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"I'm sorry, I really did try."

"This is going to hurt"

Yeah, it did.

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White Noise (2022) dir. Noah Baumbach

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la mia fidata patente presa a 18 anni é scaduta, il prossimo rinnovo sarà nel 2033 quando avrò 38 anni, ho la nausea per favore stop basta voglio scendere

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My dad and I once had a disagreement over him using the adage "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I said, "That's just not true. Sometimes what doesn't kill you leaves you brittle and injured or traumatized."

He stopped and thought about that for a while. He came back later, and said, "It's like wood glue."

He pointed to my bookshelf, which he helped me salvage a while ago. He said, "Do you remember how I explained that, once we used the wood glue on them, the shelves would actually be stronger than they were before they broke?"

I did.

"But before we used the wood glue, those shelves were broken. They couldn't hold up shit. If you had put books on them, they would have collapsed. And that wood glue had to set awhile. If we put anything on them too early, they would have collapsed just the same as if we'd never fixed them at all. You've got to give these things time to set."

It sounded like a pretty good metaphor to me, but one thing I did pick up on was that whatever broke those shelves, that's not the thing that made them stronger. That just broke them. It was being fixed that made them stronger. It was the glue.

So my dad and I agreed, what doesn't kill you doesn't actually make you stronger, but healing does. And if you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing. You've got to give these things time to set.

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The Wonder (2022)

Directed by Sebastián Lelio

Cinematography by Ari Wegner

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december……

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can we normalize ignoring text messages until you're in a good mood

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questi giorni in reparto come in un episodio di The Bear

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ya'll ever think ur cursed like for real

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mi rimangono 12 giorni di ferie che a novembre verranno azzerati ma mi sento troppo in colpa a prenderli perché vorrebbe dire lasciare la mia collega che sta avendo dei problemi familiari da sola in reparto a fare 12 ore al giorno più il sabato. se non mi prendo delle ferie per studiare rischio di non passare l'esame di fine anno e forse a questo punto sarebbe meglio così

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why the fuck did station eleven not have a bigger impact when it aired why is no one still talking about it i finally got myself in the headspace to watch it and wtf wtf mackenzie davis mackenzie davis mackenzie davis

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DRESSING UP, TELLING STORIES, MAKING MAGIC. ‘CAUSE THAT’S WHAT MATTERS. MAKING THINGS.

 STATION ELEVEN (2021-2022)

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Why did you pull me onboard? Why did you let me in here? Protocol. Or I was lonely. This strange and awful time was the happiest of my life.

Goodbye My Damaged Home (1x07) - Station Eleven dir. Lucy Tcherniak

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comunque sono stata per più di un anno senza l'ansia di dover dare esami, ho avuto altre ansie e altri problemi é vero, ma é stato bellissimo

(ora voglio morire)

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i do not ghost purposely i just have no idea what to say ever

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summer 2022 essentials:

golden crown of sorrow

bloody sword (to swing)

empty halls (to echo with grand self-mythology)

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when fleabag said 'either everyone feels like this a little bit and they're just not talking about it, or i am completely fucking alone.' when russian doll said 'it all just seems so much easier for everybody else. i mean, am i wrong?' scream.