shiguang-go

[shiguang-go]

I think my whole deal is that I love obsessive love, but in reverse so if fandom typically go for posessive and obsessive Lu Guang I want obessive Cheng Xiaoshi. I'm the minority.

But just think of it, Cheng Xiaoshi have never had any real connection other than Qiao Ling. And then came Lu Guang who promises, who swears he will stick by him no matter what. And Cheng Xiaoshi clings to that promise. He sees Lu Guang as this pillar who won't crumble who will come back to him. And in a way he is right, Lu Guang needs Cheng Xiaoshi as much as him. It's why he keeps going back on his words to save him.

So I purpose this little snipbit, Lu Guang fails.

Lu Guang failed. Cheng Xiaoshi is now dead. Everything he worked hard for—everything he rebuilt—is all gone. He can’t help but rethink Vein’s words, how this is punishment for changing time. Perhaps that is his fault—if he had not intervened, if he had kept quiet, if he had never met Cheng Xiaoshi—

Never met… never met him. What if the only way he can save Cheng Xiaoshi is by never meeting him at all? What if he’s the variable that threatened Cheng Xiaoshi’s life? Yes. It is his fault.

So he must rectify it.

But why…why won’t Cheng Xiaoshi leave him alone?!

I might write this as a fanfic or as a standalone bit for tumblr but yeah I want more of that freak4freak stuff. Where both characters are insanely in love with each other, please I am starving.