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Enough to Taste

— Ryoumen Sukuna 宿儺 | jujutsu kaisen

— sukuna-centric, ft. yuuji, canon compliant

— word count: 1.6k

— read on ao3

written for Malevolence: A Sukuna Zine ⛩ in 2021!

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wild child

— Il Capitano, Tartaglia (Childe) | genshin

— young ajax, pre-canon, canon compliant

— word count: 2.9k

— read on ao3

written for Harbingers Zine ❄ leftovers open until the end of july!

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he tian fish's fish friends ♡

a single he tian fish, in a tank of mo guanshan fish :')

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What do you want? Tell me... Mo zai... I'll give you everything.

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the way mo guanshan was shaking when he went to kiss he tian

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it's so cute how he tian wraps mo guanshan in a blanket and then wraps himself around him 😭

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do you know any sites to read mangas but its in kr ?

if you mean jp manga but in kr, no, sorry. but if you mean manhwa (만화), you can find them on sites like bomtoon, lezhin, ridibooks, naver webtoon, daum webtoon, line webtoon, tapas, etc. ^^

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[rough TL] 19天 2021 christmas special (tianshan part)

ht: i've been gone for so long, i have so many things i want to talk about with you.

mgs: i don't wanna hear it,

mgs: don't take yourself too seriously!

ht: then why do you still have the guitar?

ht: play a tune for me ba.*

mgs: ......

[DONG DONG DONG — knocking at the door]

[mgs startles, pushing ht]

mgs: fuck!

[ht opens the door]

buzzcut: big bro, come! let's drink!

buzzcut: he......he...! why are you here!

ht: why? got a drinking party?

[mgs pulls on ht's shirt]

mgs: it has nothing to do with you!

[in the plaza]

ht: i'm a friend of mo ge's,

ht: today's on me~

mgs' bros: it's our first time with such good drinks!** thanks, boss!!

[drinking montage. ht side eyes them when drunk buzzcut clings onto mgs who's still drinking]

ht: mo zai... don't drink anymore.***

[ht tugs at the bottle in mgs' hand]

[ht supports shitfaced mgs]

ht: don't drink anymore, alright...?

[ht holds mgs as they sink to the ground, holding onto each other]

mgs: has that bastard...

mgs: come back already...?

ht: mo guanshan...

ht: i'm back.

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*吧... makes the sentence casual, friendly-ish, sort of playful... idk how to explain. it's like he's going, play a tune for me, hm?

**not sure lmao

***莫仔 little mo, mo cub (仔/zai means child, young animal, cub. so when it's attached to a name, it becomes little [x], or [x] cub. affectionate. and really cute imo)

old xian captioned this, "christmas special — "i'm back."" happy holidays!

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[rough TL] 19天 211218 update (tianshan)

ht: lots of luxury cars~

ht: there are quite a few clubs around here.

ht: which one do you like?

mgs: how could i dare like any...

ht: in the future, i’ll make money and buy one for you to drive around.

mgs: ......

mgs: laozi can make money myself.*

ht: i’ll get a bottle of water, wait for me~

[mgs looks into a car]

mgs, thinking: how much is this car?

car owner: hey!! the hell are you doing!?

mgs: ......

car owner: fuck! this scratch -- was this your doing!?

mgs: what!?

mgs: i didn’t do anything!

[car owner grabs mgs’ sarm]

car owner: don’t even think about running!

mgs: let go of me! check the surveillance cameras out and you’ll know!

[car owner twists his fist in mgs’s collar]

car owner: tricks like this, i’ve seen them all!

[car owner moves to hit mgs]

car owner: don’t even think about leaving until you pay for this!

[ht tugs mgs into his side]

ht: i just left for a bit, and you already made trouble?

mgs: he’s slandering me!

ht: laogong will seek justice for you.**

mgs: ......fuck

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*laozi is an arrogant way of referring to oneself. in other words, ore-sama, this great one, your father.

**alternatively, your husband will seek justice for you. laogong is a casual (slang?) term for husband. he tian calls himself laogong/husband/hubby, which is a very common way of referring to a boyfriend in cn. (that means !! he’s flirting, your honour !!) it is also very common for boyfriends to refer to themselves as laogong in third person (men referring to themselves in third person is very common in general in some situations, i.e. laozi, dage (big brother), daddy, grandfather, uncle, boss, etc) “laogong will seek justice for you” vs “laogong will fight for justice for you”. idk, choose your fighter.

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[rough TL] 19天 211211 update (tianshan)

stranger, blushing: that's... my dog...

[mgs pulling ht away]

ht, smiling: i'm also raising a dog,

ht: it's only right to help each other out (caring for dogs).

stranger: ah... thank you. next time, i won't let him get caught in the rain.

[inside the restaurant]

ht: here~ drink some chicken soup for your body.*

ht: how does it taste?

mgs: like what you'd expect**

ht: still~ this can't compare to mo ge's own skill in the kitchen.

[other patrons in the restaurant: whispered comments, whisper whisper]

[mgs pulls on his hood]

ht: mo ge, eat some more~ chubbier cheeks are nice to pinch~***

mgs: fuck off...

[ht stands up, glares at the other patrons, sits by mgs]

mgs: the hell are you squeezing in here for...

[ht rubs mgs' head]

ht: accompanying you.****

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*lit. come~ drink some chicken soup to heal your body.

**lit. just like that

***(not exactly lit., but more accurate) if you get chubbier cheeks, it'll only be nice to pinch

****i think accompanying you is best, but it sounds a bit awkward in en. can also be keeping you company.

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[rough TL] 19天 211130 update

jy: hello? what’s up?

jy: redhead’s at your home?

jy: that’s great then~ i’ll bring him a present~

jy: tell him to prepare a big meal as a reward for me~

ht: he’s already asleep, come over tomorrow instead~

[beep— beep— beep— (hangs up)]

jy: ungrateful beast! you fed your conscience to the dogs!*

jy: we’re over! i was panicked from head to toe and this is the attitude he gives me in return?!**

[zzx tugs on jy's jacket]

zzx: jian yi

[sign: small clean bathhouse]

[sign: bath, massage, physiotherapy, scrubbing]

jy: chokes

automatic door: welcome

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ht: mo-ge~ i’m hungry...

mgs, dazed: mm...ah...? uh-huh...

ht: i can't cook, so let's eat out~

ht: cover your wounds up so you won’t scare off little kids~

[ht helps mgs into a hoodie]

ht: take your medicine before we leave~

[ht and mgs walk outside. ht holds the umbrella for both of them to keep from the rain]

ht: you look so pretty in my clothes~

mgs: laozi is a natural beauty, i’ll look amazing even in a sack.***

ht: i’ll get a number and stand in line. sit here and wait for me.

[mgs sits on the thing... he looks at the white dog next to him]

mgs: ......

[mgs touches the dog, gets his hand wet in the rain]

ht: i'd like a booth in a corner off to the side.

hostess: sure, but you’ll have to wait a while.

ht: thanks.

[ht sees mgs who brought the dog under his umbrella]

[ht hugs mgs]

ht: xiao mo gou~****

mgs: fuck off......

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*“white-eyed wolf” means an ungrateful and vicious person, hence ungrateful beast. 

**jy says “let’s break up (as friends)”. (also i accidentally first uploaded my initial notes app draft here... so there was the machine read version of this sentence that made no sense that i forgot to delete too SHKJFD please ignore)

***laozi is an arrogant way of referring to oneself. similar to ore-sama, this great one, etc

****xiao mo gou means “little” “mo” dog”, or puppy mo

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[rough TL] 19天 211122 update (tianshan part)

mgs: ......

mgs: asshole, you... have you thought about the future?

ht: yeah. i think about it everyday.

mgs, thinking: shit...... the hell does that mean......

mgs, thinking: right... have to ask him if i could borrow his book so i could have it photocopied.

mgs, looking around: cough, cough

[mgs sees ht’s perfect grades]

mgs: the fuck?!

[mgs sees ht’s doodles]

mgs: the fuck...... 

ht, scribble: little chilli was super ferocious again today, i made him so angry and stiff, he could just smash a boulder into pieces.

ht, scribble: if he’s a dog, then i’m his collar and leash, pulling him along everyday.

mgs: dumbass......

ht, scribble: if i was gone, would he be heartbroken*

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*i know old xian tls this as will he be sad if i leave here, but ht writes it like... if i already left, will he be sad. but the word for sad he uses could also be... be aggrieved or be heartbroken. it means to be very, very, very sad. alternatively, will he be sad if i'm gone.

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[rough TL] 19天 211110 update (tianshan part)

mgs: help me pierce my ear.*

ht: ......

ht: can’t wait to give yourself to me?**

[ht pinches mgs’ ear]

ht: you’re wounded all over, do i dare?***

ht: go rest after you’re finished eating. i’ll catch you up on class tomorrow.

[mgs blushes]

mgs: fuck...

mgs: catch me up on class my ass, my schoolbag’s gone...****

[ht leaves]

[mgs looks for ht]

mgs, thinking: where did he go?

mgs, thinking: what’s wrong with him? is he in a mood? what did i say to get on his nerves??

[mgs still looking around]

mgs: where’s your broom?

ht: come here~

mgs: cough, cough, cough...! what is it......?

[ht tugs on mgs’ shirt]

ht: you don’t need to pierce your ears to prove something,

ht: i hope you do it only because you like me.

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*lit. “help me pierce (my) ear cartilage.” he says it really casually ;;

**hello, he tian says 献身 here, which can mean “to devote onself to”, “to sacrifice oneself for”, or, more casually, “to give up one’s virginity”... he tian is hinting at the latter. he’s saying that mgs is really impatient/anxious/in a hurry/unable to hold himself back from offering himself up to he tian shdjdjdjjdjdjd

***as in, “am i so bold as to eat you up hurt you when you’re already this hurt”... so when he tian says “do i dare” ... mgs understands sjsjjd (idk if i need to clarify but despite ht layering his concern with innuendos, they are both very much aware they are talking about the piercing and what it means to mgs throughout this chapter)

****he tian says, “i’ll give you remedial lessons tomorrow”, then mgs says, “remedial my ass”... i just thought this sounded more casual but i might change it idk

is it just me or is he tian’s lip injured... he got injured sometime between finding mgs and getting him porridge , , ,h m

also ! will edit this again to make it sound better i just :’) the last sentence he tian says is confusing me so rip i guess idk how to tl it (i just hope it's for no other reason than you liking me?) he tian doesn't want mgs to pierce his ears for he tian in a parallel to what she li did to him to prove smth to himself, or he tian, or even she li; if mgs does get his ears pierced /for/ he tian, or by he tian (or both), he wants it to be only bc mgs likes him. orz

also, zzx was so cute:( saying that he wished for everything jy wishes to come true :(

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i have so many feelings about so many things

he tian taking mo guanshan home and helping him take care of his injuries

them sleeping in the same bed but each having their own blanket

mo guanshan sleeping on his back (!! he always sleeps on his side with his back to he tian) and his face turned in he tian's direction (;A;)

(the fever patch/towel by mo guanshan's head that he tian might have routinely made sure was stuck to his forehead throughout the evening and only fell off bc he wasn't around , ,,)

mo guanshan waking up alone and seeing how large and empty he tian's home (?) is

mo guanshan's first reaction upon waking up being checking his phone

honestly sort of strange for how his mum's messages were at the top, as though it's a new phone? the recent chapters have always had messages be above the text box , , did they get mo guanshan a new phone overnight ??? perhaps i am overthinking (also has mgs' phone always been white am i !! overthinking !!!)

the way mo guanshan's mum (妈) calls he tian 贺天同学 (classmate he tian/student he tian) and trusts mo guanshan with him

the way mo guanshan feels like covering up even tho he's alone shsjjs

the way he just goes to he tian's wardrobe and gets clothes for himself (the way he tian has so many white clothes ???)

(the way !!! the trousers are a bit too long on him !!!)

mo guanshan worrying about the earrings he tian gave him even as he's spitting blood

mo guanshan's face when he sees the earrings and the fish

(the fish being alive ;; wounded but alive. so strong ! 小鱼 nb)

(he tian taking care of the fish , , bc ofc it's he tian who put together a little recovery tank for the fish ,, all while caring for mo guanshan)

the pleasant expression he tian has when he gets home after getting mo guanshan porridge

(how exhausted they both look ;;;)

the way , , , he tian's shirt is just open , , ,down ,to his chest

the tone he tian speaks to mo guanshan in when he says "stinky boy recovers pretty quick ah~"

he tian feeling mo guanshan's forehead for his temperature and mo guanshan not flinching or fussing

the Porridge he tian obviously went out to get bc he can't cook and mo guanshan needed smth easy on his throat

the way mo guanshan reaches out to he tian (!!)

he tian's little smile when he says 怎么了? (yes? what is it? something up?)

the first word mo guanshan's said all day (bc his throat hurts ? bc he's tired ? bc he's alone ?) being "he tian" in his hoarse voice

the way he tian holds mo guanshan's hand :')

(mo guanshan letting him)

mo guanshan asking he tian to give him a cartilage piercing (knowing it would hurt, knowing that the piercings he already had were smth he had no choice in getting at first, knowing what this would mean, and wanting it)

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[rough TL] 19天 210929 update

ht: tell me...

ht: what happened...

mgs: ......

mgs: you... why are you here...

mgs: [coughing/sobbing sounds]

[ht hugs mgs]

mgs: i don’t know what’s happening anymore*...

mgs: the things that are easy for others....

mgs: why do they become so hard for me...**

mgs: i just want to get away from everything...***

mgs: start over...

[mgs pulls away from ht]

mgs: my own problems...

mgs: i’ll solve them....

mgs: will you...

mgs: believe in me?****

[ht is crying]

[mgs starts crying]

[ht kisses mgs('s tears?)]

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*lit. “i don’t know what’s happening with my life”

**lit. “what’s easy for others... why’s it when it comes to me, it becomes so hard...” or, more liberally, “why is it that what’s so easy for everyone is always so hard for me”

***lit. “i just want to cut everything off”

****can’t decide between this or “will you...trust me?”

i really wanted to tl this more liberally so everyone really Feels It but i also wanted everyone who sees this to read it the way old先 wrote it, , ,so , ,i tried 😭