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I don't know what to do guys, I really don't know what to do.

I was paying rent with half at the start and half in the middle because it aligned with my paychecks, but the apartment complex suddenly decided to get rid of online payment which probably means I'll need to pay full rent at the start.

Back when I was paying 1700, I was barely getting by with money from work and commissions, and electricity was around 100, storage was less than 100, and my credit card minimum payment was 60-80

Now, rent is around 1900, I'm only allowed to make money from my job or I'll lose benefits, and all the costs I listed besides that have literally doubled

What was me paying 1980 is now me paying 2380 while being forced to make less money than I am capable of making in order to survive

We also have a lot of household needs we haven't been able to afford like toothpaste, cat litter, toilet brushes, etc

This won't be so much of a problem once the new room mate is here, but right now due to basically no one having money to buy commissions and lack of interest, my current roomie hasn't been able to help much.

And she used to have a job aiding me as a personal care assistant, but thanks to aaaalll the 2025 bullshit, I'm now considered too 'capable' to need one. Capable now meaning if you can wipe your own ass, you don't need support.

I was also expecting to get 1k back from mover fees but I screwed that up because they didn't give me enough information on wtf I needed to do.

Now my only chance is with figuring out my mom's life insurance, I can only hope she still had it active when she died because I know she set it up.

Please if you can, consider commissioning @sinsays commission info here: https://sinligereep.carrd.co/ it's the only way we can really be supported right now and she needs work

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He's quite the handful.

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More of my guys, Doppel and Ginger!

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You know what's annoying? Society calling people struggling with poverty 'lazy'. When usually we're either dealing with disabilities, ADHD, Autism, etc. We work HARD to survive and do our best with the hands we were dealt with. We're anything but lazy.

You know who is actually lazy? Rich people. (Millionaires and especially Billionaires) They're entitled snobs who hardly do any sort of hard labor or real work. They're constantly vacationing or just delegating the work they're supposed to be doing to everyone else instead. If they only inherited their wealth, it's even worse because wtf do they even do. They do not do anything that actually gives them real stress. They mooch off society. They mooch off their country. They are greedy dragons just lounging on their hoards and burning those who work so hard just to get a small percent.

They do not deserve the wealth they have.

Eat the rich.

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One last tribute for my mom before returning to regularly scheduled content. This is a short about an alternate Derpy who is a single mother trying to comfort her daughter.

Premier is at 9:00am PST on Feb 1st.

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Memorial video for mom premiers at 12:00 PM PST in about an hour

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Room mate is reccomending I post our PO box again due to recent events with my mom's death in the fire. If anyone wants to send letters or care packages we'd really appreciate it. We are open for shelf stable food, cards, comfort items, "spa day" type items, gift baskets, things like that.

Send to:

Jack W.

16055 SW Walker Rd #274 Beaverton, OR, 97006

And if anyone’s feeling generous I do have an amazon wishlist that people should be able to buy and send stuff from without needing to be the middleman. I don’t update it much, it’s mostly comics and snacks, but you should be able to organize it by priority to get a better idea of what things I’m most interested in. You can even add other stuff to the order that isn’t on the list and it will still be shipped to my P.O. Box

AMAZON WISHLIST: https://tinyurl.com/2bk2hnbv (have to use tinyurl link because tumblr blocks amazon links now)

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Aristotle's Apocalypse premiers Saturday the 25th at 10:00am PST

Be sure to be there to catch the first episode as it goes live!

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Go to our bandcamp now to find a memorial album for BaldDumboRat's mother, featuring 6 of her songs, a version of her lullaby recorded over a phone, and 6 covers of "I'll Wrap You in Rainbows" performed by BaldDumboRat and other composers.

Listen for free, but consider buying the album, as all proceeds go to her funeral costs.

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She often wrote poems and would read them to us on special occasions or write poems for us.

I wanted to write a poem in her honor, though I'm rusty in my writing, I just hope it gets my feels across.

A Robin flew into my life, Offering love and nurturing that I had missed. Not caring I was not her family, she took me in as her own. Voice of hope, she sang songs of bright. Bringing care and kindness, she touched everyone's hearts. Wings used to write, she lifted everyone with stories and poems. She sang she'd wrap us in rainbows, and she did just that. She wrapped us in rainbows. Only in my life briefly, but always remembered. Fly on strong wings, Robin, you will be missed. May we meet again on the horizon.

Memorial for Mom

Very painful news. I learned that my mother died in an apartment fire earlier today. She had been struggling with a manic episode for the past 8 months, not getting the help she desperately needed. I am going to make a memorial video for her to post on the Ponies With Pockets channel, and I want to ask if anyone wants to draw something in remembrance of her. You can submit to my inbox or email jitterbugcommissions@gmail.com Things to know about her that might help with ideas: -She loved birds, especially robins and cockatiels. Her name was Robin. -Her favorite movie was Hook, with Robin Williams who was her favorite actor -Her biggest special interest outside the Bible was the Beatles. She was especially obsessed with John Lennon. -She wrote the Derpy lullaby people might know, the "Wrap You in Rainbows" one, it was originally for me as a baby -She deeply believed in angels -Her favorite authors were JR Tolkein, and CS Lewis -She loved going to renaissance faires -She adored Dr Demento and Weird Al -Her favorite Disney movie is Dumbo because like Dumbo's mother, she was almost separated from her baby for being "too dangerous" due to mental health -She loved playing guitar -She was insanely kind, to a fault, so kind that many awful people took advantage of her kindness. She suffered a lot through life but never stopped being kind and hopeful, and seeing the best in people. -Favorite colors were purple and robin's egg blue -Was a writer and often represented herself with a robin, her slogan was "writing that sings"

Here are some photos of her:

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I'm not sure how to handle this. I've been crying off and on but I don't think it has fully hit yet.

She had accepted me like I was one of her own kids after Jitty and I told her we saw each other as siblings. She invited me into her family. She'd get me gifts just like she would with her own son.

I've lost another family member to fire. I'm doing my best to be here for Jitty. But man, this sucks so much and we're both hurting.

I'm also just furious at the healthcare system, because this was 100% preventable if they had just properly stepped in to help. She was mentally unwell and incapable of properly taking care of herself alone, a year under the senior age.

Just, man, everything sucks right now.

Really awful news

My mom died in an apartment fire today.

8 months of being manic, not getting the help she needed

and this is what happens

my worst fear in this whole situation was her complete lack of self prevervation

she even ran out of the apartment to get help but ran right back in, apparently for her bird which had died over a year ago

I'm in shock

I don't know how to handle any of this

I don't know how to do funeral arrangements or who her friends are

I don't have money

I just feel really numb and broken right now.

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Started a Gofundme due to healthcare situation

Started this because I really don't know what's going to happen next and I'm scared.

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Sometimes I wish I wasn't struggling to survive or physically disabled so that I could actually fight for myself and everyone else that we all deserve the right to a proper healthcare system for the people (not the ceos/business), the right to proper disability funds (ie: Get paid a proper living wage that does not consider whether or not the individual has a spouse because it should not be the spouse's job to fully support their partner financially), and the right to a proper living wage. (ie: enough to own a basic home on a stable income.)

But I don't have that option, so all I can do is tell people who ARE able to, to PLEASE fight. Fight for everyone struggling to have a better future.

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So let me explain my bullshit situation.

I'm losing my state healthcare that has been covering all my needs for years now, even though I made less than I made last year.

This is the cheapest healthcare I qualify for. I make about 30K a year. They expect over a third of my income to go into medical care. I have to pay 360+ a month so that I still have to pay for appointments and meds, just "a little less".

-State healthcare was paying my room mate as my Personal Care Assistant, but she's losing that job because of this on Jan 31st which means the household will have 400 less to work with

-Rent costs 1740

-State healthcare threshold is 1780

-After taxes I make about 1800 a month from my job, before taxes around up to 2400 depending on the days I worked

-Room mate can only provide a few hundred at best without the PCA job because the art commission market is dying

-Cheapest insurance costs 370+, and many still come with added costs for meds and appointments

-Have MANY health needs, pre-diabetes, sleep apnea, psychotic mood disorder, acid reflux, ADHD, anxiety, transitional care, in desperate need of a surgery on a persistent cyst, plus some other miscellaneous health needs

-None of the insurances cover my antipsychotic injections which are vital because I cannot keep up with physical medications consistently

-None of the insurances cover all the clinics I'm with right now, many don't cover any of them at all

-Can't really afford to have less hours without having a cheaper place to live

-Most places want renters to make 3x the rent, and low income housing has a long long waitlist

-Make too much money to qualify for housing aid

So tell me the system isn't a big fucking nasty trap to make sure poor people are as miserable as fucking possible with no way out of being poor outside a godamn miracle

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Happy New Years! Starting this year with a new comic, this one I'm just doing for fun. So don't expect this to have an upload schedule, when I wanna draw a page- I'll draw a page. Basically. I will also not be doing anything too complicated for finishing these pages, mostly just lined flat color with minimal shading but for parts such as this cover and chapter covers or important scenes will have the more full shading and detail. This story will have mostly my characters and my friend Zenko's characters, which are basically original characters that have their own lives and stories outside of this PMD story. I'm throwing them in the pokemon world. There is a plot, so hopefully it will be entertaining for those of you that decide to follow. I just felt like I needed a stress-free comic to do just for fun.

Comic gets uploaded to comicfury first: https://pmdstuckinaglitch.thecomicseries.com/ Rosey, Sin, and Megan (C) me

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Emergency Commissions

Hey guys, this month has been pretty rough for my roommate and me, and we're short on being able to pay some bills. We only have enough for rent right now, but we need to pay electricity and storage too plus a credit card payment, and I need money for food cuz I mostly only have rice and canned veggies right now.

We'd probably need about $500 to pay off all the bills and have enough for food for a bit.

The problem is my commission queue is extremely intimidating right now, so I really can't do a sale or offer more slots. Repeat customers (have had 3 or more commissions from me) are welcome to commission me but it's going to be a while before I can get any new commissions done unless a priority fee is paid.

However, my room mate is open for commissions and is in need of them, so if you want to help support us please consider commissioning @sinsays

Her info is here: https://sinligereep.carrd.co/

As usual, donations are welcome if you just want to donate to my ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/jitterbugjive