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↳ Now I lay me down to sleep, and pray to Castiel to get his feathery ass down here.

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samantha in the back fighting for her life while homotron 3000 goes for a thigh grab

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its important to write fanfiction no one cares about 👍

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computer how to make friends when you’re weird and autistic and grew up isolated. computer how to interact with people who seem cool. computer how to not be a skittish stray dog. computer please

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i dont think we talk enough about how crazy “don’t you know your sam” is. like. frodo was actively under the influence of the most corrupting object in middle earth, an influence that was HEIGHTENED by close proximity to the nazgul, and all it took to snap him out of it was sam asking him to remember he’s his. what the fuck.

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sometimes my brain just goes

“so. i think sam and frodo should have kissed. aaaaand my feeling about that is…how do you know they didn’t?”

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You know that time of the year when you have this uncontrollable need to read your favourite fanfiction about your comfort couple?

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just rewatched the fellowship for the dozenth time. i'm still such a mess y'all. i love the fellowship so much, these movies are everything to meeeeee

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yeah i’m writing again. yeah i put on the same songs on loop in order to focus. yeah i opened the same document 14 times today without writing anything. it’s called playing with the idea of writing. look it up

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thinking about how dean started his prayers, the progression over the years. thinking about [well, i feel stupid doing this, but i am fresh out of options] [now i lay me down to sleep, i pray to castiel to get his feathery ass down here] [dear castiel, who art maybe running his ass away from heaven] [castiel, the, uh, fate of the world is in the balance, so come on down here] [cas, you got your ears on?] [hey, cas. you out there, buddy?] [cas, are you there?] [cas, I hope you can hear me]

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I do enjoy Dean getting initially twitchy and weird over fake dating Cas for a case and being super awkward with it BUT I also love the idea(and actually find it to be a bit more canon) of him immediately falling into the role perfectly and Cas being the awkward one. Because Deans a romantic at heart and if he’s gonna play a role he’s gonna play it. He goes full romcom. Pet names just rolling off the tongue and pda becomes instant second nature. He’s slapping his ass and slipping his arm around his waist while Cas is stiff as a statue. He manually puts Cas’ hand into his back pocket while they’re walking like “cmon man we gotta sell it!” He plants a kiss on wide eyed Cas’ cheek and manages to not blush until he’s rounded the corner while Cas bluescreens. Hes got their hands intertwined every chance he gets. Cas eventually catches up and when hes the one to initiate that’s when Dean loses every bit of cool he had. Cas calls him pet names and he instantly chokes on his own tongue. Cas slides his hand into Deans back pocket like he told him to and Dean almost jumps out of his skin. Cas kisses him and you can almost see the smoke pouring out of his ears. He can dish it out but he can’t take it

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Happy pride to this lil bi guy <3

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upper border’s achilles mourning patroclus, supposed to be a reference to castiel’s own death side border’s supposed to be heaven waiting for castiel to make his descision

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ok so i didn’t write today but i did spend three hours staring into the void while thinking about a plot point i haven’t gotten to yet. so that’s basically writing. it’s the vibes that count.