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im sorry i literally cannot get this out of my head since last night

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louisiana creole / zydeco music miku ⚜💛💜💚

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I'm certain this will result in nothing bad or disastrous happening.

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Ren faces

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The forgotten

I was abused by kyle carrozza, but I was silenced for a long long time. It was only through him being arrested that I was finally released from this mental pit I was left in. His absence unlocked the reality of the situation and only through therapy I could process the abuse and understand the mental gymnastics my brain did to protect me from the truth of what I experienced

I was manipulated and lied to. I was physically mentally snd sexually abused. I was coerced into doing things I didn’t want to do. My trust was broken. I was humiliated over and over and over by him. My confidence was destroyed, my life was destroyed

I tried to k*ll myself many times and failed. I tried to downplay what happened and reason it all away

I was so broken

I buried it and blinded myself to it so I couldn’t see who broke me

I cried myself to sleep so many nights wondering why I felt so broken, so used, so sad and so worthless

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Happy birthday to these goons

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working on humanizing the balding old man

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Ermm what the heck are YOU staring at

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I'm just curious about Stimpy becoming a hamster.Stingby hamster can running wheel,sleeping on Ren and working with him.

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When I was searching for information, I found:Ren was inspired by Peter Lorre, and Stimpy was inspired by Larry fine.（Oh, only partially.）

It's true. I laughed with my friends for a long time when I found out.

So, why don't the four of them try to meet?Four times the joy.

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Posting about the Kyle shit again because its getting annoying as hell and I'm tired of correcting people.

He did NOT have 16 terabytes. For him to have that much, he'd basically have nearly all the abuse material in the world. I don't think people realize how huge that number is.

Some troll on the CN wiki put that there for shits and giggles. If you look at the edit history, it also said it took 80 armed men to take him down and he's just some slow fat guy lol.

Lindsay has not gone public with the extent of the crimes yet but she did confirm my theory about the google drive incident.

His court hearing was supposed to be tomorrow, July 25th, but it might be delayed until tuesday due to a ransomeware virus that affected the legal departments in the county.

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💙my favourite girlie who is STUPIT and CRIMGE....💙

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Ren and stimpy reboot redraws, tee hee

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I can't reiterate it more, but here i am elaborating just one more time: literally NO ONE could have known about Kyle's CSEM unless there was a victim who has had their nudes solicited from. Apparently he had a lot, but im not sure if anyone came out as a minor when it happened.

I don't actually know if they actually did say this, but my parent told me that Ang took credit for Kyle's google drive shutting down. This is impossible for many reasons, but for one, you can't report someone's google drive, only their youtube channel and maybe flag their email as spam.

Cloud services use hash files to detect illegal material, and these hashes are matched with known illegal hashes stored in google/mega/dropbox etc. databases. Even if Kyle did solicit nudes from minors, the bulk of the illegal material he owned was completely unrelated to any baggage and accusations he had in the past. If hashes were tripped, it means it was downloaded from the internet and the same images were already found on other pedophiles' computers. He literally had HUNDREDS of pictures, containing images of children under 12. LITERALLY NO ONE COULD HAVE KNOWN THE EXTENT OF THIS EXCEPT GOOGLE. Google was the one who contacted the Internet Crimes Against Children Task Force, and it took a 9 month investigation until he was finally arrested. This is a completely normal time frame for an investigation of this nature.

It's implied that Kyle INTENTIONALLY backed up his illegal folders to his drive, which makes him 10x as stupid, because i had originally theorized it was a mistake by right-clicking. This bastard for some reason did not think twice about it, and thinks that google of all services is private enough to not notice.

If you want to learn more about how this process works, mutahar (someordinarygamers) has made several videos about this, but hopefully you get the idea.

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To say that I’m angry would be an understatement. For 20 years, I studied under him, practically saw him as more than my mentor but the older brother I always wanted. Only to find out that I was being groomed and I didn’t know it. People warned me about him, and of course, like the idiot I was, I chose not to believe them. After seeing the many stories that have been coming out I feel sick and betrayed. The people I doubted detest me because I was so close to him. Regardless, my heart goes out to the victims who were also groomed by this monster.

With that being said, I will no longer be associating with Kyle Carrozza or any of his projects. FRS is dead, and I will work on my projects instead.

Kyle, if for some reason you see this, Fuck you in every orifice in your body and know that if I were to see you anywhere in California, I will put my hands around your neck; it will NOT be in prayer!

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​god,,,I’m so deeply sorry you were effected in this way and I’m glad that your moving on in terms of interests, it’s a damn shame that you had to give up certain projects you were working on because of one jerkwad, but I’m glad your able to move forward💕

Imagine how I must feel as one of the only fans of Mighty Magiswords. You know. A headcanons-and-fanfic kind of fan. I even cosplayed Prohyas once.

Of course, it's nothing compared to what the actual victims went through... I'm fine. But it still felt like a part of my identity has been permanently soured. I don't want to seem like I somehow have it worse, that's not my intention. Nothing bad happened to me personally. I'm only posting my own side of how I deal with the situation, to get some closure myself and show solidarity with the victims.

I don't admire him anymore, and that's putting it lightly.

Full story under cut. Content warning for non-graphic discussion of csa.

The news came to me from my ex-but-still-friend. He told me privately, out of nowhere, just dropped it on me. Like, "Hey, sorry to tell you, but the guy you like got arrested for csa". However, I am glad he told me rather than me having to find out on my own.

The news hit me, and I felt nothing in my body. I usually would get this painful fight-or-flight all through my body whenever I read something that upset me, something I've been training myself to get better with. But right now? I just felt like... "huh. That happened." It helped a lot that Magiswords wasn't my fixation of the moment. And like... it's been like I've been slipping away from it. Like I didn't need it anymore.

More and more people were talking about him, and it wasn't positive. Who? Kyle.

I talked to him. Personally, like many people did. He never acted weird to me. I admired him. I loved his art, sent him physical fanart, all that stuff. I knew more than one person said he was not trustworthy but hey, he made a show that saved my life, so it was a constant struggle between feeling like I had to pick sides. I was going through hell by virtue of my dad being terminally sick and needing constant care, so I was gonna ignore the red flags and enjoy my silly sword show that brought me such joy.

Even if as time went on it started get harder and harder.

But you know what a certain depressed horse show said? When you're wearing rose coloured glasses, red flags just look like flags.

I now think dodged a bullet.

What emotions do I feel? Betrayal. Anger. Disgust. Disappointment.

The irony about it all. The sheer painful irony of blacklisting somebody for *drawings*, and then going behind everybody's back to actually hoard *actual* csa, and revenge porn, and all sorts of nasty stuff. For the record: there is nothing wrong with being put off or disgusted by specific sorts of drawings. But the irony here is what's most painful to me. I do not like people using this as a "gotcha" for either side of this tired argument. It's disrespectful to the actual victims.

People say I can easily seperate art from the artist if I want to but... right now I don't think I want to. He's in every pore of its identity. I do not want to talk or think about Magiswords right now, and I don't know if I ever will again.

It meant so much to me. Prohyas felt like Me. Being a goofy capable adult who doesn't stop collecting things he likes just cuz he's an adult. I thought I was trans for a while and the euphoria of relating to Prohyas helped that. Then he got lowkey confirmed nonbinary and I was over the moon.

It was good. Emphasis on "was".

And to the man himself I have one thing to say: you're another one in a long history of cartoon artists who end up being unsavoury, slimy people, taking advantage of young people, especially girls, in the animation industry. Not something to be proud of. I know we talked and you seemed perfectly okay to me, personally. All I can think is thank god it never went beyond casual chats.

I guess I can finally say I never liked the joke about Vambre not liking pants. Sure, sensory issues exist, but I doubt that was the intention of the design. I have deleted my sideblog where I chronicled ooc screencaps of the show and deleted my little spotify playlist of songs that reminded me of the show. I don't want to finish my longfic where Prohyas and Flonk fell in love anymore. I can't even change it into ocs because it's just so ingrained in the show's lore. So yeah, there's that.

I'll be fine. When the news hit I took it surprisingly well. I was going to an Alestorm concert and it was the most fun I had in ages. So yeah, I've got Christopher Bowes and His Plate of Beans to fill the void of comedy music. Was fixating on Simpsons already so there's that in terms of cartoons. I'm fine.

All I can say is my heart goes out to all the victims, and I'm deeply sorry I didn't see you sooner. I hope you can heal and have some semblance of closure now that he's gotten arrested. My heart goes out to all of you and again, I am so so sorry. I wish you all the love and healing.

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