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when vegetables in the kitchen grow

My mom gave me the idea to do a blog post on when potatoes and onions grow leaves and stuff, but that is not what i am going to write about. I have a lot to do before the day ends. There is one hour left in the day. It looks like I will not get most of it done. That is what happens when I sit in my room watching old degrassi episodes. I try to fill my void, I think it is getting bigger. Shopping, plants, degrassi episodes, they are all the wrong shape to fill it. My void is you shaped. Its funny how attached I got in that short amount of time. I have detached since, but it hurt. I realize now that I really am an idiot. That I didn't mean much to you. You have much more experience than I, you have made deeper connections. It really was just good fun, that's all it was. I got too attached. I don't think that's my fault though, not yours either, you were just being nice and I fell. I'm sorry i complicated things. I bet you wish we never interacted, i think i kinda feel that way. I'm not sure it was worth it. It definitely was not worth it for you, that's plain to see. you are in a better place but not because of my efforts, despite them, that's also plain to see. I just wish i didn't have feelings, wants, and needs, I can't do anything about them but i wish i didn't let them get in your way. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean to cause any headaches, but i know i did. I didn't mean to. I'm sure that you wish i didn't exsist. I also wish i didn't. I'm so sorry. I am 100% sure that you would not be impacted in anyway if i was just never there to complicate things. you'd be just as in love as you are now. All I did was get in your way and delay those feelings. All I wanted was to make you happy, but i saw your face. Now you're happy and I can't help but feel this tinge of joy for you. i hope you realize your worth in her presence. "you are good for so much".  I still care, I wish i didn't.  i get scared for you because of the way your brain works. I don't understand it entirely, and now I'll never get the chance. From the parts that you let me see, i could tell It was unpleasant in there. I can understand that much, but i get the sense that there was more beyond my level of understanding. I miss you but I am no longer waiting. I am moving on, I think it's your haircut. If you were to ever come back I would embrace you with open arms. But you would never come back, you have no reason to. I find myself missing the intricacies of you. those dark streaks in your lights eyes, the spaces in between each of your knuckles, in which my fingers fit perfectly into. Everything felt perfect until it wasn't. Anyway, i am now waiting for someone who i can give all my love to, i have so much to give. I'm not sure how to aqquire this someone, whoever they are. what i have learned is that looking for it will make me restless and frustrated. they will appear when i least expect it.  I hope no one reads this, but i did put it on the internet so that's on me. alright thanks for not reading :)

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How to not kill your plants

lately, my interest in plants has started to come back along with my interest in other things. A good sign. So I would say that this blog post will actually be about plants this week.  

This weeks post will be about how to not kill your plants. Specifically, houseplants because I don’t know anything about gardens. I Have lots of experience killing plants. because of this, I have quite a bit of knowledge on how not to kill them. over the months, I have learned a lot about how to kill plants, So I figure if you want to not kill them just do the opposite. 

The first thing: Be attentive. The biggest factor in keeping plants alive is paying attention to them because all the other factors sort of branch out from this one. Paying attention to your plants means not forgetting about them, noticing when they are needing a bit more care. 

the second thing: water them. Obviously. It’s Important to water your plants, everyone knows that. But it’s important to remember that each plant has different needs. which means that you can’t water one plant the same amount as you would water another. Which leads me to the next thing.

The third one: knowledge of plants. It's important to know how to not kill your plants when trying to keep them alive. so maybe look some stuff up online, follow a plant blog (not mine), watch some videos. 

The fourth one: love them. give your plants your whole heart. I feel like they can tell when you don’t.

there's actually a lot more factors but I’m tired of writing

bye thanks for reading even though no one reads these

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Plants if I became a mountain man

Lately, I’ve been thinking about how blissful it would be if I didn’t have a lot of responsibilities. I think a lot about how if i become a mountain man i would not have to be responsible for other people, i wouldnt need to keep a job, i would not have to worry about what other people thought of me. If i become a mountain man i’ll live off the land, there would be no use for other human beings. The problem is, I am not antisocial. I may be a little introverted and people can be annoying at times, but that doesn’t mean I want to leave civilization entirely. I would miss my friends. In fact, I happened to be the type of person who enjoys life better when I am in a romantic relationship. mountain men don't usually partake in marriage or anything. I think actually what would be really nice is, once I have found my true love, I would like to live on the mountain with them. And we would be together till the end of time on our mountain. And our only responsabilities would be keeping each other happy, But it would be easy because we would love each other. That actually sounds ideal. We would grow old with each other, and we would have chickens and fruit and vegetable gardens, and we would own meadows and big fields of grass and we would just lay there on the grass endlessly. If only that's what my future looked like. That's the dream. On the mountain, just me and my true love. I am so excited for someone to love me. They will hold me in an embrace forever, and they will lay on the grass with me until the end of time. And we will go to the beach and on long drives and they will love me just as much as I love them. If I could have everything I wrote in this blog I would be the happiest girl in the entire world. 

anyway, because I’m an idiot I decided to make my entire blog on plants for the school year, which means I somehow have to link this stupid mass of letters I've senselessly typed just now back to plants. 

So here’s a list of plants you may find on mt. baldy:

snowplant, dandelion, lemon lily, milk thistle, sunflower, desert poppy, splendid mariposa lily, tiger lily, California Buckwheat, poison oak, cattail, brush monkeyflower, prickly phlox, indian paintbrush, yarrow, grape soda lupine, sword fern, maple and scarlet bulgur, California fuschia, Spanish broom, nine bark, bristlecone pine. 

that's all I feel like writing, There’s many more, seems like mt baldy is very is a very biodiverse area. 

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flowers

this weeks blog post is about flowers. I really like flowers, probably not any more than the average person does but I think everyone really likes flowers. That’s just because flowers are great.

 I don't really know why I decided to write about flowers today. I really like the way they look. I feel like flowers sort of represent how things get better. Sometimes it's hard to believe that things will improve, especially during tough times. but spring comes every year, no matter how cold and dark winter was. And with spring comes flowers, so I guess that's why I like flowers because things are always looking up.

I dunno, I guess I’ll write about maybe types of flowers, or maybe the meaning of flowers. There are so many possibilities the only problem is that I’m lazy. That’s kinda how I feel about everything like there are so many things I could be doing, but I’m lazy. 

Alright so here’s a list of really nice flowers:

Rose: a classic, tried and true. I don’t think the rose will ever get old. I think roses are really nice, very romantic. I’m sure that it’s wonderful to receive a rose from someone you love, from someone who loves you. yeah, I think roses are cool, there’s a lot of meaning in rose. roses come in a bunch of different colors too so I guess that's pretty neat. 

Sunflowers: they’re yellow. Sunflowers are nice to look at. they remind me of the summertime in Chicago. Apparently, they grow on the shores of Lake Michigan in Chicago sometimes. Sunflowers are real peaceful so that’s nice.

Tulips: Tulips are real cool they have like easter vibes and stuff. Tulips don’t really grow in southern California during the springtime because it’s too hot. One time though, I was in Utah during the spring and there were big patches of tulips. I sent my aunt a picture because I guess she like tulips. 

Orchids: orchids are cool. There's a bunch of different types of orchids. I think orchids are mom’s favorite flower, I never asked, but she has a lot of them in the house. 

those are the only four flowers I really know. As you can tell I’m not very knowledgable on the topic of flowers, but I had nothing else to talk about. while I'm writing this blog post I am also watching Ferris Bueller’s Day Off. The only reason I mention that is because the movie takes place in Chicago and there's a shot of some sunflowers on the side of the road they’re driving down so I just thought I'd mention it. 

anyway, thanks for listening to my thoughts about flowers. okay bye 

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grass

today my mom gave me the bright idea of writing today's blog post about grass. I was telling her about how I had some sort of allergic reaction to the grass at school. My eyes get all puffy and itchy and stuff. But I had noticed that I don't really get like that when i go on the grass at my house. so this got me thinking about different types of grass. that's not true, i really couldn’t care less about different types of grass but i need something to write about. so in this blog post, i will be telling you about the most common types of grass. 

the first type of grass i will be talking about today is Kentucky Bluegrass. Haha, not the genre of music, the actual grass, haha what a funny joke. this type of grass is known for its toleration of cold weather and its blue-green hue. Kentucky Bluegrass needs to be fertilized and watered often.  

the next type of grass I’ll talk about is Bahia Grass. this type of grass is hardy and can be grown in even poor soil. It does best in warm weather. It can be hard to mow because of it’s tough stems. Because this plant is hardy, once it becomes well rooted it is hard to kill. 

the third grass i will be talking about is Bermuda grass. This is my least favorite grass. Its not very nice to lay on. It's kinda pokey. I also don’t think its very nice to look at. This grass is very intrusive and will often take over your lawn. 

I saved the best grass for last. The zoysia grass is hands down the very best grass. Zoysia grass grows well in warm and cold weather. It even does well in drought conditions. this grass is also soft and nice to lay on. 

writing this post hasn’ t helped me identify which type of grass makes my eye itch but it wasn’t so bad to write. I had no idea I could form so many words about grass.

 now that i think about it, laying on the grass is really one of my favorite activities 

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uh oh. Another week has gone by and I seem to have strayed even farther away from plants. I'm still using my mom’s computer, the space bar is being stupid. I feel like these blog posts have started to become really vague journal entries that reference plants. It's okay because I'm just doing these for my grade. I wanna talk about echeverias. They are a type of succulent. They have leaves. Sometimes they look like flowers. They like the sun but not too much sun. That's about all I know. Something that really annoys me is when people brag about how good their music taste is. I don’t like that. They always feel the need to play their favorite songs in class or constantly talk about their favorite artists all the time. I don’t like it. I feel like unless you are a DJ or a musician or something of that sort, just keep it yourself. there’s definitely exceptions like maybe someone asked for you to play it, or if you stay humble about it. I think people think that liking slightly obscure music makes them unique. Sometimes liking a certain type of music is unique but you can always tell when people are trying too hard to be different. I think just be who you are and if who you are happens to be normal and not so different from everyone else then it is what it is. I think if you pretend to be someone you aren’t you wont be happy, you might lose yourself. Although, that begs the question: What if no one like who you truly are? Thats tough. I guess just be a hermit and live in the mountains. you could live off the land, depend on no one but yourself, becuase chances are if no one likes you then they probably dont want you depending on them. the upside is you can be yourself and you wouldn’t have to worry about anyone being disgusted by your terrible peronality. you wouldn’t have to deal with awkward situations. No one could tell you how to live. NO ONE tells a mountain man what to do. Honestly being a mountain man sounds kinda fun. I would do it if I knew i wouldn’t miss my friends so much. would they miss me? That’s a scary thought. They’ve said they would but what if they were lying. I’ve been lied to before. I am always so quick to believe people when they say things, but in the very back of my mind the “what if they are lying” still lingers. No matter how much someone may tell you one thing, the fact is, they could always be lying, just pretending. This loops around back to people who pretend to be someone they aren’t. People also pretend to do things or feel a certain way, when in reality they might not be doing those things or they might not really feel that way. What if everyone is lying all the time. People you trust do things you would’ve never imagined. You really can’t trust anyone, but we still do. You know who never has to trust anyone? Mountain men. Im sure there’s lots of nice plants on the mountain. Big fir trees I’m sure. I still don’t think mountain man life would be for me, because even though I have trouble trusting people I still crave human interaction. Tough bet. 

Anyway, Echeverias are cool, thanks for reading :)

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Plants r cool

the keyboard on this computer is broken but its mostly just the spacebar I'll be okay. It’s 11:27 and I wasn’t gonna do my blog post because I don't do anything anymore. I know that if I don't then I’ll regret it. I can’t write about plants anymore. There’s nothing left to say. There’s nothing left to do. All I can do is watch but I can’t even do that. So I guess all I really can do is write about plants when the plants I want to talk to can’t hear what I’m saying. They have ears, they can hear, but they can’t hear me because I can’t say what I'm thinking loud enough for them to hear me. Not if I want to keep them. They have value. 

Nothing is permanent and I feel like, after the fact, I always look back and see it as too good to be true. I keep killing my plants and I’m to blame, but I have to remember that I'm not to blame for everything and some things are out of my control. Plants aren’t permanent, but they can last a long time if you nurture them. Sometimes though, there really isn't anything you can do. I look back and I trick myself into believing that I could fix it when in reality there was actually nothing I could do. Plants have their own agendas and sometimes and they do things without realizing what sort of effect that has on the people who care about them. The people who pour their hearts out for nothing,  For the plant to die, to disregard you. 

I think I fixed the space bar, it works now so that’s good. Some things you have to take apart to fix. It's hard to fix things from the outside. some things have to change from within and some things have to fix themselves and some things can never be fixed. 

So what am I supposed to do when my plants died without care or concern for me and my feelings. I know that maybe it wasn’t completely under their control but maybe if I had more time I would feel better. Plants might be good at hiding things. Some things lie dormant way deep down and without warning, they spring up and there isn't anything I can do except sit an watch in awe. those dormant things have been that way for so long that it lures you into a false sense of security, makes you believe that everything is fine. 

The plants made me feel so nice until they didn’t. I don’t want to look but it's hard not to.

What if plants that were dying under my care are flourishing under someone else’s. It makes me sad that couldn't be the one to help my plants flourish and get better, But I'm still happy that they are growing. 

 The space bar is broken again:/

I fixed it we’re good :)

thanks for reading 

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The Super Bloom

You may have noticed the surplus of colorful flowers dotted all over Southern California. It’s the super bloom, which is just an amount of flowers that is larger than normal. All the rain we received this winter is what caused it. California received so much rain this year that it is now considered drought free. which is cool because droughts are very uncool. Many experts are saying that this bloom may be the biggest California has seen in decades. And it may be the last one of this size, what with all the stuff being done to the environment these days. I feel like I sound like an old lady in this blog post. It’s okay.

The super Bloom brought so many vibrant colors to the hills of Southern California. They are so bright, in fact, that some of the patches can be seen from space. The super bloom has also brought large amounts of traffic holding up freeways and the hills of Lake Elsinore have turned into a tourist attraction. 

 The main flower this spring is the Golden Poppy. A bright orange wildflower, native to California. They are also known as the California State Flower. These poppies are what make up the vast fields of orange that you may have seen. 

As for the other colors, Lupins, Owl’s Clover, and Lavender make up a lot of the purple patches. Verbena and desert stars make up a lot of the white patches you see. Dandelion and Goldenrod make up most of the large yellow fields you may have noticed. 

While I was writing this blog post I remembered something from last weekend when I was in the car passing through Lake Elsinore, looking at the wildflowers. 

I was in the car with a kid and everyone in the car was talking about the poppies and how beautiful and vibrant they were and he just says “I’m colorblind, I can’t really see them” he said that he could tell that there were flowers but that he could see the vibrant orange we were talking about. This made me sad because orange is just such a nice color and the poppies are so beautiful and he is missing out on so much. 

In conclusion, the super bloom is a very cool thing and if you have the opportunity to visit it this spring, you should because who knows when the next one will be. The world could end tomorrow. I think this week would be a nice time to visit it because the weather is supposed to be nice. 

Thanks for reading :-)

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Plants n stuff 3

I don’t know what to write about. I feel like I’ve written all that I can about plants in this blog. That’s not true but I don’t wanna do any research. Its funny because I’m too lazy to research, but not lazy enough to not write the blog post. I don’t know what I’ll do. Stay tuned though, I’ll come up with something.

I left my computer charger at my friends house, so I’m using my mom’s computer for the time being. But the space bar keeps getting stuck and its making this experience much less fun for me. 

I killed another plant. I don’t even know what kind of plant this is. Back in the day I would’ve known exactly what kind of plant it is and precisely how to care for it. But this time I was not prepared to care for it and I didn’t care to care for it if that makes sense. Thus, I over watered it. I don’t know if I used the word “thus” correctly. Oh well. 

With each plant death that I cause I dislike myself a little more. I feel like it’s the same thing with each of my responsibilities that I discard. I was thinking today about how I have like 2 and a half months to get my failing grades up and how I should just give up because that’s not enough time. Even though its plenty of time. I feel the same way about my plants, like, they are already dying so I might as well just give up on them. I really don’t like that mentality and I don’t like myself for having that mentality. But, I guess I could begin to fix it, starting with caring for my plants again. It might be a little difficult because I really don’t feel like it, but I think that most problems don’t have easy solutions. I also don’t think giving up is a solution. I wish giving up wasn’t so easy. Some things though, are harder to give up on than plants. I think I’ll carry that mentality into the things that are easy to give up on, I dunno if that makes sense.

I sorta feel like if I tried hard enough I could tie any topic back to plants, maybe that’s what this blog will become. I feel maybe there’s stuff to learn from plants. I guess we’ll see.

Today, on the drive back from this camp I went to over the weekend, I noticed hills and hills of orange, yellow, and purple flowers. I’m pretty sure it’s called the super bloom or something, so maybe I’ll do my blog post on that next week because plants. 

Alright thanks for reading if you actually took the time, also I’m sorry if you really did read all of this. 

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Plants n Stuff 2

Hello, I’m not really sure what I am about to write about. All I know is that it will be pertaining to plants because that is the blog topic that I chose at the beginning of the school year. Back when I was very in interested plants, I did not foresee the challenge I would have trying to write 400 words about them every week. why did I choose that blog topic? What even is there to say about plants? I should have chosen a deeper topic, one with more substance. I suppose if I were less lazy or still as interested in plants as I was 8 months ago, then I wouldn’t have this problem. I guess now I know that in the future, I really have to think harder before I make a commitment.

Also recently I have been thinking about the personality type you have to have to care for plants. Whatever it is I do not think I have it. Obviously, you must be caring because in order to care for plants you have to care for them. Also, I think you have to be attentive because if you forget about the plants they die. I think also you must be resourceful because if you take care of plants there will be problems that you will run into. I think that out of all three, the only one I struggle with attentiveness. I tend to forget about my plants which causes them to die. So It is good to think about these factors of your personality before you attempt to care for plants. Or you don't have to and you can just hope that you have the right personality and maybe the plants will die and maybe they won't.

I am running out of things to say about plants, because like I said there isn’t a lot of substance in the topic of plants, so I'm gonna talk about this really weird dream I had last night because it was wild.  Okay so the dream takes place at this beach house I visit in Mexico every summer. All of my friends from church were there and for some reason, my mom was too. And we are all just chilling inside then all of a sudden a red carpet rolls out into the living room and Lady Gaga starts walking on it and waving to us and stuff.

When lady Gaga finishes walking the red carpet she sits with me and my friends and we just talk for a while. Me and Lady Gaga start to become really close friends and we begin doing cool friend stuff together. I remember in the dream she had really nice eyelashes and she was really short and she had blond hair but her roots her showing a bit.

Then the nice beach house turns into a haunted house. Me and Lady Gaga work together to fight off demons and ghosts and stuff. There was also a possessed girl in the cellar who we were scared of at first but then Lady Gaga and I became friends with her too and then I woke up.

The weird thing about this dream is that I’m not even really a fan of Lady Gaga. I don’t listen to her music, and I haven’t seen “A Star Is Born” and I never think about her. But after I woke up from this dream I did start following her on Instagram.

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Where to buy plants

As we have discussed before, I have killed many plants. However, I have recently been thinking about getting some new ones because why not (except that I might be wasting my money on plants that I'm just going to kill). This led me to start thinking about where I can get good quality plants that I might have a harder time killing. So that’s what this blog post is going to be about. 

So the first place you can get plants is Ikea. It’s maybe not the best place, but I’m gonna put it in any way because they still definitely sell plants even if they aren’t the best ones. Ikea sells plants for a low price and they tend to have a wide variety. However, I would not recommend Ikea because they keep their plants indoors without natural lighting for long periods of time. That's not very good for the plants, which means you could be buying a plant that is already unhealthy. Also, Ikea does not specialize in plants, they specialize in furniture which just seems a little fishy. It's like buying ice cream from a tire store, it may be fine but it's a little weird. I have bought many plants from Ikea and many of them have died. It is very possible that the deaths of these plants were my fault, however, it doesn't seem like a coincidence that most of the plants I have killed have been from ikea. But anyway, Ikea is a good place to get cheap plants that will look good for a short amount of time. 

The next place that you could purchase plants from is the grocery store. I think most grocery stores sell plants. They have those get well plants and stuff. I dont have much experience with grocery store plants, but I think that my mom has a pothos from the grocery store. It’s doing well and she has had it for a while. The only thing to watch out for is if the plants are sold indoors. Sometimes though, they have those racks of plants that they put outside. So I think Grocery stores might be a good option. 

Somewhere else that sells good plants is a home improvement store like HomeDepot or Lowes. They tend to have a very large selection of plants.  They also know what they are doing with their plants. They have special staff to take care of their plants. When purchasing from a store like this, make sure to look at the care instructions and pay attention to what plants are meant for indoors and outdoors. 

The next place and possibly the best place to buy plants would be a garden store. I feel like I don't have to explain why a garden store would be the best place to buy plants, but I will anyway. Garden stores are stores completely dedicated to plants and caring for them. So it makes sense that garden stores would sell healthy plants, also the staff working at garden stores might be able to offer you advice for how to care for a specific plant. 

Alright, so that’s my two cents on where you should buy plants. At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter where you buy your plants as long as you care for them. Sometimes the most surprising places have plants that will thrive. Have a nice day, thanks for reading :)

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My Dead Plants Pt 2

Last blog post I talked about some of my plant deaths, and I tried to determine whether the cause of death was me or not. It's sorta sad that I have enough deaths plants under my belt to do a part 2, but hopefully, not all of these deaths are my fault. So now I am going to talk about my plants that are no longer. 

The first plant I would like to talk about is my spider plant. I believe the death of this plant was an injustice and I actually don't think it was my fault. I bought this pant from a farmers market near my house. It seemed really healthy and in good shape. When I took it home I started to notice, after a week, the bases of the leaves had started to turn dark brown. Its as if I had already messed up in the first week, which would’ve been a record for me. What happened was the plant started to rot, but I know it wasn’t me because it would be very hard to water it so much in one week that it could rot. I would have had to have been trying to kill my plant. Which is something that I would never do. So I would say that I bought the plant when something was wrong and I just didn’t notice. So I think there’s finally a plant death that wasn’t my fault. That makes me happy because it wasn’t my fault. So :-)

Another one of my plant deaths is another dracaena (I've killed 3 so far). This dracaena isn’t a marginata like the others, I just found it in my backyard and I took it inside. It was actually doing pretty well, but its leaves were always dry and I could tell that I wasn’t watering it enough. Eventually I just completely forgot about it and the next thing I knew was it had 2 good leaves and then, I forgot about it again and it was dead. So I feel like my responsibility was directly correlated to the death of this plant. 

The next plant I would like to examine is my hawthoria. I don’t really know how to feel about this plant death. It was one of my first plants I ever had and the very first one that had died under my care, so as you can imagine I was devastated when she passed. I don’t however, think this plants demise was my fault. I remember after having this plant for a week it started to lose leaves, like they would just shrivel up and all off and that kept happening. I looked up the symptoms and they said that it was probably suffering from root rot. So I took all the measures necessary to try and cure this plant if its alement. But nothing prevailed and it died and I think I cried and I want justice. 

So in conclusion, plants die and I’m sorry. I think I wanna get some new ones and I'm gonna try to take care of them. Also I might do a part three because believe or not, I have more dead plants.

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uh oh, i cant keep my plants alive

I'm doing something wrong. I've been neglecting my plants and that’s probably why they’ve been dying. But also I’d like to think that maybe it isn't all my fault, even though it definitely is. If there’s even a chance that’s it’s not all my fault, then I'm going to look into it, which is what this blog post is going to be about. Actually, I have no idea what I'm looking for because I’m pretty sure it’s all my fault. But I guess what I’ll do is I will look for other reasons as to why my plant may have died and determine if the death of my plants was my fault or not. That could be fun.

The first plant I will evaluate is my ice plant. So the first mistake I made with this plant was putting it in my bedroom in the first place. Ice plants need full sun coming from more than one angle, which is more than what one west facing bedroom window could provide. I did this even though I knew this. So from the very beginning, it was not thriving so that one was my fault. Also, according to my plant book, an Ice plant will die if it is allowed to go any period of time without water. Which makes me wonder why it is considered a succulent, but anyway, I kinda forgot to water it for a good amount of time. So I think that we can easily say that I was undoubtedly the cause of this plant’s demise. 

In our next case, I will examine the expiration of my fittonia. She was very good and lively. The two best characteristics of a plant. Then one day I had to leave for a 3-day trip with no one there to look after her. She got a little wilted while I was gone but I was able to nurse her back to life and she was good for a few weeks. And then recently I went through an especially neglectful phase where I didn't feel like watering any of my plants and I would slowly just watch them dry up until they just had to be watered or it was certain death. This seems to be a slippery slope, a dangerous game. With fittonias, they can only go a few days without water and so I’m sure you can guess what went wrong in this situation. So I would say that once again the death of this plant was also my fault. 

I've actually killed so many plants and its probably all my fault I can’t keep a plant alive for more than three months. So I think it's safe to assume that each of these plant’s death is my fault, and also I'm running out of time and this blog post is due. Maybe I’ll do a part 2 next week if I don't have any better ideas. 

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Plants n stuff

Hello, so I kinda don't know what to write about so I'm just gonna write sorta whatever comes to my head. Since my blog is about plants, with each thing I write about I will tie it back to plants, in the end, it’ll be like a cool little challenge.

Okay so plants are cool n stuff but they are kinda hard to take care of and recently I have been struggling to take care of my responsibilities and having a lot of plants in my room has proven to be a big responsibility. So, because I'm irresponsible many of my plants have started to wither away due to my lack of accountability. so that's really cool, however, I have also noticed that this lack of accountability also extends far beyond caring for plants, it has affected my grades in school and the Instagram account that I run. So I guess you could say that just like the plants in my room that are withering away so are all of my other responsibilities. 

Something that has been on my mind, is the amount of freedom that I deserve as a 16-year-old. I have no idea how I will tie this into plants but we'll see. I figure I shouldn't get as much freedom as an actual adult, but I should get more than a twelve-year-old would get. Because I feel like the closer you approach adulthood, the more you should ease into freedom because it might be bad to just suddenly have all this freedom and responsibility the second you turn 18. Recently I have begun to feel very restricted by a certain maternal figure in my life. I am not allowed to hang out with my friends after school unless its for school, I have a phone curfew, she needs my location at every time of the day (this I understand somewhat because it's for my safety), and I can't say no to her without her threatening to take my cat away or any of the other things I love. This sorta makes me feel like I’m trapped in a bubble, and I can only go a certain distance without there being serious repercussions. I guess you could say I feel like an overgrown plant and a pot that's too small and if it try to branch out and grow new roots the pot will break or something. That was not a good analogy but I couldn't think of anything better. 

related to the topic I mentioned above, I have been wanting to retaliate more and more, but this maternal figure is all powerful much like a tree cutter and maybe I'm a tree and I'm trying to grow bigger but there's a sidewalk blocking me from extending my roots. I can grow my roots but I might damage the sidewalk and then the tree cutter would get mad. I can try, but who knows the outcome? if I try to grow my roots and I say “no I don't want to give you my phone tonight that makes me unhappy” she could cut one of my branches off or take all my leaves. But at the same time, what if I can get her to understand. But what if I can’t and she just cuts me down completely. I can't just not grow though. If there's no room for me to grow then what do I do? Not being able to grow makes me really unhappy and I don't what to live like this. 

There's also been some pretty cool stuff in my life as well. I have a boyfriend now and he's pretty cool I guess you could say he makes me feel like a flower. This sounds very cheesy but its the only plant metaphor I could think of. I just wish the tree cutter was less restrictive, but it's okay. 

[slowskinnyrest]

Why Can’t I keep a Dracaena Marginata Alive?

I’m not sure if you’ve noticed, but I might not be the best person to take plant advice from. In fact. I may actually be one of the worst. I have killed many plants in my plant days. The sad part is, my plant days haven't been that long. In total I’ve killed about 6 plants and i have 3 at the moment that aren’t looking so hot. Actually they are looking quite cold. I’m tired of it. I would like to get to the bottom of why my plants are dying. So, in this blog post I will research reasons why one of my favorite plants is dying. You are welcome to embark on this journey with me. 

Okay, so guess I actually have to research now, but I kinda don’t want to do that. So first I’m going to go over my hypothesis for why my plant is not doing good. Okay so at the moment my plant’s leaves are sorta wilted and the base of them is sorta brown and sad looking. Also, the plant had lost quite a few leaves. The leaves kinda drooped over to one side too and the stem of the plant is kinda squishy and brown. Anyway the thing I think I did wrong was I went a too little long without watering it. But, usually I’ll forget to water it for a few days and then it’ll drop a few leaves and I’ll water it again and then it’s good. At first that’s what happened so I watered it. Then it didn’t get better right away, so then I got sad and I watered it again. I think maybe that’s where I went wrong. I waited too long to water it, and when I did water it, I gave it too much and I think it rotted. Alright so that’s my hypothesis. 

Now I suppose its time that I actually research what happened. 

I think I was right guys, I definitely over watered it. My sources have revealed that if you over water a dracaena it can lead to rot. However, when draceanas rot it can’t be fixed and its kind of a death sentence. So I should dispose of my plant. 

However, what if there is hope for her? What if Miracles really do exist? I should wait it out before I give up all hope and throw her away. 

Alright, Don’t do what I do what I did. Bye.