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" it is, troy! everything that you're saying is covering up the fact that you didn't even tell me in the first place! " if there was nothing to hide, why didn't he divulge their meeting? was there shame? was there old lingering feelings? sharpay's minds wondered in thought : [ always escalating to worst case scenario. ] it was the dramatics behind her behavior. deep down, believing she was never the best even if she pretended to be. " you're saying this but your actions say other wise. you snuck around behind my back meeting her knowing the complicated history behind you two, knowing what it would be if you were spotted together, and look! " out of context and in context : [ the situation made her want to breakdown in a corner. ] " it makes my imagine - an image i worked hard for without you mind you - look bad. makes it revolve around you and her! " sharpay was not portrayed as a victim in the tabloid : a girl fell prey to a cheating boyfriend even if it was a lie. it made her sick. " was it worth it? the sneaking around and the secrets? because from the looks of it you ruined everything we worked to have. "

" it's not an excuse , blondie — " maybe it was , just a little . his lips fall more into a frown at her words , the tone of her voice — she's more than a little upset , it's obvious , & it brings a sinking feeling down in his stomach to know it . " — first of all, there's a difference between knowing that someones going to take pictures of you and figuring it could happen just because — this wasn't some deliberate — " he pauses , fingers going to push hair out of his face as he swallows a little as his mind reels, letting her words circle & sink as he lets out a breath . " — gabriella's always going to be my friend , okay , it's — not something that looks great out of context , but — i'm not trying to — " for a brief moment he hates the way his old , long assumed gone stuttering comes out at times like this , making him seem guiltier than he truly was . " — sharpay , i'm not — you're not a second option . me and gabriella are broken up and this — this is all just blown out of proportion , i promise . "

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SHARPAY + TROY. @boltns

night and day by virginia woolf // unknown // make me like you by gwen stefani // one tree hill // unknown // unknown // unknown // moulin rouge // need you now by lady a

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TROY + SHARPAY.

spinner mason + paige michalchuk - degrassi the next generation // you're a god - vertical horizon // unknown // pop princess - the click five // seth cohen + summer roberts - the o.c. // atlantis - seafret // unknown // unknown // on my way - jennifer lopez

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@boltns

You’d be more fun to miss than to be with, you’d be more fun to kiss than to be with... DAISY JONES & THE SIX — Track 10: Rock ’n’ Roll Suicide

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my reputation has never been about me.

" i think it's time to change that. " sharpay shooed off the staff members surrounding them, prepping for their next public outing. it was the grammy's; the highest honor award a musician can receive. as they sat on the bench outside, she embraced the simplicity of the moment alone. sharpay's face was covered in makeup, locks of hair up in curlers, and wearing her hot pink embroidered robe, looking somehow put together and a mess simultaneously, but she felt comfortable around him to present this way. other boyfriends weren't even allowed to be in the same room till her looks were completed but things were different. there was also a platonic intimacy that sharpay knew he would never violate : [ the romantic one was more complicated to explain. ] " it's time to have a separate reputation from me and figure out who you are and what you want. " she placed her hand atop of his, gently squeezing it, " i release you or whatever from the fake dating scene. we made it to award season and that was the deal. i'll say this ... i think you'll miss me, just a little. " she nudged his arm lightly, shielding the sadness that began poking through. it was for the best : that's all sharpay had ever wanted for him since the moment they met. that's all she'd ever want.

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" seriously? that's the excuse you're wanting to go with? " scoffing, feeling so utterly dumbfounded. her fingers run through blonde locks of hair, " yeah, i know that! what i want to know is why your arm is even around her troy? " the perkiness that's usually in tone had faded. it was now shadowed by anger and annoyance. betrayal. " how would you feel in my position? if a picture was in the magazine of me and one of my serious ex-boyfriends being all touchy regardless of what the headline says ... the thought sucks, doesn't it? " sharpay pursed her lips together, pausing before speaking as she tried to gather her thoughts, " you know we do not have the luxury of privacy so some aspect of you must have known this would have happen. that you would've gotten caught. " they existed in the spotlight and all eyes were always on them. privacy was a luxury they hardly afforded in their world. " troy, since the moment we became serious i told you : i won't ever be anyone's second option. yet, ever since she came back into our lives, that's all that it feels like. you turn into this entirely different person and i'm in constant competition. i can't do it and i won't. "

blue eyes shoot to the magazine she tosses on the table , brows raising for a moment before he shakes his head , reaching over for it . he pauses , eyes looking to sharpay instead as he takes her in , brows lowering & furrowing instead at her words before he looks back down to what she was showing him — him & gabriella , arms around each other , bright smiles on their faces as their eyes stay locked together , an image of a picture happy couple — before looking back to her . " i don't think either one of us knew there was any camera nearby — i sure didn't . why ? — you know they usually play these things up , more than anyone — what's wrong ? "

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how to be eaten.

dialogue prompts from how to be eaten: a novel by maria adelmann.

people know of you, but do they know you?

'absolute honesty' sounds like 'total crap', to me.

i do wonder what you've all heard about me.

i am just, in general, very hurt.

i know people don't like me.

whatever you heard, maybe it's not the whole story.

you can sell anything, if you know how to package it.

life shouldn't be lived behind a screen.

everything i have, i earned.

no pain without pleasure.

i should have known something was wrong.

what twenty-something hasn't fallen for some creepy asshole?

is originality the goal?

i wasn't special before this and i'm not special now.

i exist beyond your human concept of gender.

don't tell me that you liked me for my personality.

men don't have to pretend to be good.

when people recognize me, they cross the street.

the dead speak to you?

i don't have much room to call anyone else crazy.

nobody listens to what they don't want to hear.

do you really believe me? i don't blame you, if you don't.

i wouldn't waste a lot of time trying to figure out who believes you.

i was too tired to be afraid; or else, i was afraid all the time.

self-care is a neoliberal trap.

you need everything to be all fucked up.

i'm tired of treating you like shit.

i wouldn't even pay me to sleep with me.

a kid couldn't make up something like that.

you always need to be the most interesting person in the room.

thanks, mom, but i can take care of myself.

it's funny, how they can doubt you and blame you in the same breath.

you're always involved in some weirdo catastrophe.

it's easier to see the big picture when you're not involved.

it's easy to pretend you're too cool for something when you already have it.

one morning i tried to diy a sundial.

it's not so bad, kid. come out here and talk to me.

i wasn't actually trying to hurt you. i mean, physically.

if you lose your dignity while winning the game, have you really won?

i think martinis taste like pine trees.

it would've been good tv, but it was just real life.

i try not to waste too much time wanting things.

rich kids are 'inventive'. poor kids just lie.

there will always be a bunch of assholes who don't believe you.

not everything is a love story.

you have a lot of nightmares. what are they about?

where have you broken? where have you healed?

do you think you're capable of love?

i wanted to be me without the context.

my reputation has never been about me.

you look just like your picture.

what if, for some of us, moving on involves finding good in the bad?

talent doesn't mean as much as people pretend it does.

nothing's free and everything is sellable.

there are so many ways to be torn in half.

what would you do if you had money?

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she loves her guitar piano and drums yup! <3

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sharpay comes from old money in hollywood!!

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"THAT WAS WAY TOO CLOSE" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

are you all right? did you get hurt?

well. we're never trying that again.

that was far too close for comfort.

my life just flashed before my eyes.

i can't believe we survived that.

we won't survive another one of those.

i need a few seconds to breathe.

we got lucky with that one.

are you injured? let me see.

a little warning next time!

we are never doing that again.

tell me when you're ready, and we'll keep moving.

who's not dead? sound off!

[name]? can you hear me? are you all right?

when did that start happening?

just... give me a second.

that can't happen again.

well, that was... unexpected.

i could have used a heads up.

a bit of help would have been nice.

did you know that was going to happen?

i thought we were going to die.

next time you decide to throw yourself into harm's way, bring someone else.

i guess it's time to move.

that was close. too close.

i can't believe we made it out of there alive.

one more step to the left and we would have been dead.

they nearly spotted me.

i hate it when you do things like that.

remind me never to listen to you again.

ugh, everything hurts.

i think i broke something.

i'll be fine. just give me a second.

i thought you said you had this handled.

feel like my heart's about to explode from my chest.

i'm still shaking.

they were looking right at us. how did they not see us?

next time, you're doing that.

you could have told me that was going to happen!

we made it out by the skin of our teeth.

i don't like close calls.

had you just warned me ahead of time, i would have handled that a bit better.

how did they miss us?

i like your hiding spot.

we'd best be moving on then.

enough talk. we need to keep moving.

it's over. we can keep going.

we can't risk that happening again.

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sharpay really is the best girlfriend because she is so independent but knows how to emotionally, mentally and physically support her partner and validate their well-being. simultaneously does this without having to sacrifice her own sanity or her boundaries. if you betray her though she does not hesitate to walk away from the relationship though, make no mistake!

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sharpay is an egot winner pass it on!

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sharpay totally participated in debutante balls!!

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tmz reports : sharpay evans and troy bolton are headed towards splitsville. there was a wince in her chest, normally never letting tabloids getting to her but with him? it felt different; she was overly protective of what they had. they went from being kids playing some sick game to something sharpay loved so deeply it often hurt. she experienced the passion and reality of this world so deeply because of troy. that was what also scared her : [ there was so much room for him to destroy her. ] " did you see this? " tossing the magazine on the table in his direction as her tone kept neutral and cool, " there's pictures of you and gabriella. want to explain? "

@boltns

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You said you like my eyes and you like to make ‘em roll