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i love you -autistic gosen main
woww i wonder who this is 🤔
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no dawg i js saw my girl repost a shit ton abt hands is it a universal rule for you guys to fawn about our hands like 😭🙏
yes i fear im a victim of fawning over my bfs hands.. idk i fawn about him whole
#normalize wanting to nom your bfs hands like why are they so pretty#yes. yes it is.#I think about it everytime i look at them#and then we act like its such a normal matter like excuse me you know what youre doing.
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because because...? GET BACK TO WORK 🤬🤬
— starwho..
why is there a random glitch appearing in my inbox...!!
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raven why are u reposting love quotes like a mad man inlove 😔😔😔🙏
ITS BECAUSE BECAUSE.
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chat im afraid to say i mit go on hiatus but then just drop a whole ass fanfic based off my irl rs because i miss them so much ☹️ im sorry is this what love does to someone im cooked kms wtf
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— modern au! drabbles. ft. anemo boys.
short modern au! writings about the anemo guys. (❕) a/n: venti’s part kinda sucks, sorry guyss… but uh, i’ll prolly do some other parts with the other people, so yeah. :] thanks for stopping by!
characters included: kazuha, xiao, scaramouche/wanderer, heizou, and venti.
kazuha who, no matter how bad your cooking skills are, always finishes what you make for him. even if, well, he gets indigestion from it or possibly has to be bed ridden. sure, being sick sucks— but, hey! you get to take care of him now! in his eyes, that’s a total win.
kazuha teaches you how to cook. and when you’re able to produce top notch stuff from his teachings and your own personal dedication, he’s so proud and will shower you with praise just to see that sweet smile of yours because of him.
helps you clean yourself after cooking if there’s something on your face. he’ll cup your face tenderly while lightly dabbing away with a napkin all while admiring the closeness and beauty of your face. pardon him if he accidentally leans in for an uncalled for kiss, it’s really not his fault…
xiao who “accidentally” leaves his jackets and hoodies in your room for you to find and teasingly wear it just to embarrass him. if you try and give it back, he’ll simply leave the offer hanging and either switch the topic or insist on you keeping it with some excuse of, “i was outgrowing it, anyways,” or some obvious lie like that.
if while you’re talking to him about some sort of clothing or item you want but can’t get due to it being too expensive, well, he might look like he doesn’t care a bit, but guess what’s in your locker the next day from him along with a couple other trinkets he thought you’d like? yeah, he’s subconsciously whipped.
scaramouche who makes playlists for you in which the songs hint at his true feelings, but not enough for you to ask if he loves you in a romantic sort of way. there’ll always be one song; however, that clearly suggests something in the playlist. but if you ever ask about it, he’ll reply with the lie that he accidentally added it to the wrong playlist.
scaramouche who lets you borrow his headphones and shares his earbuds with you, with one bud in his ear and one bud in yours. he hopes that the lovey-dovey playlist he chose while you both study in the library clues you to something… wait, wait— are you leaning closer?!… hold on— wait!
heizou who gets you into all these mystery novels and films and loves listening to you talk about your thoughts and feelings about the things he recommends. he really loves the late nights he spends with you with your head on his shoulder and his head on yours while a murder mystery movie or tv show plays on the tv. to him, nothing could be better.
ruffles your hair ruthlessly (in an affectionate way, of course) if you get something correct or match his conclusions. but don’t worry, even if you don’t, he’ll still ruffle your hair because you’re just so, so irresistible to him.
venti who collects sanrio plushies and starts invading your room with them too. here’s a secret: at night, he hugs them tightly imagining it’s you he’s cuddling with.
always hugs you whenever he gets the chance. it becomes a tad overbearing at times, but can he help it? his actions truly are like a young one’s, clinging to the love and affection he feels hugging you.
once, he woke you up in the middle of the night spamming your phone with countless notifications and calls just to ask if you wanted to come over. this man would be the death of you.
©️kazusys — 6/10/24; do not plagiarize/steal, repost, translate, and/or claim any of my works as your own.
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"You're really overthinking everything too much, don't you think?"
well, i'm sorry that i overthink alot – that my thoughts scatter upfront. I open my eyes as wide as i can, only for me to see a room full of endless possibilities.
those endless possibilities that i see haunts me from morning to my dreams.
I'm sorry that i panic at the thought of losing something i cherish, a thing that i treasure at most.
i'm sorry i tend to sulk at everything, its the sadness that triggers me the most.
im sorry i get emotional often, that i have a lot of triggers i never thought i owned.
im sorry i was too much to handle, im sorry i couldn't be enough for you at most.
— " what goes through the mind of an overthinker within 4 minutes? "


yes, I wrote this within 4 minutes :insert happy face:
#x reader#rsventhesecondd#angst#overthinking#fyp#tumblr fyp#small thoughts#Au#modern au#fanfiction#ao3feed#ao3 writer#ao3 author#archive of our own#archiveofourown
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idk if i want this friendship to find me or nawt 🤕


Reo showed Nagi the light.
Reo is Nagi's light.
And they both broke each other.
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Someone hold the waistline of my underwear when I say this pls don't tell me I'm tweaking but the most recent chap of main bllk manga showed nagis potential (100%) comeback bro I KNEWEWWWWEWQEWEEJSHIW IT I TOLD YALLS I TOLD YOUS THAT ON EVERYBODIESSSSSS SOUL HES GINNA VOME BVAK AND WHATDAYA KNOW?? EVERYONE IS ALIVE AND HEALTHY. ok but real shit here lil bro went out of his way even tossed away ANY thoughts of laziness just to gather all his stuff to CAMP. emphasis, CAMP. around bluelock THE FACILITY now I'm lowk too scared to read the full chap so I'm writing off the little crumbs of the untranslated leaks of 306 so idk how long he's stayed there but it's definitely more than a few days MY BRAVE BBY. me personally? I'm scared as shit camping around I'm scared someone boutta jump me whenever bro or I don't fucking know fuckass bigfoot might come outta nowhere or those Japanese entities (I'm no where NEAR Japan btw) from like years and years ago come and freeze my tears til it's jelly-like and peel them outta my sockets leading to sacrificing me to alive dolls singing me my worst nightmare til I go batshit crazy or idk put into a dangangrompa execution (lowk want to tho..) ANYWAY IT'S GETTING OUTTA TOMPIC NAGI "even blinking can be a hassle" SEISHIRO WENT THRU ALLAT ALSO REO HELLO???? DID MF GENUINELY BLOCK HIM?? ISK OF TS WAS EGOS DLING HACKING INTO REOS PHONE??WERENT TOU THINKING ABOUT HIM JUST YESTERDAY WHILE TRAINING?? DIDNT YALLS HAVE A SPINOFF CHAP OF YALLS ASS CHEEKS TOUCHING NO CLOTHES (hm: "I want to be destroyed by Reo" "I want to be Nagi's light")?? AINT IT MFJNG PRIDE MONTH??? AINT YOUS GONNA HAVE ANOTHER CHAP 72 OAGES LONG JUST FOR MORE YEARNING FOR FUCKS SAKE BRO. ALSO NAGI GETTING SAVED BY THAT FUCKASS FATASS JFU PRESIDENT IS BRUTAL BRO ALL HE WANTS IS MONEY I SEE PPL GALZE HIM FLR YHAT BUT ITS FOR THE MONEYYYYYY YOU GETTING BRAINWAHSEDD. ok back to being nonchalant


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OH FUCK OFF

IM GONNA FUCKING CRASH OUT
STOP IT OMG MY BABYY
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from this:




to this:

get yourself a man who can do both.
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can you pls peg me
oil up!! ><
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“Things They Didn’t Mean”
They didn’t mean to hurt you — but they did. And you started changing because of it. Now they notice… and it’s already different.
USHIJIMA WAKATOSHI
“Watch what you eat,” Ushijima says, voice low, neutral. He’s looking at your tray like it’s offended him.
You smile—a practiced, automatic thing—and laugh it off. “Oh, right. Yeah. Just hungry, I guess.”
He nods. Just once. And that’s the end of it. To him, anyway.
The next day, you bring a salad. You poke at the lettuce with your plastic fork, chew each bite like penance. He glances at your lunch, says nothing.
The day after, it’s just fruit. You peel a clementine slowly, fingers sticky with juice, and avoid his eyes.
Then you stop bringing your usual snack. The one he used to reach over and steal a bite of without asking. The one that always made him smile—subtly, but still. Now your bag is empty. So are you.
By the fourth day, Tendou corners him by the gym doors. “Hey, Wakatoshi,” he says, voice too light. “You realize she’s barely eating, right?”
Ushijima blinks. Still, silent. His gaze drifts toward you—sitting against the wall, water bottle untouched, your eyes vacant in a way he can’t quite name.
That evening, practice ends. The sun is low, gym almost empty. You sit alone on the bleachers, staring at nothing, your fingers curling around the hem of your sleeve.
He approaches without a word, sits beside you like it's instinct. In his hands: two onigiri, wrapped carefully.
“I didn’t mean it that way,” he says, eyes on the rice, not you. “I just… I care if you're healthy. Not thinner.”
You don’t respond. Your fingers twitch toward your bag, but fall short. He places one onigiri in your lap, the other in his own hands.
You pick at the rice. Slowly. Cautiously. Like you’ve forgotten how to be hungry.
He doesn’t speak. Just sits with you, quiet, steady. Watching. There’s guilt in the way his shoulders slope. In the way his chopsticks pause every few bites, waiting to see if you’ll keep going.
You finish half. It’s the most you’ve eaten all week.
He nudges the second one a little closer. Not pushing—just offering.
“Please eat,” he says, barely louder than a whisper. “With me.”
And you do.
For a long time, he says nothing else. But his silence is kind now. Careful. And when he finally looks at you, it’s with eyes that say he’s sorry in all the ways words can’t.
SHIRABU KENJIRO
The words slipped out of Shirabu’s mouth like a diagnosis—clinical, cold, final.
And the worst part? You weren’t even fighting.
You had just spilled tea on your notes—weeks of lectures and scribbled diagrams now soaked through and curling at the edges. You laughed, a little sheepishly, brushing at the mess with your sleeve. “Well. That’s my sign to take a break, I guess—”
He didn’t laugh.
He stared at the papers like they’d personally offended him. “You’re not cut out for the kind of future I want.”
You blinked. “…Future?”
He nodded once, distracted, eyes already flicking back to his laptop. “Medicine’s not for people who lose focus. Who make little mistakes.”
You smiled, like it didn’t sting. Laughed, like you hadn’t heard that same voice in your own head on bad days. “Right. Of course.”
That night, you stayed up redoing your notes from scratch. And the night after that. And the one after that.
You started waking up before him. Stopped doodling in the margins of your med books. Stopped humming when you cooked, because every second needed to be productive. Coffee became a meal. Sleep became a luxury.
You didn’t complain. Didn’t cry. Just… shifted. Quietly. Carefully. Willfully.
The version of you Shirabu fell for—the one who teased him while quizzing him on anatomy terms, who wore fuzzy socks to study groups, who once made him a human heart out of Jello just to prove a joke—she was slowly fading.
At first, he liked the change.
The silence. The discipline. The way your pens were always aligned now. The way you never interrupted him mid-sentence anymore.
But then… He noticed.
You never touched him just because anymore. Never made dumb puns over dinner. Your shoulders stayed tense even in your sleep. The music in your world had gone quiet—and he hadn’t realized how much he loved its sound until it disappeared.
One night, he came home late from the library and found you at your desk, fast asleep. Your glasses were still on. Your hand was stained with blue ink, fingertips trembling slightly from too much caffeine and too little rest. There was a cut on your thumb from a broken pen. Your lips were dry. You looked pale—drained, like all your color had been slowly siphoned away.
He didn’t say anything. Just stood there, heart sinking.
And when he touched your hand, you didn’t even stir.
He sat down beside you, swallowing guilt like poison. “I didn’t mean for you to become someone else,” he whispered, the words raw and foreign in his mouth. “I just wanted you with me. I didn’t realize I was asking you to lose yourself.”
His voice cracked. For the first time in years, he cried.
Quietly. Beside you.
Because you were still there. Breathing. Trying. But something in you had cracked.
And he had been the one to make the first fracture.
TSUKISHIMA KEI
That was the last thing he said to you that day. You had just finished gushing about your favorite show—something about parallel universes and time loops and a sad, smiley villain who reminded you of him (your words, not his). You were laughing, hands moving, eyes bright.
And he had sighed, leaned back in his chair, and muttered: “Are you done yet?”
You blinked. Laughed it off. “Right. Sorry. Got carried away.”
He didn’t respond. Just went back to scrolling.
After that, you didn’t talk about your favorite shows anymore. Stopped sending him memes. Stopped rambling in long voice notes that always ended with you laughing at your own jokes.
He noticed, of course. But didn’t say anything.
Yamaguchi did.
“She doesn’t text you stuff anymore, huh?”
Tsukishima scoffed. “Didn’t realize you were tracking my notifications.”
But later that night, alone in his room, he opened your chat. Scrolled through the silence. Past the last thing you sent—a meme, three weeks ago. A stupid one, about dinosaurs and headphones. He hadn’t even reacted to it.
The empty space beneath it felt louder than any rant you used to send.
The next day, he walked past a store on the way home and froze. In the window: a little keychain of your favorite character. The one you wouldn’t shut up about for two whole weeks. The one he pretended not to care about but secretly knew the name of.
He bought it.
He didn’t even think. Just… did.
The next morning, he dropped it on your desk before class. No warning. No note.
You blinked, staring at the tiny figure in your hand. “What’s this for?”
He adjusted his glasses, gaze fixed somewhere over your shoulder. “So you’ll annoy me again.”
You stared at him for a beat, stunned. Then your lips twitched.
You didn’t say anything. But that night, he got a message.
[you]: i just rewatched episode 8 again and i need you to understand how emotionally devastating that scene was. also this keychain is SO cute i might cry.
He read it three times. Smiled. Just a little.
(Translation: I forgive you. I missed you too.)
SUNA RINTARO
He had said it offhandedly. Barely looking up from his phone.
You had just sent him a selfie—your hair a little messy, eyes a little dull, but your smile was there. Honest. Tired, maybe. But still you.
And he said: “You look tired.”
You blinked at the screen, lips twitching in a way that didn’t quite reach your eyes. Then replied, “Yeah. Been a long day.”
After that, you stopped sending selfies. Started fixing your hair more before calls. Wore cooler tones. More neutrals. Nothing bright. Nothing bold. Started double-checking the lighting. Your angles. Yourself.
One day you joked, “Better not look tired again, right?” But your voice was too quiet. The kind that curls at the edge of something fragile.
Atsumu noticed it first.
“She doesn’t send you stuff anymore, huh?” Suna didn’t answer. “You told her she looked tired, didn’t you?”
He shrugged. But his thumb froze over your chat. Unread messages: none. The last picture you sent had disappeared after twenty-four hours. You didn’t save it. And you hadn’t sent another since.
The silence in the thread felt heavier than words.
So he stared at his camera for a long second, then sighed and snapped a picture. No filters. No angles. Just him—messy hair, hoodie hood half-on, eyes barely open.
He sent it with a message: “This is how I look when I actually look tired.” “You always look like someone I wanna keep looking at.”
You stared at the screen. Chest aching. Then, finally:
[you]: you're still bad at words. [suna]: yeah. but i’m trying.
And he was. In his own way—awkward, quiet, a little late.
But trying.
(And somehow, that was what mattered most.)
OIKAWA TOORU
You didn’t mean to bother him.
You had only sent three messages. Short ones. Thoughtful, even.
[you]: hey, u free later? [you]: you okay? you’ve been quiet today. [you]: let me know if you need anything. i’ll leave you be. promise.
And then it came. His reply.
Flat. Dismissive. Laced with exhaustion and that familiar edge he gets when he’s overwhelmed.
[oikawa]: you’re really needy sometimes.
You stared at the screen for a moment too long. Then you smiled. The kind of smile you force when people are watching. “lol sorry. my bad.” One last message. That was all.
And then you stopped.
You stopped texting first. Stopped sending him memes you knew would make him laugh. Stopped double-texting, triple-texting. Stopped reaching out at all.
You gave him what he seemed to want.
Space.
He noticed by dinner.
By the time the team wrapped up practice, Oikawa was already scrolling through your messages, rereading old ones like a lifeline. There were no new ones. No “I miss you.” No “Goodnight.” Just… nothing.
He opened your chat three times that night. Typed. Deleted. Typed. Deleted again.
What was he even supposed to say?
Iwaizumi noticed the silence too.
“She’s not needy,” he said while they packed up. “You’re just used to being worshipped.”
That stung.
Because it was true.
Oikawa Tooru had always been admired—on the court, online, in every room he walked into. He thought love looked like attention. He hadn’t realized until now that he’d treated your warmth like a reflex, not a choice. Until you took it away.
Until your silence said everything.
So three nights later, he was standing in front of your door.
A hoodie pulled over his head. Hands stuffed deep in his pockets. He looked small. Not in height—but in guilt.
He knocked. Once. Twice.
You opened it.
Your eyes were tired. Guarded. The space between you filled with things unsaid.
Oikawa’s voice was low. He didn’t even try to smile.
“…I miss your ‘needy,’” he said.
You blinked, lips parting slightly.
“I miss you.”
Still, you said nothing. Just looked at him like you weren’t sure if this was another performance or the real thing.
“I don’t want space,” he continued. “I want your clingy texts. I want the memes. The constant check-ins. The way you send me random thoughts at midnight.”
He looked down at his shoes.
“I want everything. Even the parts I didn’t appreciate.”
Silence.
Then he looked up, eyes raw.
“I only push away the people I care too much about,” he whispered. “And that’s you.”
It wasn’t poetic. It wasn’t dramatic. It was just honest.
For a long moment, you stood there. Then, slowly—quietly—you stepped aside.
He didn’t wait for permission.
He just walked in, shoulders trembling slightly.
You closed the door behind him.
And neither of you said another word. Because this time, he would show you through presence what he failed to express in words.
He came back.
And he didn’t let go.
SAKUSA KIYOOMI
It was just a bad game.
He was frustrated. Quiet. His shoulders tight. His jaw locked.
You knew how he got. You didn’t say anything.
You just reached out—softly, gently—for his hand. Not to fix him. Just to say I’m here.
But he pulled back like your touch burned him.
“Don’t touch me right now.”
The words weren’t loud. They didn’t need to be.
You blinked, hand frozen mid-air. Then you let it drop, your voice a quiet crumble. “…Sorry.”
That was it.
You stepped back. Gave him space. And from that day on, you stayed there.
You stopped reaching for him. Stopped brushing your fingers against his sleeve when you passed by. Stopped fixing his hair when it curled over his forehead. Stopped lacing your fingers through his on long walks.
You hesitated now—every time. Your hands hovered near him, never landing.
And Kiyoomi… didn’t notice.
Not at first.
But Komori did.
He waited until the locker room was empty, then slammed his locker shut louder than necessary.
“You told her not to touch you,” he said, arms crossed. “And now she doesn’t. Happy?”
Kiyoomi blinked, confused.
“She flinched when you brushed her arm, Omi. She flinched. That girl used to hold your hand like it was second nature.”
The words hit harder than they should’ve.
Komori left. Kiyoomi sat down, heart unsettled, brain replaying every tiny moment—your hands curled into your lap, your stiff shoulders, the way your gaze flicked to his fingers then away.
It was true.
You were gone, somehow, even while still beside him.
That night—no, early morning—he couldn’t sleep.
He stared at his phone screen in the dark, thumbs hovering. Then:
[sakusa]: i’m sorry. i didn’t mean to make you feel unwanted.
No typing bubbles appeared.
He didn’t expect them to.
But the next day, he found you outside the gym, hugging your arms to yourself, pretending not to see him.
He walked straight to you.
You looked up, cautious.
He didn’t speak. Not yet.
He just reached forward—and for once, it was him who was shaking—and took your hand. Both of his around yours, like anchoring something fragile.
You looked down at the connection. Then back at him.
His voice was hoarse, barely above a whisper.
“I want you close,” he said. “Even when I’m upset. Especially then.”
Your lip trembled.
He held your hand tighter.
And in that quiet moment, on the edge of hurt and healing, you let yourself believe him.
Because sometimes, people push away what they need most. And sometimes, if they’re lucky, they get the chance to hold it again.
KENMA KOZUME
You used to sit beside him.
No words. No noise. Just quiet company while his fingers danced across the keyboard, headset snug over his ears.
You liked being close. He never complained—until one night, between matches, he muttered without looking at you:
“You’re kind of distracting when I’m streaming.”
It wasn’t cruel. It wasn’t sharp.
But it stuck.
You blinked. “Oh.”
And after that… you stopped.
You stopped bringing snacks and dropping soft kisses to his temple when he won. Stopped curling up next to him. Stopped humming under your breath or watching from the corner of his screen.
You stayed in your room more.
Quiet. Out of sight.
Invisible.
Kenma didn’t notice at first—too busy adjusting his settings, managing collabs, climbing ranks.
But Kuroo noticed. Over Discord, mid-game, as Kenma sat in silence between rounds, Kuroo muttered:
“She doesn’t bug you anymore, huh?”
Kenma blinked. “What?”
“You look kinda lonely now.”
The words landed like a delayed hit.
Kenma glanced to the side—out of instinct—at the space where you used to sit. Empty. Still.
He stared longer than he meant to.
His fingers paused over the keys. The stream kept running. The chat wondered what happened. But Kenma didn’t move.
Later that night, he found himself in front of your door. A bag of your favorite snacks in hand. Slightly crumpled from how tightly he’d been holding it.
He knocked once. Soft.
You opened the door, eyes tired. Surprised.
He didn’t speak at first. Just held out the bag.
“…What’s this?” you asked quietly.
“Peace offering.”
Your brow arched. “You said I was distracting.”
He looked down, fingers flexing.
“I know,” he murmured. “I was wrong.”
You stayed quiet.
So he stepped forward, placed the snack gently beside his controller on his desk, then turned back to you.
“Come sit with me?” he asked. Then, even softer: “I miss your noise.”
You blinked.
And for the first time in days, your lips curved—just slightly.
He held his hand out toward you.
And this time, when you took it, he didn’t let go. Not even when the game started. Not even when chat noticed.
Because he wasn’t playing to win anymore. He just wanted you back beside him.
Even if you distracted him. Especially if you did.
MIYA ATSUMU
You hadn’t meant to cry.
You didn’t even realize it was happening—until your voice cracked mid-sentence, and you saw the way Atsumu’s expression tightened, not with concern, but irritation.
“I’m not in the mood for your drama right now.”
It hit like a slammed door.
You blinked once. Twice.
Then you nodded.
"Sorry," you said, voice barely there.
And after that—you stopped.
You stopped venting. Stopped opening up. Started smiling too wide, laughing a little too quickly.
"I’m fine." "Just tired." "Nothing big."
You said it so much, you almost believed it.
But Atsumu didn’t.
Not at first—he was too wrapped up in training, in pressure, in exhaustion and ego. But Osamu noticed.
“You broke something, y’know,” he said one night, tossing a towel over Atsumu’s head. “You might wanna fix it before it stays broken.”
That’s what finally made him pause.
And that’s what led him here— To the empty gym hallway, where he found you sitting against the wall, knees to your chest, eyes blank.
You didn’t notice him at first. Didn’t look up. Didn’t flinch.
He walked over, crouched down, and gently rested his forehead against your shoulder.
“…I’m the drama,” he whispered, voice raw. “Not you.”
You stayed quiet.
He clenched his fists. Loosened them. Then tried again.
“Please don’t hide your feelings from me. Ever.”
Your throat tightened.
You looked away, eyes burning, lip trembling—but still, you said nothing.
So Atsumu pulled you into his arms.
Held you there. Not asking for forgiveness, not rushing it—just there.
“I was stupid,” he mumbled into your hair. “I was tired and selfish and I made you feel like too much.”
His voice cracked.
“You’re not too much. I was just too stupid to handle someone real.”
You didn’t say anything right away.
But your hands slowly—finally—gripped the back of his jersey.
And that was enough.
Because this time, he wouldn’t let go first.
KITA SHINSUKE
You were tired. Not just physically, but the kind of tired that settles in your chest and makes everything feel heavier. You forgot to do something small — misplanted a row of seedlings in your shared garden, or maybe you overslept and missed breakfast with him.
He didn’t yell. He never did. Just that calm, steady voice:
“That’s not very disciplined of you.”
No anger. Just disappointment. And somehow, that was worse. It clung to you for days.
You started fixing your posture more, triple-checking tasks, waking up earlier than needed. No more lazy mornings. No more spontaneous dancing in the rain or lying in the grass just to feel the sun. You stopped being soft. You started being… correct.
And he noticed. How your laugh faded. How your hands trembled when you thought he was watching.
It was Aran who quietly pulled him aside one afternoon. They were harvesting. The sun was warm. But Kita felt cold at the words:
“She’s not blooming anymore. She’s surviving.” “You’re so focused on raising standards… you didn’t see her lower herself.”
That night, he found you tending the garden. The same bed you both built together. The soil was dry. The petals curled inward. And so were you.
He knelt beside you silently, heart heavy.
“Discipline matters,” he started. “But so does grace. I should’ve given you more of it.”
You didn’t look at him. Your fingers kept digging gently through the soil.
So he did something rare. He placed his hand over yours. Soft. Still. Sure.
“You don’t need to be perfect… to be precious to me.”
Your breath hitched. And when you finally looked up — eyes glassy, dirt smudged on your cheek — he smiled, just barely.
“Let’s grow softer things. Together.”
KAGEYAMA TOBIO
You’d tried something new. Maybe you curled your hair, tried eyeliner, wore that outfit you weren’t sure about but finally had the courage to put on. You didn’t expect a grand reaction. But you didn’t expect that either.
“You look weird.”
He didn’t laugh. Didn’t smirk. Just said it like a volleyball stat: flat. Unthinking. Unfiltered.
You smiled like it didn’t hurt. Went to the bathroom that night and wiped it all off. Told yourself it wasn’t a big deal.
But the next day, you played it safe. No more makeup. Neutral clothes. You toned it down, layer by layer, until it felt like you’d erased something. And he didn’t even seem to notice.
But others did. Sugawara asked Kageyama during practice, teasing but genuine:
“What happened to all those selfies she used to send you? I kinda miss the glitter.”
Kageyama blinked. Paused. Scrolled through his phone that night. Through bright lipstick, messy buns, silly filters, captioned doodles. Gone, now.
And then it hit him.
You’d stopped sending anything. Stopped showing anything.
He found you that night, seated quietly on the porch or your shared bench near the gym.
“Hey…”
You looked up. Tired. Dull.
He sat beside you, awkward fingers twitching on his knee.
“You’re… not weird. I mean, you are, but like. Not—bad weird. Like… your kind of weird. And I liked that.”
You didn’t respond. Just stared ahead.
So he added, softer this time:
“I’m stupid with words. But I didn’t mean to make you feel like you had to disappear.”
You swallowed. He turned slightly, desperate and clumsy:
“Please don’t change for something dumb I said. I didn’t realize how much I loved… all of that. All of you.”
You turned to him. Eyes glossy, voice small:
“Then why didn’t you say that sooner?”
He didn’t have an answer. So instead, he reached into his pocket and held out the phone screen — a selfie of you from a month ago.
“I saved this one. I liked your smile here the most.”
DAICHI SAWAMURA
It was something small. You tripped on a stair and instinctively, he caught your wrist, pulling you close before you fell.
Someone whistled. A teammate teased: “Ooh, Daichi, playing knight in shining armor?”
He panicked. Embarrassed. Tried to play it cool. So he shrugged and muttered,
“She’s not my responsibility.”
Laughed it off.
But your smile didn’t reach your eyes.
You’d never expected him to take responsibility for you. You weren’t asking to be saved. But you’d thought — maybe — it was okay to lean. To trust. To fall near him.
After that day, you stopped doing that.
You handled everything alone — even when your hands shook carrying too much, even when your emotions threatened to spill.
No more late-night texts. No more spontaneous hangouts. No more quiet moments walking beside him.
You avoided everyone for a while.
Until Suga found you missing again from another group outing and went straight to Daichi.
“She knows she’s not your responsibility, Daichi. She just thought… you gave a damn.”
That silenced him.
That night, he went up to the school rooftop — the place you always went when you needed to breathe. You were already there, arms wrapped around your knees, eyes on the sky.
He didn’t speak. Just sat beside you. Let the silence ache between you both.
Then finally, barely audible:
“I wanted to protect you. Not push you away.”
You didn’t look at him. You just said, hollowly:
“You don’t have to explain. I get it.”
But he shook his head gently.
“No, you don’t. I didn’t say that because I didn’t care. I said it because I was scared of how much I did.”
You blinked, eyes burning.
“You’re not my responsibility,” he whispered again — but this time softer, reverent. “You’re my person. That’s… different.”
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hiii your blog is literally the cutest thing, and I seriously loved the smau of what akaashi’s camera roll looks like. I was wondering if you’d be able to do one for suna too 😛
⌞ HQ Boys Cameraroll | Suna vers. ⌝ — ⋆.📷˚









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Suna's camra roll is the complete opposite of how he acts—chaotic. Most of his photos are pictures of you and your brothers, osamu and atsumu. He'll never and I mean NEVER miss an opportunity to catch you guys being stupid. He snaps photos of almost all of the idiotic and randomly odd things you do because—one: he loves you and two: he knows it annoys the fuck out of you and he gets a laugh out of it so win-win (not really). And the crazy thing is you can't escape it either because every time you think his phone is out of reach you'll hear a sudden click from behind you. Oh and god forbid you yell at him for it because all he'll say is, "come on y/n it's cute" in the most unconvincing snickering tone possible.
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i am a firm believer that suo hayato is a YEARNER and a tease. he has the mask that helps him stay grounded and rational but he just can't help but lose his mind around you. his ability to conceal it just makes him more sly.
he finds every casual reason to touch you. like move your hair from your face, wipe the crumbs from your mouth, and even flick your forehead sometimes when you do something reckless or stupid. your touch just gives him butterflies. makes him feel all happy and tingly and at peace.
and your almost-touches make him react the exact same way. he doesn't hold his hands behind his back when he walks with you. he lets it sway at his sides like yours do so there's a chance your knuckles might brush against each other.
he also intentionally stands or sits near you whenever he gets the chance—though he calmly denies it when your circle notices and points it out.
it's not that he's embarrassed. or that he doesn't want to outwardly express his fondness. suo is just content with what the two of you have. it's quiet and peaceful—a small world that only the two of you share.
although, he's pretty sure his friends already know and are just waiting for suo to announce it. sakura's romance radar has a 100% accuracy, after all.
he stares. unabashedly. he stares so much that your image is permanently ingrained in his head. he memorized every feature, every freckle, every beauty mark he sees on your skin. and he quietly recounts them whenever he looks at you. when you catch him staring, he doesn't look away. just smiles and watches you get flustered.
you're aware of suo's affection. how could you not? —when he's made them as obvious as he can when he knows you're the only one watching.
but he's never outright said it.
it's because he never needed to.
and he never needed to ask either—ask if you were fine with his advances and ask if you felt the same way. suo was cleverer than most and you trusted he could figure it out himself.
unspoken and unstated but not unexpressed.
suo saw you sitting on a cafe's outdoor table during patrol. sakura and nirei were bickering beside him but, this time, he didn't intervene like he always did. he slipped behind them to come to you.
you were busy studying and listening to music. he hasn't seen you in a while. he recalled you mentioning an important exam coming up and notices a half empty coffee mug on your table. you haven't been taking breaks like he suggested. he thought to himself.
he approached you from behind, gently tugging off an earphone. it made your brows furrow as you whipped your head at the unwanted disturbance. you soon regret it deeply.
his hand was on the back of your chair while he was leaning forward—your faces merely an inch apart.
"s-suo!?" his close-lipped smile stretched when he saw you erupt—cheeks flushed and eyes widened. suo made no effort to move away.
"you weren't responding when i was calling your name," he said innocently, straightening back his posture. "and you shouldn't have your volume too high. it's bad for your ears."
you forced yourself to regain your composure, tearing your eyes off his as you looked away, guiltily and quietly pausing your music.
"have you been taking breaks? the exam is a week away, if i remember correctly. i think you should allow yourself to take it easy," he added and watched your lips form a pout. he smiled to himself.
he was about to continue before you grumbled under your breath, "first time we've seen each other in days and the first thing you do is nag me.."
suo's smile faltered before it softened. a familiar feeling of butterflies fluttering in his stomach as he looked at you adoringly. "aw, i've missed you, too."
"i-i didnt say that??!" your blush deepened.
"i just worry about you! you haven't been listening to me." he flicked your forehead. "i guess i have no other choice than to force you to rest," he said with a faux sigh.
"literally no one is forcing you!!" you yelled, rubbing the spot on your forehead he hit. "and that hurt!"
"should i kiss it better?" he teased, leaning forward once more.
you were about to curse him out when you hear a commotion from behind suo. he looked back as well. you see nirei fussing over sakura—bent over and weakly holding onto the other for support. his face was beet red and you could almost see the smoke steaming from his ears.
"oh, dear," suo chuckled lightly at the sight. he turns back to you and smiles apologetically. "our patrol is almost over," he stated, "would you mind waiting here until i return?"
you thought it over before sighing defeatedly. there's no stopping him when he's already made up his mind. "you don't have to," you replied.
he reached over to move stray pieces of hair behind your ear. "i want to," he reassured. you gave him a small smile, thankful.
he waved back as he walked towards his friends, continuing his patrol and leaving your heart racing.
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