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A masterpost on Togashi’s gay subtext and why it’s intentional.

Hi ! After seeing so many posts about Togashi dropping subtext about Killua’s possible romantic feelings for Gon, I thought it’d be a good idea to make a sort of “masterpost” with all the subtext that Togashi has included into his work.

I usually see a lot of people trying to say that HxH isn’t about romance and that Togashi isn’t interested in writing romance into the manga, but when you analyze all the subtext that’s been going on the further Gon and Killua’s relationship progresses, I think it’s incorrect to say that Togashi has never hinted at the possibility of romance in HxH.

This is going to be a long post, enjoy your read!

Also, please note that I will only base this analysis on the manga, so there can be no mistake that “maybe this is just something the anime made gayer” : i want to prove that the subtext is 100% intentional on Togashi’s part.

I’d also like to mention, although I will analyze it further after listing the subtext, that Togashi is a VERY smart man. There are always little details in the story and/or foreshadowing that are easily missed at first but when you notice them, it truly makes you understand how much attention and care Togashi puts into his work. There are countless details and symbolism that are analyzed daily through wonderful meta posts, from the main 4′s birthdays and their link to their character or the religious symbolism in Kurapika’s story arc…. Togashi loves to foreshadow and plant little details into his work, so when Togashi plants subtext, I’m sure he 100% knows that he’s writing it, and it can’t be seen as unintentional.

I’ll also link all my references for this post at the end of it, so feel free to read all the additional textposts and content if you want to know more.

Well, let’s get into it!

EDIT : i can’t believe this post is still being used as a reference it makes me so happy… thank you so much !!! i edited this to tweak it a bit because i wrote this a while ago and the phrasing seemed off to me, so if you’re reading or re-reading this post, hi, welcome to masterpost on gay subtext 2.0 !

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do you ever think about that dodgeball scene 

and how killua’s reaction can be explained by the fact that gon’s sentence (”(killua) ~ ja nakya dame nan da”) is often used in romantic contexts to confess to someone-

(translation : “how do i translate “anata ja nakya dame nan da” in english? - i want to say that to my romantic partner”)

and how that particular sentence was highlighted by making the panel bigger than the others and on the foreground when killua broke free from his family’s control by ripping out the needle for the sole purpose of protecting gon

because i think about it like twice a day

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OH MY GOD IM CRYING THIS IS SO CUTE

What do you think about Gon knowing Killua's hands were badly injured, but still wanting him to hold the ball? I get the subtext from the line "I can't do this without Killua" and agree, I mean more on Gon's attitude. Do you think Killua received it well? I am not comfortable with the "Gon is so selfish!!!" idea, but I'm up to hear more about this.

hello !! ty for this ask bc i was meaning to write a post about this (and also why gon prioritized healing genthru over killua) so this is a great occasion to share a bit of my thoughts before a potential proper post hehehe

To me, this scene isn’t Gon being selfish at all. It might be controversial but I truly don’t think selfishness is the reason Gon let Killua injure his hands.

Gon sees Killua through heart-eyes lenses. Killua’s so cool, amazing and strong, and the fact that he’s alongside him, well, it makes Gon feel very happy because he’s just a simple boy compared to Killua.

So when Killua decides that Gon is worth staying alongside him, it makes him feel grateful. Because Killua doesn’t have to stay by his side, he doesn’t have to follow him everywhere and do everything he does for him, but he still does it. I went over this idea a bit in this post but Gon is overwhelmed by how caring Killua is. That’s the reason why he thanked him out of nowhere on Greed Island, telling him how thankful he is to be here with him and to have met him. 

Because Killua had just sacrificed something for him, just so he could find his dad (that’s what Gon thinks!! we know it’s not for this reason Killua self-sacrifices). 

And this is exactly what happens during the dodgeball match... Killua once again puts Gon over everything, he puts Gon over his own safety and health and over himself. And Gon knows it, he notices it. I don’t remember who said this, but here, Killua is metaphorically offering his heart to Gon. What he’s doing, by sacrificing his hands and not telling Gon, is pretty much him telling him “I’m doing this for you. I’m offering myself to you. Will you accept it?”. And Gon does. Gon accepts Killua’s self-sacrifice. It’s a moment of mutual trust and acceptance, of love and connection. It’s tragic, because it’s rooted in pain, but here, it’s a moment of deep connection and mutual trust.

Killua is sacrificing his hands for Gon and Gon feels thankful for it. Because Killua is offering him unconditional love, and it makes Gon feel loved : Killua doesn’t have to do that. But he does. For Gon. He sacrifices his hands so Gon can reach his goal.

I think here.... It’s Gon considering Killua and himself as one person, as one entity. I’m gonna be cheesy but to me, it’s him realizing that they’re two souls connected as one. They’re so deeply connected that he accepts Killua’s sacrifice, because Killua loves him unconditionally and he loves Killua all the same. It’s a moment of acceptance of love. Because they’re in this together, doing everything they can to find Ging, and Killua is putting his health on the line for this when he doesn’t have to. So Gon accepts his sacrifice, he accepts Killua telling him that he’ll do anything for him. He accepts Killua’s love. 

Because it has to be Killua doing this. And I think this is what the subtext of this scene reinforces!! It reinforces this idea of loving each other, this idea of two souls so deeply connected that act as one.

Now, I’m not saying it’s healthy. Because it’s really not. Gon unknowingly fueled Killua’s self destructive behavior, and Killua’s behavior fueled Gon’s recklessness...But this moment of acceptance that Killua is getting hurt for him didn’t spark out of selfishness. It sparked out of love. It’s a gesture of love and trust.

So to me, Gon accepting Killua’s self-sacrificing behavior is an act of love and trust. Killua knows his limits, he’s careful, he’ll stop if he truly gets hurt (thats what Gon thinks). But right now, he’s still putting Gon over his own body. It’s a moment where Gon once again realizes how much Killua loves him and how much he does for him and he accepts that love, and reciprocates it in a way. Hence the subtext, the “Killua ja nakya dame nan da” :3

ty for this !! i hope this was clear ! i might write a bit more extensively on this subject, bc i want to link those three scenes together (gon thanking killua early GI, dodgeball match & gon healing genthru over Killua) 

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i saw you mentioned that killua has an addictive personality. would u write more on that topic? i agree with you but i dont know how to articulate it for myself hah

I could point to the obvious thing, the chocrobos and sweets in general. Sugar is addictive in real life but like which all such substances some are more vulnerable to them than others. And Killua seems to have developed a chocolate habit.

But I think his tendency towards gambling is far more telling.

Killua loves rivalry, he loves competitions and he will try to gamify stuff he does with Gon. But at least in their competitions with each other Gon can work as a safety valve because he's also obsessive and self destructive and Killua's care for Gon would curb his risk addiction. That and the fact that with Gon they get into really life threatening situations and the self-preservation Killua's family forced into him, kicks in too.

But when the stakes are not life threatening, when it's money... Killua can't handle money. He loses all of their Heaven's Arena winnings on internet auctions. Then Bisky has to drag him away from the slot machines in Greed Island.

When there's no threat to his or Gon's safety, Killua has absolutely no breaks and because Gon leans on him for the planning and for knowledge about the world, considering Gon's much more sheltered childhood, Killua's on his own to control himself and he absolutely can't.

Maybe needing to provide for Alluka will also work as a decent safety valve for the gambling. Maybe he will be more careful with the money he needs for her.

But I don't think he sees that he has this problem. He's always been rich and capable to make quick and easy money. He's also capable of roughing it for a while, and Gon was too. But I doubt he'd want to put Alluka in that situation. Maybe being with her will make him realise he needs to work on this.

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Little killugon sketch (I promise ill get back on my laptop and write soon 🥺🤞)

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re: this post

there are people out there who genuinely think fanfic writers write “to be canonically accurate and respectful to the canon creators and the multi billion companies that made these characters”?

babe, most fanfic writers write because

they love the characters

they are not normal about the characters

they are passionate about the characters

they are depressed and writing about the characters is their getaway

they are horny

canon compliance is only a choice. but there’s no rule in fanfics. and most fanfic writers are sure as shit not trying to be respectful to the multi billion companies that made the characters, and if you actually believe they are, then maybe you’re just new to fandoms.

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one of my favourite things in the entire world is when there’s a huge thunderstorm outside and it’s raining heavily and you’re in bed swathed in blankets and you have just never felt warmer and safer than you do in that moment

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My second (super late) piece for the @hxhbigbang25 ! This is for @blooberryberet 's amazing teenrunaways!killugon au fox in the snow. I absolutely adored drawing them - there were so many good scenes that I couldn't settle on just one, so I made a little comic using my favorite lines from the fic.

Please check out my other artist partner, @jirl0707 's piece, which depicts another cute scene (that I DIDN'T depict here) of Killua and Gon at the laundromat. Their art style is gorgeous!!!

My final piece will be posted later this week. Again, thank you all for the wonderful big bang creations and for letting me be a part of it, despite all my hiccups along the way~

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✌️^v^

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your characters love it when you draw them floating and/or in a white void. it gives them a break from existing within the context of reality for a while it’s relaxing

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Twin, this is only the draft.

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"IT WAS ONLY SUPPOSED TO BE A ONESHOT!!!" i scream, desperately clawing at the floor, as the fic drags me back into The Depths to continue writing against my will for the rest of eternity

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This is actually so me

(guy who literally has easy access to painkillers voice) ough,,, everything aches,,, ouch, if only,,, there was something i could do to stop this,,,,,, guess ill just put up with it,,,,

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The main difference between the weather being uncomfortably cold, and the weather being uncomfortably hot, is that the things you can do in the cold to warm yourself up (hot food/beverage, blankets, cuddles, nice clothes like sweaters, thick scarves and snazzy jackets, getting exercise) are very pleasant and very effective, and the things you can do in the heat to cool yourself down don't do shit.

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learning that addiction is a progressive narrowing of the range of things that make one happy was kinda life changing for me. i apply it to everything not even just addiction i am always checking to ask if i am narrowing my range of happiness or widening it

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Little comic I made 4 a friend based off that thing where killua says “it feels good when he sleeps next to Gon, to feel him by his side. Gon's breath on the back of his neck is a relief because it reminds Killua that he's not alone.”

They couldn’t get more sus if they tried???