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Friday, May 26th

CW: 167

Yay~ now time to drop the next 40 lbs

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4.27.2023

CW: 171.4 :D

I expected my weight to be so much higher, so I am tickled pink at this!

So what if the bean in my head is failing me? I'll kick it's ass and still lose the weight! It just might be harder, and I'll have to worker harder to be kinder to myself in light of this, but I can still lose the pounds!

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My period started yesterday and my god. The cramps were terrible; I had to stay off my wl meds to prevent it from getting worse and had to take off work.

I had ordered Hopdoddy's last night with my husband. If you don't know what that is, it's considered a gourmet burger restaurant in my area. The last time I was there was years ago, and I remembered the burgers being really thick and delicious, and I was really craving protein.

Bro.. bro it was so disappointing! Christ, it is now the equivalent of fast food slop; which if you're in a pinch there's nothing wrong with fast food, but with Hopdoddy's you're paying a super expensive price for something you could have gotten down the street for 1/4 of the price!

Nothing gets my blood boiling more than spending a lot of money and wasting calories on food that's not even good or doesn't meet expectations.

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Hello

Soooooo guess who has Pituitary gland issues that's causing these intense struggles to lose weight and also have high levels of anxiety?

Your girl!!!

I get to go to a specialist soon to get a scan done to my head to see if there's something pressing against it. Yay~

I'll continue my diet as it's working, and my doctor thinks that I should too, especially with the intermittent fasting I'm doing. My mood has drastically improved this month due to it, so it might be processing certain proteins that are related to the gland issues or something.

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Brief update!

Work was insane today; it was so busy that I didn't have time to make a protein shake.

I did break my fast at 18 hours and had summer sausage, which was 360 ish cals.

I'll have a protein shake later after I go for a walk; I have to get the calories in today, if I don't I'll pass out when they draw blood tomorrow

🔥4.20.2023🔥 Day 4

CW: 171.8

Yesterday I was full of energy and wasn't hurting with hunger, which I find to be super interesting.

Today I can have 2 protein shakes, and tomorrow is my doctor's appointments.

I am so hopeful that I can drop below 170 by tomorrow. I think it's super doable, especially if I have my last meal no later than 5:30 pm.

I know that initially said that I would take a 1 week break after this, but I'm really think about shortening that and starting this diet again on Sunday. I really like it!

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🔥4.20.2023🔥 Day 4

CW: 171.8

Yesterday I was full of energy and wasn't hurting with hunger, which I find to be super interesting.

Today I can have 2 protein shakes, and tomorrow is my doctor's appointments.

I am so hopeful that I can drop below 170 by tomorrow. I think it's super doable, especially if I have my last meal no later than 5:30 pm.

I know that initially said that I would take a 1 week break after this, but I'm really think about shortening that and starting this diet again on Sunday. I really like it!

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4.19.2023~ Day 3

CW: 172.0

Im happy to see a loss! Honestly, I can see it more in my body than on the scale and it feels so good to see the change.

I think my husband has been seeing the change before me; we finally were intimate again last night❤️

Just in time for my period to start in a few days lolllll

Today I can have 3 protein shakes, cal limit being 1300 today just because I won't be working out today. I need to catch up on chores.

I have a doctor appointment on Friday for my weight loss and to hopefully be put on a certain WL medication my doctor and I have been discussing. Of course, she has no idea that I have troubled eating patterns,.and quite Frankly she has no reason to suspect that anything is up. I'm very lucky and fortunate that she has been so supportive, informative, and encouraging about me losing weight.

She did say that once I hit 145 that she'll pull me off of any wl plan, which is fair. By that point, I should have the means and motivation to get to 130 easily.

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So having taken my wl meds coupled with the insane amount of water I had today, i wasn't that hungry.

Total amount: 1,003 cals.

Burned: 365

Not a bad day! And my mood has honestly improved a lot!

Tomorrow is a 3 protein shake day if I work out, but 2 only if I don't.

4.18.2023

Hello! So this is Day 2 of the protein shake diet.

Today I can have 2 protein shakes and 1 meal. I think I'll make my meal be a healthy plate of bacon and eggs, and I'll try to make one of my shakes be a coffee flavored one.

I intend on going for a long walk this evening once I'm free from work and gardening for a bit after the fact.

I am curious to know if I lost anything... I may just weigh in tomorrow just to check in

So far, I really do like this diet, and still feel motivated to see it through. I wonder if it's because I've set a hard end time after 7 days, or if it's because I know I can have a solid meal on certain days.

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4.18.2023

Hello! So this is Day 2 of the protein shake diet.

Today I can have 2 protein shakes and 1 meal. I think I'll make my meal be a healthy plate of bacon and eggs, and I'll try to make one of my shakes be a coffee flavored one.

I intend on going for a long walk this evening once I'm free from work and gardening for a bit after the fact.

I am curious to know if I lost anything... I may just weigh in tomorrow just to check in

So far, I really do like this diet, and still feel motivated to see it through. I wonder if it's because I've set a hard end time after 7 days, or if it's because I know I can have a solid meal on certain days.

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I have had so much water today omgggg

4.16.2023

New day, new week, new mindset.

I'm going to be doing a new diet I researched over the weekend; curious to see how it works for me.

CW: 173.6

Calories planned: 1000

Fast: ended at 21 hours

Rules:

Weigh in on Monday (start) and Sunday(end) only.

I must drink my weight in water daily, but in oz. Ex, 173 lbs = 173 oz water.

Workout 6 days a week.

Workouts can vary due to energy levels; I won't punish myself of I can only do a 20 minute walk.

Must take vitamins and fiber daily.

Monday, Wednesday, Thursdays: protein shakes ONLY. Any recipe is okay, can include fruit and veg so long as they are blended into the shake, but protein must be 30 grams or higher per meal.

Tuesdays, Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays: 2 protein shakes and 1 solid meal, and 1 small snack. Solid meal must consist of mainly protein, and NO PROCESSED FOODS.

No calorie limit, but track calories!

Fasts: 16-22 hour fasts. No going past that.

Diet ends on Sunday (4.24.). One week pause, and then I can repeat.

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4.16.2023

New day, new week, new mindset.

I'm going to be doing a new diet I researched over the weekend; curious to see how it works for me.

CW: 173.6

Calories planned: 1000

Fast: ended at 21 hours

Rules:

Weigh in on Monday (start) and Sunday(end) only.

I must drink my weight in water daily, but in oz. Ex, 173 lbs = 173 oz water.

Workout 6 days a week.

Workouts can vary due to energy levels; I won't punish myself of I can only do a 20 minute walk.

Must take vitamins and fiber daily.

Monday, Wednesday, Thursdays: protein shakes ONLY. Any recipe is okay, can include fruit and veg so long as they are blended into the shake, but protein must be 30 grams or higher per meal.

Tuesdays, Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays: 2 protein shakes and 1 solid meal, and 1 small snack. Solid meal must consist of mainly protein, and NO PROCESSED FOODS.

No calorie limit, but track calories!

Fasts: 16-22 hour fasts. No going past that.

Diet ends on Sunday (4.24.). One week pause, and then I can repeat.

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4.16.2023

CW: 173.4

Fasting: 19 hours in currently

I'm pretty sure my husband is upset with me. I asked him twice if he is and he keeps saying he's not, but he tends to cover up how he's feeling.

I think I know why. I'd love to fix it but he keeps saying no.

Apologies don't work here.

I don't know what to do .

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4.14.2023

I have to say, I can make one hell of a cake lol. I am proud of myself for not calorie counting and for not overeating, but ughhhhh, there was too much food.

No weigh in today.

Last night my husband and I were having a good talk, and I told him (he is unaware of my relapse) that I want to really focus on health and fitness and stay away from heavy foods for awhile, and that I would like to get back into fasting.

He agreed! He said that he feels heavy himself and noticed he's putting on weight. Said that he would probably fast until Saturday and asked if I could refrain from making him dinner for awhile.

So~ we're fasting~ and personally, I would love to try to pushy fast until Sunday if I can!

Fast started last night at 7;30 pm.

Expected end date: Saturday, 12:30 pm.

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4.13.2023 ~ anniversary

CW: 173.6

So I ended my fast last night at 25 hours and ate a rather large meal with my husband.

I am happy that it didn't bother me last night, and I'm happy that I'm still mentally okay with that still!

I was happy that there was a slight dip in the scale today; I didn't expect there to be one. :)

Today, I plan on fasting for 16 hours as it is my husband's and my 5 year anniversary. I'm going to be baking a cake and making his favorite dish for dinner tonight.

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The things that replay in my head

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The things that replay in my head

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I wfh.

A coworker and I became really good friends and would leave our cameras on throughout our workday talking.

She's seen my full body (dressed of course) as I had gotten up to move around before.

We were talking about using old photos on social media. I'm not photogenic for reasons outside of my size, and was joking, saying that there's a reason why I haven't updated my picture on Facebook.

And she says, yeah because you're pregnant right?

She thinks I'm pregnant.

She thinks I'm big enough to be pregnant.

Omg.

She didn't mean to be ugly or mean, I know she didn't. But that innocent remark just destroyed my self confidence.

Is this what other people see when they look at me?

I'm happy I took my full dose of wl meds today. I refuse to eat more than I should today.

4.12.2023

I lied lol and weighed in.

173.8. at least I lost!

Yesterday after I got out of work, I became a slug and napped all evening. Then my husband came home and we watched a few shows together, and then I went to bed; I was so tired. But I guess the rest was worth it, I finally lost something.

Today is going to be a very busy day, and I'll try to keep busy enough to forget to eat