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Not so much with gender/sexuality bc I already know what I am but with who I am definitely. How masculine my parame is, their haircut, what they're uncomfortable/comfortable with, everything about them leaves me confused as to whether I'm just trying to do something to be more like them, and I dont know if I truly want to identify/present myself in certain ways or of that's just them, and I hate it.

does anyone else feel like MaDD has made them have trouble with their sexuality/gender identity? Also, please answer this because I really wanna know: do you guys have parames with different genders, or are they always the same one as you are?

I thought for a whole year, when I was 12, before I knew about MaDD, that I was a trans boy, because my main parame was a boy at that time. Then I had some female parames, and I thought I was genderfluid. It was the hardest, saddest, most confusing year of my life

Also, I had (have?) some trouble with my sexuality too. Something among the lines of "do I like dudes, or do I only like them because I picture my males paras as bi/gay? Would I ever date a guy, or do I want to be a boy dating another boy?"

I'm almost 17 now and this is still an ongoing struggle

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u know when u daydream abt something VERY self indulgent and u feel like this

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I am a:

⚪ male

⚪ female

🔘 maladaptive daydreamer

Who:

⚪ is content with their life at the moment

⚪ lives for social interaction

🔘 has two upcoming tests, a written assignment, a foreign speech to memorise, and upcoming exams to study for but is instead daydreaming about queer idiots

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paralyzed

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Y'all: For this particular scene in my paracosm I'm looking up a, b and c for exact prices and times because they all must be correct before I can daydream it

My brain: Yea we not interrupting your daydream for realism fuck that. Make it up.

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quick question: is it common between yall people to take the time off your day to just walk around a certain room with headphones on, constantly daydreaming? looking for a friend

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Some of u never lay in bed listening to a playlist you created as a soundtrack to ur maladaptive daydreaming scenario and honestly it shows.

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yeah sex is cool but have you ever daydreamed about your paras

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reminder to neurotypical people

intrusive thoughts aren’t just weird thoughts that pop into my head sometimes!! haha they’re intense, upsetting, vivid, sometimes images and memories that we r trying to suppress and they r impossible to get rid of. please don’t co-opt a term that people with ptsd/ocd/bpd/intrusive thoughts use to describe a rly horrific symptom we struggle with!!!! OH ALSO maladaptive daydreaming isn’t staring out ur window on a car trip. just don’t diagnose urself with mental illness symptoms please n thanks

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I’ve realised one of the hardest parts of madd for me is finding a reason to do stuff. Like I don’t want an education so why am I going to school? Who am I doing it for?

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where my maladaptive daydreamers AT

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Realized that madd makes me have high expectations so now real relationships are a disappointment

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“It is beautiful beneath the sea, but if you stay too long, you’ll drown”

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Game of Thrones

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me laughing at something funny one of my paras said while i’m daydreaming in bed at 3am

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