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Nervous Reunion

Bonus:

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Inspired by the new set of photos released by Amazon prime

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If a fella makes a nebula right in front of you, how are you not gonna pine after him for 6000 years?

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Tis but thy name that is my enemy.

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can’t believe we got a canonical fanfiction-flavored “oh…” moment of love realization from Crowley.

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THIS THIS THIS THIS!!! Aziraphale is so fascinating because of this!! Despite how much Crowley has influenced him throughout the years, how much he adores his demon-serpent-man-shaped-thing, Aziraphale still sees everything in black and white. He truly, whole-heartedly believes that heaven is good, and they are the "good guys" that Crowley belongs with heaven because Crowley *is* a good guy.

Obviously, just as a warning, my take isn't say all be all, but it's just how I've personally viewed these characters after watching the show twice (rookie numbers, huh?) and inhaling theories and takes like it's water. But, at least in my opinion, Crowley takes offense to that title. He doesn't want to be associated with the "good guys" or the "bad guys." As he repeats multiple times to Aziraphale and the audience throughout season one and two, he's on "our side." The right side. That's what makes season two's ending so damn DEVASTING, because Crowley thought Aziraphale understood this. But Aziraphale, in true abused-angel fashion, still sees everything white and black. So of course when Metatron offers a chance to make everything "good" with the "good guys", he's going to jump at it. It's why he mentions the angel deal with Crowley, because why would his demon want to be anywhere but with the good guys? The fact that this conditioned mindset is so baked in him and you can see it! It's right there, shown throughout season one and season two is just MUAH, CHEF KISS, BEAUTIFUL WRITING. My goodness, Mr Gaiman, you've outdone yourself. But, Aziraphale still truly believes that heaven is the best. Heaven is good, and good is the good, the end-all-be-all, the only thing people should want. Humanity and especially hell are under. I don't think Aziraphale as a character has fully realized that Crowley is against this idea. That you should pick a side, that you need to stay in your camp. That either side is bad and the only side you should be on is your own, doing the *right* thing. Aziraphale still believes, even with all it's flaws, heaven is doing the right thing. All he should want is heaven, why would he prefer Earth over it? And he thinks, which is why he mentioned the angel deal, that Crowley should think that way too. Because heaven is on top, heaven is the best, heaven are the good guys. And in that moment, in that final moment of season two, where Crowley realizes Aziraphale still thinks like this, he loses it for a moment. He slips and he tries his best to drag Aziraphale back to him, which unfortunately doesn't work. Crowley is so patient with his angel, we can see that throughout the show, he slowly shows a side an idea, whatever to Aziraphale so he can be slowly convinced to what Crowley is trying to show him. We can see it in season two, that whole-them-getting-drunk-scene? That was all Crowley slowly convincing Aziraphale that Eternity, Armageddon, and the War would not be all sunshine and rainbows. And it worked, of course, because Aziraphale is a stubborn old angel who is scared of change and anything breaking his fundamentals (books, cake and being "good). And all he needed was a slow walk to the point Crowley was showing him for him to not immediately hate the idea of going against heaven since he'd only be thwarting evil, so it isn't necessarily "bad." (I'm a million percent sure another lovely tumblr mentioned this, someone please tell me who so I can properly credit them because I was not smart enough to quite realize this!) Season two's ending was heartbreaking, terrible, and it shattered me to bits. But after putting the good ol' character analysis glasses on, I realized that Mr. Gaiman did a wonderful, beautiful job of conveying Aziraphale and Crowley's mentalities, especially Aziraphale's inner breakdown every time he goes against that conditioned "good" he's been taught, and that season two's ending was so very in character, that it hurts just thinking about it. As sad as it is, Aziraphale loves his demon-that-should-be-angel. But he also thinks that Heaven is still where the "good guys" lie. And all he *should* want is heaven. And Crowley's frustration in that moment made Aziraphale run away, as he usually does to new things that tend to scare him. Poor Crowley.

So, I feel like I’m losing my mind. I keep seeing metas about how Aziraphale wants Crowley to return to Heaven and be an angel again because he wants them to be on the same side/be good/change/etc., etc., etc. but I don’t see that at all. I actually see it as the very opposite.

Aziraphale loves Crowley just as he is. But there’s something more. Something huge.

Aziraphale loves Crowley and because he is an angel who is stuck in seeing things as black and white, he constantly praises Crowley for being nice. For being good. For being kind.

Aziraphale has watched Crowley on and off for 6,000 years. He watched him thwart the plans of Heaven and Hell because it was unjust. He spared the lives of innocents. He did small things that made Aziraphale happy just because (like making Hamlet successful and saving valuable books). And because Aziraphale sees things in black and white, he sees all the things Crowley has done as nice, as good, as kind.

Crowley vehemently attests he’s not nice or good or kind.

He’s not exactly wrong nor is he lying when he says this. When Crowley spares goats during a cruel bet over a righteous man and swallowing laudanum to prevent a suicide, when he prevents Armageddon by working with Aziraphale and stopping the Anti-Christ from being the Anti-Christ, he’s not doing the nice/good/kind thing.

He’s doing the right thing.

Crowley chooses to do the right thing without hesitation. He is better than all of Heaven and Hell who have callous and dispassionate view of all existence because he questions, because he makes choices. Crowley sees the world for all its messiness and he sees himself. He sees a place where he fits in. He sees the blurred edges.

And Aziraphale sees that, even if seeing the blurred edges is hard for him.

But here’s the thing that Aziraphale can’t voice.

It’s the reason why he told Crowley about being allowed to return to Heaven and become an angel again. He doesn’t want Crowley to change. He doesn’t think Crowley is flawed. Or not enough.

It’s something that is so monumental that it cannot be put into words. Because to put it into words would be more than blasphemy. It’s down right unthinkable for anyone in Heaven, Hell, or Earth to say what Aziraphale knows deep in his soul.

God was wrong to cast out Crowley.

Aziraphale believes Crowley can/should return to Heaven because he knows that Crowley should never have fallen in the first place. He wants him to be forgiven because when Crowley fell it was unjust. Aziraphale is trying to correct a mistake. He’s trying to do the right thing.

Yes, Crowley would never accept returning to Heaven. And Aziraphale was wrong to even suggest it (although that conversation is another can of worms to unpack).

Aziraphale loves Crowley. He loves him exactly as he is. He doesn’t want him to change. Aziraphale knows that Crowley the best of all of them. He wants to change Heaven because of it. Because God was wrong and Aziraphale knows it.

Aziraphale may have difficulty seeing beyond black and white, but when it comes to Crowley he sees everything crystal clear and in vivid color.

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as both a good omens and red dead enthusiast i feel robbed

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American 60s female presenting you say????? Well don’t mind if I do!!!!!

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the only heaven I'll be sent to is when I'm alone with you

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I would love you with our heads down

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"well now what?"

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Passing time 🌿

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some more book!husbands.

trying to make crowley's look scream "DICKHEAD" when you look at him and the he stands next to az and it screams "SUGAR BABY"

also when they get home: