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[behind the scenes] Chapter 139 taken from Eren's camera

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IU [Dingo Music : Killing Voice] Medley Lyrics

[Romanized]

하루 끝

Monday, better day Cheoeum cheoreom seolleineun geureon nal Sunday, better day Jongil neoman saenggakhaneun geureon nal Yoksimi na, uri sai yoman keumman deo gakkai Ttag han baljjag, geumankeum deo gakkai Honjatmari, sogsagimi Neodo gunkgeumhal sun itjanha Nega johaseo geurae, Na chagaun cheog pyojeong jitgo itjiman Nae maeumeun geuge aninde geojitmarinde Babo gateun nega nan dabdabhae Neomu johaseo geurae, Na simulughan eolgulhago itjiman Tto gidarida, gominman hada Heulleoganeun haru kkeuteseo haneun mal Naega neol saranghae

금요일에 만나요

U.. ibeon ju geumyoil U.. geumyoire sigan eottaeyo Jumalkkaji gidarigin himdeureo Sigana dallyeora sigyereul deo bochaego sipjiman (Mind control) Ilbun ilchoga dalkomhae I namja dodaeche mwoya Sarange ppajiji ankon mot baegigesseo On jongil nae mameun jeogi sigyebaneul wie ollata Han kanssik geudaeege deo gakkai Na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na La la la la...

너의 의미

Neoui geu han madi maldo Geu useumdo naegen keodaran uimi Neoui geu jageun nunbitto Sseulsseulhan geu dwitmoseupdo naegen himgyeoun yaksok Neoui modeun geoseun naegero wa Pulliji annneun susukkekkiga doene Seulpeumeun ganiyeogui koseumoseuro pigo Seuchyeo bureoon neon hyanggeutan baram Na ije munggegureum wie seongeul jitgo Neol hyanghae changeul naeri baram deuneun changeul

Geu useumdo naegen keodaran uimi

Neoui geu jageun nunbitto

Sseulsseulhan geu dwitmoseupdo naegen himgyeoun yaksok

스물셋

I'm twenty three Nan susukkekki (Question) Mwogeyo majyeobwayo I'm twenty three Teulliji malgi Because Nan mopshi yeminhaeyo Majyeobwa Han ddeolgi seumulset jom Agassi taega nane Da keun cheokhaedo jeokdanghi mideojwoyo Yalmiun seumulset Ajik hancham meoreottda yae Deol jaran cheokhaedo Daechung sokajwoyo Nan, geurae hwaksilhi jigeumi johayo Anya, anya sasileun ddaeryeo chigo sipeoyo A argesseoyo naneun sarangi hago sipeo Ani donina manhi beollae Majyeobwa Eoneu jjogige? Eolgulman bomyeon molla Sokmaeumgwa dareun pyojeongeul jineun il Aju gandanhageodeun Eoneu jjogige? Sasileun nado molla Aechoe naneun dan han jului Geojitmaldo sseun jeoki eobtgeodeun Yeouin cheok, haneun gomin cheok, Haneun yeou animyeon Aye dareun geo Eoneu jjogige Mwodeunhan jjogeul golla Saekangyeong ane bichwojineun geo mwo Ije iksokhageodeun

밤편지

i bam geunare banditbureul dangshine chang gakkai bonaelgeyo eum saranghandaneun marieyo na uriye cheot ipmajchumeul tteoollyeo geureom eonjedeun nuneul gamgo eum gajang meon goseuro gayo nan padoga meomuldeon morae wie jeokhin geulsshicheoreom geudaega meolli sarajyeo beoril geot gata neul geuriweo geuriweo yeogi nae maeumsoge modeun mareul da kkeonaeeo jul sun eopsjiman saranghandaneun marieyo

팔레트

isanghagedo yojeumen geunyang swiun ge joha hagin geuraedo yeojeonhi korin eumakeun johdeora Hot pinkboda jinhan borasaekeul deo johahae Mmm tto mwodeora danchu itneun Pyjamas, lipstick jom jitgujeun jangnandeul I like it I'm twenty five nal johahaneun geo ala Ooh I got this I'm truly fine ije jogeum al geot gata nal

가을 아침

ireun achim jageun saedeul noraessori deullyeoomyeon eonjena geuraetteut ashwipge jameul kkaenda changmun hana haessal gadeuk nunbushige bichyeoogo seoneulhan naenggie jaechaegihalkka malkka ttalgakttalgak achim jinneun eomeoniye bunjuhamgwa eonggeumeonggeum naengsu channeun geu adeure geeureumi sangkeumhago kkaekkeuthan achime hyanggiwa gusuhage bab tteumdeuneun naemsaega eoureojin gaeul achim naegen jeongmal keodaran gippeumiya gaeul achim naegen jeongmal keodaran haengbogiya eungseongman buryeotteon naegen paran haneul barabomyeo keodaran sumeul shwini deunopeun haneulcheoreom nae maeum pyeonaejine teong bin haneul eonje wanna gochujamjari hanaga jam deol kkaen deut eongseonghi dolgiman biingbiing

삐삐

Pyeonhage haji mwo Eo geogi neo nae mal ara deureo? eo? I don't believe it Ei ajik moreul geol Nae mal teullyeo? tto naman nappeo? eo? I don't believe it Kkamppagi kyeo gyoyangi eopseo neo knock knock knock Enough deo sangdae an hae block block block block block Jal moreugesseumyeon ijen jom oewo babe Repeat repeat Cham swipji right Yellow C A R D I seon neomeumyeon chimbeomiya beep Maeneoneun yeogikkaji it's ma ma ma mine Please keep the la la la line Hello stu P I D Geu seon neomeumyeon jeongsaegiya beep Stop it geori yujihae cause we don't know know know know Comma we don't owe owe owe owe (Anything)

Blueming

'Mweohae?'raneun du geuljae 'Nega bogo shipeo' naye songmaeumeul dama u Imotigon hanaana soge Dallajineun nae mimyohan shimrireul akka u Ani bappeuji ana nothing no no Jamdeureo itji ana insomnia nia nia Jigeum dareun saramgwa hamkkeiji ana Eung, nado neoreul saenggak jung Uriye nemo kaneun bloom Eomjisongarageuro jangmikkocheul piweo Hyanggie chwihal geot gata u Ojik dulmane bimire jeongweon I feel bloom I feel bloom I feel bloom Neoege han songireul deo bonae

에잇

Modeun ge mamdaero wattaga insado eopshi tteona Idaeroneun mueotto saranghago shipji ana Da haejil daero haejyeobeorin Gieok sogeul yeohaenghae Urineun orenji taeyang arae Geurimja eopshi hamkke chumeul chweo Jeonghaejin ibyeol ttawineun eopseo Areumdaweotteon geu gieogeseo manna Forever young Uuu uuuu uuu uuuu Forever we young Uuu uuuu Ireon angmongiramyeon yeongyeong kkaeji aneulge

Coin

Born to be gambler Baeun jeok eopji even no tutor Chweake paereul gajigo ssak sseuleo Han su baeugo shipeum deo yeye itge guleo Seungnireul sone kkwak japa mala jwieo Worth more than jewels Jeori gaseo norajweo It's no kids zone Maegyeonggi salbeolhage Nan moksumeul georeo like a bullfight Go vamot vamot vamot vamot vamot Go ahead It's new rule New rule new rule new rule new rule Watch your back I said go Baby aljana Naega jigeum i pane Dodaeche mweol geoneunji Majimak bettinginimankeum Eongmangeuro teibeuleul eojilleo

I can't die I'm all-in All-in I can't die I'm all-in All-in I can't die I'm all-in

라일락

Narineun kkotgarue nuni ttakkeumhae (aya) Nunmuri goyeodo kkuk chameullae Nae maeum hankyeon bimilseureon oreugore neoeodugoseo Yeongwonhi doegameul sunganinikka Uri durui majimak peijireul jal butakae Eoneu jakbyeori iboda wanbyeokalkka Love me only till this spring O raillak kkochi jineun nal good bye Ireon gyeolmari eoullyeo Annyeong kkochip gateun annyeong Haiyan uri bomnarui climax A eolmana gippeun iriya Ooh ooh Love me only till this spring Bombaramcheoreom Ooh ooh Love me only till this spring Bombaramcheoreom

내 손을 잡아 (앵콜)

Sarangi ongeoya neowa na mariya

Nega joha jeongmal mot gyeondil mankeum

Geugeomyeon doengeoya deoneun saenggakhaji mallan mariya

Ne mam ganeun geudaero

Neukkimi ojanha tteolligo itjanha

Eonjekkaji nunchiman bol geoni

Ne mameul malhaebwa ttancheong piuji mallan mariya

Ne mam ganeun geudaero jigeum nae soneul jaba

jigeum nae soneul jaba. jigeum nae soneul jaba

[Hangul]

하루 끝

Monday, better day 처음처럼 설레이는 그런 날 Sunday, better day 종일 너만 생각하는 그런 날 욕심이 나, 우리 사이 요만큼만 더 가까이 딱 한 발짝, 그만큼 더 가까이 혼잣말이, 속삭임이 너도 궁금할 순 있잖아 네가 좋아서 그래, 나 차가운 척 표정 짓고 있지만 내 마음은 그게 아닌데 거짓말인데 바보 같은 네가 난 답답해 너무 좋아서 그래, 나 시무룩한 얼굴하고 있지만 또 기다리다, 고민만 하다 흘러가는 하루 끝에서 하는 말 내가 널 사랑해

금요일에 만나요

우.. 이번 주 금요일 우.. 금요일에 시간 어때요 주말까지 기다리긴 힘들어 시간아 달려라 시계를 더 보채고 싶지만 (Mind control) 일분 일초가 달콤해 이 남자 도대체 뭐야 사랑에 빠지지 않곤 못 배기겠어 온 종일 내 맘은 저기 시계바늘 위에 올라타 한 칸씩 그대에게 더 가까이 Na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na La la la la...

너의 의미

너의 그 한 마디 말도 그 웃음도 나에겐 커다란 의미 너의 그 작은 눈빛도 쓸쓸한 뒷모습도 나에겐 힘겨운 약속

너의 모든 것은 내게로 와 풀리지 않는 수수께끼가 되네

슬픔은 간이역의 코스모스로 피고 스쳐 불어온 넌 향긋한 바람 나 이제 뭉게구름 위에 성을 짓고 널 향해 창을 내리 바람 드는 창을

그 웃음도 나에겐 커다란 의미

너의 그 작은 눈빛도

쓸쓸한 뒷모습도 나에겐 힘겨운 약속

스물셋

I'm twenty three 난 수수께끼 (Question) 뭐게요 맞혀봐요 I'm twenty three 틀리지 말기 Because 난 몹시 예민해요 맞혀봐 한 떨기 스물셋 좀 아가씨 태가 나네 다 큰 척해도 적당히 믿어줘요 얄미운 스물셋 아직 한참 멀었다 얘 덜 자란 척해도 대충 속아줘요 난, 그래 확실히 지금이 좋아요 아냐, 아냐 사실은 때려 치고 싶어요 아 알겠어요 나는 사랑이 하고 싶어 아니 돈이나 많이 벌래 맞혀봐 어느 쪽이게? 얼굴만 보면 몰라 속마음과 다른 표정을 짓는 일 아주 간단하거든 어느 쪽이게? 사실은 나도 몰라 애초에 나는 단 한 줄의 거짓말도 쓴 적이 없거든 여우인 척, 하는 곰인 척, 하는 여우 아니면 아예 다른 거 어느 쪽이게? 뭐든 한 쪽을 골라 색안경 안에 비춰지는 거 뭐 이제 익숙하거든

밤편지

이 밤 그날의 반딧불을 당신의 창 가까이 보낼게요 음 사랑한다는 말이에요 나 우리의 첫 입맞춤을 떠올려 그럼 언제든 눈을 감고 음 가장 먼 곳으로 가요 난 파도가 머물던 모래 위에 적힌 글씨처럼 그대가 멀리 사라져 버릴 것 같아 늘 그리워 그리워 여기 내 마음속에 모든 말을 다 꺼내어 줄 순 없지만 사랑한다는 말이에요

팔레트

이상하게도 요즘엔 그냥 쉬운 게 좋아 하긴 그래도 여전히 코린 음악은 좋더라 Hot pink보다 진한 보라색을 더 좋아해 Mmm 또 뭐더라 단추 있는 Pyjamas, lipstick 좀 짓궂은 장난들 I like it I'm twenty five 날 좋아하는 거 알아 Ooh I got this I'm truly fine 이제 조금 알 것 같아 날

가을 아침

이른 아침 작은 새들 노랫소리 들려오면 언제나 그랬듯 아쉽게 잠을 깬다 창문 하나 햇살 가득 눈부시게 비쳐오고 서늘한 냉기에 재채기할까 말까 딸각딸각 아침 짓는 어머니의 분주함과 엉금엉금 냉수 찾는 그 아들의 게으름이 상큼하고 깨끗한 아침의 향기와 구수하게 밥 뜸드는 냄새가 어우러진 가을 아침 내겐 정말 커다란 기쁨이야 가을 아침 내겐 정말 커다란 행복이야 응석만 부렸던 내겐 파란 하늘 바라보며 커다란 숨을 쉬니 드높은 하늘처럼 내 마음 편해지네 텅 빈 하늘 언제 왔나 고추잠자리 하��가 잠 덜 깬 듯 엉성히 돌기만 비잉비잉

삐삐

편하게 하지 뭐 어 거기 너 내 말 알아 들어? 어? I don't believe it 에이 아직 모를 걸 내 말 틀려? 또 나만 나뻐? 어? I don't believe it 깜빡이 켜 교양이 없어 너 knock knock knock Enough 더 상대 안 해 block block block block block 잘 모르겠으면 이젠 좀 외워 babe Repeat repeat 참 쉽지 right Yellow C A R D 이 선 넘으면 침범이야 beep 매너는 여기까지 it's ma ma ma mine Please keep the la la la line Hello stu P I D 그 선 넘으면 정색이야 beep Stop it 거리 유지해 cause we don't know know know know Comma we don't owe owe owe owe (Anything)

Blueming

'뭐해?'라는 두 글자에 '네가 보고 싶어' 나의 속마음을 담아 우 이모티콘 하나하나 속에 달라지는 내 미묘한 심리를 알까 우 아니 바쁘지 않아 nothing no no 잠들어 있지 않아 insomnia nia nia 지금 다른 사람과 함께이지 않아 응, 나도 너를 생각 중 우리의 네모 칸은 bloom 엄지손가락으로 장미꽃을 피워 향기에 취할 것 같아 우 오직 둘만의 비밀의 정원 I feel bloom I feel bloom I feel bloom 너에게 한 송이를 더 보내

에잇

모든 게 맘대로 왔다가 인사도 없이 떠나 이대로는 무엇도 사랑하고 싶지 않아 다 해질 대로 해져버린 기억 속을 여행해 우리는 오렌지 태양 아래 그림자 없이 함께 춤을 춰 정해진 이별 따위는 없어 아름다웠던 그 기억에서 만나 Forever young 우우우 우우우우 우우우 우우우우 Forever we young 우우우 우우우우 이런 악몽이라면 영영 깨지 않을게

Coin

Born to be gambler 배운 적 없지 even no tutor 최악의 패를 가지고 싹 쓸어 한 수 배우고 싶음 더 예의 있게 굴어 승리를 손에 꽉 잡아 말아 쥐어 Worth more than jewels 저리 가서 놀아줘 It's no kids zone 매경기 살벌하게 난 목숨을 걸어 like a bullfight Go vamos vamos vamos vamos vamos Go ahead It's new rule New rule new rule new rule new rule Watch your back

I said go Baby 알잖아 내가 지금 이 판에 도대체 뭘 거는지 마지막 betting이니만큼 엉망으로 테이블을 어질러

I can't die I'm all-in All-in I can't die I'm all-in All-in I can't die I'm all-in

라일락

나리는 꽃가루에 눈이 따끔해 (아야) 눈물이 고여도 꾹 참을래 내 마음 한켠 비밀스런 오르골에 넣어두고서 영원히 되감을 순간이니까 우리 둘의 마지막 페이지를 잘 부탁해 어느 작별이 이보다 완벽할까 Love me only till this spring 오 라일락 꽃이 지는 날 good bye 이런 결말이 어울려 안녕 꽃잎 같은 안녕 하이얀 우리 봄날의 climax 아 얼마나 기쁜 일이야 Ooh ooh Love me only till this spring 봄바람처럼 Ooh ooh Love me only till this spring 봄바람처럼

내 손을 잡아 (앵콜)

사랑이 온거야 너와 나 말이야 네가 좋아 정말 못 견딜 만큼 그거면 된거야 더는 생각하지 말란 말이야 네 맘 가는 그대로

느낌이 오잖아 떨리고 있잖아 언제까지 눈치만 볼 거니 네 맘을 말해봐 딴청 피우지 말란 말이야 네 맘 가는 그대로 지금 내 손을 잡아

지금 내 손을 잡아 지금 내 손을 잡아

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happy birthday eren ♥ 

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[behind the scenes] AttackOnTitan Ep.69

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ERERIREN FIC RECS PT.2

Halcyon by snakemittens

[Explicit, childhood friends, ABO, slice of life, 200k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/11230212

- okay. so i could write a whole ass essay describing my love for this fic but i won’t do that. obviously this is my favorite fic. EVER. nothing can change my mind.

- everything i love (slice of life) about ABO is in this fic.

- the characters were wonderfully written and if you think 200k words is too long, for this fic it’s still not enough. 

- if i can tattoo a fic on my forehead THIS IS IT.

Metamorphosis by Dressed_In_Darkness

[Explicit. Bad Boy Eren, Dance Levi, HOT HOT HOT, 86k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5847046

- another one of my favorites. there’s so much gold in the levi/eren tag istg.

- something about long haired Eren just sfjkskjhs

- y’all should just read all of Dressed_in_Darkness’s fics

Art Of War by catsonfire

[Explicit, neighbors au, enemies to lovers, FLUFF, 52k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/951569

- ereri but slice of life? sign me the fuck up.

- i swear this is so good and funny sjhfjkhgfs

It's Funny Because Eren Can't Read BlakeBroflovski

[Explicit, Canon!Au, 109k ]

- this was the first canon au i’ve read i don’t regret it. this is so good. 

- also  has prequels and sequel so please watch out for that before reading this

- the writing here just pulls you idk how to explain it

https://archiveofourown.org/works/983204

My Home Is Where Your Heart Is by bfketh

[Explicit, Dad!Levi, Child!Mikasa, and Babysitter!Eren, 14k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2280681

- sometimes all you need is domestic fluff and smut.

- this is so good :((( but it was short :(((

Lend Me Your Ear by foreverautumn

[Explicit, phone sex operator!Levi, 20k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/972115

- PORN WITH PLOT

- sending hugs to Jean

- Eren you little shit

An Unlikely Alliance by Monsoon

[Explicit, arranged marriage, canon divergence, 117k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2175729

- i’ve only read a few arranged marriage aus and this one is on my top list

- it’s annoyingly cute because Eren being his usual self

Wanderlust by Bri_Bean

[Explicit, Paris!Riren, Fluff and Angst, 109k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/1927230

- this was nice to read, a bit emotional in some parts

- something about Paris and your favorite ship right?

PART 1 : https://smokesignalnoona.tumblr.com/post/643243579067744256/ereriren-fic-recs-pt1

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ERERIREN FIC RECS PT.1

Here’s a list of Ereri/Riren fics that I really love. I’ll do this in parts because 15k worth of fics obviously wouldn’t fit lol

Resistance by Dressed_In_Darkness

[Explicit, ABO, War, Angst]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6674608

- powerful Omega!Levi and his goddamn perfect Alpha!Eren? What more could you ask for really.

- this is on my Top 3 favorite ABO fics, i could read this over and over and over again and won’t get tired, I love it when authors write their ABO detailed especially with scenting, it’s just perfect

- and, believe me when I tell you, if it’s written by Dressed_In_Darkness prepare your tear ducts, all the fics written by them had my ass bawlin in the middle of the night

Red Heat by sciencefictioness

[Explicit, ABO, violence, gore, 156k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/3948190

- you know what, if you want absolutely incredible world building, read sciencefictioness’ fics. 

- red heat has been abandoned for years now, last update was 2018, but it didn’t end with life-shattering-screen-punching-blood-couging cliffhanger. it’s such a fcking good read and the characters were written so well

The Little Titan Cafe by pocketsizedtitan

[PG-13, Coffee Shop au, F-L-U-F-F, 65k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/1032582

- this, in my opinion is the best ereri coffee shop au. it was so well-written. heart warming just like the feeling of drinking coffee during a rainy day snuggled under you blanket

Playing Favorites by Ketita

[PG-13, Canonverse, Humor, Fluff, 6k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/858763

- this is the most kudos-ed fic on the Levi/Eren tag, and it surely lives up to the expectations! Because admit it, we all need tooth rooting fluff from our two boys

1994 by Vee

[Explicit, 90s au, hurt/comfort, slice of life, 124k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/875756

- hello 90s au, HELLO?

- not sure if this is the only 90s au in the tag but im sure as hell this tops it all, seriously it’s not just the romance that makes it beautiful but also how wonderful the characters were written individually, and have i told you the song choices here are *chef’s kiss*

The Intern by Lutte 

[Explicit, BDSM, drama, abusive relationships, all the emotions you could imagine, 399k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/979988

- this was my first read, such a rollercoaster ride. it was beautiful and frustrating, all the types of emotions you could get from a fic you’ll have it here

- this was so big back in the days too so if you haven’t read it, you’re missing out

Freedom of the Press by kylar

[Explicit, Celeb x Fan, College and Sports, 181k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/3261971

- i love this fic in a lot of ways. basically Eren is sick but since he is Eren he doesn’t let it get in his way and i love that because I hate characters slowly dying in fics as if we don’t get enough of that in canon already, also Levi is a football player and I love football so imagining him playing in the field is just fjhgskldgjsdk

Haute Couture Love by SailorHeichou

[Explicit, Enemies to Loves, office au, 163k]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2283537

- sassy boss Levi meets sassy assistant Eren lmao imagine the chaos and the SEXUAL TENSION?

- they both have heterochromia iridum

- i love Armin here just sayin’

PART 2 : https://smokesignalnoona.tumblr.com/post/643612737428242432/ereriren-fic-recs-pt2 

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Chanyeol’s struggle with aegyo 😔 // 180203 Nature Republic Fan Festival

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Why Victor and Yuri don’t need to be “100% canon”

As I watched the last episode of Yuri!!! On Ice I found myself somehow desperately wanting for Victor and Yuri to kiss again. It was almost like a rabid need (I actually recorded my reaction so there’s evidence). The show plays with this on purpose (particularly in the final episode), when it looks like they are going to kiss, but it ends up as a hug or something else.

If you want to put it plainly, Victor and Yuri — despite everything that happened — never get to that “100% canon” status. Some hearts will be broken. Some people will debate that it was just all queer baiting in the end.

But then I realized. We, as a culture in general, are obsessed with confirmation of relationships. Why does something need to be “100% canon?” We have grown into the bad habit to not believe a couple is really a couple unless they say “I love you” to each other (or have sex), as if those are the only words (or actions) that count when you love someone.

Media is over-saturated with “I love you’s,” and we have been conditioned to believe that this is the only way to confirm a romantic relationship.

But we don’t. We don’t need Victor and Yuri to say the words, “I love you.” We know they do. 

They say it every single episode.

We see it in how their hearts break.

In the stand-alone wordless frames that say everything without speaking a word.

Their relationship shows every single moment in a traditional romance, without actually saying it verbatim.

First kiss.

Sleeping together.

Natural PDAs.

Getting engaged.

Yuri!!! On Ice doesn’t need Victor and Yuri to say “I love you.” We know.

Anyone can say the words “I love you.” Say it so much that they become habitual and empty. We grow into the belief that just saying the words makes everything perfect when it sometimes doesn’t. 

More media should follow Yuri!!! On Ice’s example. To create a beautiful, meaningful, and heartfelt relationship without the need of the words “I love you.” Because in the end, love is expressed in the things we do, not the things we say.

Victor and Yuri love each other and no matter how you want to label it, it’s a fact no one can deny.

12/22/16

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On Yuuri Winning Gold and Why it’s the Only Conclusion that Makes Sense Narratively.

Okay, so I’ve seen a lot of posts kind of speculating how the series will end should Yuuri win or lose the gold at the GPF. I just want to make a post detailing the hard evidence we have both narratively and otherwise that indicates absolutely no other outcome than Yuuri winning gold. Yes, I’m very hopeful, but I’m also very analytical lol. I try to keep all of my speculation posts free of any personal bias. Keep that in mind.

Keep reading

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The Major Misunderstanding Between Yuri and Viktor

I’m just going to get this one out of the way now: Viktor and Yuri are NOT going to break up and no one can convince me otherwise!

Okay, with that out of the way… This show has been setting up a major misunderstanding since episode one. 

Yuri doesn’t think he can hold onto Viktor, and Viktor has no intention of ever leaving Yuri’s side.

Yuri and Viktor are a fantastically portrayed couple: They respect each other, and support each other, and sometimes it feels they don’t even need words to understand each other. Even when they fight they use good communication, and are considerate of the other’s feelings. But we already had one major misunderstanding between them revealed last episode: That Viktor fell in love with Yuri first, Yuri was the one who asked Viktor to come to Japan and be his coach in the first place, that Yuri didn’t remember any of it, and Viktor didn’t know Yuri didn’t remember any of it.

It’s already been established that despite how wonderful their relationship is, there is a significant lack of proper communication on some very important fronts: 

 When Yuri actually plans to retire.

 Whether or not Viktor actually wants to return to skating in the first place.

Yuri has already made his decision regarding the first point as of episode 9, and has not informed Viktor yet. 

And I’m convinced Viktor has known the answer to the second point since episode 9 as well, but has yet to actually voice it to anyone.

These conversations have been avoided up till now, but they have to happen eventually. They can’t be avoided forever. And I think this is what Yuri’s line sets up at the end of episode 11: The resolution of this huge misunderstanding that has been building since episode one. 

Viktor has no intention to leave Yuri’s side. No matter if Yuri retires or not.

With the development we’ve had in their relationship since episode 7, especially with the airport scene in episode 9 and the ring exchange in episode 10, it’s become obvious that Viktor has no intentions of leaving Yuri. Ever. Yuri is home to him now. In episode 4, he becomes nostalgic for the beach in the only city he’d ever called home, St Petersburg. But in episode 10 it’s Hasetsu’s beach that he’s reminded of.

Viktor no longer identifies home with Russia. Hatsetsu with Yuri is home for him, now. It’s only been 8 months, but Viktor has finally found a place that he belongs, where he is accepted as the man he is and not the man people expect him to be, a place that he feels free. And that place is with Yuri. In episode 9, he was miserable just being apart from Yuri for 48 hours. And it seems to solidify for him that he doesn’t want to part from Yuri again, that home is with this Japanese ball-of-anxiety on skates.

So no matter what Yuri is about to say to him at the end of episode 11, there is no way I see Viktor letting him walk away for good. Viktor, and Yuri too, are in way too deep. Those rings symbolize something very profound and meaningful for them as evidenced by the attention they receive from the animators, and the kissing of the rings before Yuri’s SP. They’re both emotionally invested in whatever they have together, and I doubt Viktor is going to let Yuri be a martyr - if that is what Yuri is planning. 

But Viktor still hasn’t told any of this to Yuri. We know this from his voice-overs, but none of this has been voiced aloud to any character on the show.

Yuri doesn’t think he can hold onto Viktor indefinitely.

Not once in this entire series has Viktor ever expressed any desire to leave Yuri or go back to skating. However, Yuri still feels like he’ll have to give Viktor up eventually even when he is out to prove his love for Viktor to the world and even though he has expressly stated he wants to hold onto Viktor. 

 Yuri decided in episode 9 that he was going to retire after this GPF and:

But his train of thought is cut off by a flying kick from Yurio. We don’t get the end of this thought. And… what? The implication is “and he’ll leave Yuri to go back to Russia and competition”. Yuri has decided that no matter the outcome of this GPF he’s retiring after it’s over, and that Viktor will go back to Russia even though we have no indication from Viktor that this is actually something he wants. Even though he asks Viktor to coach him until his retirement Yuri has yet to tell Viktor his true intentions. Yuri has spent the better part of this season fighting to demonstrate his love for Viktor to the world, and has expressly said that he wants to hold on to Viktor. But he doesn’t think he can. 

A repeated theme this series has been Yuri assuming that after the season is over, Viktor will go back to Russia and competing even though we have nothing from the man in question suggesting that is the case. 

We know what Yuri thinks of the situation, but we only get hints of what Viktor thinks. 

We never get to know what exactly Viktor was planning to say here. Only that he is pleasantly surprised when Yuri asks him to stay, and implies that he never wants to leave. So we can extrapolate from there what Viktor might have decided to retire as coach and stay by Yuri’s side as something more. But I don’t have much evidence for this, it’s pure conjecture.

Anyways, Yuri has convinced himself that Viktor wants to go back to skating, or at least that Viktor should go back to skating, once the GPF is over despite not ever having discussed this with Viktor himself.

Viktor actually doesn’t want to go back to competing.

Viktor Nikiforov is dead. He’s not coming back to competing. He’s discovered life, and love with Yuri in Japan, he has no reason to go back to competing.

Let’s discuss the part of episode 11 that I think demonstrates this: Viktor watching the competition from the stands.

First, there is Yurio’s performance which is introduced like this:

Russia’s “next generation”. He’s Viktor’s successor, and he’s doing a kickass job at it already. This scene: Yurio’s record breaking SP, Viktor watching from the stands,

Yakov seeing a young Viktor in Yurio

It’s set up as a “passing of the baton” moment, or at least that was the vibe I got from this scene. It shows that Viktor isn’t necessary anymore, he’s not missed as much. There are new, younger, talented skaters to take his place and carry the baton for Russia. Yurio’s got this. And I think it needs to be pointed out that this is reflected int he fact that the reporters aren’t flocking all over him this time around asking if he’ll be returning. People aren’t harassing him about coming back anymore. He’s able to slip away from the cameras to watch his successor skate without anyone noticing, even Yuri. 

This scene of Viktor watching Yurio has a melancholic vibe. It feels like we’re watching an era end in real time. It’s like Viktor watching “the death of Viktor Nikiforov” play out before him on the ice. But after Yurio’s program finishes, and Yuri finds him in the stands, this rest of Viktor watching the competitors skate doesn’t strike me as one where Viktor is anxious to get back out onto the ice and reclaim his crown. 

The announcers ask this question while we get to see the answer: How does Viktor Nikiforov feel about watching from the stands?

He’s smiling. He seems okay with it. He does’t seem anxious. He’s cheering on his old rivals, and looking like he’s enjoying being a spectator. I only took one screen shot for the sake of the length of this post, but this entire scene after watching Yurio’s performance, Viktor is smiling. They’re more muted than usual, like he’s watching something that makes him a little sad, but happy all the same. Like watching something you love grow, and evolve, and change from what you once knew, but for the better. The skating world doesn’t need him anymore, but he doesn’t look full of regret, or like he’s itching to get back out there into the spotlight. He looks content.

And this is probably why:

Viktor has found a new strength with Yuri in Japan. He has experienced a whole new world, full of new emotions, and life, and love, by becoming Yuri’s coach and cheering him on from the sidelines. He gets visibly excited watching Yuri, 

he can’t contain himself and even jumps along with Yuri,

 and gets upset along with Yuri when Yuri fails. 

and this is his reaction to the prospect of seeing Yuri land a quad-flip in competition:

He feels an emotional connection when Yuri skates. He is invested in this performance, something he’s probably only felt for his own programs. This is something he’s never experienced before becoming Yuri’s coach. 

This, for me, demonstrates that Viktor is content with staying on the sidelines and not competing. I don’t see this, as some have suggested, as evidence that Vitkor wants to be back out on the ice in Yuri’s place. I see this as Viktor getting so wrapped up in Yuri’s performance and excited he literally cannot contain himself. I do something similar when I watch sports, even if I don’t play the sport. I jump up and do the “force hand wave” trying to influence the direction of the ball. Viktor’s actions here, in my opinion, more closely resemble that. Like a dance mom doing the routine in front of the stage, not like a man who wants to get back into the game himself. He’s probably more excited watching Yuri than he ever was performing. Viktor described his career as a shackle around his neck. Competing, and skating, isn’t something he desires anymore. He’s been freed from his chains, from the high stress life of competing, and has found pure happiness in something new: coaching and being with Yuri.

This line from Lilia is pretty poignant, I think.

Yuri’s love is what sustains Viktor now, not his love of skating, or his fans, or surprising people. Yuri’s love has reinvigorated him. And he understands that. Especially after episode 9. He is shining brightly here coaching Yuri, as himself and not the idol. He is showing real, deep emotions and he looks so damn…happy.

Viktor Nikiforov the idol is dead, and that’s okay. Because Viktor the human being has found a new life to live, and a new love to sustain him, one where he’s not bound by the pressure to surprise the world each season, or be perfect. One with Yuri. And I can’t see him giving that up for anything.

The Miscommunication

Yuri spends most of episode 11 watching Viktor’s reactions and progressively growing more anxious by what he sees. I believe that this is because Yuri isn’t interpreting Viktor’s reactions correctly, as he is coming from a place where he assumes that he cannot hold onto Viktor forever. Instead of seeing Viktor as calm and content as well as solemn, he is seeing Viktor as only being contemplative, and regretful.

Like in episode 9, we don’t get the end to this thought. But Yuri looks upset. He’s probably interpreting Viktor’s reactions as evidence of Viktor wanting to go back skating and competing against the likes of Chris, and Yurio, when there is nothing there to suggest such a thing. Again, Viktor is smiling that soft smile. He doesn’t really look like he regrets his choices. Yuri is interpreting Viktor’s reactions incorrectly because Viktor hasn’t told Yuri he has no intention to leave. Viktor probably figures it’s so obvious he doesn’t need to. On multiple occasions he has implied he wants to stay with Yuri forever, and that he would marry Yuri. But Yuri still thinks he’s going to have to give Viktor up. 

And Viktor doesn’t know that Yuri is planning to retire after the final. He probably thinks they’re going to finish out the season together, at least. That there might be another year, or two of Yuri competing and Viktor being his coach. He might suspect Yuri’s retirement could be sooner than later, but Yuri hasn’t told him his plans yet. So he doesn’t feel the need to be more explicit in his desire to stay for good.

But Yuri is still that little ball of anxiety, even if he is more confident in his choices on the ice he obviously isn’t when it comes to being able to keep Viktor. No matter how big he talked about how he was going to show the world only he knew Viktor’s love, or how he wanted to hold onto Viktor for good, he still doesn’t think he can. Like in episode 7, where he admits that he still asks himself if Viktor secretly want to quit even though he knows those fears are irrational, and that Viktor doesn’t want to go anywhere. That’s the scourge of anxiety: Even fears you know have no basis in reality can eat away at you, and cause you to interpret things in the most negative light. So he has convinced himself that Viktor wants to go back to skating, even if part of him knows that to be untrue. And that’s only reinforced by the fact that Viktor has never come out and explicitly said otherwise.

This miscommunication was going to have to be resolved sooner or later, it’s been set up as early as episode 2, and it looks like the writers saved the resolution for the finale. And I see this conversation going one of two ways:

1) Viktor finally tells Yuri what he’s been alluding to in his voice-overs: that he doesn’t want to go back to skating and he’d much rather stay next to Yuri for good and they go back to Japan together regardless of Yuri’s retirement.

2) Yuri convinces Viktor to go back to skating for one more season, and either they compete against each other on the same playing field like Yuri always wanted, while remaining “rival husbands” or Yuri does retire and Viktor moves his home rink to Japan so Yuri can be his emotional support/source of inspiration.

Honestly, I think the first option is more convincing. But maybe that’s just me. Either way, we’ll be getting a happy ending. Because that’s the kind of show this is. This show isn’t a tragedy, it’s not a tear-jerker. It’s a story about love, and how embracing it makes you stronger. 

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6 😂😂😂

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when i look at you, everything they said was wrong seems so fucking right.

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You're the light, you're the night You're the color of my blood You're the cure, you're the pain You're the only thing I wanna touch Never knew that it could mean so much, so much

Fading in, fading out On the edge of paradise Every inch of your skin is a holy grail I've got to find Only you can set my heart on fire, on fire Yeah, I'll let you set the pace 'Cause I'm not thinking straight My head's spinning around I can't see clear no more

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To the love of my life. My strength, my weakness, my pain, my happiness. I love you, happy happy happy birthday. To all the great things you've done to my life thank you. No words can express how happy i am to have you in my life, my inspiration, my daily dose of Vitamin B ♥ No matter what happens in the future, remember that I will love you till the end of time~

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#3yearswithEXO

There were times that the only choice we had was to be strong.

There were times when we thought we couldn't hold on anymore.

There were times that I thought of giving up.

But..

For all those times, I chose to trust my love for you guys.

No matter what happens I will be here to support you.

You made me stronger, you made me happy, you inspired me.

You completed me.

Though I know, guys won’t be able to read this but I sincerely feel in my heart that you all know how much we love you. 

Let’s have more years together EXO !

SARANGHAJA! 

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when your otp starts to look like each other.

screams .. SOULMATES !!!

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CHANBAEK IN THEIR OWN WORLD ♥

//whispers.. ‘this ship is real’ //