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via jeffsaturSATS @ youtube | 19062025

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when things are already pretty horsey but then the situation

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this puppy currently being fostered by a rescue i follow makes me feel like. like. i don’t know. she’s a bug

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Happy pride month to my dad. When I came out as bi to him, this man googled what it ment, look at me and said "ohh. Yeah. You get that from me. You'd have far more siblings of I only shaged women." And went right back to his work emails.

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love is stored in the fictional couple i’ve gotten overly invested in

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If I’m attracted to someone, I’m automatically thinking about biting their neck

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there will be a show with two guys in a fucked up power dynamic that is the core of their relationship and all the posts will be like "i love them but i hate the power dynamic" and all the fic is like "what if there was no power dynamic" or "what if the power dynamic was switched". like okay actually i think the imbalance is fun and awesome. anyone else

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GET YOUR BODY OUT OF SURVIVAL MODE SO YOU CAN CREATE FROM YOUR HEART

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The Next Prince could indeed be a KinnPorsche Royalty AU if you squint a bit and switch some things around a little

+ Khanins foster dad & Porsches uncle, tho then we would have to switch Kinn with Charan and Porsche with Khanin, might even fit better with that role switch

Not sure yet where Ava and her bodyguard-servant (?) lady fits in

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Ok, I stopped barking long enough to write down some stuff. Let’s talk about the Ramil/Paytai nc scene. I’m seeing some discourse along the lines of “Ramil realized that he was being abusive with Paytai”, “he realized he was perpetuating the violence that Paytai suffered at the hands of his father” etc. and as someone who is a dom IRL (not as a job but for personal fun time), I wanted to share some thoughts and maybe provide some insights.

First, I can’t stress this enough: bdsm play is not abuse. Dom/sub dynamics (properly negotiated) are not abuse.

Ramil is absolutely not abusive in his intimate life with Paytai. He literally doesn’t move a muscle unless Paytai tells him to. I’m not saying he’s never toxic - he’s obviously very jealous and possessive. Tbh though, I think he’s actually not that controlling outside the figurative bedroom. Many times we see him actually defer to Paytai instead of deciding something by himself and imposing it, which is (ahem) more than can be said about Khanin with Charan.

But engaging in bdsm play is not abuse. Pain/impact play is not abuse, it’s not violence. Violence is about inflicting harm/damage - Ramil never wants to harm Paytai, the show makes that abundantly clear.

I also don’t think flogging (and whatever other pain play they engage in) was introduced by Ramil, based on who he is shown to be and the fact that he never moves a finger until Paytai tells him to. I believe that Paytai is the one who initially asked Ramil to use a flogger on him, because he’s the, let’s say, main sub in the relationship and bdsm play (usually) centers around the sub’s desires. Paytai choosing to integrate flogging into his sex life, when and how he chooses, with a partner he loves and trusts, can be a way to reclaim something that harmed him in a different context and find empowerment in it. It is not the same thing as perpetuating violence. Paytai is not a victim in his sex life.

When we see the brief flashback of the night before the bike ride, Paytai is wearing a collar tied to a chain, which Ramil holds as he fucks him. This is also bdsm, and it’s very clear in the scene that they are both having a great fucking time. No one is being taken advantage of.

Now the end of the lace scene: Ramil not wanting to use the flogger (whip) on Paytai doesn’t mean that he suddenly doesn’t vibe with their dom/sub dynamic or bdsm play. I personally think for Ramil, the pain play was never his thing, really; he did it for Paytai. His thing was always the ownership - the reassurance that Paytai is his and his alone, that he’s not going anywhere. He can realize that he’s not comfortable using a flogger anymore, or maybe in that specific moment, because of the trauma they’ve both experienced but still enjoy tying up Paytai, being tied up by him, having Paytai tell him he belongs to him, etc. It can also be that in that moment, what he (Ramil) needed the most was softness. It doesn’t make any of the other stuff bad.

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to be honest there has never been a fictional character i’ve actually wanted to date. like. i want them to date each other. i don’t want myself as a person to be involved in this scenario whatsoever. what would i add to this narratively? what’s my thematic purpose in the narrative? immersion breaking. 

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does the 69 button have a name or are we all calling it the 69 button.

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people in books and tv shows are always getting so upset they throw an untouched meal in the trash. that would never be me. i'd receive the worst news of my life and still be like Let me put this in the fridge.

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a feel like the new generation of fanfic readers NEED to understand that clicking on a fic (interaction) does nothing. ao3 has no algorithm. your private discord discussions of fic do not reach the authors. if you do not actively engage with writers they will stop posting. this isn’t social media this is community.