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I've decided to leave my blog up because I feel like there are a lot of good memories I've recorded on here and I hate to think those would all just disappear with my blog, and I don't really have the time to sift through everything to save photos and whatnot. I just won't be active on here anymore. Love you all 💕

I'm taking this account down tomorrow because there's just a lot going on rn and I keep using this place as a way to distract myself when I really need to be focusing on solving a few things. Hope everyone is well, continues to be well, or that things improve. I love you all and am so appreciative for the support I've received in the last few months ❤️ I'm going to miss our interactions so so much ❤️

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I'm taking this account down tomorrow because there's just a lot going on rn and I keep using this place as a way to distract myself when I really need to be focusing on solving a few things. Hope everyone is well, continues to be well, or that things improve. I love you all and am so appreciative for the support I've received in the last few months ❤️ I'm going to miss our interactions so so much ❤️

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one of my biggest gripes with bdsm & "taboo" kink discourse was the overused "coping mechanism" defense that i hear oh so much. especially on twitter, from women in heterosexual relationships.

i won't go into the "not all coping mechanisms are good coping mechanisms" argument, but i will propose this;

when you are allowing a man to engage in a non consensual fantasy, or incest fantasy, or otherwise violent and abusive fantasy, what trauma is he coping with and relieving?

is he getting off to helping you re-contextualise a situation where you lost all control, in a controlled and safe environment? or is he enjoying the power to hurt & abuse you that you are offering to him on a silver platter?

and do you think, that at the end of the day, your safety & healing is what turns him on? or the fact that he can freely abuse a traumatised woman, under the guise of "fantasy" and "sexual liberation"?

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men spend decades making tits or gtfo jokes and get back in the kitchen jokes and ball and chain jokes and women are hysterical and emotional and irrational jokes on top of ACTUALLY isolating women in every social sphere but the second a few people start being like actually I hate men cause they treat people like shit they're suddenly like 🥺🥺 wow that is so mean. My feelings...this is why we turn into incels with rape fantasies cause you bitches isolate us 🥺 it's not funny 🥺

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Sexual conflict arises from differences in reproductive interests between the sexes. We allowed the female harvestman Phalangium opilio to sequentially mate with two different males to examine female sexual receptivity in this species. Virgin females were more sexually receptive than non-virgins. Males exhibited a high interest in repeated copulations with the same female, often engaging in aggressive behaviours such as biting and reversed sexual cannibalism. Fellatio, a behaviour in which females lick the male’s penis, was observed in 44% of trials and was associated with female unwillingness to mate and shorter copulation duration. Fellatio was repeatable, suggesting that it is influenced by individual characteristics or underlying physiological factors. Female lifespan was negatively correlated with the total number of eggs produced, suggesting a trade-off between reproduction and longevity. These findings provide evidence of the appearance of fellatio, a female mating strategy that evolved as compensation of avoiding unwanted sexual intercourse.

Prokop, P., Litavský, J. & Provazník, Z. Female Phalangium opilio use fellatio to compensate sexual avoidance. Sci Rep 14, 25586 (2024).

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tibetan wolf puppy with horn

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I’m always looking for voids

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I can't believe I ever went 3 years without crying once that is crazy.

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I could totally write an ancient text

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The Five Love Languages has cooked our generation. Wow you’re a straight couple and the man’s love language is physical touch (sex) and the woman’s love language is acts of service (waiting on him hand and foot)? Revolutionary.

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Sooo excited for my family to leave the house so I can cry hard af with no restraint ❤️

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when kafka said ‘you wouldn’t believe the kind of person I could become if you wanted it’ and when brontë said ‘if you ever looked at me with what I know is in you, I would be your slave’ and when Sartre said ‘if I’ve got to suffer it may as well be at your hands’

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Whatever I've tried to embrace my natural self the past two years (minimal makeup aside from lashes because I literally get sick looking at myself without it) and I haven't touched my naturally curly hair with heat or dye etc and nothing has changed. I see myself just as poorly as I did two years ago, if not worse. I (and other people) will always know how I looked when I changed everything and those pictures always exist so there's no way to just forget about it and move on. Life is too short for me to spend so much time hating myself and trying to minimize my presence as much as possible. I just need to make the necessary adjustments to my appearance so I'm not focusing on how people see me the entire time I'm outside. This is so bleak but I'm not strong enough sorry.

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everyone be cool about my horrible vibe please

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But my body is beautiful and epic unfortunately -_-

Realized I have a crisis of self-perception literally just because treat me like I'm pretty because I'm wearing makeup 100% of the time but I know I'm ugly underneath (genuinely. My self perception isn't warped in that respect like my face is genuinely unattractive it's fine) like it's so hard bro it's so harddd

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Realized I have a crisis of self-perception literally just because treat me like I'm pretty because I'm wearing makeup 100% of the time but I know I'm ugly underneath (genuinely. My self perception isn't warped in that respect like my face is genuinely unattractive it's fine) like it's so hard bro it's so harddd