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Zion.t - No make up (Cover) • M&S

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just dropping by to say i have become a trash for b1a4.. and that i miss tumblr

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Don’t cry.

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“RIGHT NOW. NOW.”

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“I wanted to see you more than a dozen times a day. I was happy just to see you. I wanted to tell you this a long time ago. I really like you. I love you.” - Kim Junghwan

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사랑하는 정환아,  내 신경은 온통 너였어. 너

My Beloved Junghwan ah, all my mind was only You. You..

I’m so happy the comment touched him. And making my baby cry…Jun Yeol ah…사랑해

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Hey, do you know what I’ve done because of you? I waited an hour by the front door every day to go to school with you. I waited every night until you came home from studying. And I couldn’t sleep at all because I was worried about you. I thought of nothing but you. Just you. When I ran into you, by chance, on the bus… And when we went to the concert together… Also, when I got the shirt from you on my birthday… I was really… so happy that I thought I was crazy. I wanted to see you more than a dozen times a day. I was happy just to see you. I really like you. I love you.

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“Goodbye, my youth. Goodbye, Ssangmun-dong.”

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-spoilers again-

Deoksun greatly disappointed me. She began to like Taek when he carried her in the field. BUT ALL THOSE TIMES JUNGHWAN HAS BEEN GIVING SIGNS YOU DIDN’T NOTICE INSTEAD YOU ALWAYS HAVE THAT CUTE-FUCK YOU- YOU ARENT CUTE CONFUSED FACE? THE MCDO DATE, THE UMBRELLA SCENE, THE GOODNIGHT SCENE YOUR FACE IS CONSISTENT THROUGHOUT. You still need to have your friends tell you that that guy likes you before you believe it?! And then for Taek, you fell in love because of a simple bridal style act? You didn’t even notice how Junghwan was so caring to DongRyong that he volunteered to carry him on his back during that time knowing he’s heavy?! If it was Junghwan who carried you will you also not be able to sleep at night?! SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH YOU DS AND IM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. YOU DONT KNOW EVERYTHING EVERY LITTLE SACRIFICE JH MADE, THE PINK SHIRT, I WONDER IF YOU’LL REGRET THINGS ONCE YOU KNOW THE WHOLE DAMN TRUTH. 

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Goodbye 쌍문동

-spoilers ahead-

I chose to watch Answer Me 1988 because both its forerunners had a big impact to me. I discovered how much I loved the 90s era, loving their songs more than present songs I listen to, loving their fashion and wishing I received education before the 2000s. The impact is so great- my perception of life changed. I begin to value friendship more (Thanks AM1994!) and I became sincere with my feelings. It’s funny how I appreciated a drama this much because the Answer Me series were like my life teachers. 

I didn’t expect a lot with AM 1988. I barely knew anyone of the Ssangmundong squad, only GKP and Hyeri. I was also skeptical about the family theme drama. I said, “it must be boring.” I was wrong. AM 1988 has taught me so much more than 1994 and 1997 combined. I was deeply touched by the parents-children relationships and the friendship between the teenagers and between their parents. 

Junghwan not able to open up things with his mom and his mom Mi Ran, trying to open up to him.

Taek selflessly wanting his dad to be happy.

Sunwoo’s unconditional love and respect for his mother.

Dongryong’s yearning for his parents’ love and presence.

Deoksun’s care for her parents.

Junghwan’s thoughtfulness and love towards his older brother.

Junghwan efforts to make his parents happy.

Sunwoo’s acceptance to Mr. Choi.

Sunwoo’s cherishing love for his biological father.

Bora’s relationship with her dad- not showy but very sincere.

The three mothers’ understanding with each other.

The fathers’ weird but fun friendship.

There’s so much more honestly. I'm crying as I looked at my self saying, “Do I even possess half of those traits they have?” I’m ashamed of myself, deeply ashamed of the kind of daughter and friend I am.

I didn’t expect to get hurt his bad. I watched this expecting myself to be very happy as this ends. In the middle of the show, AM1988 has replaced 1994 in my heart because of the life lessons. I would have been satisfied if my ship didn’t sink in the end. 

It was a mistake for me to choose an OTP. I shipped SW and DS initially, then jumped to JH x DS ship at episode 4 and then at episode 6, also boarded the Taektanic ship. I was confused until  Taek confessed to the squad that he likes DS. I became 100% sure I’m boarding this Junghwan x Deoksun ship. Maybe I’m a masochist. The time I saw his pained and hurt emotions through his eyes, I came to a decision to support this guy through the end. 

Thinking of his fate still fucking hurts. Everything I loved about about AM1988 slowly disappeared from my mind and my mind instead was filled with angst, hatred, injustice and pity for Junghwan. I couldn’t watch episode 19 and 20 at all. The live recaps already hurt. How much more if I watch it with subs? 

I won’t bother anymore shoving my opinions to all of you on why Junghwan should be the husband. The whole world has said enough. They have already spoken out what I want to tell the whole wide world. Instead, I want to bawl out my hurt feelings... It was so unfair.. so unfair. I felt like cheated. 

How can a fully developed character have his ending like that? I’ve heard there’s no adult Junghwan.. is he still alive at 2016? I want to see him happy!!! I want to see him build his own family.. I want the best for him. That closure was so incomplete... They could have not made it a fake confession right? They should have made it real, let Junghwan tell Deoksun that his feelings were real and that he’s giving up on her. That, I would consider a closure. It seems so half-baked. So lacking...

I’m still hurt by everything and I don’t think this scar will fade right away. Junghwan as the second lead still fucking hurts. The writers fed Junghwan poop all these time. The writers made a fool out of us. The writers mistreated him by giving him lesser screen time by sending him off to Sacheon. IT FUCKING HURTS. IT FUCKING HURTS. 

I AM SO MAD I CANT HELP BUT CRY FOR HIM.

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Goodbye, my youth.

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“I wanted to see you more than a dozen times a day. I was happy just to see you. I wanted to tell you this a long time ago. I really like you. I love you.” - Kim Junghwan

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once and for all im gonna post later my rant here on reply 1988. i want to get over this drama quickly. i loved the family and the friendship plot but the husband thing ruined the whole goddamn show for me. (IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE AT ALL) 

On the side note, Junghwan is the cover of the second volume right? Is the production crew stupid to plaster his face on the CD and in the end he’s the second lead? 

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I’m not anymore worried.

Junghwan is officially the husband. and I’ve got a convincing proof. 

Just like how happy I was when I saw this proof telling me Oppaya is the husband. 

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He backed up because he's an idiot who could not be honest with his friends and he is paying for that. He missed all his chances and in living like a fucking emo hermit, not trusting his friends, Junghwan lost the fateful moments! He could still be the hubs and I hope he is but he spent the entire fucking drama being an emo scrub so he brought this shit on to himself. I'm so mad he wasted time being a dumbass and lying to everyone about how he felt.

Junghwan would have pursued Deoksun if he didn’t know about Taek’s feelings! He never thought Taek liked DS the same way he does. Episode 15′s title was “Between Love and Friendship” and it was clear in that episode that no matter how he tries to hate Taek, he JUST CAN’T. Friendship weighed heavier than his first love. (And then Taek did the same too ugh) 

I’m not defending Junghwan entirely, he’s still a noble idiot in my eyes and yes, he now has to pay for every cowardly deed. But not being the endgame is too much for him to pay. He deserves to have Deoksun. Deoksun deserves him. I believe that the person who sacrificed a lot for the better good deserves to be happy more.

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Another word for ‘fate’ is ‘timing’.

Jung Pal. Reply 1988. EP18. (via thatdoublenine)

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jung hwan’s fake confession to deok sun (ep 18)

source (x)

“Deoksun-ah

I wanted to give this to you during graduation this year but somehow I’m only giving it to you now. I like you. I said I like you. Ya, do you even know the things I’ve done because of you? I used to wait for over an hour every day in front of our house gates just to go to school together with you. I couldn’t go to sleep at all because I was so worried whenever you didn’t come back home from the library. “Why is she so late? Did she fell asleep again?” Ya, you were everything on my mind. You! When we chanced upon each other on the bus, when we went to the concert together, and when you gave me the shirt as my birthday gift on my birthday, I was really so happy that I thought I was going crazy. I missed you a dozen times even each day, and I was just really happy each time when I could see you. I wanted to tell you this a long time ago.

I really like you. I love you.”