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I feel mostly okay with my body. I am a bit confused, why may women don’t seem like theirs.

Is it because my body is so good? That is ridiculous, it is not. But it is a fine one. The things which are bothering me slightly are things I could change. But I leave them. Fat and also some scars. The scars don’t bother me, they are the proof that my body is amazing.

I am ranting on this below.

I am maybe a bot arrogant about this, so I am saying sorry beforehand.

First I thought, how stupid people can be, to not like their body. For me it was always clear that this was some of the better parts of me. As my mind is always a bit ... scattered, to say it this way. My body is as much me as my mind is. It defines me as much as what I am thinking. I wouldn’t be without it. That is fundamental and awesome.

After watching me in the mirror. Yes, I do this, for fun mostly. Also for thinking. In front of the mirror, it dawned to me at least. They don’t choose to be hating their body, they are kinda forced to do it. They can’t do it any other way. That was really weird, I also felt bad for damning these people hating their body for being stupid.

I feel for you. I have times, when I don’t like my body too much. But I know, it is my period closing in so I just decide to go on. I can do this, but to those, who have a difficulties or worse, I wish you the most of strength you might get. Your body is awesome, it lets you see these words, it lets you sit up straight, swallow food and digest it. It may not look like you imagine it, but it can do its main work splendidly, keeping you alive.

Greetings from your average arrogant person to actually nobody, it seems.

Radschel <3

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Petition for the happenings in Chechnya... Or rather against...

You know what I mean

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I don’t get the whole outrage.

Damn it, you don’t have to like it, but tolerating is too much to ask for? She is using it for her own pleasure, how bad! She is using it in another way, than it was intenden.

People always do. If you think it is repulsive, then tell her. Explain it, but here you are just ranting your disgust. Because she is using your character, you see in another way, differently than you.

She wants to have somebody to draw she wants to jump in bed? Yes, excuse, things like this happens. Degraded to a sex symbol? This is most propably just an exemption. I do even guess, Moana is more degraded to a sex symbol than him.

The Internet is full of more and less disgusting things. If you feel like vomiting, go on.

Sooooooo after the other post I just came across this picture from another german artist called “KishiShiotani” You probably won’t know or guess it, but it is supposed to be Maui from the famous Disney Movie “Moana”. Maui? Did he just say it’s THAT Maui? Yep it is….. The description of this picture simply says, rough translated: From the Category: “You didn’t know you wanted this, unless you see it” May I introduce? SEXY BISHI MAUI I’m crying….I love him !!! Sorry but I didn’t want someone to degrade Maui to a sex-object. Maui who originally plays an important role in Maori culture. Maui who comes from a movie for KIDS.

_” I wanted to draw him as a sexy boy, from another life, I would like to jump into bed with (to fuck) HAHAHAHAHA”_ I can’t express how disgusted I am by this. Well if you feel disgusted from this now too then…

You’re Welcome

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First mpression: USA trying to imitate Europe.

Guys, as long as you speak the same language and eat the same shit (cheese out of a can, already divided eggs), you will be the same country to all outsiders. Also sending soldiers in the same army to invade/free countries.

Also, that is in almost every country like this, I’d suspect.

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File a suit, file a suit, FILE A SUIT.

Sorry, but that is plain sexual harrassment, he should never ever contact at all.

kaseysuxks

it’s not just young men that do this

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ADS

Maybe some people don’t get it. But I try to describe what it is like to do something (simple) you just hate doing. You need to do it and the result is preferable but the way is not. Like cleaning or doing school work.

It seems like it is different for me as for you folks. I had once such a crass reaction to doing my house work.

I wanted to write about the theme, I needed to write about and I just felt so much discomfort. It felt geniunely false. Absolutely wrong. I felt like I did something very wrong. My very own brain betrayed me by not even thinking. I was thinking verbally and I cold not go farther. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING was possible. I knew, I needed this for my future, and I knew that it was really just easy stuf, BUT I COULD NOT DO IT: I COULD NOT:

Seriously, how to do stuff, when even when your brain is just not working with you?

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I have ADD, the mixed form, and also taking medication. Got an intelligence text to study my brain-RAM, as I call it. Quite low. Intelligence ok... But whatever.I studied my ... impairment as far as an hobbyist could. Also my mother is psychollogist, this helped getting clearer. Sadly enough I am only under psychiatrist care, but I want psycholgical therapy back again. Having depressions coming back and forth. That’s about my condition.

I realised, that the meth-medication is only as effective as you also change you behavior according to it. (Methyphenidat stuff, that is what I am taking). It does change something, yup. But I realised for me right now, that I really need a psychologist, to get my fucking shit organised and going. Not everything is done, when you take the medicine, it gets you started. I have no idea, about your exact condition, so I am sorry if I misinterperet something. It seems to me, that you expect the medicine to be doing wonders. I do see, that it is shitty, that you can’t just try medicine out, but amphetamine also works different in an ADD and another brain. Plus, the symptoms are not specific at all, most symptoms can also happen at other dysfunctions. I do understand why your doctor is maybe really careful.

Although I said so much, I wish you the best. American health care seems really to suck, so I hope you get along fine or at least at as good as possible.

ADD-hug from over the big pond....

Radschel

You can check if Obamacare covers your meds btw. Only thing it doesn't cover for me (I have cancer and heart problems) is paxil, an antidepressant but that costs 4 dollars without insurance lmao. You should definitely check into it, I don't even pay a premium because it's based on your monthly income. 300 dollar plan, basically free. 10 mins of research did a lot. Covers mental health too btw!

im already on obamacare so like while i do appreciate that youre trying to help you can assume that when i talk about my mental health ive already exhausted just about every option

it took me 2 yrs to actually get to a psychiatrist who then decided she would not prescribe me the meds for my ADD that i needed because “we can’t just try things to see if they’ll work” (THATS EXACTLY HOW IT WORKS ACTUALLY) and told me i had to get a neuropsych exam which took me a year and a half to get because either 1. my insurance wouldn’t cover it or 2. the only person that WOULD take my insurance was inpatient only and only offered exams for people who were an immediate danger to themselves

and once i got my neuropsych exam done i was told to wait another month to get the results, which i haven’t gotten yet, and then after that i’m going to have to wait another month or two months to see if my psych will even give me the meds that i need even IF i have a diagnosis, which by that time, who knows what state of mind i’ll be in. probably not a very good one.

my roommate is in the same situation. she definitely has ADD as well and so far has not been able to get anyone to help her. She went from taking 150mg of Wellbutrin XL to the next highest dose, 350mg, to the absolute highest, 450mg, and that fucked her up real good for about a week and a half if not more, leaving her to do nothing but sleep.

she spent about 3 hours on the phone playing phone tag and getting passed around only to once again be sent to the same psych who gave her that 450 doseage when she said she KNEW it wouldn’t help and would make things worse, and now she gets to go back to him to yell at him and say I TOLD YOU SO and potentially still not get anything that will actually help her.

so like, while visible/obvious illnesses such as cancer and heart issues (which i completely sympathize with, i am sorry you are dealing with that and i do hope you go into remission) gets treated very easily, invisible problems like depression, bipolar and ADHD often go untreated or ignored by like every doctor until it gets so bad that you end up committed for a week or so like i did back in october of 2005. 

sorry! i didn’t mean to go off on you, i’m just like, being very blunt about this. the US Government’s healthcare system for mentally ill people fucking sucks.

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just sharing it to remember it

a series of composition tips i’d been sharing on twitter!

and since some people had asked, i’ve put up a pdf version of this on gumroad along with a layered psd of one of the example images too

tips would be really appreciated, but it’s up for free!

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And here I am, having an more than 5 year old Wacom Bamboo with no extra stuff and I have to buy my own nibs. Also trying to reuse the used ones, which are less edgy than the new used ones. :/

Well, except for some flaws, it still works ok, so this is fine, too.

I’m absolutely embarrassed that I never knew this before but…

The pen stand that most Wacom products come with?

It twists off and has a bunch of nibs in it. I’ve been buying extra nibs when they were in this stupid thing the whole time.

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fck

Germany hate crime: Nearly 10 attacks a day on migrants in 2016

3,533 attacks on migrants and asylum hostels 2.545 attacks on individual migrants 560 people injured, including 43 children 988 attacks on housing 217 attacks on refugee organisations and volunteers http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/amp/39096833

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Being a woman

I tried today a bit of picking my eyebrows. Do girls do that every week? Man, it was tiring. I’ll avoid make-up always! :D

Reminded me again, that sometimes being a man could be better. At least about grooming. Maybe less creative while staying in the “normal” corner, but still.

Or I will just stay in the weird corner as well.

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I know, not much people will read this, but still, I will reblog it.

I support this, as this person seems to have put in really much thought in this decision ans is making no light of it. If it is possible to say it this way?

I don’t know what else to say about this except I’d appreciate it if you took the time to share. 

This is something that has been causing me a great deal of mental anguish for a long, long time, and I’m just. Not sure if I can cope with it for much longer. I understand that making this fundraiser is such a huge longshot and I’m not expecting anything from it, but I figure if I don’t try, I’ll never know.

Thanks for reading.

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K-Kevin!

dammit kevin

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Yap.

Shot Land to buy.

Welcome to the wild wild East in Germany, where even the Land must be killed first, before you can buy it. Or… where everything is dead.

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Yeah. Have fn :P

Some ten minute comic….

I have so many flaws,but self loathing is not one of them.

Not drawing often enough is.

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Rant.

Seriously, I am done. I hate talking to women, as they are so complicated. I am a woman, but, shit.

CAN’T YOU JUST SAY WHAT YOU WANT? It doesn’t always matter what others say or feel. Just do it.

You don’t want me to ��take” away this guy there? Well, too bad, neither of us can. Seriously, I was just talking 15 min and thinking more about this stupid little shit then after hours of talking with my best buddy. I am even writing here.

I am going to live on a lonely island.

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Just thought, how beautiful this little hanging snow on a branch looks like. Also, the pysics, how the snow is just connected so well, that it doesn’t fall down. Beautiful.

So... Have a snow snake ;)