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How have you been?

Less mad now. I'm trying to be more peaceful. Let things go or roll off my back type of thing. I'm tired of drama and dealing with things that upset me or simply don't make me happy. Ive realized leaving it be and keeping my own peace is more important.

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A tip for excellent writing I just learned: Don't introduce a character with their Dramatic Backstory. It makes readers go "oh alright this is the Dramatic Background Story Character" and establishes a baseline of Tragic, either for the story as a whole or this character in particular. With no contrast of light and dark, pure darkness isn't impactful, it just looks like the absence of anything to look at.

If you really want someone's dramatic backstory to hit the audience like a gut punch, let them get to know the character first. That way the dark backstory doesn't come off as a description of who they are, but an explanation to why they are the way they are. Bonus points for connecting it to something that's already been established as a part of the character - what a devastating blow to suddenly put together that hold on, that funny quirky thing that they always do is a fucking trauma response.

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Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision. Then I remember how you hurt me. I remember I can't talk to you because of what you did. I remember when I needed you how you let me down. I remember asking you to be there and you chosing Alex. I remember being alone while you and him had a grand time. I tried not to let it get to me, but when it did, I had no choice but to check out. You hurt me. Again.

Seeing you two at the concert was both weird and sickening. But it let me know I made the right choice. I did the right thing walking away from you. My mistake has been letting you back in when I do. When I remember the hurt. The betrayal. And the anger resurfaces. I remember the lies that you tried to force me to believe. I remember why I don't talk to you. Why I can't talk to you. Why I don't have you around. Because of him. Because you chose him. And because you lie to me about it. The same way you used to lie to me about Jackson. I hope he was worth it.

I don't come on here anymore because all it does at this point is remind me of the betrayal that I once considered a happy relationship. After years of therapy I realize now what you've done. How fucked up what you and him did was. And how it effected me even though I was trying not to let it.

So goodbye. Good luck. And I hope you guys live happily ever after. Far away from me preferably.

And if your wondering why I dropped off again and disappeared. It's because you lied to me again. And expected me to believe it.

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just because it could be worse, doesn't mean you don't deserve better btw

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I see you no longer live at old house. Time passes things change. Hope you're doing well.

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I saw this, and it made me think of you. I just try not to do that anymore because we live separate lives now.

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I feel mad a lot more than I should.

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I hope you're doing okay too.

He's my little love. My little snuggle buddy. He's getting big so fast.

I have 2 pretty cool jobs now. Brit comes with me to them so I never have to leave him.

How are the plants?

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I miss Jinx a lot. Last night I dreamed about her all night. It's probably just the baby.

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Maze is getting fat with me. #chunkypuppy oh and her birthday is Wednesday.

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Rock on chicken head. Ps. I think my ass is finally bigger than yours.

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How is life chicken?

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Brave new world is a show now. Although they changed like the whole plot point its pretty good.

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I had to admit Jinx to the hospital. She has kidney failure.

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The stray we took in pulled down a curtain to use as a mattress..