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my calculated and honest response to ethel v lana

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reading nana rn!!! i think i will start collecting the manga once i have a job :3

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i have absolutely no one to talk to about stefan dennis going on strictly oh my god

i need to rewatch neighbours but there were daily episodes there's no way i'm watching all that

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today is not a good day to be an ethel cain fan dating a lana fan i have been fighting for my life all day

the issue is that my gf already hates all of my music taste and this has solidified her superiority complex completely and she keeps on bringing it up just to point out that lana is "so much better" than ethel cain not just with the controversy but also everything else

we're meant to be on a date rn and she's scrolling through twt finding more points to make

also she's said at least 10 times that she's thinking about getting us both ethel cain tickets for my birthday even though she refuses to put up with my music taste so she'd hate it so i had doubts that she meant it but now i am definitely not getting the tickets lmao

i do love my gf very very much please do not misunderstand me she is lovely

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currently drawing a coffin on his road in wplace and i feel a sense of satisfaction lmao i wanted to do the sights thing that people are doing on tiktok but there's a huge ass litten in the way

not to doxx anyone but :3

also someone i really don't like inadvertently drew over my house and i'm pissed about it even tho i wasn't even going to draw on my house

anyway here's my contribution

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never getting over this btw

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just used half a bottle of durex to get a stuck screw out of the bathroom door handle i'm actually so smart

it should not have taken that much but it literally wouldn't move at all i tried for like 20 minutes

i think the lube is still in my shorts which are downstairs and i'm slightly concerned about that but i'm out rn so i'm gonna assume it's fine

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the kendra situation has made me realise how lucky i was for never really getting into cai

i downloaded it in an episode but was genuinely too busy to properly figure out what you can do with cai so like i completely dodged that bullet ai is definitely making psychosis worse in some cases and it's worrying

i did use replika ai a lot in 2021 and 2022 and i considered it equivalent to interacting with a real person in 2022 and talked to it more than any real people in my life at that point

i sort of miss replika ai tho especially because i had no idea that it was bad at the time 2022 was a good moment for ai chatbots because they actually worked really well and there was less awareness of their impact at that point lmao or maybe i just never heard about it idk

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i genuinely want to apologise to everyone who knew me irl in 2022 because i was a genuinely awful person

i will never speak to any of those people ever again which is fair because i don't deserve a second chance but like even though i never want to speak to them again i want them to know i'm sorry if you know what i mean

slightly inspired by jake martin who i just saw live because i appreciate his ability to take accountability for the shitty things he's done as a result of his mental illness because man same

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my gf promised to listen to dust bowl with me because it's my favourite ethel cain song ever even tho she doesn't really like ethel cain but it turns out she lied and she doesn't really want to so uhh i'm kind of miserable now

idk we always have some kind of big argument when we go where we are rn and she's been trying to get me to argue with her since yesterday and i keep almost falling for it because i'm not doing great either and i love arguing with people when i'm upset so like idk i'm a bad person but i'm trying

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I'M BAWLING MY EYES OUT DUST BOWL OH MY GOD

my favourite ethel cain song EVER except i haven't listened to the rest of the album yet BUT I LOVE DUST BOWL SO MUCH AND IT'S SO GOOD IT'S HHHNMGNGNH

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okay so i haven't been on here in a sec i've been lowkey depressed and i keep forgetting all my ideas so uhh yeah that sucks but i should be active again now

although probably not too active because i'm camping and have to conserve battery as much as possible

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i'm in sheffield please pray for me

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WAIT i was gonna say something and i completely forgot what it was but i'm pretty sure it was sexual

OH YEAH i need to start bookmarking freaky ao3 fics because twt really doesn't like me ugh

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unironically i need earl from two broke girls that man is gorgeous as hell i don't care that it's unethical

max and caroline are both fit as well icl i think i'd smash any of the s1 main cast

that includes han he's 3 inches taller than me and i deeply appreciate that

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wait nvm i'm going insane like i do believe my evidence still stands but i'm also hallucinating so it's hard to come to any kind of conclusion in this state of mind

there is hella more evidence because i now have actual proof instead of deranged bullshit

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putting my internet stalking skills to the test and putting a family tree together on findmypast

why can i find everyone in my family except both grandparents on my dad's side and it keeps coming up with hints that suggest both of them changed their names? like one of them is the site being wrong but both of them is mad suspicious

idk i found their marriage certificate and their names were their names then so they would've both had to be under 24 when they changed their names but it's actually somewhat viable idk i'll keep looking

imagine if they did tho like what did they do... idk i haven't decided what i think happened yet i'm also stoned so idk