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doing a new diet called if i eat i slam my head into a wall

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are you ready for anorexic academic autumn????? 🍂☕️👻

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Y’all h0es ain’t ready for the outfits I’ll wear once I get skinny

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Painting again 🩷

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How I feel still being in this community at my grown age:

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Just hitting this is my first relapse in my 20s

First time being anorexic and not a teen

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The thought of going back to being disordered sucks but at least I can control something again

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Coming back to my 3d related accounts after recovering for a good stretch is so hard

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the only thing worse than updating my weight to a higher number is updating my age. at least the first one is reversible.

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₊꙳⋆☽⊹₊ I wanna find more 20+ ED Blogs ✩˚.⋆☾⋆꙳₊

𖤓 So pls react to this post if you are an adult & a lovely Soul ᰔ

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“Maybe he thinks I’m beautiful…

What number made me beautiful?”

- Elena Vanishing

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young and beautiful

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sometimes i have to remind myself why i do it,

and why i have to keep going

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Me rn. I cause all of my own pain.

"2024 gonna be a vibe!"

the vibe:

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I have listened to Elena Dunkle’s memoir more times than I can even remember. I’m almost done listening to it for the maybe 9th time? The first time I listened to it, the second it was over I immediately started listening to it again. The first couple times I really paid attention because I wanted to hear her story and pick up on things I may have missed the first time. Now when I listen to it it’s okay if I get distracted and miss a few lines because I know her story so well, I already know what’s going to happen. But every couple of weeks I keep coming back to listen to it again. I really I can’t describe the connection I feel towards her story. And the narrator does an amazing job too, perfect voice for her memoir.

It can be a very triggering book to read or listen to especially to someone who has an eating disorder… but it’s also so comforting to hear her talk about her depression and her voice inside her head that often resembles my own.