shade at Roman given the chance.

But as Roman is in the kitchen putting things in the dishwasher Janus pays him no mind - instead he asks, "how does it feel to finish a day without dying?"

"I would say like any other day, but I don't remember any other days that's ended without dying!" -you shrug- "but, eh it's alright."

Janus quirks an eyebrow, "it's alright?"

You place your elbows on the table and prop your cheeks in your palms, "it's not very exciting and I don't get any cool new scars."

Janus snorts, "of course how not very insightful of me" -he sips his drink- "well darling you'll probably have many more loops to have fun with and get some new body art."

"Oooh do you think tattoos would stay?"

"That would be interesting to try."

"I'm gonna do that!"

"Tonight?" Janus asks.

Tonight??

"Tonight?" you ask right back, "how would I..."

Roman walks in wiping his hands on a cloth, "how would you what?"

"Get a tattoo tonight, we want to check if it'll stay!"

"That'll be fun, but I'm a little tipsy" Roman chuckles, "it might turn out not great."

You turn to him with starry eyes, "you're a tattooist?"

He looks down at your very enthusiastic face, it may be the alcohol but you swear his cheeks got pinker, "I - I dabble" -he rubs the back of his neck- "I'm still learning."

"You know I don't like to complement you-" Janus starts.

Without them noticing you open your camera putting it to video.

"Oh cheers" Roman deadpans.

"-Buuuuut, you're actually kinda really good at it already" he finishes.

"That's the nicest thing you've ever said to me" Roman chokes out, there's tears in the corner of his eyes.

"Don't get a big head about it" Janus hisses, "it won't happen again."

"I'm going to cherish this moment forever" Roman playfully swoons, he's arched backwards over Janus' seat almost touching him.

Janus pushes him away but there's no venom in the action, "not if the loops have anything to say about it."

Romans face falls - he looks heartbroken, "I'll never be able to know just how much you actually like meeee!"

"I don't like you, I like your art."

"Jokes on you" Roman paps Janus' head, "my art is a part of me so there" he accentuates with a very dignified raspberry.

"As much as this is absolutely adorable" you get their attention, "I fuckin want a tattoo! c'mon it'll be neat if it stays!"

"Are you videoing us?" Janus asks.

You press the end button, "nnnnnoooooooo... ot anymore."

"Don't you dare show that to the next Roman" he points at you very seriously.

"No promises!" you chirp and turn to your twin, "Ro-Ro do you have your stuff here?"

"I, yeah I do but again: I'm a little tipsy."

"Sooooo what" you flap both your hands around dismissing his concern, "it'll be fine, it'll probably be healed tomorrow if it's not gone!"

"Yeah Roman, lighten up and have more drinks while you stab your brother artistically."

"See he gets it!" you clasp your hands together and make puppy eyes getting closer to him with every plea that comes out of your mouth, "please please please please please please please please pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaase!"

Your face would be nestling in his chest if your hands weren't between them.

He plants his palm on your forehead and takes a step back to be at arms lenth, "if you're going to be so dramatic about it fine!"

"Yaaaaaay!" you shoot upwards throwing your hands up with the hop.

No poll today besties, it's raffle time! send me suggestions for a tattoo!

Could be something you drew, something you just thought of or send me something random.

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"There's nothing I can't do!" you say.

"You think so?" Janus asks.

"I have all the time in the world, I can do whatever I want!"

"You don't want to get out of the loops?"

You weeble-wobble your head around, "suuuuure sure, but I have the chance to do anything I'm curious about! wouldn't you want to take advantage of that?"

Janus hums, "nothing you do would be permanent."

"Exactly!" you exclaim throwing your hands up and kicking out your legs, "no consequences!"

"You don't know that."

"You don't know that it won't."

Janus turns his head to you, his gaze is a piercing warning, "you don't tend to notice things or you completely disregard warning signs - I just don't want something to irrevocably break you."

You hop off the counter and hug Janus from behind, "aw Jan Janny all worried about me and junk."

He returns his attention to the stovetop and the sizzling pan, "make it harder to worry about you and I won't worry."

You lay your chin down on his shoulder and watch the meat and veggies dance together in the bubbling sauce.

"Whatcha making?"

"Stir fry, simple and delicious - and Roman doesn't like onions so maybe I'm being a little petty."

You snicker, "it's the little bitchy things that make ya smile I see."

"I've gotta stay true to myself if not anyone else."

"It smells great" you extended one of your hands towards the scorching pan, "wanna taste!"

Janus smacks your hand with the saucy spatula, "hands off the burning metal you little disaster."

Your pout isn't making him budge, but your hand doesn't move away so he grabs your wrist and twirls around to face you - you're nose to nose now.

You look down into his eyes, both sharp despite the one with the scar over it not focusing - you gulp as his intense aura seeps around the room.

"Is it hot in here or is it just this situation" you chuckle with a hip shimmy, "cause I dunno bout you but this is a little steamy and it's not coming from the stove."

A throat clearing comes from the archway of the kitchen, "are you guys sure you're not an item?" Roman asks.

Janus smirks slyly and tip toes upward just slightly enough to place a peck on your cheek then takes the wrist he's holding on to and twirls you out of his grasp towards Roman, "absolutely sure."

You stumble just short of Roman's grasp and land on your ass, "it makes so much sense that we're friends" you laugh.

Janus just smiles and gets plates from the cupboards as a click comes from the counter, "dinners ready" he informs, "go to the table - both of you."

Roman helps you up off the floor and you guys make your way to the table.

Janus sets a plate in front of you both and at his seat, goes back and places a wine bottle in the middle with three glasses.

"We getting sloshed tonight boys?" you ask with an eyebrow wiggling.

"I think we deserve to be a little loose for the rest of the night" Janus says pouring some wine in all three glasses and holds one up.

"What are we toasting to?" you ask.

"You" Janus answers.

Roman holds his glass up too, "agreed."

You glance between them, both are waiting for you.

Well Remus?

"Aw, I feel so spoiled" you simper putting a hand to your cheek and wiggling your torso.

Roman nudges your leg with his foot and snickers, "you're welcome - now toast to yourself!"

You stick your tongue out at him but lift your glass and clank it with thiers before you all take a sip.

You glug half the glass as you hear Roman whine, "did you intentionally put this many onions on my plate?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about" Janus answers.

You look at each of your plates, the stir fry is placed on top of a bed if rice - yours has an abundance of meat and onions mixed in with the rest of the veggies, Janus' has mostly meat and broccoli and Romans has... so much more onions than anything else.

Wine squirts out your nose with the harsh snort that comes from you at noticing this.

Janus and Romans chairs scrape against the wood flooring as they jump back away from the splash of nose wine.

Janus hands you a towel, "clean yourself up dearest - Roman... here-" he hands a towel to Roman too "-clean up the table, I'll get the swiftmopper."

"It's not that big of a mess" you sniffle between nose blows.

"It's mostly on the floor and your plate but it still needs to be cleaned" Janus says.

Roman soaks up the bits on the table and when it's all cleaned and you have a new plate -even though you said you'd still eat it- dinner is now ready to be eaten.

The night is nearly over, which brings a question.

*Activities will be randomized slumber party things with a wheel.

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You glare.

Are you glaring at me?

Are you angry?

Am I getting on your nerves?

"Go stick your dick in a dirty sewer drain" you snarl - Janus takes a step towards you with concern but you don't stop your vulgar mouth, "I don't know how you wormed your annoying cuck ass self in my brain but you're on the Remus express bitch boy so you're stuck with me not the other way around!"

Carful there Remus, we don't need anyone messing with o̎ͣͬ̂ṳ̶͎̃͐̓ͅṙ̩̱̥̾ pl̙ä̡̳͛̉̿ͦn̸̰ͭ͊͠sͥ.

"Fuck you and whatever plans you have!"

Janus stops, "I'm used to random things spouting from you but... all that was very pointedly at nothing."

You flutter your hand at him, "I wasn't talking to you I was talking to the dumbass fucknut in my head."

"Oh darling please do be nice to yourself."

"Wasn't talking about me you silly bitch" you laugh out, "I have a-"

Remus, don't continue that train of thought.

"Can't stop me dingle-dick."

I'm warning you.

"What're you gonna do? punch me? you can't fucking punch me, you're a disembodied voice-" you throw your arms up to either side of yourself "-go on! do something if you can Stanley Ass Parable wannabe!"

"Okay, now I'm more intrigued than ever" Janus muses, "what is this disembodied voice you speak of?"

R e m u s, d o n 't.

"You. can't. stop. me" you petulantly spit like a child.

I can indeed stop you, I can end this whole day.

"You can also go suck a huge, long, thick, girthy, floppy donkey cock n' balls."

How very mature.

"I'd hate to interrupt your conversation with nothing dearest but, can you explain" Janus asks although he does seem quite amused by your expletives.

"Oh yeah sure, there's this guy-"

Fine, you know what? have at it, the day is almost over.

But tomorrow... I won't be so nice.

"You can't do shit to me sphincter slorper."

I'm done with you today until you start acting like an adult, have a good night Remus.

"Yeah I will! now shut your dick hole! as I was sayin" you direct back to Janus who is just remarkably patient with your bullshit, "I have this guy in my head narrating everything I do and we've recently started talking to each other, he's a huge fucking asshole though."

He takes a few seconds - probably not sure on how to react to such a claim.

"Narrates everything?"

"Just about."

"What doesn't he narrate?"

"Things I don't see I guess, like a first person story or something - oh and he doesn't know this part-"

I know everything Remus.

"I thought you were done talking to me, shut up."

"See not so hard - yeah he doesn't narrate my thoughts."

I do though - why are you smiling like that? your smile makes me think otherwise...

"I've learned to keep some to myself."

Impossible, I'm supposed to know everything that's happening at all times.

"Was it wise to say that out loud?" Janus asks.

"Not like he can do anything about it" you scoff stupidly confident.

"I wonder how much power he has..."

"He's just a narrator" you wave off.

Pretty sure he can do more but I sure as hell ain't going to let him know that.

Just a narrator? how rude - I am your narrator.

"Ooooh getting possessive of me are you?" you purr with a shoulder wiggle - gag.

Oh please, you think too highly of yourself.

"Are you flirting with it?" Janus asks with a small laugh.

"If anything he's flirting with me."

Gross.

"Of course darling, it's nice to know about you Mr. Voice but we need to make our dinner before it gets too late."

"See, I told him" you start, "and he doesn't think I'm completely loose of all my screws!"

Janus goes to continue preparing the food, "oh no I do but for a completely different reason" he snarks.

"I'm starting to get the feeling I'm an unhinged person" you laugh and jump up to sit on the counter across from the one Janus is using.

"You're just figuring that out?"

"I mean I had a deep seeded feeling embedded into my every thought" you say with an eerie seriousness that would freak anyone who didn't know you out.

"So, what will you do if you keep looping?" Janus asks making conversation while he cooks.

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hey, everything okay?

>Yeah I just got back late last night from vacation, the story should continue on later today though!

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>Did you choose to cuss him out? cause I think it would be hilarious if I took your vote from that and put it for telling Janus - if I'm looking at these numbers correctly it would put those two at a tie?

NO WAIT I WANNA CHANGE MY VOTE TO TELLING JANUS

ah well, maybe next loop

>Nothing is permanent nonny.

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Janus is waiting patiently for you to answer him.

"It... doesn't bother me at all."

He doesn't seem surprised.

Why doesn't he seem surprised - Remus this isn't something that you should be indulgent about.

"Does it bother you that you're not bothered?" he asks.

No no, we cannot afford to keep going down this train of conversation - what happened to being a team, are you even listening to me anymore?

"Not at all" you answer - to me or him?

Janus nods, "I suppose it can't be helped."

"How you come to that conclusion?"

Janus shrugs, "I would never say this to him personally but, he is a very attractive person."

You look confused, why are your eyes darting around calculating?

"Yeah, okay but - he's my brother it's normal for you and everyone else to think he's hot."

"Remus, have you paid any attention to your personal surroundings and items?"

"A... a little?"

"How much of it has Roman in it?"

"Uuhhhh."

He walks over and pats your head, "it's okay pet you don't have to answer, but it's something to think about."

I'm going to start noticing things with Roman in in them way too much now aren't I?

Janus laughs at your expression, "don't over think it love."

Too late - how much of Roman is imbedded into everything?

"Is - isn't it kinda okay though, we're twins an all" you twirl your hand so very nonchalantly, "aren't twins intrinsically linked in everything they do?"

"Oh honey, with you two it's more than you know" he scritches your scalp a little.

Your eyebrows scrunch together, "that... doesn't help."

His hand slips from your head down to your cheek, "just be you and do you darling-" he taps a finger to your forehead "-your chaotic mind is always running and you never stop with it, it's a part of your charm and we wouldn't change it for the world."

That's bad advice, I thought I could trust him being the voice of reason with me - evidently not.

Why are you squinting like that? have I insulted you? well good, maybe a little ridicule will knock some sense into you.

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"If you're really that self conscious about drawing" you start, "I can go in the kitchen and terrorize JanJan."

"You want to see that drawing so bad don't you?" he asks with amusement.

You lift yourself from lounging on him to stare in his eyes and with a very determinedness you say, "more than anything in my life ever."

Roman snorts out a bubbly laugh, "you're ridiculous."

You move slowly closer to him - getting in his face and whispering, "more than anythiiiiiiing."

His laughter doubles and he puts his whole palm on your face and shoves you playfully, "okay okay! I'll finish it! go fuck with Janus."

I think I'd rather be fucking with someone else.

Woah, that sure was a thought - good thing I didn't say it out loud.

You're blushing, why are you blushing Remus?

You shake your head, "yeah I'll do that!" you say a little too loudly as you pick up his tablet to flop it in his lap, "have fun!"

"You too" he calls only a little confused as you scrabble out of the fort and in to the kitchen.

Janus looks over at you when you enter, lifts an eyebrow and comments, "you seem totally fine."

"I think I have a problem."

"You have many my dear" he responds and continues what he was doing.

"Is it normal to find your brother hot?"

Without a beat Janus answers, "my brother? yes considering I don't have one - my sister on the other hand well... I don't have one of those either."

The bark of laughter that you borked gets an affectionate and smug smile from him.

"I'm going to have to assume you mean your brother" he says, "in which case: usually yes."

"What does that even meeeeeean" you rasp out in a whisper.

Janus sighs as he places a pan on the stove then turns to you, "darling you have so many thoughts - too many sometimes for even you to handle, and some of them are distressing some of them aren't... is this one distressing you?"

It does, doesn't it Remus?

>It should, he's my brother there's no way I should find him hot.

He is hot though and I am fine with thinking that.

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>Alright, starting Friday I'll be on vacation for a week, so the uploads will probably be very spotty.

>Okay love you bye bye 💚❤️❤️💚

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"Oooooooh fun" you say as you get down and shuffle towards him on your knees, flopping down next to him and laying your head on his arm, "what're ya drawin?"

You can feel Romans movement as he looks down to you laying on him so you glance up at to meet his eyes - he's smiling, he's a bit pink in the cheeks but keeping himself together better than he has been with touchy feely-ness.

He's gorgeous.

If your heart beats keep being irregular you're going to have to go to the hospital, control yourself Remus.

>Cool and control is what needs to be done - he's your brother chillax it down.

You blink rapidly, trying to regain yourself - very good.

Roman clears his throat, "o-oh uh... it's kinda embarrassing" he replies, clicks a button on the side of the tablet and the screen goes black.

"Whaaat! how could it be embarrassing with me?" you say and then pap the screen, "c'mon are you actually not going to show me?"

Roman chews his lip a little, "I don't know... I just started it."

"Okay? and?"

"A-and it's just a messy sketch right now!"

"So you'll show me when you're done?" you ask sweetly wiggling closer towards him.

His pink cheeks deepen in color, "maybe..."

You wiggle your eyebrows, "ohhhhhh is this porn?"

"No" he deadpans.

"More embarrassing than poooooornnnn" you ponder with a finger tapping your chin, "then that just means one thing."

"Oh yeah? what would that be?" Roman laughs.

"Something so pure and self indulgent that you wouldn't want anyone to see cause it's a facet of your very soul."

He stares at you slack jawed, "how did you come to that conclusion?"

"Eh, people tend to be embarrassed by the things that make them them - frankly I don't understand that bullshit."

"You are always so unapologetically you" he says affectionately, "it's refreshing to be around if sometimes annoying" he jests with a snarky smirk.

"Maybe that's a you problem and not a me problem" you snark back.

"Oh yes, because you being annoying is a me problem and not you making it a me problem?"

"Hey man, you're the one who chooses to be around me that's not my fault."

"I somehow can't rip myself away from your presence no matter what you do"- he shrugs -"it's a curse unfortunately put upon me when we were dropped together in the womb" he dramatically maneuvers his hand to his head.

"That's cause I'm irresistible!" you boast.

"You sure are something" he laughs.

There's a moment of comfortable silence.

"So you're not going to show me?" you ask breaking said silence.

Roman laughs, "I'll show you if I even get to finish it."

"You're right, you should continue it right now!"

He shoves you with the arm you're laying on, "impatient!"

"Whhaaaat, I may never be able to ever see it! the thoughts of what it is will keep me awake - I'll never be able to be sane again!"

"You're not sane now" he quips.

"You can say that again" Janus says jovially as he walks by to get to the kitchen, "I'm making dinner - I suppose if I have to I'll make enough for Roman too."

"How very generous of you" Roman impassively remarks.

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"Im going to go clean up that glass" Roman says as he gets up, "you stay here while I do we don't need another wound."

"No way man, tis but a flesh wound!" you go to stand but he puts a hand on your head.

"Stay."

You look up at him with big eyes, your heart may have stopped for a second when he commanded you to stay.

>Keep it together man.

Is it just me or was that... hot?

You just nod with an awkward head wiggle.

The moment he leaves the bathroom you hop up, watch him go in the fort and rush down the hall barging in Janus' room without knocking.

He's sitting in an armchair in a book nooked corner near the door.

"Glad to see that hasn't changed" he muses not even looking up from his book.

"Questions!"

He looks towards you now, "possible answers."

You limp towards him plopping yourself right down on the soft carpet at his feet.

"Scratch that, I have a question myself" he puts his book down on the little square table next to him, "did you cut yourself on that glass?"

"Yeah but that's besides the point" you say to him, "I wanna know what's up with Roman."

"Mm, I ponder this to myself every time I see him."

"What did you mean when you said 'a little too much' huh?"

"Oh Remus darling, that was a joke - he clings to you like a lost child."

Does he though?

You shake your head wildly, "not in my experience - these past few loops he's been squirrelly."

Janus' head tilts a fraction, maybe with contemplation but you can't exactly determine that.

"You sure you don't know what's going on?" you ask suspiciously.

Janus sighs and cups your chin, "Hell knows I would love to tear Roman asunder, I however can't do that to you my dear love bug - you've gone through it with him before and you'll need to do it again."

You slump, the weight of your head being held up by Janus' hand, "but he's not tellin me anything."

Janus sneers with disgust, "he's a coward - he's afraid that if you know what's happened between you in this state you'll shun him."

Hm, maybe you shouldn't be so pushy with him then now should you?

Start listening to me and you'll get places Remus.

Stuff it ass-bag.

"I wouldn't" you say.

Janus looks down to you, the softness is in his gaze is knowing, "I'm all too aware of your attachments - memory or not I know you better than anyone can say."

You lay your cheek on his knee, "I've just gotta show him" you murmur with conviction.

He pets your head, "do be careful with yourself darling."

"So you can't tell me anything?"

"I mean, I could tell you everything - but it's not my place to say."

"Why do you care if it is or not?" you huff.

"As close as we are, I wouldn't want to be the one to tear you away from the things you care about - I'm not the right person to tell you, this isn't the right time for you to be told."

See, he agrees with me.

You roll your eyes and blow a raspberry - whether at me or Janus I can't tell but it's not very nice.

He cards his fingers through your hair with a chuckle, "I know dear" he lifts his hand from your head detangling some of your hair as he pulls up, "Remus, when was the last time you showered?"

You shrug, "Idunno does it matter?"

"Your hair is greasy, yes it does matter."

Greasy? It was fine in the beginning.

"Oh weird."

"Not really" he deadpans, "you hate getting in the shower."

"Heh heh, yeah that tracks."

"Go back to your brother, I'm sure he's worried."

You move so your cheek is no longer on his knee but now it's your chin and you stare up at him, "what if he never tells me and I'm waiting my whole dang life to know what happened?"

"He better not - he's a coward but I actually don't think he's that much of a coward, if need be I'll beat it out of him" he smiles with a cheeky wink.

You snort, "okay that sounds good."

He boops your nose, "now go have fun - I'll be out soon to get dinner ready."

You hop up not paying mind to your wounded foot, "ooh that stings a little."

Janus smiles knowingly, "you kinda like it though don't you?"

You push your foot to the ground, "heeee yeah it's funny" you confirm as you limp to the door and open it, "thanks Janny, love ya hoe!"

"And I you, little bastard."

You close the door behind you and make your way down the hall, the bathroom light is off again so you go further down to the living room.

Roman is in the fort, sitting in the same spot as before doing something on a tablet - he looks up as you enter.

"Whatcha doing?" you ask.

"Drawing, I thought you might be a while."

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>Fuck guys sorry for missing today, had too much to do today and I'm still not home so we'll pick up tomorrow.

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You go to speak but Roman shuffles past you, "I'll clean this up, I made the mess."

He leaves the fort.

"Wait wait wait!" you rush after him stepping on a piece of the glass, "oh ffffu- ah whatever" you shrug and continue on following him to the kitchen, your foot trailing blood after you.

"I have so many questions!"

Roman looks at you with a pained expression, "I don't know how much I can answer you."

You cross your arms with a huff, "well I think I deserve to know things about my life."

Roman looks down avoiding eye contact.

>Probably shouldn't push him any more...

Nah uhn Bitch Boy I'm not backing out this time.

"It's about time I'm told-"

"Are you bleeding!?" Roman cuts you off.

"Yeah yeah I've got glass in my foot, that's besides the point!"

"Remus, we need to fix that" he says worried.

"No we don't, it's just a little blood."

"It's pooling! that's not a little!"

"I don't even feel it" you wave off his concerns.

"That's even more concerning!"

"Fine, give me answers and you can do something about it" you insist.

"I'll tell you what you want to know while I'm cleaning you up!"

You squint at him.

"I promise."

"Deal" you turn and limp-march to the bathroom, Roman follows closely.

"Sit on the toilet" Roman instructs and you do as he says.

He rummages through the cabinets and drawers for things, "what do you want to know?"

He doesn't sound enthusiastic about this.

>This is a bad idea, maybe I should just change the subject.

Not happening dickbutt.

"I'll start easy on ya" you say with a smirk, "gonna ease it in for ya."

"How altruistic of you" Roman deadpans as he sets a number of items on the counter, "set your leg up on the stool for me" he says pushing said stool towards you.

You prop your leg up, "do you an Janny always argue so hard?"

Roman breathes in as he wets a cloth, "not as much anymore - we don't spend enough time around each other to get that far."

"Anymore?"

Roman is quiet trying to choose his words, "in the... beginning we'd be at each other's throats almost constantly and it would get in the middle of our good times so we just, stopped being around each other as much as possible."

He starts to wipe down your bloody foot gingerly, cloth in one hand tweezers in the other - he plucks shards and wipes in a pattern, "I got all the glass" he says putting three shards in the trash.

"Did he really do those things you said he did, cause that's kinda fucked up in a maybe flattering way" you ask as he washes the cloth out.

Roman sneers, "yeah he has - more than once, but again it was mostly in the beginning."

Wonder what he means by beginning, beginning of what?

"He just doesn't like you huh?"

Roman wipes away the fresh bleeding with the damp warm cloth and holds it there with pressure, "no... he's justified to be honest" his voice is low as he confesses that.

"That's stupid" you blurt.

Roman looks up at you, "you can't say that with certainty."

"Just did, will again" you say very matter of fact like.

"You don't have all the information."

"Yeah well that's not my fault" you say to him as you have said multiple times before, "I didn't choose this."

Roman sighs, "I know I know - is there something else?" he asks.

He seems a little more at ease with the questions, maybe cause they've mostly been centered on his relationship with Janus.

>Stopping here would be safe, we don't want to scare him off.

I'm not doing that.

"Are you actually jealous of him?"

This question stills his frame, his hand squeezes your foot a little tighter.

"I mean I wouldn't put it past you, I'm great."

Remus, perhaps you should back down now.

"I-" Roman begins slowly, "I don't know..."

Seriously, you shouldn't press anymore.

"What don't you know?"

So you're going to ignore me when you said you'd listen - I understand you want answers but this is not the right time.

"All these years I honestly thought you two were an item" he admits.

"How?" you snort out a laugh.

"How wouldn't I? the pet names, the soft touches, the fierce protectiveness - you always talk about him and what you do together - every conversation has Janus in it."

"We have different rooms, and I don't need memories to know that talking about someone who you live with and are best friends with is probably normal."

"You have a good point on that second part" he smirks at you.

"And not the first?"

"No offense brother, but have you noticed that you're a little bit gross and he has a cleanliness thing - I have no doubt he'd want his own room, besides you don't need to share a room if you're together."

"I'll give you that one, I am pretty nasty" you accentuate with wiggling eyebrows.

He chuckles, checks your wound and wipes a little bit more, "you're not gushing anymore, I'll wrap this up."

He goes to the counter, deposits the cloth in the sink full of sudsy water and takes an antibiotic tube and bandages.

"So, you were jealous because you thought we were together - but why would you be jealous?"

He hesitates, "for the reason you said in your theory."

That doesn't sound very truthful - I'll get it out of him eventually.

"Yeah sure but, what'd he mean by 'a little too much?' it was very pointed."

Roman's brow furrows with genuine confusion as he slathers your gash, bandaids and wraps your foot up.

"I don't actually know..."

There's definitely more to that sentence.

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normally I have one or two options I want in a poll but I literally want to know all of those things ;_;

>Well, if they all tie you can! and it's looking pretty good on that happening!

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Roman crosses his arms and lifts an eyebrow, "aw you do think I'm pretty."

"I was taunting you you imbecile" Janus sneers, "don't change the subject, answer the question Roman."

Roman scoffs and looks away, "of course not" he mumbles.

Janus puts a hand to his ear, "what was that? I couldn't hear you over that blatant lie."

This isn't going to end well is it...

Roman snorts derisively, "oh yeah you're one to talk about lies."

"I have never once lied to you ever" Janus says checking his nails.

"You lie to me all the time!" Roman shouts, "you tell me Remus isn't here when he is, you say he's busy when he's not, you cancel our plans sometimes pretending to be him!"

Janus stops his movements of looking at his impeccable nails, "you can't prove any of that."

Roman growls, he looks like he's about to pounce, "you're fucking lucky I love my brother."

"Mmm, maybe a little too m-"

Janus isn't able to finish his jab cause Roman throws the closest solid object near him - which happens to be your phone.

He didn't aim in his throw and it hits Janus' hand shattering the wine glass - thankfully it was pretty much empty at this point.

Okay, by the look on both their faces you think maybe it's gone a little too far.

"Alright!" you shout clapping your hands together, "time out time!"

The lunge Janus looks like he was about to do winds down - he tussles your hair a little roughly as he stands, "I will be in my room love, if you need me I'll return - I trust that the glass will be cleaned up promptly?"

You nod limply, "yeah sure buddy."

"Thank you dear" he leans down placing a little kiss to the top of your head and leaves the fort.

When you hear his door close you turn to Roman.

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"Yeeeees?" you say eagerly, hoping he'll divulge something.

I hope you're making the right decision in prying.

>Yeah it's probably not the best idea...

Fuck that, I think I deserve to know something by now.

Roman is floundering on what to say, his mouth keeps opening and closing - he's most likely trying to figure out his words.

"Wait wait wait!" you rush, "I can guess! let me guess!"

His mouth stops mimicking a fish so he can snicker at your enthusiasm, "by all means."

"Will you tell me if I'm right?"

"I'd be very amazed if you get it right so, yeah I'll tell you" his smile is amused.

Fuck yeah, lighting the mood properly this time!

You lean back with a long high hum, "there's only a few clues I have - but maybe they're red herrings! do you guys hate each other for the same reason - I know it's a me thing but is it the same me thing?"

Roman laughs, "what is this, twenty questions?"

"It could be!"

"We can do that later if you want, just give me your theories."

"Ooh theories on what?" Janus asks as he comes back in to the fort, he's got a glass of wine in hand.

"On why you guys hate each other" you say with maybe more pep than the topic should have - but you're trying to go for lighthearted.

"Interesting" is all he says before taking a sip and nestling down to listen.

Should you use what you know or just be silly... not that you know much honestly - silly is definitely the way to go though.

"It's because of me..." you ponder then gasp, "did I break you two up?

"Ew" Janus says with the most disgusted and also simultaneously deadpan delivery.

Roman starts choking, "as if I'd ever."

"As if you could, you'd be lucky to even be considered by moi" Janus haughtily places a hand to his chest, "I'm a high profile partner I'll have you know."

"You guys got that divorced vibe where you super ended it on bad terms" you note, "just sayin."

"It would never happen dear."

"Alright, alright I'll move on - waaaait maybe it's the opposite!"

"What?" Roman asks.

"Like, you pretend to hate each other so badly it's played up with every interaction but you can't bring yourselves to go for it cause you think the other loathes you! and I'm the most important person to both of you and you don't want to make weird so that's an added reason to not go for it!"

"I cannot express how wrong that is" Janus says.

"It is pretty far fetched" Roman agrees.

"Sure sure" you wave your hand about, "but the sexual tension is there - don't let me be the one to stop ya."

"Oh there's tension there, but it sure isn't sexual" Janus mutters.

"Yeah, he's not my type" Roman again agrees.

"Mm, you've just got poor taste."

Roman puffs out his cheeks and holds his tongue - interesting reaction that.

"Okay okay, I get it I get it" you put your hands up in surrender, "I'm the one who selfishly told you guys you couldn't date so now you're playing up the hate to protect yourselves."

"You don't get it at all" they say in unison.

"Well from where I'm sitting, I can absolutely feel the connection, I'm connecting the dots here and neither of you want to admit it."

"You've connected nothing honey bug" Janus says with a pat to your head.

Roman very silently and not very conspicuously bristles.

Oh... maybe...

"Wait! Roman!" you shout startling your brother from his moping.

"What?"

"Are you jelly?"

Roman scoffs... and then a few times more before saying a strangled, "of whhaaat?"

"The dots, they're connecting" you whisper excitedly.

"Don't get too ahead of yourself" Janus tells you.

"Roman" you begin very confidently pointing at him, then pointing your other finger to Janus, "is jealous of... you."

"Have you seen me? of course he is... but why specifically?"

"Cause he thinks you're my boyfriend and he doesn't like you cause you're mean to him and and and maybe he thinks you'll whisk me away from him because you don't want me to be hurt again!"

There's silence.

Was that actually correct?

Janus howls with laughter, some of his wine spills over the edge of his glass and he pays it no mind because he's laughing too much.

Both you and Roman stare at him until he stops, there's tears in the corner if his eyes - he wipes them away.

"Oh, I needed a good laugh thank you darling."

When no one says anything to dispute your claim though you have to ask, "did I actually get something right?"

"Is he not your boyfriend?" Roman asks quietly, almost inaudible - he looks embarrassed.

Janus stares at him wide eyed and very delighted for some reason.

Some things are starting to add up, and more questions are popping up too.

You look at Janus puzzled, "I... don't think so?"

"This is rich" Janus revels, "is little pretty Roman jealous that his twin might be dating someone?"

Roman's jaw clenches.

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