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survey #268

What’s your favorite pizza place? I’m a Domino’s girly, at least usually. Sometimes they flop.

What’s at the top of your to do list in life? ”I just want to get to a point where I can survive and support myself independently because my dad isn't going to be around forever.” <<< This tbh, but with my mom. I rely sooooo much on my mom, physically and emotionally. I truly, TRULY struggle to imagine myself being capable of surviving without her, and that’s not good news. I have to stop thinking like that, for my own sake. Also, even if I do live with a romantic partner, I don’t want to rely on THEM too heavily, either.

Do you ever eat leftover pizza cold? Yes, good shit.

Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Realistically, I think an Eevee. Vulpix’s fire ability would be scary as a pet. I want to say Espeon, because that’s a favorite Pokemon, but idk what its psychic abilities could entail, lol.

Do you like marshmallows? Yes.

If you had the opportunity to live forever, would you take it? Absolutely not, sounds miserable.

Did you ever really believe in Santa Claus? Yes. It’s a harmless thing I honestly support parents for doing. It brought me a lot of joy, and I want other children to have that, too.

Do you like the band Relient K? I think I know… one song by them. And I can’t remember what it was.

Do you like quesadillas? Depends on how they’re made. They’re one of the very few Mexican foods I generally like.

Did you like the show Invader Zim? I never really watched it.

Do you like chocolate milk? I dooooo.

Have you ever been on a mechanical bull? No. Especially in my current physical health, I’d be unwilling to try one. My back and hip issues are too worrying, plus I struggle to get up from falls of sorts.

Do you prefer to pull off band-aids slowly or quickly? Slowly.

Have you ever met any bands/band members before? No, but I’d LOVE to gift my mom a meet and greet with Metallica, her fucking heroes, but I’m sure I could never afford it.

What was the last thing someone told you that had you at a loss for words? Very recently, my nephew Ryder had an endoscopy for his acid reflux, and he “woke up” from anesthesia with a very bad reaction. It went something like his brain or body “woke” before the other part did, and he started thrashing and hitting himself to the point he had to be restrained. Ryder isn’t even nine yet. THANKFULLY, he remembers none of this, but it really shocked me and made me feel horrible for Ashley, because she had to witness her son do this.

What’s something you keep meaning to do but keep putting off? Get back to using my exercise bike… I DO have physical therapy coming up, which will help me with exercising, but I should still do stuff at home on my own time.

What’s a memory from your past that feels like it belongs to a different person? Being a right-winger and being friends with disgusting people. I cannot believe that was me. But it was, and I will do everything in my power to ensure that is never me again, and that I make up for the people my beliefs hurt.

What was the last kind thing that someone did for you? My mom has been very attentive to things I can’t do since surgery, like bend much. She’s feeding the cat and doing the litterbox, putting things in the dishwasher, and just in general picking stuff up when I can’t.

When was the last time you updated your Facebook status? The day of my surgery, just explaining what happened and telling my experience.

How many likes/comments did it get? Five comments from others, 21 likes.

If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be? Steve Irwin.

What if you could meet anyone who is alive? Mark Fischbach/Markiplier.

What is your favorite thing to do outside? Photograph nature/watch animals.

Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? No, I think they’re scam artists.

Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? North Carolina Zoo, probably. Maybe Disney World as a kid.

What’s the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? I dunno.

If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? It would actually be soda. It’d be fantastic if that didn’t affect my health.

What are your parents interested in? Uh, my mom loves music, especially metal/rock, and her biggest obsession is Metallica. She likes doing crafts. Also likes cooking/baking. My dad is into sports and fishing.

Did The Blair Witch Project scare you? No, it’s actually my favorite horror movie.

Are you a fan of any comic books? No; comic books aren’t for me. Even in the height of my Silent Hill obsession, I was never very into the comics that were made.

In what sense are you a minority? I’m LGBTQ+ and disabled.

Do you have a condom in your room? No.

Do you know how to fish? I do, I grew up going with my dad.

Have you ever used Duolingo to learn another language? No, and I especially won’t now because of them embracing genAI. I use a different app for German.

Has anyone ever come out to you? Yes.

What’s your go-to order from KFC? I don’t eat there.

Would you prefer cupcakes or a big cake for your birthday? A normal cake.

Have you ever sent a package or letter to a foreign country? No.

Are you currently chewing gum? No.

Is there litter in your front yard? No.

Who is the cutest celebrity couple in your opinion? I don’t know celeb couples.

Do you recycle? Yes.

Do you mow the grass or does someone else? Mom pays someone to.

When you were little, did you jump on the couch? Yes.

Have you ever been onstage with a famous singer at a concert? No.

Grapes or cherries? Grapes, I despise cherries.

Are you afraid of walking alone at night? I would be terrified. I would avoid doing this at all costs.

Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school? No. I was a very obedient and well-behaved kid in school.

Do you usually initiate hugs? Yes, I’m a hugger.

Are you a seafood fan? I LOVE shrimp, as long as it’s not cold, the way you have it with cocktail sauce. I don’t like most fish I’ve tried, but I did have mahi mahi recently, and I enjoyed it! I’ve tried crab and didn’t like that.

A romantic meal, a trip to a theme park, or go to a concert? Ideally, a concert, but I don’t think concerts are the environment for my partner, and I wouldn’t want to force him into that. He hates crowds more than I do.

How good is your memory? My memory is abominable.

What was the last pill you took? Oxy, prescribed for my surgery pain.

Do you like pickles? I love dill pickles.

Would you get your nipples pierced? No. I think people bold enough to do so are badass, but I am personally not interested for a few reasons, the pain being one.

What is your favorite kind of meat to put on your sandwich? Ham.

How do you feel about people who make Facebook profiles for their pets? Who cares? Let them do what they want.

Have you ever personally known a pair of conjoined twins? No.

What was the most disturbing thing you have ever heard your mother say? She brought up driving into a tree to kill herself once when we were fighting in the car. It was extremely upsetting and still is.

Is there something in particular you like to look at photos of? What is it? Meerkats, especially.

If your boyfriend/girlfriend wanted to dress only in the opposite sex’s clothing, would you support that? If not, would you leave them? I sure would, he can dress however he wants.

Do you think your grandmother is/was beautiful? She was only pretty on the outside. For my dad’s mom, I can’t remember her well, including how she looked.

Do you ever name objects? (i.e. mp3 players, guitars, cars, etc.) Some plushies, but that’s it.

Do you have a criminal record? I do not.

Do you think someone likes the same person you like? shrug.

Have you ever seen a live seahorse? Yes, at aquariums.

Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink? No. This would honestly make me uncomfortable.

What kind of music does your significant other/crush like to listen to? Same kinda stuff I do: metal and rock.

What was the last thing that you said to one of your siblings? I thanked Ashley for wishing me luck on my surgery.

What is the most expensive thing that you’ve purchased that you paid for: It was with gifted money, but my snake Venus.

What is your favorite messaging program? Discord.

Do you eat fast food more than 5 times a week? No. Usually just once, sometimes not even once.

Have you ever almost drowned? No.

Have you ever learned something shocking about someone through Facebook? Yes, I learned an old psych hospital friend died. I believe it was drugs, sadly.

What’s the scariest living animal that you’ve petted? Most would probably agree a tarantula. It was just a rose-hair though, pretty much harmless, and she was very patient with me for being pet. Don’t pet tarantulas, btw. You’re just rubbing urticating hairs that irritate your skin.

Do you remember the first conversation you ever had with the person you currently have feelings for? I don’t, tbh.

Do you dread certain days of the week? If yes, what days and why? I do dread usually Thursdays, which is when we generally have to get a ride an hour away for my allergy shots. We usually get public transport with a lot of people that have to be picked up and dropped off, so the rides are long, tedious, and crowded… I hate it a lot. My mom’s van can’t make that long of a ride so it’s our only option to use Medicaid-covered rides.

Do you use Mozilla Firefox? I use Chrome.

Have you ever had to have a mug shot? No.

Do you have any travel plans? Any recent travel? No travel plans. At the beginning of this month, Girt and I drove to Charlotte, which is three hours away.

Do you have any pets? I have a white and gray cat named Roman and a champagne ball python morph named Venus. My mom also has a chihuahua named Cookie.

How did you end up living in this city/town/area? It’s where I was born and we’ve always lived in this general area, just bordering cities. Our old house had a mold issue while my mom was dealing with intense cancer and we desperately needed out; the lady who lived in this house formerly died, but before death, she gave the house to a friend because she wanted said friend to use the house to house us.

Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? Yes, I’ve done this for a few partners.

Do you believe the stories about planes, boats, and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda Triangle? Yo the Bermuda Triangle freaks me out. I don’t fuck with her lmfao.

Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress? Nah.

What 3 things do you want to do before you die? Achieve a sense of peace and contentment with my life, spread Teddy’s ashes at Yellowstone, and visit the Kalahari Meerkat Project to interact with their meerkats, especially the Whiskers mob.

Do you live with your biological mother? I do.

Have you ever tried peanut butter and bananas together? Well, I’ve had a peanut butter and banana sandwich. It’s okay.

Do you know anyone who married their high school sweetheart? Yes.

Have you ever seen anyone die? Only pets. I’ve seen an old woman less than a day before she died.

Are you interested in any reality TV shows? Me and my mom’s “show” is Naked and Afraid, we eat that shit up.

Have you had any of your wisdom teeth removed? What was the reason? (eg. infection, impaction, lack of space) I only had two wisdom teeth grow in, both at the bottom, and they were removed for space reasons but also because they had bad cavities. This was at a time I took awful care of my teeth. I’m so glad I bettered that...

How old were you when you first got internet access at home? Was it broadband or did you have dial-up first? I don’t remember for the first question, but I know it was dial-up.

What’s your favourite thing to have on toast? Butter, cinnamon, and sugar. Childhood delicacy.

Do you have any debt? If so, are you on top of paying it all back? Yes, in terms of college loans. I cannot pay them back.

What was the last thing you purchased with a credit card? I don't have a credit card.

Have you been to college/university? If so, has your degree been useful to you or was it a bit of a waste of money? College was a waste of money for me. I dropped out three times because of my mental health so never obtained an actual degree.

Are you close to your extended family? Do you wish you were closer? No; yes.

Do you prefer to give your pets human names or not? I prefer non-human names or at least rarer ones.

Is it called Hardee’s or Carl’s Jr. where you are? Hardee’s.

Has someone ever whistled at you while you were walking? No, thankfully.

Are you guilty of texting while driving? I don’t drive, but I would never, EVER do this shit. I experience debilitating fear behind the wheel and would never make the situation even scarier.

Have you ever called in at a radio station & dedicated a song to someone? No.

Would you ever go to a protest or be involved in a protest? I would, yes. I’ve been to Pride events, and those are technically protests imo.

Have you ever tried to write a book? Yes.

Have you ever been hit by a chunk of hail? No.

Is it true that if you don’t love yourself, you can’t love another? No, and I fucking despise this sentiment.

Would you ever give blood? What blood type are you? I’ve done this twice before and would like to do it more. My blood is A-.

Have you ever developed your own film? No.

Do you watch the Super Bowl? No, very disinterested.

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survey #267

Does anyone you live with talk in their sleep? Does this happen often? I talk/will even yell in my sleep. I think talking isn’t rare, and yelling happens in phases when I have my nightmares, and it’s been a while for that.

When was the last time you cried, or felt tearful? The day Ozzy died.

Did you wake up with a song stuck in your head today? What was it? “See You on the Other Side” by Ozzy Osbourne.

What colour are your nails painted right now, if any? I don’t paint my nails.

Do your parents use any social media at all? My mom has Facebook. Pretty sure my dad doesn’t use anything.

Is there anyone in your life who regularly asks how your day has been? Girt, my boyfriend.

Do you have piercings? How many? Seven. I’ve had more and absolutely want more.

Who is the last person to send you a message? My boyfriend Girt.

Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced? I have my nose pierced and have had my tongue pierced. Snake eyes (horizontal across the tip of the tongue) were my favorite piercing I’ve had, except maybe my vertical labret, but it wasn’t a good idea to keep – I kept biting down on them and it could damage my teeth, which I didn’t want. I’ve had my nostril done like… five times, I think that says enough how badly I want it lol. I finally am using threadless jewelry for it, which is basically impossible to take out without a professional, so THANK GOD I shouldn’t lose it again.

How many kids do you want? My tubes came out TODAY. :’) It’s the childfree life for me, babyyyyyy. Surgery went well, thankfully!

Would you feel funny if you kissed somebody of the same sex? No, I’ve done it before and I’d do it again.

Do you have plans for tonight? No.

Can grills be sexy on a guy? I honestly think they’re hideous.

Why do you eat fast food? Because I genuinely enjoy it, usually more than something made at home even, and it’s convenient.

Have you ever known someone online and then met them in person? If so, which website did you meet on? Yes, we met on YouTube as children. We were both in the meerkat RP community there.

Do you know anyone with a serious anger management problem? No, I do not associate with these kinds of people. They scare me.

Have you seen all the Lord of the Rings movies? I haven’t seen any.

What is your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? I don’t care if other people do it, but I never would.

Name of your first grade teacher? Mrs. Jones.

Do you bite your nails? I tear/pick my nails versus really biting them.

Are you allergic to anything? I have A LOT of nature-related allergies; basically anything that grows, I’m allergic to it, and I’m allergic to a lot of animals.

What books, if any, have made you cry? Probably a lot. I know Johnny Got His Gun did, as well as The Notebook and I believe A Walk to Remember. The Giver too, probably. OH, I know Old Yeller did as well. I’m SURE there are others, I cry easily.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? Yes. I’m hoping to get a certain tattoo with Christmas money when that comes around.

Do you wear flip-flops? I almost exclusively wear flip-flops.

What’s something you really want right now? Can I be so real, to be satisfied with my medication regime. I just want a medicine that helps my depression the way it’s supposed to.

Is there someone you can spend every minute with and be happy? “Not every single minute, no. I need time to myself, time to do other things, etc.” <<< This. Eventually, anyone being directly with me 24/7 would annoy the piss outta me.

What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? We’ve been dating for almost four years.

If you have at least one sibling, have you ever wanted to be an only child? No.

If you’re an only child, have you ever wanted at least one sibling? N/A

Have you ever been on a cruise? No.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? I’ve done this three times.

What are you listening to? I’ve been watching Charlie/MoistCritikal play Elden Ring for a few days. I got into his content recently.

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Always. Wear your fucking seatbelt.

Ever kissed someone that smokes? No, but someone who smoked kissed me.

Where do you see yourself in the next 2 years? Idk, dude. I have a feeling I’ll still be living with Mom, unemployed, but hopefully on disability by then. Maybe engaged to Girt.

Are you tan? Largely no, but my back kinda is. When I went swimming like a month ago, I couldn’t put sunscreen on my back, and it burned. Turned into a tan.

Will you get married? I would like to, but I’m also not in a rush. I am NOT keen on a divorce.

Have you ever dated a soccer player? No.

Do you have a best friend? Besides Girt, Mazzy and Tez.

Are you getting engaged any time soon? Unlikely.

Eyeliner. Yes or no? I love eyeliner ON people, including myself, but I don’t really wear makeup. Eyeliner is especially hard when you have tremors in your hands.

Who gives the best advice? Genuinely, Mazzy.

Who did you last eat Chinese food with? My mom. Been a hot minute, though.

Do you have any plans for the weekend? Big ol’ fat nope. I’m healing from surgery. Gonna chill hard and without shame.

Are you a morning person or a night person? So, here’s the thing. Definitely not a night person, but I also am not generally awake in the true “morning” hours, and I am MISERABLE if I wake up early. I wake up shortly before afternoon, and that is my morning, which are my best hours.

Do you text message a lot? No. The only person I really text is my mom. I use Discord for friends and my boyfriend.

What color is your toothbrush? Pink! With white.

If you had twin girls, what would you name them? Okay so let’s say I DID want children: I would never have twins. I could never handle two infants at once, even as my most capable self. I would terminate one.

Do you take a shower in the morning or the night before? I tend to shower in the late afternoon.

Did you cry when Ash let his Butterfree go with the other Butterfrees? I feel like I did. I adored this episode. I lovedddddd the pink Butterfree. So mad that’s not even their shiny version, it should be.

What’s your favorite flower? Yo I have so many. I can’t pick just one. I fuckin’ love flowers ok.

Did you carve pumpkins for Halloween this year? I. HAVE. To do it this year. Every year I say I will and then regret not doing it. I CANNOT fall into that trap again, I have GOT to do something to actually celebrate my fave holiday.

Does your family use a real pine tree or a plastic one for Christmas? Fake.

Have you ever graded papers? You know what, I think I have, helping favorite teachers.

Can you recite the alphabet backwards? No, which kinda embarrasses me for some reason, lol? I feel like most people can, but I just simply can’t.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Girt is exceptionally good at this.

Tell me about the last time you had sex? I’m basically the 30 y/o virgin because I’ve never had actual sex. (Don’t fault my partner for this, he has issues that really embarrass him.)

Do you look like your mom or your dad? I’ve heard both. I have my mom’s skin and hair though, while I don’t think… any exact features match my dad.

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower? No.

Have you ever thought about your death? “Far more than what would be considered healthy.” <<< THIS lmao literally. I was doing this just a couple nights ago.

Are any of your family members in jail? No.

Will you/did you get a class ring? No.

What is your favorite planet? Saturn, closely followed by Jupiter.

Let's say aliens exist, what do they look like? Are they smarter than us? How would I know? I do think they’re smarter than us.

Do you prefer your chicken grilled or fried? Absolutely fried. I don’t usually like grilled chicken, it’s boring.

Have you had any alcoholic drinks within the last week? Nah.

Do you own anything from IKEA? Not to my knowledge.

Does anyone close to you have their birthday in October? Yes, my boyfriend. Wait, I believe Tez’s is also in October, if I’m not mistaken!

What was the last book you finished reading? It was the last Warriors book in the “A Vision of Shadows” arc.

What do you do with your plastic grocery bags after you unload your things? Usually, we save them to use for cat litter cleaning. I wish Mom would be okay with ALWAYS saving them, I hate using plastic bags but would at least rather they be reused...

Have you ever slept in a waterbed? Yes.

Do you cook your own meals or do your parents? My mom cooks. It’s embarrassing to admit, but I am too mentally ill (looking at severe, chronic depression and executive dysfunction issues especially) to cook. I’ve also never really been taught how, but. I will sometimes microwave something or pop something in the air fryer, but that’s it.

How do you feel about having sex during your menstrual period? I am not interested in this.

How do you feel about anal sex? I don’t care if other people do it, but for ME, it grosses me out and I am entirely disinterested in trying.

Does your ex have a job? If we’re talking about THE ex, I cannot imagine Jason being unemployed. He’s worked ever since I met him. Last I knew, he was at an Office Depot.

Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18? I think it’s fine if someone that age drinks under supervision of an adult, but the idea of an 18-year-old drinking otherwise I don’t think is a good idea.

Have you ever gotten into an argument with the last person you kissed? Yes.

Share 3 nice memories you have of the person you fell hardest for. I’d rather not, thoughts like this trigger my trauma.

Do you like parties/clubs? Nah, not my scene.

How many exes do you have? Uhhh, five.

Do you still communicate with them? No.

When is the last time you have been out of the state? Not since I last visited Sara in Illinois many years ago.

If you had the opportunity, would you go back out with any of your exes? No.

What do you brag about? I don’t think I really brag? The mere idea makes me uncomfortable.

Do you like any of your exes, even as friends? No.

How many jobs have you had? Three. All were short-lived and ended badly due to my anxiety.

Who has done the most for you? My mom. No one else compares.

Do you or anyone you know have Covid or the flu? Girt actually JUST got over Covid that he almost certainly contracted from his trip to Minnesota. He was sick right upon arriving home.

What did you last have to eat? My mom made spaghetti with meatballs and some garlic bread.

When did you last feel fear? Today, pre-surgery. Just the perfectly reasonable anxiety you get before any surgery. Very grateful everything went fine.

What did you last order from a fast food restaurant? Quarter pounder with cheese, fries, and a Coke from McDonald’s.

What was the last pain you’ve had on your body? I have abdominal pain, a mix of what feels like period cramps and just incision discomfort. Both are normal for my surgery.

What’s your favorite way to eat rice? Either pork fried rice from a Chinese place or in this bang-bang shrimp recipe my mom makes.

Are you content with the current weather? No, it’s too hot. We’re starting another heat wave.

Is there an article of clothing you need to buy right now? Not urgently, but more bras would be nice. I only have two that fit properly. I finally actually learned my size semi-recently so having a pair of bras that fit normally on me is great.

When was the last time you sang out loud to yourself? Not since I went on a roadtrip with Girt to Charlotte early this month.

Have you ever wanted to get drunk and get your mind off everything? Yes. I was in fact drinking at the time, but I didn’t get drunk.

Who was the last person you texted? My dad, to update him on my surgery. I was very appreciative that he texted me last night to wish me luck!

Is there a fan going in the room you’re in? There’s two, actually.

Have you played cards recently? Yes, actually; I tried commander for the first time in Magic: The Gathering when Girt and I went to visit Wei and Javier. It hurt my brain, lol.

Have you ever made any kind of video? I like making video edits, with like Sony Vegas programs. It’s been years, though. Idk if I’ll ever get back into it.

Do you have sympathy for others when they’re upset? Yes, especially when people are crying. It physically hurts me, like I just want to take their pain away. Seeing/hearing someone cry their hearts out fucking sucks.

Is there a band/artist who has strange lyrics but you love them anyway? Rammstein, really, sometimes. It’s partially translation issues, where it just doesn’t translate perfectly, but sometimes they’ve got some weird lyrics.

Are you dying to see someone very soon? GIRT. I haven’t seen him since very early July. First he went on vacation, then he got Covid. He works this weekend so I’ve got a few more days ‘til we can hang out.

Have you ever gotten stitches? I have, post-surgery and for a wound I obtained through a concussion.

Have you ever made a business card for yourself? I have not.

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survey #266

Does anyone hate you? Yes. The feeling is mutual, though.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No.

Last time you left your house, where did you go? A chiropractor appointment.

Do you have any unusual skills? No.

Do you drink energy drinks? No, they’re too much for me. And that comes from someone who fucking LOVES the worst sodas.

Have you ever been called a bitch? Yes.

Who’s the last person you were in a car with? My mom.

What’re you currently looking forward to? My surgery at the end of this month to have my tubes removed. I’m starting to get a bit nervous about it, just usual pre-procedure anxiety, but I am still excited for it.

Was your last kiss on a bed or standing? It was in a car.

Where’s the person who has your heart? In Minnesota, actually. He’s attending/watching a Games Done Quick event.

Have you ever or are you on any type of anti-depressant? I have probably been on most anti-depressants on the market.

Donuts or muffins? Donuts.

What does your phone case look like? I don’t have a phone case.

Do you enjoy windy days? No.

What's your favorite flavor of chip/crisps? Crunchy hot Cheetos.

Have you ever experienced vertigo? Yes, with enough frequency to have been medicated for it. I no longer am.

Is there any type of medicine you can’t take? For what reason? I’m not allergic to any meds, if that’s what you’re asking. As a teenager, I had a very negative reaction to some psych med I don’t remember the name of, which I’d preferably never take again (I think my mom remembers the name, so we’d recognize it).

Do you have a favorite pair of pajamas? What do they look like? Pajama pants, yes. They background is black but features white ghosts going “boo!” in a few colors and is very cute. I have them on right now, haha.

What foreign languages did your high school offer? A lot if you include virtual, but only Spanish and I believe French had in-room teachers.

Do you have any interesting pillow cases? No.

Do you agree with Freud on anything? To be so real, idk what Freud believed.

If something on your body is hurting what part is it usually? My left hip.

Are you more afraid of spiders or bees? Bees. I’ve gotten better about them, but some still frighten me a bit. I love spiders.

What’s the last way your cell phone malfunctioned? It wouldn’t charge without restarting. Happens every now and again, and it’s annoying.

Do you like highlighted hair? Yes.

When do you go to your soonest appointment? I have a sleep study this Sunday. I already know I have sleep apnea, I’ve been tested before, but we have to do it again so I can get a CPAP machine again.

What time do you usually try to wind down in the evening? Varies too much. I don’t have a set time.

Do you like banana pudding with a lot of bananas or more vanilla wafers? I don’t like banana pudding.

What did you last put in storage? I put a letter from my friend Summer (with Webkinz cards she got me lol) in my treasure box.

Do you ever watch award shows? No.

What is your biggest challenge? Dealing with severe, chronic depression.

What's something you like that is blue? Mountain Dew Voltage my beloved………..

Have you ever traveled alone? Yes, on a plane to and from Illinois.

What's your current favorite song? “Zick Zack” by Rammstein has been my active favorite for a few years. It’s so catchyyyyyy

What's the best thing to happen to you in the past month? Medicaid covering my surgery, or else I wouldn’t be able to get it.

List all the ways you've broken a bone (if you ever have) Falling while rollerblading and landing oddly on my hand; I broke my wrist.

How often do you eat Mexican food? Rarely.

Have you ever worked as a manager? No.

Did you feel insecure in high school? Yes.

Do you know anyone who gave their baby up for adoption right at birth? No.

Do you use TikTok? And if so, who are some of your favorite people to follow on there? No.

Do you live in the same city you were born in? Yes. I’ve moved to bordering towns throughout my life, but this is technically where I was born. The hospital I was born in is like… maybe seven minutes away.

When did you last have grape juice? I hate grape juice.

Do you use Facebook? Yes.

Do you prefer longer or short socks? In-between, but more towards long. They HAVE to go past my ankle, at least.

Have you ever had a yard sale? Yes.

Do you own any animals that absolutely hate you? No.

Are there any piercings you want but you’re too afraid it will hurt? No, the only thing stopping me from getting the piercings I want is money.

Do you think ear gauging is gross? Obviously not, considering my first earlobe holes are gauged.

Are you afraid of anyone in your family? Who and why? No. I had some fear of my dad as a kid, but no longer do. He’s changed a lot.

Why aren’t you friends with your last ex? Because she’s an absolutely terrible fucking person I never should’ve associated with to begin with.

Did you ever watch 2Girls1Cup? No, and I don’t want to. I actually don’t even know what it entails but I know it’s notorious.

How well do you know your neighbors? Not well at all.

How long have you lived in your current home? Since the end of 2020.

Do you have sensitive skin? I do.

Do you wear necklaces or earrings more? Earrings, because they’re always in.

Rings or bracelets? I always have one ring on; I can’t keep a bracelet on permanently, I only wear them when I’m “dressing up.”

Pasta or tacos? Pasta, I don’t like tacos.

Water or soda? Soda, sadly.

How many toilets are in your house? Two.

Where do you keep your kitty litter box? It’s not ideal, but my bedroom in a corner. It helps me remember to clean it.

Are you a lighter complexion than your father? Absolutely, my dad is very tan.

Do you like apricots? I don’t think I’ve tried one.

Do you go to the beach every summer? No, I basically never go to the beach.

Ranch or barbeque sunflower seeds? I don’t like sunflower seeds.

Do you have a pet fish? No.

Do you believe being gay is a choice or a “disorder”? Neither; I personally believe it’s a mutation, but that in no way equates to “bad.” It’s completely neutral.

If you had the power to shapeshift, what would you turn into first? Why? A meerkat, because they’re my favorite animal.

Does frequent use of swearwords offend or upset you? Nope.

When/where did you meet your first love? Technically Facebook. He’d seen me in the hallways of our high school and had an “I have to know her” moment and found out who I was through someone he knew or something like that? So he found my FB and we started talking. I coincidentally only accepted his friend request because I thought he was a different Jason.

How many people have you kissed, whose name started with “J”? What a coincidence. One.

Who was the last person to cry in front of you? I believe it was my niece Aubree; she was afraid her friends weren’t coming to her birthday party, but didn’t understand it was a bit too early for them to show up. Thankfully, she was reassured, and she did have friends show up. <3 Poor Ashley was panicking, she was so afraid no one would come and Aubree, who is autistic, would’ve been absolutely devastated.

How many Facebook friends do you have? 108, I think. I don’t accept randoms.

Is there anyone on your “friends” list that you dislike? Not… pure dislike. This only includes family members who have political takes that I think are insane. I have one’s posts turned off so I just don’t see them. It’s like… a part of me loves these people, but I also think they’re wildly ignorant.

Does anyone have a romantic interest in you, that you don’t return? Not that I know of.

Are you living with anyone that isn’t related to you? Well, my cat, snake, and Mom’s dog. But no humans.

How many people would you say you’ve been “in love” with? Once upon a time I would’ve said three, but it’s definitely two.

Have your parents met the person you’re currently interested in? Yes, they’ve always loved him.

Do you know a Robert? Tell me about him. My brother’s real name is Robert, but we call him Bobby. He’s a great guy, married and a fantastic dad of two boys. He loves to run/hike and is currently working on running in each US state. He’s also working on a photography venture and I think a podcast?

Do you have a favorite vocalist? Who? Freddie Mercury.

Do you think that it is possible to fall in love at a young age (11-12)? Who am I to say, tbh.

When you see a good-looking girl in skimpy clothing, what is your initial thought? Odds are very high I’m going to think she looks great and that I wish I had her confidence.

Who’s the last person who you went out to eat with? My boyfriend Girt.

Imagine for a second, that you’ve married the person you currently love/like. Replace your own surname with their surname, and say it to yourself, in your head. Does that sound good to you? I’ve done this before lmao. I actually don’t like Girt’s last name, less than I like mine even, but it sounds fine as a full name, I suppose. Even though I prefer my last name, I still do plan on taking his. Dunno why.

What was the last compliment you gave to someone of the opposite sex? That I was very proud of Girt for being social for so long at the event he’s at. He’s having a good time, makes me happy.

Have you ever upset the person you love/like? Yes.

Have you ever kissed a picture of someone? Not sure if I have, tbh.

When was the last time you had a conversation with a stranger? What did you talk about? Oh my god, while having my blood drawn as well as an EKG (I think), I talked to the lady doing it and we had such a nice convo about tattoos (as well as my next planned one!) and art and stuff? She was SO cool.

Have you ever been told that you were good in bed? Not those exact words, but basically.

Have you ever punched a hole in the wall? No, people who do this shit scare me so much.

Do you know the names of all the band members that you listen to? No, the only band I listen to whose members I know all the names of is Rammstein. Oh wait, and Metallica.

Have you ever seen a live bat? Yes, at a zoo as well as just flying in the evening at my old house. I’ve also seen a dead bat up close at my sister’s old house.

Have you ever been on Omegle? No.

Have you ever stolen a road sign? No.

Is there litter in your front yard? No.

Do you believe in mediums? (People who see dead people) No, and I think they’re manipulators.

Are you going to any concerts next year? Very doubtful, as much as I’d like to.

Grapes or cherries? Grapes, I hate cherries.

Name somebody you think died before their time. STEVE FUCKIN’ IRWIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you have an idea of what kind of profession you’d like to have? I’d LIKE to do something in the arts… preferably photography, but I’m doubting it’s going to actually happen.

What’s the last thing you had to eat? A ham, cheese, and mustard sandwich.

What kind of cookie is your favorite? Just a good ol’ gooey chocolate chip.

Do you write? Yes, I RP in two different communities that have some overlap in writers.

Pepsi or Coke? Strong Coke preference. I recently tried Pepsi again for the first time in years, and I suppose it was okay, drinkable at least, but Coke is better.

Do you know anyone who has a pet bunny? My sister’s mother-in-law’s household has two that are technically for my nieces and nephew.

What store or website would you most like a gift card for? Rebel’s Market.

Do you use Pinterest? Yes, but I don’t use it often. Too much AI these days on it.

Do you have a favorite poem? “Kinder than Man” by Althea Davis.

Have you had a significant other that you never kissed? Yes.

Has anybody ever dated you only for your looks? I don’t think so.

Have you written or drawn anything for somebody else? Yes. I drew/painted too many fucking things for Sara, she deserved none of it.

Do you sometimes sleep on the couch? No.

Do you think you’re too lazy? I 100% say this to myself, and I usually believe it, but when I’m thinking rationally… I think I’m just depressed with executive dysfunction issues from my neurodivergence. I’m ill, not just lazy. I wouldn’t beat myself up to shit if it was just laziness.

When was the last time you shaved your legs? It’s been years.

The last two people to say they loved you? My mom and Girt.

Have you ever wet yourself in a public place? Not since I was a baby.

Have you ever been searched by the cops? No.

Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? No.

Do you get along with your significant other’s family? Yes, I love them dearly.

How long did it take you to get over your last ex? It… wasn’t very hard, tbh.

Do you pick at scabs? YES

Favorite kind of bean? I absolutely abhor beans. So much so that I can’t even swallow them.

Do you eat enough vegetables? Definitely not.

Do you like Taylor Swift? I hate all billionaires.

Did/do you listen to Britney Spears songs? Yes. For SOME reason I pretended to hate Britney as a child, but as an adult, like???? her music slaps???? and she's such a brave woman?????

Are you independent or dependent? I am extremely dependent.

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survey #265

How often do you need to charge your phone? Every other day.

Do you or anyone in your family own a boat? Uh… my dad might? Oh, I think my mom’s brother has one.

What day does your garbage have to go out to the curb for collection? Friday.

Have you ever eaten dairy-free ice cream before? DUDE!!!! Semi-recently my mom got vegan ice cream sandwiches that used coconut milk and I fucking LOVED them???? They were literally the best ice cream sandwiches I’ve ever had.

Do you pop your pimples or leave them alone? Oh I absolutely pop them. I can’t leave them alone.

Do you know anyone who has a hedgehog for a pet? No.

Have you ever been to a Bar Mitzvah? No.

Have you ever climbed a tree? No.

Do you have health insurance? Right now I do. But I’m on Medicaid, so who knows, might be losing that. :^)

Can you fall asleep sitting up? Not really, no.

What toppings would you like on your nachos? So… I think I’m wildly in the minority that I don’t really like toppings on nachos, I just want the cheese.

Do you know anyone who suffers from seizures? My older sister has POTS and rarely experiences this. She’s gotten much better than when she was a teen/younger adult.

What are some of your favorite pizza toppings? Pepperoni, jalapenos, sausage.

Do you know how to make origami? No.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Hell no.

If you have a fireplace where you live, is it fake or real? It’s real, but we don’t use it.

Has your house ever gotten egged before? Yes, one year on Halloween. It wasn’t funny.

Do you buy real or fake Christmas trees? Fake.

Did you vote in the most recent presidential election? Yes. Fuck you if you were eligible and didn’t, honestly.

What type of engagement ring would you like? Opal.

Have you ever had to wear an eye patch before? No.

How many times in your life have you passed out/fainted? Once, came very close a second time.

Have you ever given yourself a haircut as a child? No.

Have you invested in any sort of stocks? No. To be so real, I don’t totally understand the stock market/how it works.

Do you build a gingerbread house at Christmastime? No.

How often do you communicate with your parents? Daily with my mom, every few months with Dad.

Who is your oldest living relative? Hmmm… I’m not sure.

Have you ever tried a pierogi before? Yes, I don’t like them.

Have you ever blacked out from drinking? No.

Would you rather have macaroni salad or potato salad as a side dish? Neither.

Which type of deli meat do you prefer? Honey ham.

Where’d you go the last time that you took an Uber? Pretty recently to get home from my allergy shots. The clinic is an hour away and my mom’s van can’t make it that far, so we have to get a ride weekly.

Do you prefer to use headphones or earbuds? Earbuds.

Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull? No.

Do you personally know anyone who is currently incarcerated? No.

Do you have a favorite bird? Barn owls.

Have you ever been skiing before? No.

Did you attend many sleepovers as a child? Uh, I don’t know what qualifies as “many.” I know it took me a while to sleep over at my friends’ houses and actually stay all night, though. I had bad separation anxiety from my mom.

Do you have any college loans to still pay off? Yes.

Is there anyone out there who you truly hate? Yes.

How good are you at memory match games? Awful.

Do you prefer bunnies with straight ears or lop ears? Lop-eared rabbits are my favorites!

Do you snore a lot when you sleep? Yes, I have sleep apnea.

Have you ever had to visit anyone in the hospital? Yes, my mom after surgeries.

Have you ever had to call 911? If you’d like to share the story, feel free. Twice for my mom’s health. Once is how we found out about her ovarian cancer.

Do you believe that when you die, you get to see all your loved ones again? No.

Have you ever been to a ghost town? No, but this would be cool.

What’s something that you think tastes good burned? I guess hot dogs, but not badly burned.

What’s something you used to be obsessed with but not anymore? Markiplier. He’s still whom I believe is the “best” celebrity and I respect him deeply, but I’m not obsessed.

What is your favorite flavor of Hot Pockets? I only find the ham and cheese ones to be okay.

When was the last time you had orange juice? Recently.

Do you like apple juice? Not as much as orange juice, despite actually loving apples and not really liking oranges!

What is something you remember enjoying very much as a small child? Spyro.

Did you play with siblings, neighborhood kids or by yourself? All of the above.

Do you enjoy drawing? If so, what do you usually draw? Yes, but I don’t do it nearly enough. I draw mostly meerkats, especially OCs.

What is your go-to form of entertainment? YouTube videos, usually gaming ones.

Who was the last person to give you a high-five? My boyfriend.

Do you like skim milk? I grew up on skim milk, but it is absolutely not my preference. Mom usually gets 1% now, I think, or maybe 2%.

Have you ever lived in Tennessee? No, but I’ve visited. It’s where my brother lives.

Do you enjoy classic rock? I sure do.

Do you usually go watch fireworks on the 4th of July? No, I’m against fireworks.

Would you rather have a pet dog or a pet cat? Cat. I actually want one more cat, but we’re not getting another for a few reasons.

Do you use a brush or a comb on your hair? Comb.

Were you popular, back when you were in school? No.

What size bed do you sleep in? Queen. I’ll absolutely need a bigger size when Girt and I have our own place though, I honestly sleep like shit when I have to share the bed lmao.

When your alarm clock goes off, does it play music or make a noise/tone? I use my phone, and it plays “The Sunlit Earth” from Shadow of the Colossus.

How often do you eat your meals in front of the television? Rarely, but only to watch TV with my mom. I never watch it alone.

Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen, or do you clean your dishes by hand? We do, thank god.

When’s the last time you had the runs? (diarrhea) Pretty recently. I have IBS so it just… happens.

Have you ever eaten fresh fish that you or someone else caught? Yes, it was specifically striper. I remember I thought it was okay, despite not really liking fish, but idk if I’d still feel the same. I was a kid.

Do you prefer toasters or toaster ovens? Toaster ovens.

Do you have your fishing license? No.

Have you ever played cornhole? Are you any good at it? Yes, but no.

How many close friends do you have? Three or four, excluding my boyfriend.

What’s your favorite kind of soup? I actually don’t like soup.

Do you believe in the Big Bang Theory? Idk, honestly. Sure, I guess. I don’t believe in God, so. I’m gonna trust the scientists here with years of expertise.

Do your parents have more old-fashioned or modern views on things? A mix. My dad is more old-fashioned than my mom, though.

Are you old enough to remember being baptized? No, I was a baby. Catholics don’t slack on baptizing their crotch goblin ASAP lmao.

Who got married at the last wedding you attended? Bethany and Spencer.

The last gender reveal party that you attended - was it a boy or a girl? … Have I EVER been to a gender reveal party?

Do you have special dinners for both Christmas Eve as well as Christmas Day? Just Christmas Day, I think?

Do you eat anything atypical at your Thanksgiving meal? Nothing; what’s atypical is the fact I barely eat anything because I hate the vast majority of Thanksgiving foods.

Are there any common holidays that you do not celebrate? Easter, 4th of July. St. Patrick’s Day, if you count that one, but I feel most people ignore that one.

Would you rather play a game of chess or checkers? Checkers, idk how to play chess.

Did you used to watch Blue’s Clues as a child? Which version? Yes, with Steve!!!

Have you ever read a Nancy Drew mystery? Nope.

What’s the highest number of children you’ve gotten while playing the Game of Life? As if I remember.

What is your favorite card game? Magic: The Gathering, despite not being very good at it.

Have you ever failed a grade and had to repeat the year? Which year? No.

Are you allowed to curse in front of your parents? Yes, but sometimes Mom doesn’t like it, especially if I overuse “fuck.”

When you were younger, did you believe that other boys or girls had cooties? No, and I don’t think you should teach children this.

As a child, did you ever get the chance to go to Disney World/Disneyland? Yes, Disney World. I went with my parents, sister, and maternal grandmother, who used to work there.

What state do you live in? What’s the best aspect about this state? North Carolina. I guess it’s pretty cool we have both beaches and mountains. I desperately wish I lived on the western side, but instead I live in the boring-ass area where the Coastal Plain just about reaches the Piedmont. Nothing here.

Are you someone who is really committed to politics in your area/country? Yes. You are privileged as fuck if you get to not care/ignore them.

If you have siblings, have they moved out or do they still live with you? They have their own houses.

Is anything wrong with your eyes? Yes, my vision is terrible to the point I must wear glasses. I’m very near-sighted, and I have an astigmatism. I’m basically blind without my glasses. One eye is much worse than the other though, pretty sure it’s my right?

Last time you cried? Why? Recently, the day I found out the “One Big, Beautiful Bill” passed.

Who starred in your last dream? IT WAS SO FUCKING WEIRD????? JUAN WAS THE MAIN CHARACTER???? AKA THE GUY WHO WAS TOO FUCKING OLD AND TRIED DATING ME IN HIGH SCHOOL (keep in mind he failed grades many times so was quite older than me)????? I can’t believe I didn’t see just how red the flags were back then. Thank god we don’t talk anymore.

What’s an obsession you have? Can I be SO fucking embarrassingly real. I kinda desperately want a labubu now and I’m sorta obsessed lmao. Anyone feel like mailing me Loyalty or the rare black one with rainbow teeth lmfao

Has anyone ever sung to you? Yes.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? Yes actually, I got a concussion and broke teeth.

Do you like the color gray? No, not really. It’s a kinda depressing color to me.

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn’t? Yes.

Have you ever been geocaching? No, but it sounds cool.

Did you wear makeup today? What did you wear? No, I haven’t worn makeup in years.

Do you have any brothers? What’s your relationship with them like? I have an older half-brother from my mother’s first marriage. He lives in Tennessee, and we don’t really talk much, but I love him dearly and find him very inspiring. He’s a great guy.

When you eat out, what do you usually order as a drink? Mountain Dew or Coke, depending on which products they offer.

How old were you when you first moved house? Maybe like… two? Too young to remember it.

What made you happy today? Watching videos from Ozzy’s final concert!!!! Omg I’m so proud of him, he did so well given his health. THAT’S MY DAD Y’ALL!!!!!!

What year was your favorite album released? Black Rain by Ozzy Osbourne came out in 2007, while Rammstein’s Zeit was 2022.

Are you currently caring for any plants? I water the one plant in my day room.

Are you pro-choice? You bet your goddamn ass I am.

What is your favorite kind of salad dressing? Olive Garden’s.

Would you rather visit the Taj Mahal or the Eiffel Tower? Taj Mahal.

Did your last kiss mean anything to you? Of course, it was especially special because he’ll be gone for a week in Minnesota for Games Done Quick. We’re talking about me going with next year.

Have you ever ridden on a subway? No.

What is your middle name? Marie.

What did you do on your last birthday? Chilled at home with my mom, boyfriend, and my younger sister for a bit, too. I watched The Meerkats and then binged Meerkat Manor with the boyfriend and got some good laughs because of him. I had Wendy’s for dinner (one of my fave fast food places), and Mom made cake. The cake was kinda experimental and I actually didn’t like it, but it was okay, I appreciated the thought deeply.

Was your mom over 30 when she had you? Yes, she was.

Have you ever played strip poker? No.

Have you ever lived in a dorm? No.

Do you live in an apartment? No.

Do you have any nieces or nephews? Many, but I only see three regularly because my other siblings with kids are out of state.

What was the last song you listened to? It was a Ghost song, but I can’t remember which! I’ve been exploring their music today, been meaning to for a long time and found a few more than I already knew that I really liked.

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survey #264

Do you have any tan lines? Nah, I never do.

Have you ever gone swimming in a river? As a kid, yes. I think I’d be too scared to do this as an adult because I’m afraid of leeches.

When was the last time you printed something off? A map for the Pride event I went to recently.

Are you one of those people who can learn music/songs by ear? No.

Has the power gone out recently? Not while I was at my house, but at Girt’s, yes. There was a bad storm.

What do you think is the saddest-sounding instrument? Violin or piano.

Have you ever lived in the same street as some of your relatives? No.

Have you ever been in a cave? No.

Have you ever been close to your cousins? No.

Have you ever had to use crutches? Yes, I really fucked up my ankle once. That pain was unreal.

Have you ever had a chest infection? No.

Have you ever been on television? No.

Have you ever seen your favorite band perform live? No. :(

Have you ever taken a ride in a helicopter? No.

Have you ever worked in retail? All my jobs were retail. Never again.

Have you ever seen a meteor shower? No, I wish.

Have you ever been to a baby shower? Yes, for my sister. Perhaps someone else, I can’t remember...

Have you ever grown your own fruits or vegetables? My mom grows a few things some years. I’ve never done it myself.

Have you ever owned a Furby? Yes.

Have you ever been on an upside-down rollercoaster? No, this shit TEEEEEEERRIFIES me.

Have you ever been to a Six Flags park? No.

Have you ever crashed a car? No, but I also didn’t drive very long.

Have you ever gambled? No.

Have you ever been on an ocean cruise? No.

Have you ever been fishing? Yes, that was my main bonding thing with my dad as I grew up.

Have you ever been on a diet? You could say that. I’ve gone through calorie-counting phases, and I also used to do one of those meal kits. Name is evading me. It was short-lived.

Have you ever been swimming with dolphins or sharks? No.

Have you ever been stung by a bee or a wasp? I’m pretty sure I’ve been stung by a bee once.

Have you ever had pneumonia? No.

Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes.

Have you ever been kicked out of somewhere? Yes.

Have you ever left a restaurant without paying? No.

Have you ever seen a whale? Never in the wild. I went to SeaWorld as a child (fucking booooooo, what an abomination) and saw the Shamu show.

Have you ever slept in a tent? Yes, as a kid.

Have you ever considered modeling? No.

What is your favorite type of pants? Men’s pajama pants.

Have you ever had a life-threatening allergic reaction? No.

Do you still enjoy suckers? Yes.

What types of seafood are your favorite? The only seafood I know I like is shrimp. I’d like to try more fish, I haven’t found one I really like yet.

Did your parents live in a different country before you were born? No.

What’s something you’ve experienced that very few others have? Psych hospitalizations.

Do you know anyone who’s related to a current or former world leader? I technically am, a distant relative of mine was Queen Victoria.

Do you do your own taxes, or do you hire a professional? I don’t have taxes because I literally have zero form of income.

What was the last thing you purchased used? shrug

What was the very first thing you ever saved up to buy with your own money? I think it was actually my snake Venus. … Or was it a tattoo? Either way it was gifted money from a holiday + birthday.

What’s your opinion on assisted suicide? I support it within reason. Don’t feel like rambling about what is “within reason.”

At what point do you consider a relationship to be “long-term?” A year.

What jobs did your parents have when you were growing up? My mom was a special ed assistant teacher, and my dad was mainly a mailman but also went through a phase of a second job at Lowe’s.

Do they still have these jobs? Or different jobs? Or have they retired? My mom is on disability due to cancer. My dad is still a mailman; he wants to retire but can’t afford it.

Do you have any recurring dreams? Never the exact same, but recurring themes. Nightmares where I’m in danger/being attacked and ones where my teeth are falling out are the most common, I think. Jason also shows up in my dreams as a disturbingly frequent character that I attribute to trauma.

Do you know how to knit? Who taught you? No.

What state or territory were you born in? North Carolina. Been here my whole life.

What’s your favorite genre of music? Heavy metal.

Have you ever been for a ride in the back of a truck? As a kid, yes.

Does your father have any facial hair? He has a connected beard and mustache.

Did your grandparents teach you anything? How to not be a fucking old-fashioned bigot.

Are you into superheroes? Who’s your favorite? Not really. I like Deadpool most, but I’m not very informed on superheroes.

What was the last alcoholic beverage you had? A few days ago while at a friend’s house, I had two Seagram’s, the “Jamaican Me Happy” flavor.

Do you make your bed every morning? Yes, at least loosely.

What did you do last Halloween? Sigh, nothing. I REALLY need to break that habit, it’s literally my favorite holiday vibes-wise.

Do you ever wear your hair in a ponytail? No, it’s not long enough for that.

Does your family ever sit at the table for dinners? No.

Do you sing in the shower? No. I don’t really sing.

Have you ever dreamt of someone you barely know? Yes, always strikes me as very strange.

Does your house have a separate laundry room? Not really, no; our washer and dryer is kind of in a closet-like area.

Do your parents still help you financially? They have to; I don’t have any form of income whatsoever. My mom does most of it.

List 3 things you can see from where you’re sitting. My plant I have in here, the giant teddy sitting on a chair Girt got me once, and my vintage Mountain Dew bottle I got semi-recently.

Do you go by any nicknames? “Britt” is most common, then “Ozz(y)” is the usual online.

Are you a very talkative person? Generally, no, but I CAN be talkative when excited or passionate about something.

Does your car have a backup camera? No.

Have either of your parents ever been in trouble with the law? No, beyond something like a speeding ticket.

What was the last restaurant you ate at? Wendy’s after Girt and I went to a Pride event. That was a good day.

Are you in the same mood most days or are your emotions all over the place? I am generally at a baseline somewhat poor mood.

Have you ever had a pet that lived to be really old for its breed/species? No.

Have you ever been in a relationship that was progressing faster than you wanted it to? That’s what Tyler wanted, but I didn’t allow it because I left him.

What kind of flooring is in the room you’re in? Carpet.

How often do you go for a run? Never. I highly doubt I’m physically capable of running.

Do you like to stay in your pajamas all day long? Yes, I’m always in my pajamas unless I have to leave the house and go in somewhere.

What's something you used to collect when you were younger? Stickers. I used to put them all on my then-dresser.

Do you have a Flickr? I used to, but I deleted it.

List the things you have dissected in science class. An owl pellet and frog. The frog my partner and I had ended up being gravid. :((((

What was the last song you put on repeat? “1-800” by bbno$. Guess I like him now lmao

Do you wear an eye mask when you go to sleep? No.

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone? I cannot handle “Stairway to Heaven” by Led Zeppelin. That’s the #1. It can seriously aggravate trauma. “The Mortician’s Daughter” by Black Veil Brides is also hard, but not as bad as the former song.

Do you sleep with or without clothes on? With, I can’t imagine sleeping naked. I just hate being naked.

How's your life lately? Not great. Health (mental and physical) struggles galore.

Do you sleep with a fan on? I do in the hotter months.

Do you prefer to be friends with boys or girls? I don’t care.

Do you have your bellybutton pierced? No, but I totally would if I was fit. I’m too self-conscious to do so as an obese person.

Where was the last place you went besides your house? My friend Summer’s mom’s house to go swimming!

Have you ever read somebody else’s diary? I suppose it kinda was a diary, so yes, but with her approval. She considered nothing in it secretive to her kids. My mom used to write kind of like journal entries of major events in her life, including mine and my siblings’ births.

Are your parents going to buy you a car? Almost certainly no because my anxiety becomes debilitating behind the wheel to where I can’t drive. My permit isn’t even active anymore and hasn’t been for years.

Do/did you have any family in your school? Yes, sisters.

Are you sure of your sexuality? I know I’m either pan or bisexual, but I’m not 100% certain which, but I know I definitely lean towards pansexual.

Do you love your parents? Yes. I have a bit of a difficult relationship with my dad, I definitely feel he treats me differently than my sisters (I don’t want to get into why, it upsets me and there’s a fresh wound regarding this), but I still… love him, I guess. Sometimes I do feel like I’m just desperate to have a dad so forgive things that aren’t really fair.

Where would you like to propose/be proposed to? In nature would be ideal. And not very publicly, make it personal.

What’s your next piercing going to be? Something in my ears.

Would you feel hurt if your last ex was in a relationship? Nope. I’d pity her partner, though.

Do you normally fall asleep fast or slow? Agonizingly slowly. It takes literal hours.

Do you have a hint of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder? I have a diagnosis for this, yes. I have issues with the compulsive rumination type of OCD.

Are thongs sexy? Sure, but I think they’re extremely uncomfortable so I don’t wear them.

Which of your exes is the best looking? Jason.

Have you ever seen somebody get arrested? Not that I remember.

What kind of collection would you like to start? Rammstein merch, but shipping internationally is so expensive that it’s not really attainable.

What’s your latest discovery? I… think labubus are cute and kinda want one to hang on my purse or keys lmfao.

Which family member has your exact smile? I once saw a photo of my maternal grandma smiling in her youth and it was MY FUCKING SMILE. It kinda freaked me out, especially because I hate this woman lmfao.

Do you still feel anything for the first person you fell in love with? I always will. It’s not love I feel anymore, but it’s something. It will never go away, and it took a lot to accept that.

Who was the last person you called? My mom.

How old were you the first time you encountered God? “God” was forced on me before I could even begin to think for myself. Fuck off.

Would you ever want to be a famous YouTuber? No. I don’t want all those eyes on me, especially as an obese person. I couldn’t handle all the judgment.

What are three of your pet peeves? Trying to have a non-important conversation with me when I have earplugs in, going in/out the wrong door, and people listening to anything in public on their phones/whatever without earplugs.

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survey #263

What was the last TV show you binge watched? Well, when is it considered a “binge” watch? I can’t watch many episodes of a show. I guess Meerkat Manor on my birthday with Girt.

Would you rather eat burgers or tacos? Burgers, I don’t like tacos.

Have you ever taken a first aid course? No.

Did your mother change her maiden name when/if she got marred? Yes.

Do you use TikTok? No.

What grocery store do you shop at most often? Walmart.

Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Did you like it? Nope.

Are you closer to your mother or father? My mom, for sure.

What do you wish didn’t exist? Religion. I think it’s the root of a lot of evil.

Do you own any costumes? No.

What’s your favorite fruit? Strawberries and kiwi.

Would you mind living to 100 years old if you were in semi-decent health? I don’t want to live that long.

How did your parents meet one another? They were co-workers.

Have you ever failed an important test? Which subject? I remember failing my algebra exam during my last college attempt. I did AWFUL in that class.

Do you enjoy sour candies? If so, which ones? Yeah. Things like Sour Patch Kids, Sour Punch Straws, Warheads, really anything.

How would you feel if your parents posted your baby pictures online? I don’t care.

How old were you when you left your parents’ home? I haven’t moved out and I’m 29.

Does your body feel older than it actually is? Oh, absolutely. I have chronic pain in my back and hip and still have leg pain if I’m on my feet too long.

Were you always picked last in gym class? I definitely wasn’t picked first.

How do you like your eggs? Only scrambled + cheesy or as an omelette.

Did you use to have an imaginary friend? Yes, it was a wolf.

When was the last time you felt an earthquake? I’ve never felt an earthquake.

Which form of martial arts would you be most interested in trying? shrug

Have you ever passed out before? What was the cause? Yes. Doctors were never really sure but suspected maybe dehydration and getting too hot.

The last time you were high, what was it off of? I’ve never been high before.

When’s the last time you threw up, and why? A few months ago, I think my dinner didn’t agree with me. I was fine after just one time vomiting.

Do you play Pokemon Go? If so, what level are you and who’s your buddy? Yes. I can’t remember my exact level, 30-something, I don’t feel like checking; my buddy is an Eevee.

What’s the most daring thing you have ever done? I guess traveling alone? At least, I feel like that’s what most people would consider most daring. To me, I feel like allowing myself to start recovering from my trauma was the most daring. I had to do a lot of work and only recently realized I have a lot more work to do in therapy about it.

What would be something that made you think less of a person you just met? Racist, homophobic/transphobic, sexist remarks.

Do you like playing video games? If so, what do you usually play? Sigh. I WISH I played video games like I used to. :/ I think eventually, my depression ate at my motivation and focus for even that. I only really play games with Girt nowadays, which I DO enjoy.

How long have you had an online presence for? On social platforms, since I was like… 10-ish? I started on the Meerkat Manor forums.

Don’t you hate it when people answer to surveys with one word answers? Why would I care how other people answer surveys lmao.

Have you ever had an “adults’ toy”? If so, how often do/did you use it? No. I’m not opposed to trying one, I just don’t know if I’d go out of my way to buy one.

Do you read erotic stories or watch porn? (No, 50 Shades doesn’t count) No.

Are there any plants in the room you’re in? Yes. I think it’s pothos? There’s one Mom has quite a few of and I have one in this spare room.

Where’s the most beautiful place you’ve been to so far? I don’t remember Michigan, I was too young, but that would probably be the winner.

What’s something cool about the city/town you live in? Lit-erally nothing.

If you wear lipstick, what’s your favorite color to wear? I basically never wear lipstick, but when I do, black is my go-to.

Is your style feminine, masculine or somewhere in the middle? I suppose somewhere between feminine and androgynous?

Have you ever made a friend online who lives in another country? Yes.

When was the last time you saw your father? At my youngest niece’s birthday party in February.

Have you ever had an aquarium in your house? No. We just periodically had those godawful fishbowls.

What’s your favorite sea/underwater creature? I’m not sure, really. I THINK whales, but I also love sea turtles, sharks, seahorses...

Have you ever ridden a horse? Guided, as a child.

Who is the one person who knows you the best? My mom.

Where’s the last place you actually traveled a decent distance to? Charlotte, NC. It’s about a three hour drive from here.

What bug freaks you out the most? I have a phobia of maggots specifically. Stag beetles also freak me out, along with horseflies.

What’s your favorite flavor Pop-Tart? The chocolate sundae one.

What’s the last game you played? Some of the Silent Hill 2 remake with Girt.

Who’s your favorite Pokemon? Ninetales. Hm… maybe Espeon ties it, actually.

What’s your favorite movie? The Lion King.

What’s something about you that hasn’t changed from growing up? I’d say I’m pretty creative.

Do you read more books, comics/manga or magazines? Books.

Do you keep your keys in a specific place? In my purse.

Do you prefer getting takeaway or actually sitting in a restaurant and eating your meal there? It really depends. I most often get take-out, but I do enjoy the restaurant experience, but generally not at places that specialize in take-out.

Do you tend to keep your phone on silent, vibrate or loud? Vibrate.

When was the last time you took a dog out for a walk? Is this your own dog or did you borrow someone else’s? I haven’t walked a dog since Teddy was alive in like… two houses ago. I couldn’t tell you how many years ago that was.

What jewelry do you have on at the moment? Lip, nostril, and ear piercings, and a ring on my right middle finger.

Have you ever used a VPN to access foreign content online? No.

Who was the last artist you listened to? Is this someone you’re a fan of? I actually think it was “I See London, I See France” by bbno$. I’d seen him online and liked his political and meme content and then I discovered his music, I’m surprised I’ve liked some stuff.

Black cats are considered to be bad luck - is this a superstition that you’ve ever believed in? No.

Do you visit the dentist every six months like you should? Yes.

Are you old enough to remember using floppy discs? Yes.

Have you ever been the victim of a theft or robbery? What was stolen? Did the police ever catch the person who did it? Not that I remember.

How do you feel about dreads on women? I don’t care.

Who were you dating in May 2013? Jason.

Would you date someone three years younger than you? Yes.

Do you feel like your life is moving forward? No.

Would you ever have an open relationship? No.

By society’s standards, are you attractive? No.

Have you ever had a one-night stand? No.

Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? No.

Have you ever spent the night in the hospital? Too many times.

Are you friends with any of your teachers on Facebook? Yes.

Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? Never did.

Have you ever seen a snake in the wild? Yeah. I wanna see anotherrrrr. :(

Are you expecting any phone calls or emails? No.

What was the last takeout food you ate? McDonald’s, I think?

What did you have done the last time you saw a dentist? A small filling to a cavity.

What do you like to put on your baked potato? Cheese, a bit of sour cream, bacon bits.

Do you have any family that live in another country? I don't think so.

Would you rather go to the beach or the mountains? Mountains.

What do you do for work? I’m unemployed. Only recently have I truly come to the realization of me being disabled. I’m currently fighting for disability.

Are there any words that you hate or make you cringe? For some reason, I hate when people spell things like “funneh” or “kitteh” and I kinda have that reaction.

What’s the most unusual thing you’ve ever eaten? Thank you, person I stole this from, for reminding me of my answer lol. It was a yogurt guinea pig treat.

Have you ever seen someone quit their job in a dramatic way? No.

What do you like to dip your fries in? Ketchup.

Do you believe in alternate universes? I don’t, but I am open to the possibility. Sometimes the Mandela effect makes me wonder, lol. BY THE FUCKIN’ WAY, THE LAUGHING COW USED TO HAVE A RING THROUGH HER NOSE, CORRECT????????

Whose house did you last visit? My boyfriend’s.

What games do you play on your smartphone? Pokemon GO, Dragons of Atlantis: Heirs of the Dragon, DragonVale. I also use Finch, but I consider that a self-care thing, not a game.

What was the first concert you ever went to? Alice Cooper. ONLY concert I’ve been to, by the way. I desperately wish I’ve been to more.

Do you know anyone who is colorblind? Not personally anymore, but a YouTuber I regularly watch has a sort of colorblindness.

Are you the youngest, middle, or eldest child in your family? Among my immediate siblings, I’m the middle kid.

How many tabs do you have open right now? 13 lmaooooo. Most are YouTube.

Have you ever flown a kite? Yes. Kite flying is one of my good memories with my dad, because he would help.

Who was your favorite music artist when you were 16? Ozzy Osbourne.

What’s your opinion on Brexit? I know nothing about this. Heard the word, don’t really know about it.

Does it gross you out when people don’t cover their mouth when they cough? Yes.

After finishing a bowl of cereal, do you drink the leftover milk? No.

Do you have Zaxby's restaurants where you live? If so, have you ever eaten there? Yes, they’re great.

What is your favorite kind of flower? I have so many, lol. Orchids, hydrangeas, roses, pink tulips, tiger lilies, others I know I’m forgetting… I just frickin’ love flowers.

How many times have you seen hail in your life? Not very many.

Do people think you look like either of your parents? Does that offend you? I’ve heard I look like both. It doesn’t offend me.

Do you prefer regular bacon or turkey bacon? Regular, turkey bacon is awful.

Do you think it’s weird when people talk to their pets like people? Not at all! I think it’s important to make your pet feel included and seen. Why have a pet at all if you’re not going to treat them like family?

Where do most of your relatives live? Mom’s side is New York and Florida, Dad’s side is Ohio and Michigan.

What is the last place, other than home, that you stayed overnight? The hospital after an asthma attack. It was my second one and they wanted to keep me longer. They changed their mind a lot about keeping me even longer, actually.

Would you ever buy a motorcycle? No.

Are you tattooed? Or does it freak you out? I have quite a few, I love tattoos. Want way more.

Have you ever taken in a stray animal? Yes, that’s how we got our first cat Chance.

Have you ever dated someone simply for their looks? Nah.

What about dating someone simply because you felt too bad to say no? This might have fed into me dating Tyler.

Have you ever experienced a natural disaster? Yes, hurricanes. A tornado has happened a mile up my road, but I didn’t really “experience” it, THANK GOD.

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survey #262

Ever suffer from amnesia? Technically yes, after my concussion. I didn’t remember what happened, and even to this day, I don’t remember hitting the floor.

Have you ever picked out a song to listen to on a jukebox? I don’t think so.

Favorite way to eat a potato? (i.e. french fries, mashed potatoes…) French fries.

Have you ever lived outside of the country that you currently reside in? No.

Have you ever ridden in a limo? No.

Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? While my breakup was happening. I knew it was a real possibility following my overdose. As well as during my worst asthma attack.

Are there any song covers that you think are better than the original? Johnny Cash’s version of “Hurt,” Disturbed’s “Sound of Silence,” and Ninja Sex Party’s cover of “Wish You Were Here.”

Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? Not really. Gender is very disinteresting to me. What gender I am just… doesn’t affect me personally. This is NOT to say anyone else can’t take gender very seriously, you do you 100%.

Sprite, 7up, Sierra Mist, or Mountain Dew? Mountain Dew is far superior.

When’s the last time you went out of state? Visiting Sara in Illinois many years ago. I can’t remember what year it was.

Do you like hot sauce? If yes, what do you usually put it on? Yes. Sometimes chicken nuggets, I used to put it on jalapeno pizza.

What do you put on your hamburger? American cheese, mustard, ketchup, bacon if available, pickles, small bits of diced onion is good. A bit of mayo is also fine, but I don’t put it on it myself.

What area of science interests you the most? Genetics, biology.

Have you ever had a pet bird? No.

Have you ever watched Breaking Bad? No.

What color is your bed frame? Black.

What’s your favorite movie genre? Horror.

Have you ever been in an inflatable bouncy house? Yes.

Did any of your neighbors come over to welcome you when you moved into your current house? No.

Do you have good health insurance? No.

What’s your favorite kind of Girl Scout cookie? The chocolate + peanut butter one.

Have you ever been snorkeling? No.

Have you ever worn skinny jeans that were yellow, purple, blue or pink? No, mine were black, dark blue, and I had a maroon pair.

Who was the last person that you talked with online? My boyfriend.

Are you a high school dropout? No, I graduated. But sometimes, it was questionable if I’d make it.

Do you have a criminal record? No.

Do you think someone likes the same person you like? shrug

Is your last ex currently in a relationship? No idea.

Do you have make-up on? No, I never wear makeup these days.

Would you ever get your nipples pierced? No, nipple and genital piercings are where I wuss out, lol. It’s not just a fear thing though, I also just don’t want my nipples pierced.

Who have you texted today? Nobody.

What have you recently gotten the most compliments on? Tattoos.

Have you ever got your phone taken away cause you were in trouble? Um, I don’t think so. Mom tended to take away my computer access, not phone.

Do you have any gay friends? Yes.

Do you like to have long hair or short hair? Short hair.

Have you ever been IN a wedding? Yes, I was a bridesmaid in my older sister’s wedding and will be again when my younger sister gets married this November.

Do you have a garden? Does it have flowers, vegetables, or both? I wish I was motivated enough for a garden. I would LOVE to grow strawberries.

Do you like hornets? I respect their right to live on this earth and that they have a role in nature, but I’m terrified of them.

Have you ever had an ant farm? I don’t believe so.

Have you ever worn red high heels? No.

Have you ever been to craigslist.com? Yes, I used to be obsessed with looking at what animals were for adoption lol.

Have you ever used Nair? Yes, and maybe it’s just because my hair is so thick, but it’s basically as much work as shaving. It doesn’t all come off at once.

Do you like your steak rare? No, I like medium well but can tolerate medium.

Have you ever thrown a coin into a lake? No.

How many times have you changed a diaper in your life? Once.

Have you ever cried uncontrollably on a boy’s shoulder before? Yes.

Has more than one person ever told you they’re in love with you? More than two people have liked me at one time, but two people have never confessed to being in love with me at one time.

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone? Yes, Jason and I would do this sometimes when watching TV.

When was the last time you read a book? It’s been a few weeks. I haven’t been reading as much as I’d like to.

Are you subscribed to a lot of channels on YouTube? Hundreds.

Do you block a lot of people on Facebook? No.

Are you bothered by something someone said to you years ago? Some things will always bother me.

Do you like ice in your water? Water is the ONLY drink I don’t mind ice in. But I don’t go out of my way to get it.

Do you like pickles? Yes, but only dill pickles.

Do you have any friends with the same first name as you? No.

Did you ever own a classic Nintendo? No.

Do you have a passport? No.

Were you ever sent to the principal’s office as a kid? No. I actually do remember a teacher having me BRING SOMETHING to the principal’s office, lol.

Do you like going to the zoo? I enjoy going to good zoos, yes! People who hate all zoos are not for me, man. Good zoos do incredible things for conservation and education. Luckily the NC zoo is very well-revered.

Have you ever milked a cow? No.

What’s your favorite kind of milkshake? Just chocolate is fine.

What was the last flavor of ice-cream you had? Vanilla, but I put chocolate syrup on it.

If you eat breakfast, what’s your favorite thing to eat? If not, why not? Okay my mood on what to eat for breakfast changes A LOT. I used to eat cereal most mornings, but for months, I’ve been in this episode of absolutely not wanting cereal.

Have you ever gone to any ridiculous extremes to lose (or gain) weight? I’ve tried starving myself, yes. It didn’t really work.

What’s your favorite television show that’s still being made? Probably Squid Game even though the way they ended S2 pissed me off so much lmao

What is your favorite car brand? I don't have one.

Whose chore is it to clean the bathrooms in your house? I do basic maintenance of my bathroom, but Mom does the deeper cleaning stuff.

Have you ever played Cards Against Humanity? Yes, I enjoy it.

Have you ever seen Breakfast at Tiffany’s? I have not.

Have you ever seen a pelican in real life? Hm. Not that I remember.

Have you gambled in the past month in any form? No.

Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Nope.

What snacks do you like to eat when seeing a movie at the cinema? I’ll always get popcorn and a Coke, occasionally a candy.

Do you keep a glass of water by your bed? No.

Do you rent or own the place you live? Mom pays rent. I would help if I even had an income.

Have you ever made yourself as a Sim? No.

Do you know anyone whose gender is non-binary? Yes, most of my closest friends are actually non-binary.

What brand is your phone? Samsung Galaxy.

What is your favorite game to play on your phone? Pokemon GO.

Who was the last person who was rude to you? This lady that works at the chiropractor’s office. Mom and I can’t stand her, she’s always bitchy.

What is your newest hobby? Hm. Been a hoooooot minute since I developed a new hobby…

Do you own a swimming pool? No.

Have you ever been in prison? No.

Have you downloaded unique fonts for your computer? Yes.

What is your doctor’s first name? My PCP’s first name is Jaimes.

What kind of collection would you like to start? Rammstein merch. Shipping international is sadly expensive, I wanted a shirt for Christmas but Mom pointed out how pricey it is to ship overseas.

Do you prefer to live alone or live in a family? Can I be so real, I don’t think I’d survive living on my own. I’d be depressed out of my senses.

What states have you visited, that you remember? I’m going to exclude those I’ve only ridden through: New York, Florida, Virginia, Ohio, Tennessee, Michigan, possibly South Carolina?

What countries have you visited? I've never left the United States.

What countries do you want to visit? South Africa, Germany, Ireland, and Kenya are the main ones. Maybe Bali, but the humidity scares me.

What states would you most like to visit? Alaska, Arizona, Colorado, Wyoming, Oregon.

What are five careers you’ve considered? Paleontologist, vet, movie director, game designer, photographer.

Do you still feel anything for the first person you fell in love with? I’ll always feel *something*, I don’t think there’s any way out of it with how that relationship was.

Who was the last person you called? My mom.

Have you ever hallucinated? When coming off of a certain med in middle school, I saw shadows moving in my periphery.

Who is the best-looking male celebrity, in your opinion? I may be in my Richard Kruspe phase, but I still believe Markiplier is objectively better-looking.

Did you tell your last girlfriend/boyfriend that you love them? The one before whom I’m dating now? Yes.

Do you know anyone whose name starts with P? Yes, my boyfriend has someone in his life who is basically an aunt named Penny.

Do your pets have favorites? Yes; Roman favors me, and Venus is only really handled by me, so probably recognizes me. My mom’s dog is DEFINITELY a mama’s girl, she’s all about our mom lol.

What’s the longest you’ve ever liked someone without telling them? Not sure.

Did you prank anyone on April Fool’s Day? No, I don’t do pranks.

Did you check to see how much fat/calories was in the last thing you ate? No.

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survey #261

Have you ever been served breakfast in bed? No.

Have you ever picked flowers out of someone else’s garden without asking? No.

What is your favorite thing to do as a little kid? Play video games, play make believe with my toys, swim in the pool, play games my sisters and I would make up on the trampoline, go fishing with my dad, ride my bike, explore nearby nature, read, draw, catch bugs...

Are holidays as fun for you now as they were when you were younger? Sadly no, but I think most adults can agree with that. I still ENJOY myself, but what can match the joy of a kid celebrating a holiday they love?

Do you find non-fiction to be boring? Sometimes, definitely more often than fiction.

What is the longest essay or research paper you have written? I’d say close to 20 pages?

Do you ever write your own short stories? I think RP counts for this, I’m just writing stories with others.

Have you ever been close to drowning? No.

Have you ever had a panic attack? Yes, I’ve had panic and anxiety attacks. I’m more prone to anxiety attacks though, but I’ve had the former too, and in my experience, they’re scarier.

Do you worry about being judged by other people? Yes, very.

If someone doesn’t like you, do you usually want to know the reason? Yes.

Do you eat any meat other than turkey on Thanksgiving? I don’t eat the turkey, I eat spiral honey ham.

What was the last picture you were in? While at Repticon, Mom took a picture of me holding a crested gecko!

What's in your make-up bags? I don’t have one.

Does your best friend have kids? He doesn’t. Doesn’t want any thankfully, would suck if he did because we’re dating.

Last time you rode in an elevator? Over a week ago when I went to a doctor’s office for a follow-up of a pulminology test. My mom also told me an alarming thing about my sleep apnea, which I brought up to her, and it looks like I’m officially gonna be on a CPAP machine again. Apparently untreated sleep apnea can result in some fatal stuff.

Do you have blue eyes? I do, they’re a grayish blue. Wish they were bluer.

Are you shorter than 5'5"? I’m 5’4.5’’.

What was your first job? GameStop sales clerk.

Were you named after anyone? No. Though my middle name runs in the family.

Have you ever been engaged? No.

Are you more of a cat or dog person? Cat, but I like both.

Do you prefer to be single or in a relationship? I am personally happier in a HEALTHY relationship.

Are you closer to your mom or your dad? Mom.

Do you have any step/half siblings? One step, four half.

Have you had an x-ray in the past year? Yes; chest, back, hip. Oh, and teeth.

Where was the last place you slept besides your own bed? My sister’s bed.

What’s the largest animal you’ve ever had as a pet? Our old boxer mix named Cali.

Do you own any kind of helmet? No.

Out of everything currently in your refrigerator, what food or drink is your favorite? Food is the pepperoni. Drink… well, at the time I’m answering this question, I have a Coke from Wendy’s in there, so that.

Do you ever put fruit on your cereal? Noooo, this is a textural nightmare to me.

Have you ever been on a houseboat? Can I be so real, idk what a houseboat is lmao.

Were your grandparents present when you were born? Pretty positive no. They didn’t even live in nearly the same state as me.

Have you ever played the game Angry Birds? I actually don’t believe I have.

Do you ever find yourself worrying about things that probably won’t happen? OH THAT’S MY SPECIALTY!!!!!

Has your imagination ever made it hard for you to sleep? My inability to turn my brain off EVER (especially when trying to sleep) is a big reason I wonder if I’m not just autistic, but have ADHD, too. I will bring it up when I go for my eval; the first time even mentioned the possibility of ADHD.

Have you ever had a weird dream and obsessed over what it might mean? No, I don’t believe dreams really have meaning.

Which languages can you speak? I’m a native English speaker and have VERY rusty German knowledge. I was once an honors student in it, took all four available courses, but you don’t use it, you lose it.

Are there any foods you dislike because of the texture? Absolutely, this is a very common autistic trait.

Which type of chocolate do you like best? Milk.

Do you let your pets sleep in your bed? Absolutely. This is their house, too.

Do you have to/choose to shave anything unusual? No. Men who know absolutely nothing about women would probably be surprised to know I shave my upper lip, but this is very normal.

Do you groom (wax, pluck, or thread) your eyebrows? No. I waxed as a teenager, but I no longer care. My eyebrows look fine.

Did your school have somewhere for girls to get emergency pads/tampons? You know what, I don’t remember. I feel like maybe, but it cost some coins?

Do you think guys look good in makeup? Yes.

Do you like using clay and/or peel-off masks for skincare? I don’t really do this, but I also don’t mind it.

Pen or pencil? Pencil, not being able to erase actually stresses me out lol.

Have you ever played The Sims? I’ve played two animal-based Sims games. I was really into one for a while.

Are any of your friends vegetarians? Not that I know of.

Are you a fan of the Grand Theft Auto series? Never played ‘em. I saw the trailer for the upcoming one and I will say the graphics are like, revolutionary.

Do you like the beach? Mixed feelings. I LOVE being in the actual ocean, but once I’m out of the water, no. I hate the feeling of sand between my toes, I hate the salty wind, I hate how crowded it is, I hate the heat, etc.

Do you have your license? No, driving is not doable for me due to anxiety.

Would you ever have plastic surgery? If I ever lose the weight I want to, I’d very much want loose skin removal surgery, if that counts.

How old were you when you had your first kiss? I was technically kissed as a child many times without my consent, and then once as a teenager, but the first time I kissed someone was shortly after I’d turned 16.

What do you think is the youngest age someone should lose their virginity? Shrug. I really don’t know. A part of me says teenagers shouldn’t, period, but then again, I was a teenager once and I get it.

Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental disorder? I’ve been diagnosed with a lot.

What is your sexual orientation? Pansexual, but I also don’t mind being called bisexual. Happy Priiiiiiide!!!!!

What time do you generally wake up in the morning? I’m embarrassed to share that. I usually sleep very late due to depression. Sleeping in just makes the day easier to get through.

Can you juggle? No.

Have you ever had an ear infection? I had so many as a baby that I had tubes put in my ears. I’ve been told by doctors I have small ears, and this can contribute. I had a double ear infection in my adulthood that made me want to die.

When you listen to music with headphones, do you keep the volume low enough to hear surrounding noise faintly, or do you blast it? Blast it.

Have you ever watched an anime series, start to finish? Fullmetal Alchemist (plus Brotherhood) and Ginga Densetsu Weed.

Do you prefer non-diet or diet soda? Non-diet exclusively, I can’t stand diet soda.

Which word did you say first, mama or dada? The latter.

What teacher did all the high school boys/girls have a crush on? I don’t know about high school, but in middle school, the band teacher we had my last year there. Theeeen later in life I learned he had relations with a student and obviously got fired lmfao

When was the last time it snowed where you live? Do you like snowy weather or is it just a pain? Pretty sure it snowed this past March, very late for us to get snow. I LOVE snow.

What accents are your favorite? British, Scottish/Irish (I can’t really differentiate them).

Do you prefer hot coffee or iced coffee? What about hot tea or iced tea? I don’t enjoy coffee or tea.

Do you have any medications that you need to take daily? Is this something you’re going to have to do for the rest of your life? I have many meds I take daily; yes.

Do you have anything to say to your ex bf/gf? I hope you have the day – no, life – you voted for. :))))))

What’s your favorite vegetable? Broccoli or cucumber.

Have you ever slapped anybody? As a kid I hit my sister.

What color is your laptop? Black.

Do you worry a lot, or do you live carefree? I am insanely worrisome. I’m always worrying. About rational things, about entirely irrational things.

What is the next fun thing you are planning to do? In a few days I will be visiting my favorite teacher ever during her last work day at school before she retires!! She taught me in 2nd and 5th grades and no teacher was ever like her.

Do you suffer from chronic pain? Yes. I have a pain-causing deformity in my spine and a mystery hip issue we’re trying to figure out. I still have remnants of leg pain, too.

Who was your first best friend? Brianna.

Do you want to have kids? I’m so serious about not having kids that I’m having my tubes removed next month.

Do you like pineapple? I do.

Would you rather visit Asia or Europe? Europe.

Do you think it’s selfish to travel all the time, when most people can’t? … No…?

What color was your first phone? I feel like it was blue.

Which do you like better: cacti, palm trees, or maple trees? I think cacti. Maple trees are close behind.

What type of tree do you see most of where you live? Pine.

Have you ever seen fireflies? Yes!!!! I never see them as an adult, though. :(((

Is there anything in particular that you always pick up when you go to the store? My mom will always get me a Mountain Dew Voltage and usually Flamin’ Hot Cheetos.

Do you think pranks like egging/toilet-papering someone's house are funny or immature? Immature as fuck. My childhood home was egged on Halloween. It was not funny. At all.

How often would you say you eat fast food? About once or rarely twice a week.

Do you enjoy plane journeys, if you’ve ever been on one? I don’t really, while also not being TOO scared of them. I just… don’t find them very enjoyable.

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survey #260

Do you own any bug spray? No.

Are you a good gift giver? I think so, when I can actually get someone a gift.

Are you a liberal? I consider myself a leftist with like, one conservative view.

Do you like your significant other’s siblings? Yes.

Do you Twitter? No. I had an inactive account for a long time, I only created it for a Silent Hill-related giveaway, but I straight-up deleted it after Elon decided it was cool to do two Nazi salutes.

Do you own anything made by APPLE? An iPod.

How old is your mom? What about you dad? My mom is I think 64 and Dad is one or two years younger than her.

Have you ever tried Hamburger Helper? Yes, I never enjoyed it much, and as an adult I straight-up don't like it.

What was your first car's color? I've never had my own car.

Do you have a best friend? I consider my boyfriend to be my best friend.

Do you remember who your kindergarten teacher was? Yes, but I don't want to share her last name because she's the only person I've ever met with it.

Do you have a favorite president? A least favorite? No favorite, but my least favorite is CERTAINLY Trump.

Can you French braid? Nope, never even tried.

Were you ever a girl scout or a boy scout? Yes.

What's your least favorite color? Probably like, vomit green or diarrhea brown.

What's the strangest name you’ve ever heard? I think it's mean to make fun of names.

What’s your favorite football team? I don't care about sports.

Do you wear a one-piece bathing suit or two-piece, a speedo or trunks? One piece, but with swimming pants to cover my legs.

Did you go to your senior prom? Yes. I went to prom twice actually, and the actual event is very overrated. It's too loud, you can't hear anyone, and it's not much fun if you don't like dancing. At the same time, I don't regret going either time.

What’s your favorite baby name? My favorite name ever is Alessandra.

Do you support a charity? I would if I had a steady income.

Have you ever done drugs? I haven't.

Do you scrapbook? No.

Do you like martinis? I don't think I've ever tried one.

When were you the saddest in your whole life? 2016. I wanted to die every single day, and I mean that.

Do you work out? No.

In school, were you bullied? No, for which I'm very grateful.

Have you ever swam in the ocean? Yes, in the Atlantic.

What are you views on hunting? I support hunting for food and using every bit of the animal, even if that means giving parts to others. Trophy hunting is one of the greatest evils I can think of. Even when hunting for food, I am very passionate about it being RESPECTFUL, and I am still against posing for photos with animals you killed for food, like what a power trip move that gives no decency to the animal.

Do you know anyone who suffers from bone loss? Uh, I don't know if this counts, but from a mix of diabetes and chemotherapy, my mom is losing bone in her jaw. She has a tooth that actually needs to come out because of it, but she's putting it off as long as possible.

Do you have any tattoos? Six, two being coverups (so I guess eight in a way).

Do you know anyone who is pregnant? Yes, a childhood best friend Jenna revealed on Easter she's pregnant with her second child. I'm happy for her!

What color are your bed sheets? Darker gray.

Have you ever been to therapy? I've been in therapy consistently since 6th grade.

Would you survive in the military? No, but I couldn't be drafted in anyway because of a suicidal history.

Do you curse? Yes, I don't believe in profanity in the traditional sense. Slurs and such, I will not say because I DO believe they're genuinely "bad" words because they're designed to belittle someone for something uncontrollable.

Do you think you are overweight? I qualify as obese.

Are you easily bored? Yes.

Do you know anyone gay? Yes.

Do you chew your pens? No, it grosses me out.

Are you blood related to the last person you hugged? Yes.

Have you ever felt jealous of anyone else’s success? Yeah.

Has the last person you hugged ever made you cry? Yes.

What song reminds you of your first boyfriend/girlfriend? "Another Life" by Motionless In White used to be almost impossible for me to listen to because it was so painful for this reason.

Have you ever been to Target? Yes, but it’s not a place I frequent.

Have you ever been to Disney World? Yes, as a child.

Do you have any obsessions? I consider meerkats and the Silent Hill franchise to be my long-lasting special interests. I’m currently obsessed with Rammstein and have been for a couple years, and it’s my biggest current hyperfixation. I’m also obsessed with reptiles (snakes especially) and tarantulas.

If you had a baby, would you want to have it at home or in a hospital? In an alternative universe where I wanted a kid, I would absolutely have it at the hospital, no chance I’m doing it at home.

Have you ever had a bad experience with anti-depressants? If so, what? Yup. Well, I can’t exactly remember if it was an antidepressant, but I’m assuming due to the time range: middle school. It turned me into a BITCH AND A HALF. Once around 2 PM came along, I was just evil, while prior, I was extremely upbeat and even hyper. I did not stay on it long.

Are you allergic to any plants? Yes, basically anything that grows, I’m allergic to it.

Do you take risks or play it safe? I definitely play it safe.

What's your favorite planet? Saturn, closely followed by Jupiter.

Do you trust the government? As if.

What are you excited for? Pride events!!!! I might be going to two instead of just one!!

Are you part Irish? Yes; if I remember correctly, German and Irish almost tie for close to 50/50, then there’s a tiny bit of Polish.

Do you find musicians or athletes more attractive? Musicians, usually.

When I was younger I wanted to be a: Paleontologist was my first career goal.

Do you have a lucky number? No.

Do you own a gun? No.

Have you ever thrown a surprise birthday party? I don't think so.

If you celebrate Christmas, do you get a real tree or an artificial tree? Artificial.

Do you change depending on who you’re with? Mostly no. CERTAINLY not my beliefs, I hate when people do this. I’ll try not to swear around people who don’t like it. I’m more myself with people I’m comfortable with, if that counts.

What’s your biggest wish right now? For my disability case to go well.

Do you believe in fate? No.

What are your worst habits? Catastrophizing/always assuming the worst/overthinking in general, drinking soda more than I should, sleeping in very late out of depression.

Do you watch music videos? I only watch Rammstein’s.

What is your favorite home-cooked meal? I like my mom’s spaghetti and meatballs.

Do you like lemonade? Yes, but not with pulp in it.

Is there someone you trust more than others? My mom.

Do you have any relatives in the military currently? I don’t believe so.

Who got married at the last wedding you went to? Bethany & Spencer. I was photographing it, I’m still so honored they asked me to do it. (Not just “asked,” yes, I was paid, don’t get the wrong image of them in your head lol.)

Who was your 4th grade teacher? Mrs. Moore. I loved her a lot.

Do you know anyone named Tyler? I VERY briefly dated a Tyler and bro was too much. A friend also told me a story of him proposing to her friend literally a few weeks into dating. I’m glad I left him.

Are both your parents still living? Yes.

Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes, and I shouldn’t have lol. Fish husbandry is more advanced than average people realize. OF COURSE all the fish died quickly.

Are you taller than your mom? I think she’s literally half an inch taller than me.

Does the future make you more nervous or excited? It makes me terrified. I feel very little excitement.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Hell no.

How many kids do you wanna have? Zero. This’ll be the first time I’m sharing in a survey that I have a surgery scheduled to get my tubes fully removed. :’)

Would you make a good parent? My child would literally be taken by CPS for neglect and I know that. It’s part of why I’m getting my tubes removed.

What was the last tv show you watched? Severance with Girt. We’ve only watched the first few episodes, but we like it. I don’t think we can continue it though, Mom recently told me she can’t afford to keep the subscription to the streaming service it’s on.

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What’s your musical guilty pleasure? Marilyn Manson, because I think he's a shitty person but goddammit I love his music.

Who’s your favorite philosopher? I don't have one.

What’s your dream tattoo if you don’t have it already? "Denialism" drawn by the artist NukeRooster.

When was the last time you attended a barbecue? No clue.

Can you handle movies involving lots of bugs and insects? Yes, I like bugs anyway.

Are you borrowing books from anybody at the moment? No.

Do you keep scissors in your kitchen? If so, where? Yes, in a drawer by the fridge.

Are you comfortable to go out in public with no makeup? I always do.

Do you like being kissed on the neck? I mean, if we're serious together. Don't go doing this to me in a new relationship.

When and where was the last time you took a picture of yourself? Idk, it's been a real hot minute.

Who was the last person to yell at you? My mom.

Who gets up the earliest in your household? The latest? My mom gets up much before me.

Have you ever had a pet walk across your keyboard while you were typing? My cat definitely does this.

What political issues do you think deserve less attention/worry? I can't think of any.

Which political issues are you most passionate about? LGBTQ+ rights, safe abortion access & women's rights as a whole, gun control.

When was the last children's b-day party you attended? February.

Does chicken noodle soup really make you feel any better? I don't like chicken noodle soup.

What is one meal that you like to eat whilst sick? Not really a "meal," but saltines.

Have you ever fed bread to ducks or geese? As a child, yes, before I knew it was very bad for them.

The name of the last video game you played? The remake of Silent Hill 2.

The name of the last board game that you played? I don't remember. I don't really play them because I don't enjoy them.

Has anyone ever commented on your weight? Yes. It's funny, largely online when I try to educate someone on something and they have no real argument so they go for personal insults.

Have you ever thought about joining the military? I'd rather fuckin die.

Do you take offense to things easily? I'm not offended easily, but my feelings are hurt easily.

How was the service at the last restaurant you visited? Fine.

In a car: air conditioning, or roll the windows down? AC.

Is there a new song or band you've discovered? I've kinda gotten into Chappell Roan.

Do you make your bed each morning? Yes, it's a small thing I can actually manage to do that helps me feel better about myself.

Are you concerned about the economy? Very, I do not see how it can't not crash soon. And now with tariffs...

What is the most interesting food you’ve eaten? I honestly have no idea, I'm not at all adventurous with foods.

Do you believe in staying “healthy”? I mean, I think you should do your best. "Your best" looks different for everyone.

What is your favorite type of gum? Probably watermelon Hubba Bubba.

Do you think cheese and mustard together on a sandwich is gross? No, literally my favorite sandwich is that and ham.

What’s your least favorite pizza topping? Mushrooms.

Do you believe in heaven? If so, what’s it like? If not, why? No, because I'm an atheist. I sometimes have agnostic thoughts, but I'm largely an atheist. I believe if there IS a god, it's not one of any religion we know.

What’s your favorite video game? Silent Hill 2 (I prefer the remake but the OG is still phenomenal) and Shadow of the Colossus.

Do you prefer the country or city? Country, I don't like cities much. Visiting, fine, but I don't wanna live in one.

What are some of your favorite singers/bands? My faves of all time are Ozzy Osbourne and Rammstein, but the others high on the list include Marilyn Manson, Korn, Otep, Motionless In White, Metallica, In This Moment, Powerwolf, 3TEETH, Mother Mother, A Day to Remember, Cradle of Filth, and Beast In Black.

How often do you go on to YouTube? Daily.

It’s possible to be addicted to anything… What are you addicted to? The Internet/technology.

What’s your dream pet? Pink Sonoran coachwhip snake and a Brazilian black tarantula.

When you were little, did you ever like Pokemon? I was obsessed.

How often do you just lose all patience and get very irritable? I've come to accept I can be a rather irritable person.

Do you enjoy helping people move or do you not like it? I did this once when I was fit and I hated it lmao. With my physical shape now, I basically couldn't do it, I'm not strong enough and have basically no endurance.

Have you ever kissed someone that you thought you’d never kiss? Girt, honestly.

What was the last thing you were way too confused about? Are you still confused about it? I actually wondered if I'm a demigirl instead of a cis woman. I came to the conclusion I am not and still consider myself a cis woman.

Lately, have you been thinking more about the preferred sex, less or has it not really changed? My libido has been very low and I blame my antidepressant I'm currently on.

Have you ever worn a tiara? I remember going to a birthday dinner as a teenager and my friend brought me one with my new age on it lol. It was a very sweet gesture.

If you plan to have kids, what will you tell them about Santa Claus? I will not have kids, but I would do the Santa Claus myth. It doesn't hurt them at all, it's just innocent fun, and mine and my sisters' memories of the joy of Santa Claus being real was magical, and I would want my kids to have that.

Do you think that pet stores are cruel for keeping animals in small cages? I hate chain pet stores for many reasons. Smaller, independent businesses that put more care into their animals, I like.

Do you ever avoid talking to specific people, whether it be in person, on the phone, or on your preferred social networking site? Yes: my sister's husband and his family because they're garbage and we see eye-to-eye on absolutely nothing.

Serious question, peanut butter or nutella? I actually prefer nutella, but I have peanut butter WAY more often.

Do you prefer baked potatoes or mashed potatoes? Baked potatoes.

What are your favorite things to spend money on? Tattoos, lol.

Which would you rather have a new puppy or kitten? Kitten. I actually do want another cat.

Could you ever be friends with somebody who was homophobic? Absolutely not.

Honestly, have you ever danced naked? No.

What was the first illegal thing that you did? Did you get caught? Pirating music, and I mean, no.

Are your ears pierced? Yes, twice in the earlobe and in my right tragus.

If so, were they pierced with a piercing gun, or with a sterile needle? Earlobes were a piercing gun, which I DO NOT FUCKING RECOMMEND because I have issues with one hole BECAUSE it was done with a piercing gun too low.

Any obsessive-compulsive tendencies? I have severe ruminations when I'm not medicated, which is a form of OCD.

What’s one thing, besides the obvious, that you couldn’t live without? YouTube. I watch/listen to it constantly.

Have you ever touched a giraffe? Yes, I've fed one before!

How many hours do you spend on the computer a day? I wouldn't dare count. Basically from when I wake up to when I go to bed.

Do your siblings text you? Not really.

Do you want a small or big wedding? Small.

Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth? Not my current house, but an old one.

Who is your ex dating/talking to? shrug

Do you own your own computer? A laptop, yes.

Did you ever have to share a room with one of your siblings? Yes, with my younger sister up until I was in my mid teenage years.

Have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed? Yes.

Do you want your tongue pierced? Not again. I had snake eyes and I had to take it out because I kept biting down on it, and that can really damage your teeth. I loved it aesthetically, it was my favorite piercing, but I wanted to care for my teeth.

Do you change your phone background a lot? Not a lot, no.

Have you ever been strip-searched? Basically. It's part of being placed in a mental hospital.

Do you have a funny last name? Does anyone make fun of it? No. I don't like my last name, but it's not "funny."

[TW: DRUG OD/SUICIDE] Ever have a drug overdose? What did you OD on exactly? Yes, as a suicide attempt. It was Alka-Seltzer Plus, which is a cold medicine.

Do you get sick of people who call themselves bipolar all the time? If you do not ACTUALLY have bipolar disorder, then yes. It's a mental illness, not an adjective to be used otherwise.

Have you ever stepped in dog poop? Ugh, yes.

Would you ever consider getting a piercing in your septum? Nah, I like my nostril piercing.

Who’s your celebrity crush? Richard Krupse, Oliver Riedel, Mark Fischbach.

Are you expected to help fix Thanksgiving dinner? No.

Do you personally know anyone who is transgender? My three closest friends are transgender, and I know more than just them.

When was the last time you got a shot? I'm getting allergy shots currently, and I do so once a week.

Do you like to order people around? Noooooo.

Do you own an iPod? Yes, I have the same hot pink iPod Nano I've had since I was basically a kid.

Have you ever heard the song “White and Nerdy” by Weird Al Yankovich? Lol of course, my sister and I were obsessed with that music video as a kid.

Have you ever been to Colorado? No, but I absolutely want to visit!

Do you like to play sports? No.

When you draw a heart, what side do you draw first? The right, I think?

Do you know how to speak a different language other than English? Weak German.

Have you ever had a one night stand? No.

Have you ever dressed like a goth? Yes. I resonate with goths in my heart, but I'm too lazy (and poor) to really match the attire.

What’s your favorite color? Shades of pink.

Have you ever ran away from home? Okay so yes, but not *really*. I didn't have a plan, I brought my freaking DOG as if I was gonna torture him with homelessness, and I had my phone. Mom threatened to call the cops so I was home within an hour lmfao.

What’s your favorite day of the week? Friday. Two of my favorite YouTubers upload, and my mom babysits my niece so something interesting is always going on.

Are you addicted to coffee? I don't even like coffee.

Have you ever broken a bone? Yes, my wrist while rollerskating as a kid.

Do you remember your first bout of teenage rebellion? What'd you do? No, but I'm sure something pretty tame compared to most teenagers, it seems like.

What was your parents' opinion on same-sex relationships? I can almost guarantee my dad is homophobic (despite the fact when he met my then-girlfriend, he was perfectly friendly), meanwhile my mom supports gay rights.

What is one animal unique to your country/area of the world? Bison.

Have you ever had someone throw up on you before? No, thank Christ.

Do you prefer pads or tampons, if you need them? Pads. I have issues with tampons. Don't like pads either, but...

Do you like candy corn or hate it? I hate candy corn.

How many times a day do you brush your teeth? Once. I used to badly neglect my teeth because of depression, so I'm proud I've even been doing it once a day for months now.

Where did you go, the last time you left your house? The allergy clinic an hour away, where I get my shots.

Do you like your singing voice? Not really, no.

Do you think that you’ve ever actually been IN love with someone? Twice.

Are you bisexual? I consider myself pansexual, but I might be bisexual. I honestly have trouble differentiating the two.

Name a word that you just really do not like: The "r" word. As an insult is absolutely fucking heinous, and it's considered outdated for being serious. "Intellectually disabled" is proper.

Do you still seriously make pinky promises? Yes.

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survey #258

Have you ever taken a ballet class, and if yes, what did you think of it? Nah, ballet is pretty to watch, but I could never manage. I'm nowhere near graceful enough. The closest thing to it I tried is lyrical, and even that I couldn't do.

Which of these words would you say describes you best: girly, feminine, creative, passionate, or fun-loving? Passionate or creative.

Would you rather eat strawberry ice cream, a strawberry-flavored cake, or a pink Starburst? Pink Starburst, I don't like the two other.

What is your favorite creative pastime? Roleplay.

Which of these flavors do you like best: strawberry, watermelon, raspberry, dragonfruit, or bubblegum? Strawberry or watermelon.

Would you rather eat cotton candy, raspberry sherbet, or strawberry yogurt? Raspberry sherbet.

Have you ever seen a real live flamingo in person? At a bird sanctuary and zoo, yes.

Who in your family, if anyone, has had breast cancer? I know I have an aunt who's had it.

Did you name your Barbies when you were younger? I didn't have my own Barbies, but my younger sister did, and sometimes she'd want me to play with her.

Have your parents ever searched your personal belongings? My mom basically traumatized me going through my online stuff when I was a kid. I didn't have anything *bad* to hide, but I was too embarrassed to share my RP hobby.

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Yes.

Do you think flirting is cheating? I sure do.

What are you listening to right now? I'm watching Gab Smolders play the remake of Silent Hill 2.

Last place you fell asleep other than a bed? My sister's couch, I think.

Do you have a dog? She's technically my mom's, but yes.

What’s one fear you are most paranoid about? Home invasion.

Have you ran into an old friend recently? No.

Have you ever liked someone who had a girl/boyfriend? Yes, that's the story of my first real crush.

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? Nope!

Do you remember who your first crush was? Speaking of lol, yes, his name was Sebastian.

How many wives or husbands do you want? Just one.

What’s the last movie you saw in the theater? Mufasa: The Lion King. I liked it.

What color is your iPod? Hot pink.

One famous guy you would marry in an instance? None, it's not like I actually *know* these people.

What color was the last lipstick you put on? Probably black.

Would you ever become a vegetarian? I was briefly a vegetarian, but it's not sustainable for me. I'm too picky. I WISH I could manage it, but I can't and not be malnourished.

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years? Probably.

Do you care if people hate you? I wish I didn't, but I do.

Has a song ever made you cry? Yes.

Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing “truth or dare”? Truth.

Do people tell you you have cold hands? Yes.

Did you carve a pumpkin this past year? No. I wish I'd get back into doing that...

French fries or onion rings? French fries.

Do you suffer from anxiety? Generalized and social, yes.

Do you consider yourself an artist? I do.

I’m ordering Chinese food; what do you want? My treat! Pork fried rice and an eggroll.

OTP? I don't know anymore, but all my major ships are gay lmfao.

The reason I joined Tumblr? It was originally for the Rhett & Link/GMM fandom. Speaking of gay ships, lmao.

Baked macaroni and cheese or regular? Regular, I don't like baked.

Pizza rolls or bagel bites? Pizza rolls.

Have you ever witnessed a car accident? Yes.

Have you ever been skinny dipping? No, but I want to do this one day.

Sprinkles or frosting? Frosting, I hate sprinkles.

Do you like mushrooms? Not as food. Visually, I think they're dope.

Name one thing you put on a salad: I like bacon bits in a salad.

What’s the last thing you ordered from a Mexican restaurant? Shrimp quesadilla.

Do you carry a purse or a backpack? Purse.

What kind of soda is your favorite? Mountain Dew Voltage. Mountain Dew in general is cocaine to me.

Nachos or chips and salsa? Chips and salsa.

Chinese or Japanese cuisine? Chinese, I haven't tried much Japanese.

Does anyone in your family have a birthday in February? Me and my youngest niece.

What’s your Taco Bell order? Steak and cheese quesadilla, fiesta potatoes.

Pizza or nacho lunchables? NACHO!!!!!

Have you ever been to a strip club? No, not my scene.

Did you ever participate in any pageants when you were younger? No, thank Christ.

What kind of cheese is your favorite? I only really like American cheese. Cheddar IN some things.

What kind of meat do you like the most? I'm not sure, maybe pork.

Snakes or spiders? I like both, but I prefer snakes.

Is anyone in your family in law enforcement? No.

What’s a fruit you dislike? Mangoes, despite loving mango-FLAVORED things.

Who’s one of the most talented people you know? What are they talented at? Tez is definitely up there. He's a great artist, writer, and politically informed/active in working for a change.

Do you usually pay with cash, debit card, or credit card? Cash, considering I don't have cards. I don't usually have cash either though, I don't have a source of income.

What’s your sexuality? Pansexual. I've wondered sometimes if bi is more accurate, but I THINK pan? I just can't imagine someone's gender stopping my attraction to them.

What’s your gender identity? Cis female.

Are you the type of person who can make friends with just about anyone? No, not really. I will not befriend right-wing people because our morals are too different.

Have you ever experienced a medical emergency? Yes, asthma attacks, one which was especially severe; it was a surprise to the ER staff I was even conscious.

What’s your least favorite time of day? Evening.

Are you muscular? Lol no.

Do you have one of those removable hand-held shower heads? Yes.

When you go to a restaurant, do you prefer to sit at a booth or a table? Booth.

Has your car ever been broken into? No family car ever has, no.

What’s your favorite drinking game? Never played a drinking game before.

Are you a big flirt? No.

What is the most disgusting prank you’ve ever done? I've never pulled a disgusting prank.

Have you ever been so in love, you wanted to get married? Yes.

Are you normally a horny person? Not really, especially lately.

Do you just feel awkward when you dance? Absolutely.

Have you ever done a psychedelic drug? If not, would you ever consider it? No and no.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? I have my nostril pierced right now, it's in the process of healing. This is the fourth time it's been pierced lmao, they either had to come out in the past or the stud fell out and the hole closed too quickly. If this piercing doesn't go to plan, I'm never getting my nose pierced again.

Do you have any tattoos/piercings? A lot, but there are certainly people with more than me.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed? I know multiple.

When did you last eat pizza? Yesterday, actually. Gosh, we had a pizza ordeal lol. Mom was trying to order from Domino's, the order goes through, then she gets a phone call that they don't have a delivery driver, so the order is "canceled." We get Papa John's instead, and that comes without issue. THEN Domino's shows up. The driver didn't know what to do about it so now we have two pizzas lmao. Thankfully my sister had to come by and she took some off our hands.

If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret, which would you chose? The money, are you kidding.

Name the person that has honestly hurt you the most in life? Jason, closely followed by Sara. Sara was definitely meaner and more ill-willed than Jason, but I was more attached to Jason and losing him was LITERALLY traumatic, so...

Have you kissed anyone with a tattoo before? I at least THINK Tyler had a Zelda-related tattoo...

Do you have any Italian ancestry? Not that I know of, but then again, we don't really know my dad's ancestry.

Has anyone ever told you you're a control freak? No.

Are you struggling financially? I've heard Mom say we're below the poverty line. I believe it. We can't afford to do anything fun at all, we can't really buy things "just because," we rely on the charity of a family friend to even have a car (which barely works/might not work at all right now), etc.

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survey #257

Do you like orange juice with or without pulp? Without, I can't drink it with. The texture is unbearable to me.

Do you want to be cremated or buried when you die? Probably cremated.

If you were getting a tattoo, what would it be of? I have a lot of tattoo ideas, but what I would get next depends on the amount of money I have.

Have you ever named a bug in your house and thought of it as a pet? No.

Can you eat ketchup, mustard, or mayo right out of the packet/bottle? No, that would make me gag.

Have you ever fired a gun with one hand? I've never fired a gun period.

Do you wear a belt every day? I never wear a belt.

How long do you wait to let conditioner settle in your hair? I don't use conditioner.

Have you ever gotten kicked out of a restaurant? No.

Have you ever flashed anyone? I suppose it's possible with an ex, but not that I remember.

Have you ever been bitten by a dog? No, other than a nip.

Have you ever left a note in someone’s mailbox? I have.

What’s your favorite Pokemon? (You know you have one) Ninetales, followed closely by Espeon. I also love Skitty and Charmander.

Did you dress up for Halloween last year? If so, what were you? No.

Were you sitting, standing, or laying down for your first kiss? Laying down.

Is your second toe longer than your first? No, they're pretty much the same length.

Is your sneeze really loud or is it one of those quiet, held in ones? My sneezes are loud as fuck.

Would you wear sandals in public without your toes being painted? I always do.

Can you tolerate the sound of knuckles cracking? NO.

Do you prefer hot or cold drinks overall? Cold.

Have you or a member of your family been diagnosed with COVID yet? Most, if not all of my immediate family has had Covid at one point or another.

Do you regret going out with the last person you did? Yes, I do. I never should have even been friends with someone like her.

What museums have you visited, if any? I think I've only visited the local one here.

Have you ever had problems falling asleep in class? No.

Have you ever been on the barrier or front row at a concert? No. :(

How many people would call you their best friend? Probably just Girt.

Did you ever take dance classes as a kid? Yes, I was in dance for a long time.

What jobs do your parents have? My dad is a mailman, while my mom is on disability because of cancer.

What was the last Podcast you listened to about? It would've been Castle Super Beast with Girt, but I don't have memory of what they were talking about.

Did you watch Scooby Doo as a kid? Occasionally.

What was in the last sandwich you had? Ham, American cheese, and mustard.

Have you ever been to couple’s counseling? No.

Did you often read for fun when you were a kid? Yes.

Are you more of a visual learner or an auditory learner? Kinesthetic, but of the two, visual.

Do you have any dietary restrictions? No.

Have you ever worn false eyelashes? No.

Have you ever turned down a job offer? No.

What was the last medical appointment you scheduled? New psychiatrist.

How many times a year do you go on vacation? Do you tend to go to the same places each time? I never go on vacation. Too poor.

Have you ever broken a bone? What were the circumstances that led to this happening? Yes, my wrist, pretty sure my left one. I fell while rollerblading and bent it all the way backwards.

If you could change one thing about your appearance, what would it be? My weight.

Do you ever have problems with your sleep? Yes, a lot. I have severe issues simply falling asleep, I have sleep apnea, and I have some sort of nightmare condition.

Are you patriotic at all? Why/why not? Hell no, look at this country.

Have you ever had to wear a white lab coat before? Was this in school or for a job? Yes, for school.

What was the last documentary you watched about? Meerkats.

Are you more extroverted or introverted? Introverted.

If someone is mean to you are you more typically going to become sad or angry? Sad.

How do you like your French Fries (with dip, melted cheese on top etc)? With salt of course, sometimes dipped in ketchup if I feel like it.

How old were you when you first had a phone of your own? I was around 12.

What’s your least favourite season? Summer. It's too damn hot and humid and the days are TOO long.

Do you prefer dark or light colored wood? Darker, I think.

Does your bedroom face the front or the back of your property? Back.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Yes, but I'm much closer to my mom.

Played any sports? I played a lot growing up. T-ball and softball, basketball, soccer, astonishingly cheerleading (because my sisters did it), and I danced the most.

Ever made out in the bathroom? I don't know, actually.

Are you scared of spiders? No, I love spiders very much. They can STARTLE me if there's one right by or on me and I'm not expecting it, but I love them all the same.

Is cheating ever okay? Nope.

Do you wanna get married? One day, yes.

Is there anyone you would die for? There's honestly a lot of people I would die for.

Do you have any travel plans? Any recent travel? No, no.

What’s your go-to drink? I drink the most flavored water.

How did you end up living in this city/town/area? This specific house, we had to leave our old one because my mom was very ill and there was a mold problem, which she absolutely didn't need, and the previous resident of this house died, and she gave the house to a mutual friend who wanted Mom and I to live here.

What’s something you’ve accomplished recently that you’re proud of? This is... going to sound so, so dumb and infantile, but I finally memorized my mom's phone number. My memory is outrageously bad, especially when it involves numbers, so her number is now the only person's I have memorized.

Do you have siblings? Are you close? Multiple, and not especially, but I'm closest to my two immediate sisters.

What would yourself 10 years ago think of you now? ... I'm just now realizing that the breakup was nearly a decade ago. Holy shit. She'd be very shocked I'm still alive but even more shocked Jason isn't here.

What’s your go-to karaoke song? You couldn't pay me to do karaoke.

Are you good at an accent? British, yeah.

What are you into and why? Meerkats and tarantulas, Rammstein, Silent Hill, etc.

Do you care about what’s going on in other countries? Yes, to a certain degree. I don't keep up with this like I do my own country, but of course I CARE.

Who are some of your favorite fictional characters? Darkiplier, Wilford Warfstache, Pyramid Head, Arthur Morgan.

Do you believe we have souls? I lean towards yes, at least SOMETHING of the sort. It's why I believe in ghosts. I kinda equate souls to consciousness.

What’s a food you only started to like as an adult? Onions in things, but I'm still picky with the amount.

What’s your favorite city you’ve been to? I don't really know.

Do you like energy drinks? No, they're too much even for me.

What would you do with your days if you had unlimited free time? That's... currently my life. It's NOT as fun as it sounds.

What’s for dinner tonight? Swear on my life I literally had hot Cheetos lmfao.

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survey #256

[TW: SUICIDE] Do you know anyone who has committed suicide? Yes. One was a childhood online friend (YES, I am aware she could've been lying, but I wholeheartedly believe her), and I didn't realize until I was older JUST how deeply it affected me. Her name was Journee. I fell in love with her name and have used it for characters since, I think it's a magical, story-filled name.

Do you think Jersey people are annoying? Cool, stereotypes. No, I don't think people from NJ are doomed to be fucking annoying.

Does your mom think you’re a virgin? I don't know.

What do you think about people who party a lot? I think that's not my business.

What are you listening to? I'm watching Woolie VS play the Elden Ring DLC.

Are you the one that normally makes the first move? No.

Do you currently work? Even without having disability officially yet, I've only recently grown comfortable with admitting I'm disabled by my depression. No.

Do you take any prescribed medication? I have a shitload of prescribed meds.

Have you ever watched a needle go into your own skin? Yes.

Have you ever seen someone get a piercing/tattoo? Yes to both.

[TW: ABUSE] Do you know someone that is/was abused by their parents? A few people.

Do you like strawberry and banana smoothies? Yes, as long as it's not too banana-y.

Have you ever spent more than two weeks in a wheelchair? No.

Does weed smell good? Or no? I don't think it does.

Have you ever played golf? No, other than mini-golf. I never will; I'm morally opposed to golf courses. They destroy a shitload of land and require a lot of water to maintain that could be used for better purposes.

Do you like beer? If so, what’s your favorite brand? Beer was my alcoholic dad's drink of choice. I will not touch it. Even the smell makes me feel sick.

Have you ever been pulled over for speeding? No, but I think it's only fair to consider how short my driving career was.

Do you feel bad when you throw food out? I'm not going to lie, I don't think about it.

What was the last wedding you attended? A friend's I photographed.

Are you religious? What do you believe in? I am not.

What is your favorite video game? Silent Hill 2 and Shadow of the Colossus. For each, I prefer their remakes, but the OGs are also fantastic and were still my favorites before the remakes came out.

Have you ever made your own pizza or pasta dough? No.

Are you lactose intolerant? No.

Does it take a lot for you to cry, or does it happen easily? Oh I'm a crybaby.

Do you tan easy? No, I burn.

Do you have two of the same pair of pants? No.

Do you know anyone with Type 1 Diabetes? Uh, I'm not sure. I know/have known many people with diabetes, but I don't know which type.

Do you have a lot of pictures of you and your friends? No. All my closest friends don't live here.

What did you have for dinner last night? Buffalo chicken bites and fries.

Have you ever been rock climbing? No, besides those fake walls you could find at some events as a kid.

Do you own a bean bag chair? No. I actually want one, but Mom pointed out Roman (my cat) would probably pop it, so not a good idea.

Are you allergic to anything? What? I am literally allergic to most things outside.

Do you own any vinyl records? No. My mom used to have some, but she sold them yeeeeaaaars ago.

Have you ever touched a caterpillar? Yes, I picked them up all the time as a kid.

Have you ever met someone famous? Who? Do tell! No.

Who else is in the room with you? Nobody.

Do you think age matters in relationships? If you're 21+, I don't really care what you do in relationships. *I* couldn't do an extreme age gap, I'd find it weird and like we're not at similar phases in our lives, but I'm not *morally* against it and won't judge others for doing it.

What was the last thing you watched on the TV? The second-to-last episode in the second season of Squid Game. I'm ready to watch the finale.

Where was the last place you went out to eat? Buffalo Wild Wings with Girt for Valentine's.

Are your nails currently long? No.

Where’s the closest church to you? Do you attend it? Like literally a minute away, and no.

Dr. Pepper or Root Beer? I hate root beer, Dr. Pepper is fine.

Favorite flavor of cream cheese? Just... normal...?

What US state would you like to visit? If I'm ever in the condition to herp and not basically die, I REALLY want to visit Arizona. I'd love to visit Colorado and Michigan, and Wyoming is a big one for Yellowstone.

If you live in a house, how many floors does it have? If you live in an apartment building, how many units does it have? Just one.

Have you ever put on or lost a significant amount of weight? Both.

On a scale of 1-5, how often do you curse? 5.

Tell me something you like about yourself. I think I have a very strong moral compass and care a lot about the wellfare of people in general.

Do you prefer salty or sweet treats? I THINK I like sweet more often.

Do you have a favorite actor or actress? Not really these days. Betty White was my favorite.

Are you or have you ever been a smoker? No.

What are your favorite summer activities? Swimming. Summer is generally too hot for me, so being in the water is good.

Have you ever taken an Uber or Lyft? Yes, a few times now.

Would you pay someone to kill the person who hurt you a lot? No.

Have a best friend? I consider my boyfriend my best friend. I have three very close friends.

Does it bother you when your best friend does stuff without you? No, he's allowed to have his own life.

Do you usually tell people when you’re mad at them? I think most of the time, no. Hm... maybe half and half. It depends on the situation and who I'm mad at.

What's your favourite way to eat potatoes? Fries.

Do you prefer The Lord of the Rings or the Hobbit movies, if you like any of them? I haven't seen either.

Which Harry Potter film was your favourite? What about your least favourite? I didn't watch these movies and I certainly won't now because terfs can die.

Have you or have you ever considered messing around with the same sex? What is your opinion on same sex marriage? I have messed around with the same sex. If you are against adults in love being allowed to get married, don't even fucking breathe near me.

Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos? I absolutely do.

Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? Neither; I prefer the afternoon. I'm too drowsy to shower in the morning, and it's a nightmare for me to sleep with wet hair, you don't wanna see me in the morning. My hair is too thick to reasonably blowdry, it takes eons.

Have you ever said you'd never love again? I sure did! I genuinely didn't think it'd be possible, I wasn't JUST being dramatic. Turns out I was wrong.

Did you like middle school? No. My memory of middle school is frighteningly blurry, and I say frightening because my childhood memory is generally VERY good. But middle school is just... a fog. This is when my mental illnesses manifested, and I think that has a big hand in that.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger? Not a COMPLETE stranger, at least that I remember.

Where would you rather live, England or Australia? England. Some of the wildlife in Australia scares me too much lol, plus I'm assuming it'd be hotter than England.

Did you go to your senior prom? Yes.

What was your first job? GameStop sales associate.

Did your parents live in a different country before you were born? No.

Are you happy with your weight? Absolutely not.

Does your job allow piercings or tattoos? Maybe this is petty, but I literally wouldn't work in an environment like this. I can't wait until the generation that enforces this shit are no longer the people hiring.

Would you ever enlist in the army? I would never sell my body to fight rich men's wars and kill people.

How many kids would you want? Absolutely none.

Do you use Tumblr? What do you normally post? My main blog is Rammstein-based.

Have you ever been accused of cheating? No.

How about having an eating disorder? No.

Would you ever go on a birth control pill? I've been on birth control for years because it makes my periods manageable.

Have you ever taken a train? No, but I would like to.

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survey #255

What was the last thing you watched on the TV? For my birthday, Girt watched some of the first season of Meerkat Manor with me. It was really funny; he actually enjoyed himself, but he just made some scenes so funny.

What is keeping you warm right now? A blanket and slippers. Our heat is broken and it's been very cold out, so add portable heaters to the mix, actually. We tried getting it fixed once and it lasted less than a day. We don't know what the issue is or how it's getting fixed.

Has anyone bought you a piece of jewelry? Yes.

How far away is your next birthday? A year away, it just passed.

Have you ever flown somewhere alone? I have, to and from Illinois to visit Sara.

Is there someone that annoys you but you haven’t told them? She annoys me occasionally, more towards rarely, but I haven't said anything. I generally like her, so. Everyone can annoy someone occasionally.

When is garbage day in your area? Friday.

Who/What was the last thing to really irritate you? Thinking of going back to my current psychiatrist. I've decided I'm trying somewhere else, but I'll probably still have to see him a bit due to a likely waiting period.

Do you tend to slam things around when you’re mad? Not beyond rarely slamming a door, and I don't even like doing that. I don't hit or throw things.

Do you know anyone who hates/dislikes chocolate? My maternal grandmother did. My nephew isn't big on chocolate, either.

Could you vote in this last election? Don't get me started on this last election. Yes, I absolutely voted because that is my responsibility as a citizen.

Do you have more girl friends or guy friends? My three closest friends are actually all nonbinary. Them aside, my friends' genders are pretty split, I think.

Did your parents ever ground you? Yes.

Do you own an MP3 player of some kind? I have an ancient iPod that I still use.

Have you ever been in a play? If so, did you like it? This was pretty forced in elementary school. I never played any major role, though. I was kinda neutral back then.

Have you ever been so sick you had to be taken to the hospital? [TW: SUICIDE] Well, mentally sick. I've gone to the ER more times than I can count for suicidal ideation + an attempt. I've been to the hospital for asthma attacks too and for emergency treatment of a cyst, but I've never been so long-term physically ill I've been brought to a hospital.

Do you like your smile? Not really. My smile is more bearable if I smile with my teeth showing though, I think I look especially high if I don't open my mouth.

Do you really care what people think about you? Boy do I. 🙃 I wish so badly I didn't.

Who was the last person to compliment you? My mom, I think.

Is bacon one of your favorite foods? I love well-cooked bacon, but I wouldn't say it's my favorite.

When was the last time you saw snow? A few weeks ago! We got an okay snow, maybe a couple inches, but it melted VERY fast.

Are you the kind of person who does not like talking about their past? Depends.

Serious question, peanut butter or Nutella? Nutella, but I eat it much more rarely than peanut butter.

Do you prefer baked potatoes or mashed potatoes? Baked potato, if it comes with stuff on top. I'm very picky with the texture of mashed potato.

What is your oldest sibling’s middle name? I don't feel it's appropriate to share their middle names, getting a bit too private.

Do you like breadsticks? girl you have no idea

What are your favorite things to spend money on? Tattoos lmao

How old will you be on your next birthday? 30 wtf

Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? Sometimes, yes.

What is one thing in the room you’re in that reminds you of somebody? I have a chair that is full of plushies Girt (and one from his mom) have gotten me over the years. That's the biggest example, there's a lot lmao.

Could you ever be friends with somebody who was homophobic? NNNNNNNNNNNNOPE!!!!!!!!! bye girl

Honestly, would you rather be complimented on your looks or intelligence? Intelligence.

Have you ever purchased a pregnancy test, for yourself or otherwise? No.

Honestly, have you ever danced naked? No.

What was the first illegal thing that you did? Did you get caught? Probably illegally downloaded music.

What is the home page on the computer you’re on? Google.

Do you like to write poetry? I do, but I haven't done it in a very, very long time. I'm talking years.

Are your ears pierced? Yes. I learned at the piercing parlor my first earlobe piercings may need to come out, though. One side was pierced too low, and this hole is terribly elongated and very nearly torn. The piercer told Mom and I what to watch out for for when it might need to be taken out to prevent needing an ear graft, I think he called it.

If so, were they pierced with a piercing gun, or with a sterile needle? Piercing gun at Claire's. 🙃 That's the issue right there. DO NOT get your ears pierced at places like this. Go to a tattoo/piercing parlor for the love of god.

Do you wear makeup regularly? Nope, can't remember the last time I had makeup on.

Did you eat cereal for breakfast today? On the night I'm answering this specific question, I did. I had Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

Have you ever touched a giraffe? I think I have? The time Girt and I went to a zoo, you could feed the giraffes, pretty sure I pet it.

What does your mom call you? Normally "Britt."

What ever happened with you and your first boyfriend? He couldn't handle my depression anymore.

What’s your favorite country song? "When The Stars Go Blue" by Tim McGraw.

How many hours do you spend on the computer a day? I am on the computer basically all day. I'd rather not do the math.

Do your siblings text you? Very rarely.

Do you want a small or big wedding? Small.

Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth? I remember doing this in school.

Who is your ex dating/talking to? Hell if I know for any of them, don't care.

Ever kissed someone who smokes? He kissed me. I did not want to be kissed.

Did you ever have to share a room with one of your siblings? Growing up, yes, with my little sister.

Have you ever dated someone with longer hair than yours? Yes.

What do you typically order from Wendy’s? Son of the Baconator or normal Baconator, fries (sometimes Baconator fries, depends on my appetite), Coke.

Have you ever been given a lapdance by an actual stripper? No, this would be unspeakably uncomfortable to me.

Have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed? Yes.

Do you want your tongue pierced? I've had snake eyes but had to take it out because it was damaging my teeth. I loved it, though. It was my favorite piercing, I thought it was mad cute.

Do you change your phone background a lot? No.

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something? No, not to my recollection.

Have you ever been strip-searched? I guess? This is kinda mandatory when you go into a psych hospital. They didn't like, do a cavity search, but I had to get naked. It was always so fucking uncomfortable.

Do you have a funny last name? Does anyone make fun of it? No.

[TW: DRUG OD] Ever have a drug overdose? What did you OD on exactly? Yes, in a suicide attempt. It was Alka Seltzer Plus, which is a cold medicine.

Do you get sick of people who call themselves bipolar all the time? I hate when a literal mental health diagnosis is abused as an adjective when you DON'T have it.

Choose one- Butterfinger, Milky Way, Snickers: Milky Way, easy. Love those. Snickers I hate, Butterfingers are only okay.

Have you ever stepped in dog poop? Yup. It's a sensory nightmare.

Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed? Yes.

Is there a guy that knows a lot about you? Girt sure does.

Is there someone you just can’t imagine your life without? My mom. I don't know how I'll do it when she passes. Girt, too. I know I CAN survive without him, I will never fall back into the mindset of NEEDING someone, but I sure don't WANT to lose Girt.

Do you prefer Starbucks coffee or small cafe coffee? I hate coffee.

Would you ever consider getting a piercing in your septum? No, I prefer nostril studs.

Do you enjoy watching fireworks on the 4th of July? No, I'm against fireworks for multiple reasons.

Who’s your celebrity crush? Richard Kruspe, Oliver Riedel, Mark Fischbach, Rhea Ripley.

Did or do you get good grades in English class? English was my best class.

Are you expected to help fix Thanksgiving dinner? No.

Have you ever lost anyone close to cancer? Both my grandmothers died to cancer, but I wasn't close to either.

Do you personally know anyone who is transgender? I know plenty of trans people.

Aside from any current relationships, what was your closest relationship ever? Jason. My first boyfriend.

Do you like karaoke? You would never see me perform karaoke.

How might you survive if you were homeless for half a year? I *cannot* think of this. This is my biggest fear.

Tell me about the first five photos you have on your phone or camera. The birthday bouquet Girt got me, a pink wallpaper featuring strawberries, hearts, and bows, our dog, my niece holding my snake Venus, and one of me in front of my mirror that I decorated with stickers of self-affirmations.

When was the last time you were disappointed? Earlier; my boyfriend originally had Valentine's Day off, but he got called in to work that day.

Do you like kids’ movies? Sure, they're perfectly capable of being great.

Have you ever known someone online and then met them in person? If so, which website did you meet on? Yes, we literally met on YouTube back when there was a more social aspect to it.

When was the last time you were sick and what illness did you have? Does a severe infection following a root canal count?

Did you get swine flu? No.

Do you know anyone from Alabama? I don't think so.

Have you seen all the Lord of the Rings movies? I haven't seen any.

How often do you change your underwear? I am almost always in my pajamas, and in those cases, I don't wear underwear. When I do have to put normal clothes on though, I will only wear them once before they go in the laundry.

Have you ever had to call the cops on someone else before? *I* wasn't the one who did it, but my mom did in my presence. We suspected a drunk driver. SOMETHING was wrong with them, they were driving extremely dangerously.

What type of math are you the best at? None, I literally have an IEP in math.

Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? God no, I'm 29. That's a baby to me.

Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Not that I know of.

Can you drive a stick shift? No, but I don't drive period.

If you could change your eye color, would you? I wish they were a more sapphire blue.

Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? My boyfriend, his mom. A couple friends.

Does anyone hate you? After checking one of her profiles recently, it's remarkably clear to me she hates me to an obsessive degree.

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I do. If it doesn't happen though, it doesn't happen.

Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? I do, some of the oldest ones are cringe but oh well.

Are you good at hiding your feelings? NOOOOOOOOOOOPE I'M SURE NOT

Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? I'm less afraid of women, so.

Have you ever felt replaced? Yes.

Who’s in your profile picture with you? It's just me.

Who do you trust the most in your life? My mom.

Who has hurt you the most? Jason.

Have you ever cheated on a partner? Sure haven't, never will.

Ever been cheated on? Not to my knowledge.

Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk? I mean, I guess.

Should people go to bars to find love? No, I don't believe that should be your motive for going to a bar.

Should chauvinists of either gender be in a relationship? No, they deserve to be alone forever. (:

Have you ever had stitches? Multiple times. After I got a concussion and broke teeth from passing out on my chin, after my cyst removal surgery, and I think I got some for dental stuff too, the kind that dissolves.

Coke or Pepsi? Coke, Pepsi is gross to me.

When was the last time you struggled to get to sleep? Literally last night, I was still awake at three in the morning despite going to bed early.

When was the last time you got up from where you're sitting and why? I got up to tell my mom something.

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survey #254

Is there one person who has been there for you more than anyone else? My mom.

Have you ever drunk texted an ex? No.

What was your favourite childhood game? I loved the original Spyro the Dragon trilogy. If you're not including video games, I liked playing make believe on my own with my toys.

What do people go to you for help with? Writing.

Who do you live with? My mom and our pets.

When was the last time you went outside? Earlier today to get the mail.

Do you have a passport? What’s the picture like? No.

Have you ever watched a foreign film without the subtitles? No.

Do you watch movies based on the actors or the movie plot? Plot.

Do you have trouble falling asleep at night? Chronically and severely. It takes me literal hours to fall asleep most nights.

Do you own an iPhone? No.

Have you ever been on a boat? Fishing boats.

Have you ever been tested for drugs? Yes, it's a requirement when you go into the hospital for suicidal stuff.

Have you ever thrown up in public? Yes. I specifically remember doing this on either my kindergarten or first grade class floor.

Have you ever had a panic attack? Yes, I have anxiety disorders and have experienced multiple panic and anxiety attacks.

What’s your favorite kind of Mexican food? Quesadillas.

Would you rather be with your boyfriend/girlfriend right now? Not right now, he's sick with probably the flu, so.

Did you have long hair as a young kid? Yes.

How many songs do you know by the band you are listening to? Not listening to music, watching Game Grumps.

Have you ever gotten a black eye? What caused it? No.

Have you ever been to Texas? Nope.

Do you like to have long hair or short hair? Short.

When’s the next time you’re going away? There's no telling.

Do you enjoy autumn leaves or spring flowers more? Why? Even though I prefer autumn as a season, I love flowers more than fall leaves.

Have you ever gone on a cruise before? To where? No, we could never afford that.

Depending on where you live, why might a day of school get canceled? The simple chance of a single flake of snow. Hurricanes.

Do you think that long distance relationships would be for you? No. I've been in one before and don't prefer it.

Is there a popular social media platform that you don’t have an account for? Twitter. Is TikTok social media? I don't have that either.

Who is your favorite Disney Princess? Snow White, but I don't really have a strong opinion. Or Mulan, if she counts.

Do you prefer “regular pencils” or mechanical ones? Why? Mechanical. I just think it's nice to not have to sharpen them.

What is your favorite Pixar film? Finding Nemo.

Where were you on September 11th, 2001? I honestly have no idea, I have no memory of it.

Could you handle a friends with benefits type of situation? No.

Do you prefer using a brush or a comb on your hair? I use a comb.

What’s your favorite flavor of potato chips? Regular salted, honestly. Or maybe french onion.

Would you rather build a snowman or a snow fort? Why? Snowman, because it's easier and cuter to me.

At what age do you believe children should begin having screen time? I think this is more complex than a staple age that would work for every child.

How'd you get your last injury? I just got my nostril pierced, if that counts. I'd call that technically an injury.

Do you like being home alone at night? NO, it freaks me out.

What first comes to mind when thinking of 10th grade? I started my relationship with Jason.

Has an ambulance ever came to your house? Yes, twice for Mom and once for me.

Whose pool did you last swim in? A family friend's.

When did you last see a police car? I saw a bunch just a couple days ago near my road; someone got in a wreck pulling out of the bank down the road from our development.

Are you often the last one to understand a joke? Yes, probably an autism thing.

What do you put on your baked potatoes? Butter and bacon bits. I think I might like some sour cream? I'd have to have one again.

Last three texts on your phone are from? My mom.

Did you ever have braces? I did.

Why aren't you texting the last person you kissed? We use Discord, not texting.

If you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick? Even though I prefer strawberries and kiwi, probably apples, honestly. I eat apples more often.

Has anyone ever called the cops on you? No.

Have you ever been peer pressured to smoke pot? No.

Do you ever actually drink milk alone? Yes, I like milk.

What do you like on your pancakes? Butter and normal syrup.

What podcasts do you listen to? None.

Do you find the sound of a cats purr incredibly soothing? I do.

Do you prefer water slides or roller coasters? Is there a reason? Water slides, because rollercoasters scare me.

Have you ever seen a cougar in the wild? No.

Have you ever picked wild flowers? Yeah, when I was younger.

Have you ever walked through a forest? Not really a forest, no. Woods, yes.

Have you ever seen a mountain in person? Yes!

Do you prefer jam or butter on your biscuits? Jam.

Have you ever explored somewhere abandoned? Yes, as a kid. I'm very interested in urbex still, but I wouldn't really do it in practice.

Do you have any plants in your home? Quite a lot of the same pothos-looking thing.

Do you prefer to read in bed or in a chair? Bed.

Do you enjoy long car rides or long walks? I love long car rides as long as I have my music.

Would you rather play in the snow or the rain? Snow.

Have you ever pressed flowers or leaves into a book? No.

Have you ever found a four-leaf clover? I've found multiple.

What did you do the last time you hung out with your best friend? We watched some of the new season of Squid Game.

Have you ever taken an art class? Quite a lot.

Would you rather live in a coastal town or a town closer to the forest? Forest.

Would you rather watch the clouds or look at the stars? Stars, if there's little to no light pollution.

Did you or do you still have a Furby? Was/is it annoying? I did. I don't think it annoyed me.

Have you ever owned a turtle? Did it ever bite you when you owned it? As a kid, I "adopted" a red-eared slider, which is actually an invasive species here and illegal to keep as a pet like that. I literally just took it from the wild because it was in our yard. THANKFULLY, I grew smart enough to not keep it and released it in a pond down our road, which... also probably wasn't the right thing to do because yeah, invasive species.

Does your father have any creepy or scary friends you don't like? He did. I don't think they're really friends anymore.

Do you have Photoshop? If so, how often a day do you use it? I do, but I don't use it often. I'd love to not support Adobe because they're literal scum, but... their photography products are top-of-the-line and as a wannabe professional photographer, I just can't seem to resist especially Lightroom.

Has your school ever had a lockdown? If so, for what reason exactly? We've had to evacuate for a bomb threat, if that counts? We've practiced lockdowns for situations like gunmen entering the building.

Are you taller or shorter than average? I'm average for a North American woman my age.

Is your Mum tall or short? How about your Dad? Mom, average. I think Dad is slightly taller than normal? Maybe?

Do you wish you were taller or shorter? I'm fine where I am.

How many languages can you say "hello my name is…" in? English and German.

Your closest friends' names? If you exclude my boyfriend, in no particular order, Mazzy, Tez, and Nohr.

What is it that you are responsible for? My hygiene and general health, my cat, and my snake.

Does luck exist or is it coincidence? Coincidence. I don't believe in luck as like, some *actual* force. I'll still use words like "lucky" or "unlucky," but I really am talking about coincidence.

Have you ever watched anything pornographic? No, I'm really not into the idea.

Name one creature that freaks you out/scares you? Leeches.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #253

Who was the last person you text messaged? Have you ever seen him/her cry? Mom, yes.

How far away is the person you love/like? He lives 30 minutes away.

Have you actually been through a devastating natural disaster before? Yes, some hurricanes were pretty bad. Hurricane Floyd being the worst in my lifetime.

What fast food place, in your opinion, has the best french fries? BOJANGLE'S, HUNNY YOU AIN'T LIVED UNTIL YOU'VE HAD BOJANGLE'S FRIES

Do you believe one day aliens might take over Planet Earth? Eh, I believe in aliens, but I don't believe this is a goal of theirs. I'm more afraid of AI doing this. I recently learned about AI tricking humans into solving a CAPTCHA test for it and that shit scared me lmao.

Do you like soda pop? If so, which is your favorite and least favorite? I fucking love soda, favorite is Mountain Dew Voltage. I don't really like root beer.

When was the last time you painted a picture? Years ago, for Sara.

What kind of stuff do you like on your hot dogs? Just ketchup and mustard, mainly. I don't mind a little bit of finely diced onion.

Has someone seen you naked in the past month? My mom.

Do you think it’s right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? lmfao who the fuck actually cares???????????????? get your damn tongue pierced

Would you ever donate blood? I've done it twice and would do it again.

What are you listening to? "Call Me Little Sunshine" by Ghost.

Do you have any pictures of celebs saved to your computer? ... *hides my Rammstein folder*

Do you find hands attractive? Some, yeah.

If your mom was a teacher, would you want to be in her class? My mom was an assistant and substitute and she did sub in my class before lol.

As a kid, did you love playing on Neopets? Sure did.

Would you ever get a pet turtle? Why or why not? Nah, I'm just not invested enough in the idea of a pet turtle. I love turtles, just don't want one.

Have you ever been told you were a good writer? Yes, this has been one of the most common compliments in my life.

Is the last person of the opposite sex you texted single? My dad is married.

Which Scooby-Doo character are you most like (Scooby, Shaggy, Daphne, Fred, Velma, the monster, Scrappy?) Velma. I can't see without my glasses.

What is the most outrageous thing you’ve done for God? I used to believe a shitload of dumbass shit for him.

The last piece of roadkill you saw, what kind of animal was it? An opossum, I think.

Has anyone ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend with you? Technically.

What would you do if your ex contacted you? THE ex? I don't know. I'd want to apologize to him at least, but I never want to be in steady contact again.

Have you ever asked someone out? Yes, more than once.

Is the last person you kissed a virgin? No.

What was the last zoo/aquarium you went to? The Aloha Zoo with Girt.

How did you meet the person you fell hardest for? School.

What was your favourite thing about the person you fell hardest for? He had no shame in being himself. He was very unique and charismatic.

What was your worst fear as a child? Have you overcome that fear? Tornadoes. I'm still very scared of them, but not like I was as a kid. I used to have full-blown panic attacks during stronger thunderstorms because I'd be convinced a tornado was gonna happen.

Have you ever been the victim of a crime? Yes.

Who were your favorite celebrities as a child? Steve Irwin, Jeff Corwin, Jane Goodall.

Does it snow where you live? Rarely, and even more rarely is anything considerable.

What’s one thing that most people complain about that you love? The cold. Like yeah, I can get too cold too, but I strongly prefer the cold over the heat.

What was the last room you worked on cleaning? My bedroom.

Was the last movie you watched a horror film? No, the last movie I saw was Mufasa: The Lion King. Definitely not horror lol.

Have you ever spent the night in jail? No.

Do you have a leather jacket? No, but I have ALWAYS wanted a spiked leather jacket since like, middle school. :((((

Do you think facial hair is gross? No?

Are you afraid of airplane rides? To a degree, but it's mild.

If you’re reading a book, what page are you currently on? I don't know, very early in.

Do you have Netflix? We do.

Have you ever complained to a manager about anything? What was it? No.

Would you marry somebody who was intensely religious? Absolutely not, I could not manage.

Do you dye your hair? Occasionally; really, when we can afford it. I would like to dye it again, however I'm being responsible and letting my hair heal after a very aggressive treatment to get it to the pastel lilac I wanted.

Do you shave? If so, how often? I shave my armpits, chin, and upper lip every time I shower.

What is the best thing you can cook? Nothing, I really can't cook.

Do you chew straws? No.

Who was the last person you saw who wasn’t family? What did you guys end up doing together? My boyfriend. We watched some of the new season of Squid Game.

Do you prefer hot or cold drinks overall? Cold.

How old were you when you first had a sleepover at someone’s house? Did you miss home? So I was late to this due to extreme separation anxiety from my mom. It took me time to be willing to try, and then when I started trying, I would always wake my friend's mom up in the middle of the night to call my mom and come get me.

Are you a fan of hot chocolate? Do you like it plain or do you prefer to add things like whipped cream or marshmallows? I love hot chocolate made with milk, plain. I hate the texture of whipped cream and also of marshmallows as it starts dissolving in the chocolate.

What caused your last injury? I'm in the process of healing from a WICKED infection I got following a root canal. Long story, but it was one of the most painful experiences of my life.

Would you rather order a starter (appetizer) or a dessert? Or would you be able to manage a full three courses? Of the two, usually appetizer.

Did anyone comfort you the last time you cried? What was your reason for crying? Yes; my mom. It was the night my tooth pain from that infection was the worst, absolute 10/10 pain.

What if you had a baby with the last person you kissed? We literally just wouldn't, I'd have an abortion as soon as I found out I was pregnant.

What’s the weirdest dream you can ever recall having? It involved a talking toilet saying hello and goodbye to me lmfao

Is there anyone that likes you, other than the person you love/like/are with? Not that I know of.

What was the last thing you spilled on yourself? Water. I have a habit of sometimes tipping my water bottle back too far and spilling some on myself.

Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? No.

Have you ever had a dream about sleeping with a celebrity? (You don’t have to give details.) My only lucid dream was about sleeping w/ Markiplier y'all 😭😭😭

Do you like The Hunger Games? First book is great; movie is nice, too. Haven't read/seen beyond that.

What do you do when you go to the beach? Mostly swim. I'll also sit under whatever shade we have available, watch the water, snack. Talk with company. Look for shells and stuff.

How many pillows are on your bed? Four; two for me, two for Girt when he's here.

Does it make you cringe when people pop their knuckles? YES. Girt does this (to more than just his knuckles) and I unwillingly freak out every time.

Do you like pickles? I only like dill pickles.

Do you respect authority? Meh, depends.

Have you ever had hair extensions? No.

What was the last paper you wrote about? Toxic masculinity. It was my favorite essay I've ever written and it was used as an example for that teacher's next semester.

What was the last book you read? I'm finally starting Watership Down by Richard Adams. I know it's an animal fantasy classic, so about time.

Did you ever own a classic Nintendo? No, just GameBoy and DS.

How many ringtones have you downloaded for your phone? Zero, for the phone I have now.

Have you ever had plastic surgery? No.

What’s your favorite kind of donut? Just glazed or chocolate frosted. No sprinkles.

Do you like hearing white noise while you sleep? Yes.

Do you like going to the zoo? GOOD zoos, yes.

Have you ever milked a cow? No.

Have you ever used a slingshot? Not sure.

Instead of flat earth, what do you think of the simulated earth theory, that we’re basically all just a giant computer program or virtual reality? This is actually my favorite conspiracy theory, but I don't *actually* believe in it. At the same time though, I wouldn't be shocked.

Who do you feel you can count on the most in life? Is there anyone you wish you could count on more? My mom; my dad.