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You’re always haunted by the idea you’re wasting your life.

Chuck Palahniuk, Diary (via wordsnquotes)

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…I was calm on the outside but thinking all the time.

A Clockwork Orange, Dir. Stanley Kubrick (via wordsnquotes)

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It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. …A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening. Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage. Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything. I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it. You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of sh*t doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it. Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today? We shall see.

Ryan O'Connell (via thequotejournals)

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To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

Bertrand Russell (via thegoodvybe)

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Too much of me was lost in the vision of what somebody else wanted me to be.

William Chapman (via thelovejournals)

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I’m sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel.

Warsan Shire (via wordsnquotes)

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You are going to be so much more than ‘enough’ for someone someday.

Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

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I mean, sometimes remembering can really destroy you.

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, He Forgot to Say Goodbye (via wordsnquotes)

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No, I’m not ok. But I haven’t been ok since I was 11, maybe 12. I am still here though. I’m still breathing. For me, sometimes, that will have to be enough.

Clementine von Radics  (via wordsnquotes)

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I wanted to tell you everything. And that hurt because some things were too scary. Some things even I didn’t understand.

Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why (via wordsnquotes)