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Why I can't enjoy summer? TW: Vent

Like because I don't have a pack or a family to enjoy it with, I feel like nothing. I need a pack, a tight pack for myself. But no, I have to be alone almost all of the time and when I'm not alone it's bad friends who don't actually care about me or I'm with my parents and need to tolerate my dad...

I feel so alone, there is no one for me... And yes you can all say "I'm with you" but you aren't here, you are there, probably in another country. I need real life connection. I just don't know what else to do anymore, no one, not even my support network, has any idea what to do...

I'm doomed to be a Wolf with no pack, and you know what happens to packless Wolves? They die.

I feel like a wounded Wolf in a ditch, but the ditch is my home that feels like a prison.

I'm so tired of my life.

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bonus points if they claim it's a mental illness / lycanthropy

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Therianthropy

Therianthropy is an alterhuman/alterbeing identity where someone identifies as an animal on any level including physical

Some therians are not aware they are human, that is valid

"But therianthropy is a connection!" this is a common misconception. If you have a connection to an animal(s), that would be Animal/Otherhearted

"You need gear to be a therian!" again another misconception. A lot of therians do not have gear. Nor do they need gear, as therianthropy is an involuntary identity

"Physical therians/transspecies/holotheres are lycanthropes!" SHUT THE HELL UP I BEG 💔 Lycanthropy is werewolf culture. CLINICAL Lycanthropy is a rare disorder where someone believes that they can physically transform into a werewolf, like twilight or something

I BEG OF YOU TO DO RESEARCH. THIS COMMUNITY IS SO ABLEIST 💔

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Look at my new collars! A green and veeery dark purple teeth/fang collars! These were made by my friend _luxniky_ on Instagram (sadly they only ship to Finland at this time)!

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fuck puritan culture eat that dog food and sleep in your cage. i love physical therians and transspecies creatures. nobody should have to dilute their identity because it's 'too far'

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Identity can be shown by literally anything :)

Im not great at drawing detail like my styles have (I can't focus on one piece that long), so I just post here sometimes about my outfits and stuff ^^

Style and being a creature

So, usually my transspecies identities have their own styles, that I associate with them. My theriotypes/kintypes really don't since those aren't a big part of my identity, at least compared to being transspecies.

Wolf - this might be "clichee" but I associate my Wolfity with emo style, like blacks, reds, sometimes greys, sometimes a little bit of purple and "scary esque" items like I just ordered two collars from a friend, who made collars with canine teeth pattern. Its this spiky, harsh feeling I get from Wolfity that makes me identify like this. I also feel more Wolf like when I wear my rap/hiphop style clothes and graffiti style clothes.

Wolfdog - even tho Wolf and Wolfdog are pretty close to one on another - they have different styles. Note: I feel more Wolf-like atm due to trauma, but I'm trying to touch my dog side again. But anyway. My Wolfdog (Im Siberian Husky x Wolf) identity I associate with a little softer fashion, like pastel goth, pinks with blacks and greys, sometimes even scene. I feel like this identity is much softer than my Wolf identity, and I want to show that with my style, I just feel very Wolfdog like when I wear those kinds of clothes, nothing super scary but maybe like candy gore styles too.

I still need to figure out a style I want to show for my Divine Dragon identity, I have no idea what kind of style Id like to use for that. Like literally no idea, I dont even have a look in mind that I look like as a Dragon so its difficult.

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Style and being a creature

So, usually my transspecies identities have their own styles, that I associate with them. My theriotypes/kintypes really don't since those aren't a big part of my identity, at least compared to being transspecies.

Wolf - this might be "clichee" but I associate my Wolfity with emo style, like blacks, reds, sometimes greys, sometimes a little bit of purple and "scary esque" items like I just ordered two collars from a friend, who made collars with canine teeth pattern. Its this spiky, harsh feeling I get from Wolfity that makes me identify like this. I also feel more Wolf like when I wear my rap/hiphop style clothes and graffiti style clothes.

Wolfdog - even tho Wolf and Wolfdog are pretty close to one on another - they have different styles. Note: I feel more Wolf-like atm due to trauma, but I'm trying to touch my dog side again. But anyway. My Wolfdog (Im Siberian Husky x Wolf) identity I associate with a little softer fashion, like pastel goth, pinks with blacks and greys, sometimes even scene. I feel like this identity is much softer than my Wolf identity, and I want to show that with my style, I just feel very Wolfdog like when I wear those kinds of clothes, nothing super scary but maybe like candy gore styles too.

I still need to figure out a style I want to show for my Divine Dragon identity, I have no idea what kind of style Id like to use for that. Like literally no idea, I dont even have a look in mind that I look like as a Dragon so its difficult.

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How trauma changed my therianthropy +18 TOPIC! TW: Discussion of rape, slight discussion of BDSM

So I wanted to discuss this here, since many say you are born a therian and can't choose or change your theriotypes. It is partially true, it is true you don't choose to be a therian, but it can change due to anything rly. Even just growing up. Anyway...

Previously I felt very dog like, I questioned many dog-types, but at the end I found out Im mostly a Siberian Husky. I was very submissive type, I loved doing things to others (still do tbh), I felt way less Wolf-like for a long while, so I was more of a Wolfdog that time. I was that "Golden Retrievet Boyfriend" basically, I needed validation of others, needed attention (still do this too but Ill discuss this later), would happily do anything anyone would tell me. My dream was to have a boyfriend who would tell me to do things, choose anything he seems better for me, and choose my life basically.

Then someone took advantage of that. Best thing I remember was "I thought saying no and not wanting to do things meant "go harder""... He was apparently this "BDSM king who knew everything and how to be safe and yadi yadi yada" and I believed him. Anyway...

Now I feel much more Wolf-like than Dog-like. I do still need attention (since I most likely have dependent personality disorder or something like that), but ... it feels so different. Now I dont want to be submissive lil dog anymore. I dont want to do orders others want me to, I dont want to behave like a good dog. I want power and I want to be the dominant type in the relationship. I want to decide. I want to be a literal queen/king. I want to be the boss of my life. But I can't do it, because of being dependent.

Im always depressed when Im alone, and mostly not when Im with friends, the thing is, I have 1 irl friend and she lives in another city (and she isnt a fan of my animalistic behaviour at all, she likes my human side (that feels its going away slowly..)). But I cant be that "house husband/wife" anymore, that I wanted to be before. I don't know who I am, I know what I am but not WHO. I need people but Im afraid of them, I need people but I want to take control over them, I need people, but they use me and I want a revenge Im not gonna do because Im almost sane still. Rape made me feel even more inhumane I already was.

This is why most likely Im transspecies or holothere (I like the term transspecies for reasons, it describes me better I think). Previously I was very human - I acknowledged my humanity. But not anymore. Previously I was a Human Dog thing, now I am purely a Dragon/Wolf. I still have other theriotypes and kintypes, but they are not at all like my Dragon and Wolf identities.

Now I am God-like royalty Dragon with all elements, I know I feel more than what others are on some level now, or Im supposed to be, but I dont mean it in an egoistic way. I just want my lair (home) to be safe, and people I interact to be safe, to have a guard who will keep me safe, that I do not have, or have enough power to keep myself safe anyway.

Atleast now I dont need validation from others, haters can hate me and I just set them on fire or something lol (metaphorical, I literally dont care what others think anymore).

Also on random note, it made me feel less like a trans man, and now Im genderfluid and like all genders, previously I was stricktly trans man and gay.

Sorry this is a mess of a text, I just wrote my feelings here.

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Today was an emo Wolf day uwu

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I added more mane to my horse mask! It might be a little less realistic but I like it more this way :)

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I dont mind hate or anything, I literally dont care, but coming in my dms saying Im gross while you do this, is very amusing and a bit sad.

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wooo found you! I'm that one from Instagram

my therian acc is @im-not-just-physical 🐝

Hi friend! :) Followed you back!!

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I found something crazy as a therian...

So many do quads to help connect to their theriotypes I find it clunky and slow.

I found something weird, and unexpected to connect to my hunting instincts...

Karting!

Yes, karting. I once was karting in an amusement park and they went pretty slow. But my brother has hobby karts and is a car person all the way. So I got to test a kart that went like over 90/kmh, tho I did not go as fast, since the race track isnt just straight.

The place was in a small town , surrounded by nature and the driving feels like Im achieving the run power of my theriotypes. It feels so great, the adrenaline of hunting, trying to beat the others (tho I was the slowest since Im new lol) the tactics used, the turns need to be planned to hunt tos succeed, to not roll out in the field. You have to be fast enough or your kart will stop - you lose your prey. The focus on the track or youll do mistakes that will make your hunt less successful.

It felt a we so me!

I highly recommend to try, I never was a car person but oh man. It feels like hunting so much for me. It feels awesome. The adrenaline and the speed, high focus and man, it is exhausting! Way more than quads, it really feels in the core!

And the best thing is, you can start slow, like I, and when you get hang of it its like my brother teaching me to hunt better as a pup haha.

It can also kinda feel like flying also. But for that, I recommend an electric unicycle, its not as tough to learn as it seems but its been described as the closest thing to flying feeling human can achieve! My other brother is a scooter/euc nerd.

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Arctic Grunge moodboard for @yourlocal-therian

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Kin vent

You know what is stupid? Me getting all my energy leaving my body after.... the trip to the grocery store.

Im an animal who needs to hunt and crush bones in my jaws, but no. Im dead after choosing what I will eat for the next couple of days.

Im a divine beast, a dragon, who is royalty and has all the elements with two sets of wings but walking like a kilometer, Im exhausted. I get it Im fat for a human, but still.

Im supposed to breathe fire among other elements, but I barely get enough air at all. I feel I dont get enough air 24/7, especially when I speak and walk. Not even run, but WALK. I might have like asthma or something, and like I said, Im fat, but IM SUPPOSED TO BE A BEAST!

Im so tired once again of this body.

Dont get me started on needing to stab myself with a needle every time I eat + every morning. It is so tiring! Im not supposed to be a weakling human with multiple conditions but a BEAST.

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Being a puppy outside..! Featuring my new Spyro cap (literally my favorite boy)

This might be my new casual outfit I will use outside more

Idk if its wrong to say but I feel so handsome in this outfit!

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My newest Kin bag! It has some meaning, like the canine stuff its outside and dragon stuff inside since Im a canine outside and dragon inside.