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Yessssss!

That look

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Oh my!!!

Levi, Trenton and Tayte

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U mm mm yup at least once a week

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The freaking cutest guys ever!!

Camp Cockyboys! Thanks Queer Me Now for capturing every moment from the pool party! Happy 10 Years to the Cockyboys team!

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Omg I love him!!! Watched every single sons of anarchy!!!

Charlie Hunnam for The Rake (June 2017)

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I am a huge cockyboys fan!!! So over the last several months I've been fortunate enough to meet Ricky Roman, Levi Karter, & Beaux Banks. I also have corresponded with Tayte Hanson and been fortunate enough to have had a photo done especially for me that I now own. I just need to say that all 4 of these young men have been the sweetest warmest most genuine humans I've ever been fortunate to come across. They have listened to me and smiled & laughed. They have renewed my faith in mankind a little!!! Thank you so much guys!!! 😘 #cockyboys #taytehanson #levikarter #rickyroman #beauxbanks

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Luv this shot!!

“Gimme that night fever"👀❤

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“Why couldn’t you ever just choose me? Are you really that scared of me?” I said defensively. He took a long breath. I hadn’t thought he was going to respond because he never has when I got like this. Demanding answers. He usually runs. But the words spilled from his mouth. “Yes, and I can’t have you because I fuck everything up. I would love nothing more than to let myself be with you.” He said running his hands through his hair. “You know I love you.” He said, eyes meeting mine as my breath stilled. “But I will not hurt you like that. Because I know I will, It’s what I do. You know it and I know it. I will break your heart.” He told me as he cupped my face and kissed my forehead before turning away and leaving. I was stunned in that moment. I wanted to stop him. But the words were stuck in my throat. Of all the things I’ve always wanted to say in a moment like this. I knew this was my one opportunity. Because he was a runner. But I couldn’t get past the lump forming. We never spoke of it again. But I wish I had told him that, this already hurts. Having him, but not completely. Loving him but knowing that we would never be together. That this was already breaking my heart. That I would have risked the pain and heartache, Just to have a chance together.

melindacarolinee (via melindacarolinee)

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Happy pride month!! Love&equality is what we need more of in this world! 💙💚💛💜💟

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I realized that I cannot unlove you.
So now my heart has a new prayer.
I pray that you’ll find happiness.
And in return , I will find mine.
I pray that someone will love me the way I loved you.
And may I love this person a thousand fold more than you.
By then I’m sure my heart will stop looking for you.

A Prayer For My Heart // Conee Berdera (via remanence-of-love)

Omg this resonates!!!

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I know loving you was painful but fuck, if I could do it again I would.

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Feeling this about someone right now & not really knowing why.

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You’re important to me. I think if there’s anything that will last forever, it’s that. Whether we separate, stay in touch or rarely speak again, you will always be that little someone I really do care for, that I would sacrifice everything for to protect and keep safe.

Beau Taplin (via quotemadness)

This says a lot!

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@eve1978 please share this with your friend!!! He posted it on Instagram!!! I know she will be psyched!!!

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Happy #taytehanson Saturday!! @eve1978

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a lifetime

installment#3

 I was curled up on the couch drinking a nice hot cup of tea. My mind was racing. I turned to my friend G and said, "Did you have fun the other night girl?" A small smile started to form and G's cheeks began to change hue. "Hell yes girl. But I gotta say I don't think I have ever done anything like that before!!"

"Me either G!! What kind of girl do you think I am?" I said. We looked at each other and burst into fits of laughter. "Listen, I felt like if I didn't jump on it while I had the chance it was never going to happen again. Does that make me a slut?" I asked. G looked at me over the top of her tea cup with a gleam in her eye and responded with a very loud very distinct "YUP! You are a slut!." then burst into laughter. "I guess that makes me one too!!" she said.

It had been a couple of days since my date. I was still floating in and out of my thoughts, wondering if I had done the right thing or if I had made mistakes. When we had dropped the guys off the following morning they both had told us they would call. Well G had already gotten her phone call and I was still waiting. How the hell was I going to be able to go back to work tomorrow and face this guy and he hadn't even called? Should I have not said and done what I did? Maybe he thinks I am just a piece of ass. One of those girls.....ugh!! I promise you I am not one of those girls but I had to take the chance. There was something about him I couldn't quiet get but he drove me nuts. And after that night....... I was in trouble because I knew that I wanted more!!!

The club was packed and music was pumping. He was sitting across from me looking so intent and serious I just had to laugh. What the hell was it about this guy? I reached out and put my hand on his lap. He smiled and covered my hand with his. "Are you having fun?" I asked. "Sure." The music tempo changed and I decided to change positions myself. I hopped of the stool and placed myself in between his legs. Letting my body sway to the music. I waited to see if Id get a response. None. So I amped up my dance and made sure that my body was flush with his. We stayed like this for a short time and then for some reason I jumped in with both feet. I had enough of flirting and touching and playing with this man and I decided that I was going to do what I wanted. So I turned my body around facing his and kissed him. Slow meticulous and sensual. His reaction was stiff at first but soon he softened and his lips parted. Our tongues slowly began to circle each other and I couldn't help but sigh as I slowly fell into what was probably the best kiss that I had had in a very long time. Thinking to myself that I now knew that I was where I wanted to be.

The windows in the car on the way home were completely fogged up. G was driving and I could hear her and her date laughing and talking in the front seat. But my mind was lost. I was swimming in this man beside me and I didn't seem to care. All I knew was that I did not want my night to end and I was hoping that G felt the same way.

We ended up back at G's apartment and in her room. Both couples in one room at opposite ends. I was so involved in what I was doing I never even realized or thought about what she may be doing either. I had this man in my arms and I really didn't care what else was going on. He had ignited something in me that I had never felt before. His hands covering my body his mouth following the same path. My blood was tingling in my veins and all I wanted was for this man to enter me and make me explode. I felt the tip of his cock rub against me and begged him to enter me. As he slowly slid his cock into my pulsing hole I let out a sigh of relief and wrapped my body around his.

I wasn't an angel but I truly had never had a sexual experience like this one before. He had been soft and gentle, making me feel like I could trust every feeling that was bouncing around my body but he had a air of control and passion as well. As we both climaxed my words spilled out of my mouth without any thoughts. "where the hell have you been all my life?" I sheepishly peaked over to look at him to see what my words had done and he was smiling and laughing. This man had no idea what he had just done. And at the time neither did I.

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So @eve1978 here is my thank you video back!! #taytehanson

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Yumm