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perfume by samuel richardson, 2024, acrylic, colored pencil, ink, pull chain, & stain on framed canvas, 14.25 × 17.25 inches

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"Sometimes while I ride the subway I try to look at each person and imagine what they look like to someone who is totally in love with them. I think everyone has had someone look at them that way, whether it was a lover, or a parent, or a friend, whether they know it or not. It's a wonderful thing, to look at someone to whom I would never be attracted and think about what looking at them feels like to someone who is devouring every part of their image, who has invisible strings that are connected to this person tied to every part of their body. I think this fun pastime is a way of cultivating compassion. It feels good to think about people that way, and to use that part of my mind that I think is traditionally reserved for a tiny portion of people I'll meet in my life to appreciate the general public. I wish I thought about people like this more often. I think it's the opposite of what our culture teaches us to do. We prefer to pick people apart to find their flaws. Cultivating these feelings of love or appreciation for random people, and even for people I don't like, makes me a more forgiving and appreciative person toward myself and people I love. Also, it's just a really excellent pastime."

— Dean Spade, from his essay For Lovers and Fighters

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Franz Kafka

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Dorianne Laux, from “As It Is”, What We Carry

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do it scared. do it whimpering. do it whining and pleading. do it with a raging hard-on

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boys are a kind of chewtoy

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tramp stamp that reads “the enormity of my desire disgusts me”

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Sorry to anyone who follows expecting a specific aesthetic. Best I can give is a headache.

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when im not laughing and having fun i'm being tortured and tormented and psychically attacked. that's what it's like being a dark jester

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time is moving so fast and being alive on this earth is so scary and im not even in love. whatever. *watches another movie*

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you'll be hanging out with the sweetest person ever and they'll randomly tell you a childhood experience that would have vaporised you and you're like oh we should find your parents and murder them irl

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YOU WILL FIND A WAY!!!! YOU WILL FIND A WAY . You will find a WAY ….. you WILL find a way . You will find a way you will find a way……!! YOU WILL FIND A WAY YOU WILL FIND A WAY you will find a Way you will (find) a way you will find. a way you will find a way YOU WILL FIND A WAY!!!!!!!

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[on the verge of defeat and delirious with lust] i could be a wound in your heart that will never heal

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the true elation and dopamine hit I get when I have a friendly random conversation with a stranger in public needs to be studied